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Arrghhh

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

Being a woman is so hard, why must they teach us that being a mom is so great or that we must have children. This leads to abuse, and people killing their kids because they can't tell the truth to anyone. There is no support for people who can't stand their children anymore or who hate being moms. You are judged by society and other moms and not because you are wrong, but because everyone swears that a woman not wanting to be around irritating children isn't normal. Hello, having kids suck why do you think the job was given to women. Being a homemaker and primary caregiver for children is the most suck ass job on the face of the earth. I hate it and deep down inside even the so-called best moms hate it. Just say it already we already kno

I want someone else

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I can't stand my husband. I have been pushed away by World of Warcraft.. it has become his obsession. My son and I are ignored constantly... he won't even eat at the dinner table with us anymore. I long for attention and love, and it is something I haven't had in about 3 years. I know an affair is off limits but I feel that a divorce is just as damaging. I hurt so much that sometimes I feel like death must be better. I want to be in love again, I want to share my life with someone who enjoys being with me and someone I can have fun with, cry with, have passionate sex with. THIS IS NEVER going to happen if I stay with my husband. I'm done being put on hold and putting my life on hold. I need a fresh start!!

I hate being married and I wish I had run the opposite direction

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I hate being married. I like my husband (for the most part) as a person, but I regret marrying him. I have never been so depressed in my life. Before we were married I was going to college, I had a great job, I paid off my car, and then I got married and for 3 1/2 years I haven't accomplished one thing. I haven't gone back to school haven't had a job and now we have a two year old who has to be around the hostile enviornment. I never would have chosen this had I known this is what it was going to be. Our sex is non-agreeable (he's into hard core spanking with belts, paddles, wooden spoons, broken hangers)... I'm not into the painful shit! I feel if I get divorced then I have failed myself and my son. I don't know what to do. h

whats done is done... but not in my head

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

i cheated on my pregnant gf of 3 years with a minor. the wondering what if is eating me up. i pray but does it matter now?

confussed

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I was once hurt badly in a relationship now I am with an amazing guy and all I know is for myself to be miserable i dont know how to let myself be happy!!He thinks maybe he is doing something wrong truth is I make there be something wrong cuz I am scared of him having power of my emotions!!

Two faced

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I'm 19... I really need YOUR prayer... im addicted to a lot of things that are killing my relationship with Jesus... PLEASE Jesus help me, help me change my life. Help me when im being "dragged away and enticed" Lord be my strong tower, I trust in your word! Save me from what i have become, i feel like a monster.

Back 2 be gay!

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I am a 28 youth leader @ indonesia, i have been walking in progress to be out from gay tendency and all about pornografy since i received Jesus @ 18 yo, but know when i decided to learn about gay life n all about psycology @ my magister counseling class, i found my self fel in d same attraction n began to watch porn video n many gay sites and also masturbating. I found i was fell to fall in that attraction when i face any problem. I want fine a mentor for me to be a guy of accountability. Help me to find someone to be my mentor in this strugle.

masturbation

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

i watched porn and masturbated its is wnong i dont ever want to do it again

confession

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I confess that for the last 5 years I have struggled with lust, porn, and masturbation. This is my first step in confession before I go to those in my life that I have to confess to.

It hurt so good to feel the blood on my hands.

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

Last month started to slt my wrsts. I have done it twice. I feels good. Really good. I cry when do t. No not the physcal pain. The emotional pain. The blood would run down my cheeks and fingers when i wiped the tears. Yeah im young and 12. Yet for the rest of my hopfully short lfe will have the pink scars to prove of my desire for death. A longing. Pills don't work. My wrists did not either. No i'm too scared to hang myself. Plus no rope. But sadly the reasons of my death desire are small. I got raped and forced down to be touched by three friends. Friends yeah they turned out great. Espeacily when they took my to the bathroom and made me strip. I hate my home and school. Life just sucks. Nobody wants or needs me.

I will never heal

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

We fell in love on our very first date, and never spent a day apart after. I was never so happy in my life. We got pregnant 5 months into our fairytale relationship and were so happy at first.. we announced it to our families and celebrated. Reality set in soon after and we got scared and felt completely unprepared for our journey into parenthood. Just days later we decided I would take a pill that ended our little one's life. The heartache set in soon after and I forgot how to smile. He left me before the bleeding stopped. He said he would always love me, but he couldn't stay. No explanation.. why? It's been 2yrs and I still see him often, but the love in his eyes has faded.. he's never looked back. I will never heal.
Sophia 5/12

gay pictures

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

im a christian in the last few days ive been attracted to gay porn young boys , even though i know im not gay myself this thing as gripped me please pray for me god help me i dont know what to do

Pornography

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

i am very embarrassed for watching porn and masturbating,Lord i am a sinner please i beg you give me strength to not look at things that make me aroused...forgive me...i also swear and get angry alot

what to do with my life

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I don't know what to do with my life :(

Boastful Arrogance

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I knew God, and do to an extent, but I boast alot about my knowledge, and therefore, am useless to God. I am my own enemy!! I am led away from God by my boasting! What a terrible blindness !!!! I am supposed to be talking about "God" but I'm not even in the right SPIRIT... what a horrible blindness.... that is hypocrisy, isn't it?

