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1 I want someone else
I can't stand my husband. I have been pushed away by World of Warcraft.. it has become his obsession. My son and I are ignored constantly... he won't even eat at the dinner table with us anymore. I long for attention and love, and it is something I haven't had in about 3 years. I know an affair is...
2 I hate being married and I wish I had run the opposite direction
I hate being married. I like my husband (for the most part) as a person, but I regret marrying him. I have never been so depressed in my life. Before we were married I was going to college, I had a great job, I paid off my car, and then I got married and for 3 1/2 years I haven't accomplished one...
3 stuck in a rut
I fell in love with someone ugly, ghetto and with a lot of emotional baggage while I was having marital problems (still do, don't love my husband and wish he would divorce me) .. planned on running away and it didn't work out, because the other man wanted to get closer to me before I saw him in person....
4 My Nephew
I am a twenty-nine-year-old, recently divorced mother of two teenaged daughters aged nine and eleven. I also have an elder sister who has three teenaged sons, aged from eleven to fifteen. There has always been frequent contact between our families, and my sister's sons have always been regular visitors...
5 I don
I have a memory of my parents fighting and my Dad was very angry. I was crying. Then all of a sudden, Dad yells at Mom to come into this small room that we had. Mom refuses, i think. So Dad didn't give up he grabbed her whole hair and dragged her to the room, ONLY using her hair. Thinking about it, it...
6 Scared of friends
I'm affraid that if I make friends I'll leave my wife.
7 Social life
I feel like i cant connect with others and make friends normally like most people. I feel like im different than other people. My parents are divorced and my life has been pretty messed since. People at school often say im weird. I dont exactly have 'friends' at school. I dont talk much. People think...
8 my messed up life
my parents got divorced a few years ago. Me and my sister wanted it to happen. she was abusive, swore at us all the time, and has mental issues. Every since then life has been a mess with police, counseling, and new girlfriends. currently i live with my dad and his girlfriend. my sister went to live...
9 Sex molested, hurt by men, now sex business escort
I was molested as child and was very promiscuous growing up. I became a Christian and good girl and married. He divorced me and I felt so betrayed. Then more guys hurt and used me. After that, I felt I could not trust men again. I fell into escort biz, I am still active, that was 12 yrs ago. I liked...
10 Giving In
The man I have been in love with 30 yrs came back into my life after 27 yrs. He was married and he divorced his wife because of an affair he and I had. We are now seeing one another and I have given in to sexual sin. I have made this man an idol and have given in to his needs and excused it because...
11 He's been my world...
I was so close...I used to think my life was meaningless, 2 failed relationships, divorced parents, no money, abusive step brother... I thought it would be so much easier to pay the bills if I wasn't there... At the age of 12 I tried to hang myself...I didn't quite understand it then, but I really...
12 Unhappily married and talking to a long time friend I use to date
I have been in marriage for 13 years. Thoughtout the years I've suffered physical emotional abuse my husband walked out on us several times. He has been a heavy alchol user and marijuanna smoker over the past 13 years. He tried to turn his life around but fell off the wagon recently. im so tired of this...
13 Confession of a sex addict
I have been steeped in sexual sin for 15 years, that is more than half my life. I sit here now for the first time truly seeking change in my life because of a desire to know God better. Preciously it was to please someone else (i.e. parents, wife). It took my wife leaving for me to wake up. Although...
14 Masturbation and Pornography
I started masturbating in 1988 as a curious youth and I wish I has never started. It became and remains a problem for me as I am now married and a father. I selfishly masturbate to images of women other than my wife. I do it in privacy and need to stop closing the door. Please pray for me as I continue...
15 Cleansing My Soul
I have started to watch lots of pornography, especially the kind where women are degraded, spit on, raped, and have sex with several men at once. I am a Christian and I love God, but I was recently divorced and some how I feel guilty, because I I let God down. I was supposed to love my husband, yes,...
16 Love Letters
I am going through a divorce, separated for a year. I moved from California to Florida on April '06. In the summer '06 my wife asked me to write a love letter to her. I wrote one, but i must admit I labored at it... I tried to summon all the reasons why i should love her in our nine years together. When...
17 What to do?
I am a single. It's over a month now since I slept with a divorced woman who has 2 children. She became pregnant. Now she wants to abort the baby. Everything got so complicated that I dont know where to start. I don't know how my friends (including my family and church) will react to this. Please advice...
18 Fraud
I feel like a fraud. Everyone thinks I am a great, strong, faithful military wife and devout Christian. They don't know that I fell in love with someone else. Someone married, with children. Someone of great influence, who is also a Christian. Someone much older. He fell in love back. Nothing physical...
19 Doubting my love
I am starting to doubt that I love my husband as much as i used to. Why? He continually accuses me of wanting other men. Maybe i should look. He is accusing me of it any way. If he doesn't straiten up, I'm going to leave him.
20 Nacho
I am now a 50 year old woman, at age 28 I was going to a community college taking my general ed classes and I was taking a piano class on Friday's. There was a student in my class, not a tall man nor a extremely handsome man but there was something about this guy, his energy he was a pleasant and funny...
21 ...About Marriage
I don't believe in divorce unless my husband abandons me, or commits fornication. My husband has been the most degrading, manipulative, insensitive, rude, slanderous, and egotistical person sense day ONE after the honeymoon. He has his entire family thinking I am the that needs the help and that I am...
22 confession
I am a believng christian from childhood on. My parents were pentecostals but I remain in the Evangelical Lutheran Church. I live in a happy marriage since 25 years, however we have no children. By the grace of God we have taken care of our godson whose parents are divorced and given him love and care....
23 Adulterer to Forgiven
Well, I am here again. I remained unfaithful to my first husband. I divorced him in hopes that I would be together with my lover, which didn't happen. However, God is merciful. He took me out of the situation. He took me out of the situation and away from it. I praise him for it. I am married again-to...
24 i don't see it that way
my brother passed four years ago. my father just two. my mother was filing for a divorce after she left him for his friend, and that was too much. three months ago i moved to cali to live with my uncle, who's only true friend was my father. he always says i remind him of my dad. i think it's funny. i've...
25 racism
My mom and I are religious, faithful... but my sister... I think she is sleeping with her boyfriend. I found condoms in her room. I am so disgusted. She hasn't finalized her divorce yet.
26 Neighbors Daughters
I am a 42 year old divorced man living alone. My next door neighbor is a hard working single mom with 3 teenage girls. They are 14, 16, and 17. All 3 girls are very beautiful with outgoing personalities. The mother asked me if the girls could earn some extra money by doing house cleaning for me. I agreed...
27 I married the wrong man
I am in love with someone other than my husband. I cringe during sex with my husband unless I close my eyes and think of this other man. I am an adulterer, my mind strays, therefore I am. I wonder if this is it for me, is this all I get? A life without true love because I got pregnant and felt obligated...
28 Sorry Excuse of A Husband
My wife left me and is now divorcing me because I struck her and never showed her the love she deserved. Not only that I refused to get help. And the second I did is the second she left me, I don't blame her, but lately I doubt God is real, I doubt his control and in general I just blame him. I have...
29 I want my husband back.
We have been separated for four years, married for twelve. I love him so much, and we have three children. We are trying to work it out, since he just began telling me the truth after lying to me for years about everything. He wants a divorce, and I am praying he will change his mind. He says he...
30 Marriage
I hate being married. My husband is boring and inflexible. He is uninteresting and I have no desire for him. He wants to have kids and so do I. The problem is, I don't want to have kids with HIM. I want a divorce. I hate when he comes home.
31 I started wetting the bed
My parents got divorced when I was 15 years old.Right after that I began wetting the bed.This lasted until I was 18.The doctor said there was nothing physically wrong, so it must have been psycolocigal.At the time I was angry with God because it felt like He was picking on me.I missed out on so much...
32 contemplating divorce
I'm not happy with a lot of things in my life, but especially my marriage. I went into this 2 yrs ago with an ideal version of her in my mind, and to accept who she really is means I can't stay here or I'll go insane with misery. . its not even just her body which resembles that of a75 yr old(I'm not...
33 Failure of a Husband
I met my current wife 10 years ago, while being married at the time (good start huh?) and fell in love. After my divorce, we married before building our freindship and relationaship to where it needed, since then I have done nothing but lie, decieve, and cover up any mistake I might have made in order...
34 Bad marriage
I have been married now for almost 16 years to a woman who refuses to grow up. I am sick and tired of having to live a person who will not even try to please me or think of anyone but herself. No sex anymore, she doesn't keep house and she is always running around with her friend instead of taking care...
35 sin
I have had an affair with a beautiful woman who I have falalen in love with. I have been seperated from my wife for 4 months also. Today I have to make the decision to return home or stay gone and start divorce proceddings. Right now I feel that the only way I would return is not to lose my chidren...
36 I
Some years ago I was a a very romantic girl believeing in love. I thought I fount a very good man. I married him 6 years ago and I gave birth to 2 wonderful children. He comes home only late at night just to eat and go to sleep and I'm completely alone. He doesn't care for me at all no matter how sad...
37 are emotional affairs bad?
I have been in love with another man for years. I talk to him on the phone all night usually when my husband is out of town or at work. i tuly love this man with all my heart, I have never loved anyone the way I love him. I am married and I do love my husband very much but the friendship is not their...
38 Complicated or Not ?
My wife and I have been very happily married for almost 11 years now. Here's the problem; we have a female friend who has been through several two divorces in the time we've been married. To be short, we want to offer her the emotional benefits we have in being married to each other, and possibly the...
39 Stuck
I am not in love with my husband. I stay with him because I cannot afford (financially) to support myself and my son without him. My husband doens't make enough money to support us and himself if we divorced. We currently live paycheck to paycheck and have a lot of debt. I want to be happy, but I don't...
40 i think i may have made a mistake
..i was married to a selfish man who never grew up.. for years i begged him to show me something.. but nothing... he was my best friend, but i never felt loved or appreciated.. he is the best father.. over the years my heart hardened.. then i met someone.. who seemed so mature and responsible.. and most...
41 Confused By Affair
I'm a 33 yr old woman & I'm on my second marriage. The first marriage was "forced" by my parents due to an unplanned teenage pregnancy. Married at 17, I decided 2 years later that I was unhappy. I took my 2 year old son and became a single mom at the age of 19. By the age of 21, I met a very successful...
42 Don't want to stop
I married my husband for all the wrong reasons, I am not happy and I want out. I can't say it out loud because we have worked hard to build a life together. So now what?
43 disobedience of the Bible
i married my elementary school sweetheart. i divorced him after almost losing my life and plenty of kicks in the head. he called me after thirteen years and said he has loved me since we were ten years old and wants to have babies with me. i almost went back to him, to my home town and family. i couldn't....
44 Pornography
I have a lot of anger towards my husband's addiction to porn. We never have relations and I know he masturbates, sneaks off to adult stores and uses inhalants while he masturbates. I honestly wouldn't care if he could/would have sex with me but he prefers his porn, so my confession is that I've been...
45 Church splits...
I have been through several different churches, each of which went through a split. I felt like a child racked by a divorce. I feel that I perpetuate this pattern of breaking off relationships in my own life. And the abandonment issues I carry from the last split have given me an excuse not to form...
46 I feel so hopeless
I married a guy at 18 my first and only for 12 years. he cheated, we divorced and I have been with 16 men since him, i go out with them like them and think that by sleeping with them they will like me they never call or if they do they just want me to come hook up ... I am scared of being used up and...
47 Divorce should be an option
If two people are married and truely unhappy together, when is divorce ok? There are children involved and I think they would be happier if their parents were happier, and I think their parents would be happier pursuing different relationships. It's not that they aren't great Christians, just that...
48 Losing everything
My husband and I got into swinging with other couples. He arbitrarily decided that this was my fault and has now left me over it. It was sexual depravity, but now that he is gone, he is trying to take our 4 year old from me, because he says if I can do that then I am an unfit parent.