Fallen

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

used 2 preach on the street for Jesus, thought I loved Him, fasted, and controlled my appetites for Him, wanted to do everything for Him, would wake up with Him, spend all day with Him, go to sleep with Him in my soul. until I fell into the sin of complacency in prayer and loving food when I was supposed to love Him. my relationship slowly fell apart from guilt and choosing not to believe His forgiveness, until one day after staying (disobediently) at a church I shouldn't have, and following the pastor's bad advice, I went to get a job (which me and God never discussed) and went on purpose against my faith... by this, I lost my mind in one day... 7 yrs ago... still haven't gotten over it, i've wasted the last 8 years of my life *complet

being online

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

i go online after work to check on the news and my email once a week i do the horrible thing of looking at porn and masturbating ...lord forgive me..

My dark passenger

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

i have done something that im ashamed of. I dont know how do i got to watch that. I have watched child porn and im so ashamed of that.I have also masturbated while watching it. I believe that it is the worst mistake i have ever made in my life. I want to leave that kind of habit right know because i want to live a healthy life with God on it. Im fighting against my demons so please pray for me.

voyeurism

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

im a christian but i have a problem, voyeurism watching girls by way of peeping is an obsession its so worryig ive watched so many girls by peeping and masterbating i need help please pray for my deliverence god bless you

masterbating

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

im a single man, im also a christian i want to love and serve jesus my biggest battle in fact all my life as been thinking of young girs and masterbating when the urge comes its very strong and i end up doing it, please jesus have mercy and help me i need so much prayer, thank you

Im Addicted to tattoos

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I am covered in tattoos and like masturbation, and listening to heavy metal music. please pray for me

i got ditched after giving every thing to him

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

I have been in love with a guy who used me in every sense and i let him use me... I have been treated like a door mat but could never let go and kept doing all things that he wanted me to do with him..now he is with some other girl...i almost ruined my life just due to him...i see him daily...and always wish to talk to him but my inner sense dont allow me to do so...sometimes he calls me and tells me how much he loves me and wants me back..but he is not ready to leave the girl with whom he is in relation presently...i dont know what to do,i am still attached to him...

my love...

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

i can't have kiss time....

i need help

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:30 -0500

i masturbate too much

please pray

shame and addiction

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:29 -0500

so I am not drinking but the addictive personality comes out. now it's because of harp practice and bugging the professors. anyways the teacher understood but now the rules have tightened and they apply to me. I feel ashamed. if I could get my own place and my own harp and a job to support myself, but a part of me doubts my employ ability and ability to keep a job. Investigative journalist sounds neat, but is it stable? something stable with the writing and harp.music on the side. go on to the Masters Degree? too bad I didn't pass the COMM 600 class. somethings I succeeded at; others I don't. try again. sorry for raging and not getting rid of bitterness and resentments. hurt myself. now stand up again.

hiding the drinking

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:29 -0500

I have had at least one drink a day for the last year. I have found myself hiding alcohol from my family. My family knows I will have a drink or two through out the week, what they don't know is I am having much more than that.
I really don't know why I drink. I enjoy the taste of some of it and it helps me relax from a stressful day of work. I really do not want to drink and rely on it for that feeling. I want to be healthly and live a long life with my family, live a closer life with God, all I have to do is just stop drinking. I have prayed that God would make me so sick the moment I took a drink, so I would never want to take another drink again. Please pray my body will reject alcohol FOREVER!

please read

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:29 -0500

i find myself ashamed after many times of masterbation and porn. i know it is wrong and i go for periods of time without either one but i do stray at times with both and feel absolutely horrible. i feel at times its an addiction with my body and the urges it has. i ask for forgiveness over and over and feel guilty and ashamed because i want to live the life God wants me to leave. i love my lord and have accepted Jesus as my savior but i ask whoever is reading this to pleas pray for me because im having difficulty with this problem. i want nothing to do with sin especially the two im dealing with.thank you and i pray for others who share my same problem.God bless you all

please forgive me

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:29 -0500

i've had sexual thoughts (acts) and i will confess as soon as i can.

trying to stay positive for Christmas

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:29 -0500

I have been evicted from my home this year, my mom also died. I want to stay positive but secretly I'm an emothional wreck. I don't even have enough money for Christmas presents this year and my kids and I stay with the dad whom we don't get along with too well. This year has been a total nightmare. I tried to stay with my brother but he doesn't like my kids so I had to get out of there.I don't want to even acknowledge that he's my brother anymore. I wish I had my own house for my kids and I to live in and enough money for us to live on. I feel so down this year even though I'm smiling in front of everyone. I miss my mom who passed away back in February. I miss her so much and I keep having nightmares :(. Too bad noone can help my fi

The love of my life.

Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:33:29 -0500

I'm head over heels in love with a man who is 48 years old and my teacher. Im only 18. It sucks I have never felt this way about anyone at all. All I think about is him, wondering how he is, where he is, what he is doing and if he's okay. Everytime I watch the TV and there is a kissing scene on I imagine its us. I dont know whether to tell him or not. What do I do? He is the love of my life all I want is to be with him. He seems to flirt with me alot. arrgghhh!