49 sexual sin
I'm divorced, w/an illegitimated child. I love God but have a lot...A LOT of trouble trusting people. I keep everyone @ arms length and have not truly had a romantic relationship in 6yrs. I've had a sexual relationship, a "friend" who I know I want nothing more from. I try to abstain, when I think...
50 Be a Sub for your Dad?
Since my parents seperated all the pressure is on me and i hate tht. its a realy heavy load on my shoulders, i wish someone could just take it way from me. but noone does.
51 New relationship?
My marriage is over, my wife and I have not had sex in almost a year, we are filling for divorce. I met someone new last night, we hit it off very, very well but i wonder if it will end up just a one night stand.
52 my dad
my parents are divorced and im with my mom but a few years ago my dad died i was sad and i cryed but after a few months i wasnt sad i feel weird and not normal for not being sad i dont know whats wrong with me my dad loved me so did i not love him?what is wrong with me i dont feel anything now except...
53 My Teen Daughter Hates Me
My teenager gets right in my face and says she hates me, I'm ugly, and I'm the worst father, among other things. She also says she hates God, if God even exists. She's 15, been raised as a Christian and was baptised when she was 11. A few months ago, she told me she wanted me to divorce her mom. At the...
54 What nobody would ever guess about me.
When I was 12 or 13 years old, my parents got divorced. My dad was always kind-of mean, in that nothing I ever did was good enough, so I started "punishing" myself by putting myself in physically uncomfortable circumstances. This eventually turned sexual when one night I was making myself do sit-ups...
55 BIG PROBLEMS IN MARRIAGE
I watch pornographic site an I feel so guilty an i also masturbating myself . The pain is big because I am married and i lie to my wife when she ask me if I do something bed like... adultery in my heart... In the past, in the time when we are just friends I was with another girl ...after 2 or...
56 i really don't like my husband.
my husband is young, fit and attractive. i can't stand to be around him. he's the laziest person i've ever seen. he doesn't show that he loves his family, even in non-materialistic ways... tho we are broke as well. we argue constantly, but he won't even let me speak most of the time... he just...
57 Marriage for life?
I am a christian and have been married to my husband now for 11 years. He is a Christian as well. I wonder if we should have gotten married. We were married as unbelievers and have since became Christians together. He loves me, but shows it in a funny way. I just see other married couples and think...
58 Sad Dad
I do not want to be married to my wife anymore. We have grown so distant that I have started having affars with several woman. I am at that point where I feel the same when my ex had a affair and decided to file for divorce.
59 Secret Shame
My husband and I were seperated for a year and a half. Because he cheated on me and we were in limbo working through all the emotions. We have 3 children together and didn't want to rush into any decisions. I felt like we were on our way to divorce. It was almost Christmas. I was feeling empty and...
60 Love addiction
I am struggling with efforts to recover from a very close relationship, which was my first one after a 23-year marriage ended in divorce (my wife left). I continue to obsess about my ex-girlfriend and am not succeeding in surrendering control of my life to God, who I know has a much better plan that...
61 Going to Loose it all!!!!
I am a married man with 2 children, and one on the way! I am married to a great woman of GOD a true Worshiper! We have the perfect marrage (so people think). I am divorced my ex-wife is a very good person and also loves the lord. I have a very seriouse problem with sexual sin everything from pron to...
62 Confusion to the third degree
I'm winging this confession. So, please forgive if it is of no value to you are anyone whom may read it. I haven't really read any of the other confessions. I just feel the need to get things off my chest. I don't know where I'm going with my life. I want to glorify the Lord and all. I write inspirational...
63 Afraid of growing old alone
I'm afraid I'll never find anyone to share my life with and I'll grow old ...alone. I'm a 36 year old male, was married, and divorced within 6 months because she found she was Bi-sexual and left me (and still claims to be). I feel guilty, as I know that when I question if this fate of being alone is...
64 my worst mistakes
God, I hope you can forgive me. I cheated on my wife, and now we are divorced. The person I cheated with ended up pregnant, so we got an abortion. Then a few months later she was pregnant again, so we got another abortion. I can't believe I did this. I was raised in the Catholic church and always...
65 Lost trust from rape
I was brutally gang raped in high school. I'm almost 40 now and have gone thru 2 divorces due to my inability to trust. I have been divorced now the 2nd time for 13 years. I've asked God to send me a man that I can completely trust. I don't even date anymore, just wait for that 1 person, not sure how...
66 bulimia
i've been bulimic since i was 15. i'm 33 now. i go months without doing it, but then i get stressed out and start. it makes me tired. i stopped for 2 years and then things were going bad in my marriage and i got divorced. it's been 3 years since the divorce and i do it almost every day. usually at night....
67 Cheated on ex-husband
My ex-husband was very mentally unstable. We didn't know that he had bi-polar disorder, multiple personality disorder and paranoid schitzophrenia. But he did. He was terrible to live with and miserable to be around. I felt that he didn't love me or our child. He tried to commit suicide. Every day...
68 Got what I deserved?
I lost my virginity to my husband, before we got married. He cheated on me, before we got married, and I knew about it. He cheated on me while we were married and I ignored it, lied to myself, and pretended it wasn't happening. I started working outside of the home, became good friends with a co-worker...
69 I can
I'm a shameful person, and I've sinned in countless ways for which I pay the price by feeling the deep sadness within myself and seeing it in my loved ones around me. I cheat, lie, steal, and I feel so ugly. I hate the sound of my name-it smells putrid when I hear it. All of this comes down to how...
70 Affair question
I had an affair 7 years ago with a lady at my church. Everything blew up in our face. The affair got exposed in front of the whole church by my pastor. The crazy thing was this lady was in our wedding on my wifes side. Well her husband divorced her but my wife and I stayed together. The lady got married...
71 My life
I am an 18 year old guy that has been though some tough things in my life but i havent gone through the jist of it yet. In my junior year of high school one day i just decided to quit and say i dont want to go to school anymore and i didnt. There were reasons behind it tho all my life i had always just...
72 I can't get him out of my mind
I have been married for almost 26 years. My husband had an affair about 10 years ago. It devastated me. We worked through that. Now, my secret...I work with a man that just went through a messy divorce. His wife was cheating on him. He confided in me because we are good friends. I told him I knew...
73 Unforgiven
I am in love with my ex husband who says he's forgiven me for leaving him but that we can never be together again. I wait and wait and have been waiting now for seven years for him to change his mind and take me back. I feel I don't deserve anyone else, anyone better, or anyone at all. Not only b/c...
74 double life
I have been leading a double life for a little over a year now. My friends and coworkers do not know that I have been in love with a married man for nearly 16 months. He is going through a nasty divorce so things are secret so that our "relationship" does not become a focal point. Please know that...
75 Marriage is evil
I can stand being married!! I'd rather die than be married one more day. Actually I just want to leave my husband and live alone for the rest of my life!!!! I have no desire for a significant other to order me around and tell me how to feel and how not to feel. Being that annoying purposely and willingly...
76 no more ties
1 month before getting married I found out I was pregnant. I already had children and so did he.I was entering my last year of a Master's program. I had an abortion. I never told him. Then the following year I found out I was pregnant again. I had an abortion. He still doesn't know. And we have since...
77 Porn and lust helped me ruin my marriage and life.
I was a happily married guy who had a great family. It is because of my addiction to porn and lust that I lost it all. I would look at porn on the internet as well as talk to other women. After my divorce I hit rock bottom and started looking to christ for help. I have never admited to my problem before....
78 my wife just told me she wanted...
my wife just told me she wanted a divorce i messed up a few times in our relationship but i would rather be dead than to not have her in my life
79 I hate being married!! Its a miserable...
I hate being married!! Its a miserable extistence. Shortly after getting married, I started not believing in life-long love. I have recently read some articles on love being purely chemical and I believe it! I would probably get divorced except that he is paying for my college education. I know that...
80 At 23 I divorced from my husband...
At 23 I divorced from my husband of 3 and half years. I thought after losing my dad not even 6 months before, that nothing could get worse. I was wrong and confronted by my now ex husbands addictions to young, single women from the internet. I received phone calls, almost on a monthly bases, informing...
81 I've been hurt alot by people and...
I've been hurt alot by people and situations in my life that I know I can't change. I was raped at 14 and thought my life was over, that was until I found out I was pregnant by the guy who raped me and then had a miscarriage when he found out about it and beat me so badly. At 20 I got married to a man...
82 I have been married for a little...
I have been married for a little over a year to a wonderful man who loves me more than life itself. However I married him even though we didnt have sexual chemistry. I don't know why I did it. I am contintly fantisizing about past BF's and 1 in particular that I was madly in love with but broke up with...
83 My husband and I have not had sex...
My husband and I have not had sex on a regular basis for ten years. I have tried everything to get him interested in me again. I finally have given up. I have filed for divorce and have started having an affair with an old acquaintence. I feel guilty about it. But I have no interest in staying married. My...
84 It's my birthday and he's mad at...
It's my birthday and he's mad at me again. He's always mad at me. I do nothing right. I feel so beaten down and defeated. Every Christmas, Easter, birthday, anniversary, any holiday is ruined because he is mad about something I've done, said, hadn't done or didn't say. I'm sick of it and I am so...
85 forgive me god for wanting to kill...
forgive me god for wanting to kill myself pray for me and my husband i cannot be divorce I cannot live without him please god bring him home and heal my marriage
86 I have grown up in church all my...
I have grown up in church all my life.After my parents divorced i moved with my grandparents who are the pastors of my church.i became involved W/my church praise and worship team and even began preaching.two summers ago i moved w/my mom,she's always wrking and i still feel the rejection like when my...
87 I am divorced. I met my ex-wife...
I am divorced. I met my ex-wife while she was separated from her first husband. We starting seeing each other while they were separated. She has a daughter from her first marraige. I felt very guilty for dating a woman who was married with a child. They eventually got divorced and we eventually got...
88 I have just signed papers for a...
I have just signed papers for a divorce (Dec.), and now realize that I could have tried harder to make it work. My wife has moved on, and I cannot, I still love her.
89 My husband and I are separated...
My husband and I are separated and would actually be divorced if he weren't currently in Iraq....I ended up sleeping with another man (thinking I needed companionship) and now I am pregnant with his baby. I realize what I did was wrong....I also know God would not not give me more than I could handle....
90 My parents have been divorced now...
My parents have been divorced now for over 11 years. My mom since then, has always been dating for as long as I can remember. She finally settled down with someone that she had met on the internet. Its been 2yrs now and he is living with us. I am now 15, and everytime me and my mother get into it, he...
91 Punishing self for 4 marriages,...
Punishing self for 4 marriages, 1st husband was unfaithful, 2nd one was psychologically unbalanced, had to put in psychiatric, 3rd one died after 20 yrs from 2 strokes, 4th one married for 3 1/2 yrs, a spender of my Dad's inheritance, grossly obese, about 380#,a 1 1/2 pk a day smoker,died 16 mo after...
92 It's not really my humiliation,...
It's not really my humiliation, but instead what my father did has humiliated me in the end. My parents divorced when I was 2, due to my father having multiple sex partners while him and my mom were married. I have a younger sis, due to that fact that i've never met. She's is now 16, I'm 17. He was...
93 my husband of 18 years cheated...
my husband of 18 years cheated on me. we were together 20 yrs. I tried to forgive him, but he wouldnt end it with her.I cant get over it. Im humilated, hurt, mad, sad and scared.Im trying so hard to be nice, & forgiving but I just cant. If I was a voilent person I would punch him in the face. Now...
94 I am not in love with my husband...
I am not in love with my husband and have not been in a very long time. We have a 2 yr old and I'm the primary care giver....I want to divorce my husband but I'm afraid to tell him....out of fear of physical and emotional abuse....I have lived like this for so long but now I'm determined to make some...
95 I cheated on my husband 3 times...
I cheated on my husband 3 times ..But I blame my husband because he never paid any attention to me...I cheated with an ex- boyfriend then with a friend I met from my ex- bestfriend then with one of my husbands friends.. But eventually he found out I had sex with his friend through people....I told him...
96 My husband has accused me of having...
My husband has accused me of having an affair. I have not and the fact that he thinks I would do something like that repulses me. It makes me think that he doesn't even know me at all. We are now getting divorced for other reasons, and it kills me to think he thinks I am that type of person. The person...
97 I left my husband and I am in the...
I left my husband and I am in the middle of a divorce. We are just looking for different things. I just want this to be over with so I can get on with my life. I stay up at night agonizing over this, and dream about it every night. I know I made the right decision, but it is still hard, I was the one...
98 I am now a 19 year old male. Having...
I am now a 19 year old male. Having finished 6th form, I've taken a years work placement away from home. This has given me time to reflect on my rather troubled past. I have started getting flash back of my child hold when my brother kept on trying to hug me, and worse, kiss me. I hated it but my brother...
99 I am a former worship leader who...
I am a former worship leader who has been hurt and abused by a couple lead pastors and betrayed by a few close friends. I have been married for 13 years and have 3 wonderful kids, however shortly after we were married, my wife began to ignore me and neglect our relationship. Years went by and everything...
100 I need to confess that I have scammed...
I need to confess that I have scammed and lied to many women. I have been married more times then I would like to say, all ending in a bitter divorce due to my lies and deceit. I turn every story around and make my partner look like the liar, I tell the family and friends that it's not me, its her. I...
101 When i was little, i went to church...
When i was little, i went to church every Sunday in a Catholic Church. I attended sunday school and even had my first communion. But then my parents got divorced and I moved to a new town. Somewhere along that journey, I lost God. Now my dad makes me go to LifeChurch with him, but I just dont feel the...
102 I have never been abused. I have...
I have never been abused. I have never been taken advantage of. I have never lost a child or done drugs. I dont have kids and im not in love. But i feel as though everything i do in my life is wrong. Every decision i make, or person I trust is wrong. I fell head over heels in love with a guy and our...
103 I recently left my husband and...
I recently left my husband and his kids w/my child from a previous marriage. All we did was fight. He would say something about my child and I would ignore it. Since we have moved I have seen all of it and more that my child is doing. I broke my husbands heart. He told me if I moved out that he...
104 I am divorced now of a 20 year...
I am divorced now of a 20 year marriage. My husband rejected me and was unable to "show up" emotionally. He was addicted to pornography and lied about finances. I was faithful until the end. I almost had an affair one year before we separated. I resisted but almost had a nervous breakdown. I confessed...
105 I had an affair on my husband between...
I had an affair on my husband between March and May of this year. It started as a one time one night drunkin deal well neither him nor I could do this. So we kept it up. My husband was very suspicious of us but never had any proof and he will never have any. The worst case scinerio happened and I fell...
106 I am single and have been involved...
I am single and have been involved with a married man for about 2 years. When I met him, he said he was going through a divorce, thats how I justified everything. Now, two years later, he is still married and it does not seem like he is trying to divorce. He is my best friend, because he was my only...
107 When I was married, I met someone...
When I was married, I met someone online who lived 30 minutes from me. It started out very innocent, talking only online and via phone. My husband read the e-mails and filed for divorce. He was convinced it was more than that. I met this married man many times and we e-mailed or texted each other...
108 10 years ago, while I was married,...
10 years ago, while I was married, I began an online friendship with a married man, who was also married. He and I agreed to meet since we were only one town away. My husband found the e-mails and misinterpreted the content and he was led to think I was having and affair and violating our vows. He...
109 I'm married to a man I don't love....
I'm married to a man I don't love. I've made a commitment to God and therefore hate the idea of divorce. On the other hand, I'm not sure I can continue to live with him. He is a workaholic in order to 'be a good provider'. But when he's home (which is rarely these days) he is angry. He yells at the kids...
110 My secret is not your normal secret....
My secret is not your normal secret. It's a secret that I have kept for over 10 years. I've put it in such a deep vault with chains around, so my daughter and I could have a normal life. Ten years ago, my life changed dramatically forever. I wanted to be delivered home by the fire, but instead God wanted...
111 I pray inconsistently and I do...
I pray inconsistently and I do not go to church allthough I liked church as a child. My parents never went to church and my foster father later became angry an God (and still is). I remember my life from about the age of 2. My mother was addicted to drugs, alchol, and violent relationships and my father...
112 the first time i was molested was...
the first time i was molested was when i was about 8 when i was at my causins house. she was 7. it was 4th of july and we were watching fireworks outside and her stepfather made her go in the house to get a flashlight when she left he put me on his car and kept kissing me i told him to stop and he did..i...
113 I had an affair a few months ago...
I had an affair a few months ago when my spouse and I were going through some problems and were planning on divorce. I ended the affair and we and I are still friends. My spouse accused me of having and affair and I convinced I wasn't. My spouse and I are back together and trying to work things out...
114 there are so many categories this...
there are so many categories this could fit in. addiction, double life, pornography, adultery, lust. which one is worse. i had sex with someone i hardly know. not love or start an affair . no emotional connection either . just sex because we both wanted to and we both could . im married but getting...
115 I was friends with a group of people...
I was friends with a group of people that I met at a bar. We would all hang out a few nights a week. After about a year of hanging out with them I went to a after party like so many others. Everyone else went to bed and I ended up sleeping with a friend who was also married at the time. They divorced...
116 I am scared. I was abused as a...
I am scared. I was abused as a young child by my birth father and later adpoted bu by step-father. I love both my father (that adopted me) and my mother very much but I am lost. I got pregnant at 16 while i was still in high school. I have my daughter now. Back in 2004 I got married to my husband and...
117 i feel like my husband and i are...
i feel like my husband and i are strangers. i dont know how long we can keep being like this.we both love each other i know but is that enough? he doesn't see me we fight all the time and we never have sex. we are Christians and we know God wants us together.we' ve been together 10 years and have been...
118 when I divorced a number of years...
when I divorced a number of years ago I was left with 2 children, no support and no car. My mother offered to buy me a used vechile in good condition if...I would make a fantasy come true for her boss. I did. As I was driving my 'new' car home I felt as degraded as a human being could...
119 My life has turned out totally...
My life has turned out totally not what I had hoped or planned for. I grew up in a little boon dock town, got married young, had 2 kids. Got divorced before I was 25. Immediately got involved in another relationship that lasted almost a year, then ended up in another one. I have been in this relationship...
120 My parents divorced when I was...
My parents divorced when I was about 10. My dad moved far away and remarried. My mom remarried a few years later too. I had a crush on my new step-brother. It seemed wrong even at the time, but I didn't stop it. He said he loved me and it didn't matter because we were'nt really related. We had...
121 I am in a troubled marriage. When...
I am in a troubled marriage. When my husband was deployed to Iraq, I honestly thought that my life would be better and easier if he were killed in action. I love my husband, but we have a lot of problems, and I am not in love with him. I do not feel passion for him. We fight a lot. We have children...
122 I'm in LOVE with a woman who entered...
I'm in LOVE with a woman who entered my life six years ago. I'm on my second marrriage and want so so much to be in LOVE with the person who I call my wife. My first marriage was to my high school sweet heart and I have a wonderful child from that marriage. My first wife left me for another man and...
123 When I was a child my mother &...
When I was a child my mother & father were divorced. I was ten. She remarried a year later, my father got a girlfriend, but my mother was an hour away and I rarely saw her. I went into the Navy @ 17 and couldn't hack it, so I came home to a dissapointed father. He treated and looked at me as if I were...
124 I am in the midst of a divorce....
I am in the midst of a divorce. This went all in harmony and smoothly. I cried out a long time ago that we needed therapy and for over two years he just left it behind. Now there is no chance of recovery and we are in a divorce. However I betrayed my husband half a year before I definitely made a choice...
125 I feel really sad. I don't think...
I feel really sad. I don't think my husband loves me, I really don't think he ever loved me. We had this real phyiscal attraction when we first got together, I had just moved to a new town and he was always there for me. We fight about everything and I feel like he doesn't help me at all. We have...
126 im totally addicted to pornography...
im totally addicted to pornography im married and have kids and my wife knows nothing about it every time she leaves the house i look at porn everytime im alone i do it i hate it and i know God and i know he wants to deliever me from it but if my wife finds out she will divorce me im lost and cant figure...
127 I am a "pastor" in name only, at...
I am a "pastor" in name only, at the moment, because I am certainly not behaving like a pastor: I am having an affair with a member of my church. She is separated from her husband but did not leave him for me; I was divorced years ago and recently ended a multi year relationship, but not for her. My...
128 My mother passed away 3 years ago...
My mother passed away 3 years ago and I cannot seem to get over the pain. We were like sisters, best friends. We were together several times a week just doing everything together. I am a divorced mom of a grown wonderful son. I have a close family and a great church family. But i have such a deep overwhelming...
129 I am currently separated from my...
I am currently separated from my husband of 8 years. The past few years have been absolutly miserable. He never wanted to come home and he would lie lie lie to me about everything all the time. I recently started going to a new church. My Pastor's wife divorced him 6 years ago because she decided that...
130 Dear Mother, You haven't been...
Dear Mother, You haven't been a mom to me since I was 12 years old. You were unavailable when I needed you the most in dealing with the divorce and your illness. Instead of providing any sort of guidance for me, you handed me a bong and told me to get over it. At 18, you left me on my own, with no...
131 I waited for marriage to have sex,...
I waited for marriage to have sex, but my husband cheated on me 6 years ago so I sent him on his way. He treated me badly. We never got a divorce. I've been with many men since then and have loved a few. I have met my mate for life, and it seems like I have had the opportunity to start over. I feel guilty...
132 I knew that I didn't love my husband...
I knew that I didn't love my husband when I married him, I just wanted to give my kids a father, problem is he isn't a good falther so now I am stuck with a man that I don't love and I have to have sex with him. he has a lot of porn and I don't even care. I would rather he look at porn than me. I pray...
133 I am successful and established...
I am successful and established now, business owner, mother...I talk so sweet, look so nice...everyone loves me...I'm perfect...so everyone thinks, everyone but my husband. I am so harsh to him whenever I think he even looks at another woman. I belittle and berate him verbally. I punish him, when the...
134 Years ago, my sister got pregnant...
Years ago, my sister got pregnant with her husband. At that time she was having problems with him they were close to getting a divorce. And thats when she got pregnant she was going to have an abortion because she couldn't amagine sharing a kid with hm. She had asked me for my input and even though I...
135 I'm a teenager, and I have been...
I'm a teenager, and I have been molested since the age of 7 by my cousin. I never knew about abuse or incest and I never knew that what he was doing to me was wrong. I am still being molested to this day. I think I have lost my faith in God. I still go to church every Sunday, but it doesn't help at all....
136 Since I grew up with an alcoholic...
Since I grew up with an alcoholic father I never truly realized how much alcohol can master you. I always felt it was okay to drink and often times boozed it up with my dad. Its When I began experiencing difficult times in my life, divorce, financial hardship, raising a child, trying to get to konw God...
137 I sm 27 years of age and have been...
I sm 27 years of age and have been married for 10 years now.For so long, I have been carrying a big load over my shoulders. At times like now, I look back at my life and wish my past were different. To start, at the age of 17 I was having an affair with a man who was my co-worker. I soon turned 18, and...
138 My marriage was over and I was...
My marriage was over and I was so alone, I met a man on the internet... Met up with him and had sex for an entire afternoon, then kept seeing him. He was using me so much and I knew but I ended up giving him presents and money until I was so far in debt I had go forward with a divorce to hide the debt...
139 I am married and for years my wife...
I am married and for years my wife and were very active in our church. She has asked me 3 times for a divorce and because of the kidss I want. The last time she told me her father had an affair on her mother and she decided then she would never marry. She told me about six years agao that she loves me...
140 It's hard to categorize this confession.....
It's hard to categorize this confession.. Shame is the best category, I suppose. Let's sum it up - two abortions around 1994-95. I am so, so sorry I had to do that. I didn't want to hurt my family any more than what I already had, and I didn't want to shame myself any more than I already had. It gets...
141 It never crossed my conscience...
It never crossed my conscience that at 50 I'd still lie with less hesitation and remorse than at 16. I married a young girl of 15, telling her that I loved her. The naked truth was that I didn't, that I only intended to use her family - a very professional, religious, loving, honest, wealthy, elite clan...
142 I went through a divorce at the...
I went through a divorce at the age of 20. Since then, I have struggled at relationships, and am terrified that I will never be in a relationship again. I push people away because I am scared of rejection yet I am starving for some one to care about me.
143 I lost my virginity to a married...
I lost my virginity to a married man at the age of 22. I didn't know he was married. After I found out, I tried getting away from the relationship but I wasn't strong enough. The relationship continued and still continues for almost 3 years. I love him. He tells me he loves me and I believe him...just...
144 When I was 18 I joined the united...
When I was 18 I joined the united states marine corps, so that my younger sister could go to college. When I was in the service God called me to do many great things in his name. But when I was in the middle of changing duty stations I met a girl and we got married in 7 days. It was cool we had a great...
145 For the 19 years I was married...
For the 19 years I was married I never cheated. Then I found him molesting our daughter, we tried counseling and I was led to believe that all was better. I prayed a lot back then, but all was not better. He started acting like a lunatic. I finally got the strength to file for divorce. This hurt...
146 I am a divorced woman with two...
I am a divorced woman with two grown children. The divorce was my choice and I have never married again. I like to look at gay porn. I masturbate a lot and usually can't make it unless I imagine some gay porn. I confessed this secret but now I am in love with my priest. I don't know if he is gay...
147 My husband's ex-wife cheated on...
My husband's ex-wife cheated on him with two of his co-workers. She is married to one of the co-workers now in another state. She continually lies to their husbands daughter about why the divorce occurred and my husbands relationship with his daughter is very strained. I secretly have thoughts of ruining...
148 I have been married for four years....
I have been married for four years. This is my second marriage and I do not want a divorce, however, I am sure that my husband will soon find out that I have been having a "phone" affair with another man. We have not met yet, but I think we soon might. I do not love my husband, and haven't for a long...
149 i'm a minister's wife. my husband...
i'm a minister's wife. my husband put the church, people in the church, and everything ministry related in front of me. i wanted attention, and found it in another man. for the last 8 years i've had an off and on again realtionship with this man.no one would ever suspect that i would be capable or would...
150 My husband of 25 years divorced...
My husband of 25 years divorced me for another woman. I married again 6 years ago. I am still in love with my exhusband. the man I am married to is wonderful, I just wish I loved him like he deserves. I am a christian and when I took my vows in both marriages I believe I meant them. I did not want the...
151 i regret so much the conditions...
i regret so much the conditions of my first marriage/divorce, God. basically i left him because he had major surgery followed by a massive stroke. he was not the same person i had married. he was mean to our children and our special dogs on the weekends i brought him home from rehab hospital. i did what...
152 I have been having an affair with...
I have been having an affair with a very influentual man who is olmost 60 and Iam only 30. He is married and has a family. We've been ssing each other for over 2 years and I know he loves me but his culture wont allow him to divorce.He has given me everything my heart desires. A new car, home, pays all...
153 Some time ago I was married to...
Some time ago I was married to a woman and she got pregnant. I wasn't happy about this and I convenced her that a abortion was the best choice for us at that time. We divorced shortly after and I regret both the convencing her and the divorce. I have been asking God to free me from this and I pray...
154 I am of a mixed culture and growing...
I am of a mixed culture and growing up neither side of my families really excepted it. Except a very small handfull that I could count on one hand. I should also mention I did not grow up with my father. Untill I was an adult I did not not really know my dad's side of the family very well. I immediately...
155 The second semester of my freshman...
The second semester of my freshman year in high school, I seriously considered suicide. I thought about how to do it but couldn't decide which method to choose. I was at the lowest point in my life. My parents had divorced a couple years before and my grandmother, whom I was extremely close with, had...
156 I have been adulterous many times...
I have been adulterous many times over my life. My children's father had an affair when I was pregnant with our first child; I didn't know anyone could hurt me that much. We stayed together for another child and finally got divorced. Some time later, I went with a married man for 4 years until his wife...
157 My ex-wife walked out on me and...
My ex-wife walked out on me and our children in Oct. 2001. She abandoned me with our three children plus a step child she had when we got married. Her excuse was she had never lived and she wanted to experience life before she found someone else to settle down with. It took me from Oct. 2001 until Sept....
158 Around the time when I was only...
Around the time when I was only a year old, my parents divorced. My dad kept me in with loving arms and cared for me every single day. My mom on the other hand, left us stranded and hurt.Now fast forward to about 6 years later. My dad had been recently married to a wonderful woman that would soon adopt...
159 For years I have found myself doing...
For years I have found myself doing exactly what Craig described last week - binging on porn, then going through periods of "sobriety." I enjoyed the rush, because it gave me a form of sick comfort to think about being with those women during times when I was lonely. But then I would always end up being...
160 I am a married woman who is in...
I am a married woman who is in love with another man. I want to leave my husband, I never wanted to marry him in the first place actually. I know divorce is wrong, but I am so unhappy.
161 My wife confessed to me that she...
My wife confessed to me that she had slept with some men while since we got married. She told me it was because I wasn't well endowed and couldn't satisfy her in bed. I later found out that she was sleeping with several men at work. She started to come home later and later. I would be in bed. She...
162 For years I have worked to make...
For years I have worked to make sure I have asked forgivness of those I have harmed and given forginess to those who have harmed me. After a sermon on the topic, that used some 12 step rules. . .I took inventory of my heart. I made adjustments and asked for forgivness of many and also forgave. . .but...
163 This weekend is the fifth anniversary...
This weekend is the fifth anniversary of my failed marriage. I have been clean and sober for two years. My husband and I have been living apart for two years. This summer, I finally gave up hope that he would ever change into a mature, responsible man. He's been trying to spend more time with me of late...
164 I've been married for over 20 years,...
I've been married for over 20 years, but I have never loved my wife passionately or romantically. I was alone and broke when I met my wife and she came from a good family, so I thought they could help me with my life, but that never happened and they have always hated me. I never even proposed to my...
165 I am lonely and sad most of the...
I am lonely and sad most of the time. Everyone thinks I'm ok and have my act together. I look good on the outside, but on the inside, I am so very, very, very sad and very, very, very lonely. No one loves me or cares for me other than my child. I have no one to really talk to. No one to hold. No...
166 I am recently divorced and I regret...
I am recently divorced and I regret not being less controlling. I thought I was doing what was best for the situation and now I look back and see how controlling my distant family was over my wife and children and I was right in the middle of it. When I pledged to live for GOD late last year, I almost...
167 I carry past humiliation of my...
I carry past humiliation of my husband's(at the time) domestic violence. My ribs broken, major abdominal muscles badly torn, and now found out a cracked hip from the past abuse.The problem is I condoned the abuse-that is, I wouldn't leave my husband, and often would beg him to come home when he left(which...
168 I had a terrible child hood, growing...
I had a terrible child hood, growing up with two alcoholic parent/step parent(s). I thank god for my grandmother who gave me my morals and taught me about god and such. However, during the course of my life, I have been lied too, had relatives steal from me, cheated on, broken promises, married to get...
169 My husband is bisexual! He just...
My husband is bisexual! He just told me this after 13 yrs of marriage. I would have never guessed. (although, now I can remember moments where I should have questioned, but never did imagined this). I did catch him looking at porn late at night, a few times. I am so confused by his confession that I...
170 i feel as though I am living a...
i feel as though I am living a double life. I was raised southrn baptist and I am a Christian and I believe in God, Jesus and that whole thing, but I am also a lesbian, or at least I call myself one. I think it's because I didn't have a good relationship with my mother growing up and there were...
171 I do not love my husband, and...
I do not love my husband, and have not for many years. Truth be told, I don't even love him, and often fnd him to be disgusting. Very often I find myself hating him. I fear the ramifications of divorce, and so I simply wish he were dead. I spent my youth steadfast in my desire never to get married....
172 I have been in a hopeless loveless...
I have been in a hopeless loveless marriage for 27 years. My husband got the flu on our honeymoon and has been either physically or mentally ill ever since. No lie. He got sunburned on our honeymoon and used that as an excuse not to have sex. Then we came home from our honeymoon, moved in with his...
173 About five years ago my 20 year...
About five years ago my 20 year marriage ended by my husband having an affair and then wanting to end the marriage. Being a licensed preacher he didn't know how the "divorce thing" would work, so he came up with at least 2 different plans on how he would kill me. God watched out for me, and instead...
174 When I was 14, I started dating...
When I was 14, I started dating a girl, who was gorgeous and very smart (later became the school's valedictorian). In my teens with her, I felt invincable, yet I always wondered about being single again. After my first year of college, I broke up with her. At the time, I felt as if I had freedom. A year...
175 In less than 50 days I am going...
In less than 50 days I am going to marry you, but I have serious doubts if I truly want to marry you. I keep walking through the paces because I'm 46 and I've never been married. In so many ways you are so good to me, but in so many other ways we have serious interpersonal relationship issues that I...
176 I'm an eighteen year old female....
I'm an eighteen year old female. I was molested as a child by my stepfather. I told my mother what happened and he was tried before a jury. He was found innocent because I was only four. Even though my mother divorced him, I still have to deal with him because he is my brother's father. and it kills...
177 I am not a member of the church....
I am not a member of the church. my husband is. I am an addict/alcoholic. I am in several 12 step groups and help other addicts and alcololics. I believe in god, and pray everyday. I feel that me and my husband are moving away from each other. We no longer see things the same way. I am very supportive...
178 I hate the fact that my wife and...
I hate the fact that my wife and I are going through a divorce because I found out she had an affair many years ago and never told me.I found out by doing some investigating on my own. Truth be told, it was with a friend or so-called friend. I'm in a relationship now and not really happy.
179 First off I love my husband very...
First off I love my husband very much but life with him has been hard. Weve been together since we were teenagers and had a child when we were 17. He has been a real man and has stood up and taken on his reasponibility of being a father. The first time I did anything was the first time he went overseas....
180 I have very bad relationships with...
I have very bad relationships with people. I really don't like being around them. I'm always questioning why people talk to me. Most people say that I very nice and pleasant to be around, but I don't see how. Every relationship I've had has fallen apart. My marriage ended in divorce after about five...
181 A life is what we have till someone...
A life is what we have till someone takes it away from us. Mine was taken away at the age of 4. It is very hard to fully understand after 26 years but this is what happened. My mother and father divorced and my mother started shaking up with so other guy. He started with me cause I was the oldest and...
182 I'm an eitghteen year old, i'm...
I'm an eitghteen year old, i'm in love with a woman, but i'm married to a man....that i have loves since second grade....god grant me forgiveness and wisdom, i don't beleive in divorce, and i know she hasn't felt the same way i do in years. because i broke her heart.
183 Where do I begin. I am divorced.I...
Where do I begin. I am divorced.I am still in lovewith my ex-husband even though he is married toanother woman. Kind of ironic, isn't it. I now have become the "other woman" in the relationship.I don't think he still loves me, but I know hedoesn't love her......So here is my dilemma.I want to get back...
184 I am overwhelmed most of the time.I...
I am overwhelmed most of the time.I am not sure how to get out of it. I had put myself in the situation I can't figure the way out. I have no family here, I am married to the man I despise who, in turn, absolutely hates me. We don't talk anymore. Mostly he yells and I say "enough".I don't want to even...
185 As I have confessed to God, I know...
As I have confessed to God, I know that I have been forgiven. But, my thought continue to plague me and I know I can not tell my wife as I do not want to hurt her.We have been married for a little less then 40 years. Have three children who are grown, married with families of their own, and are doing...
186 I have been married twice, the...
I have been married twice, the first ended in divorce. My first husband left because I cheated on him and became pregnant with another mans child. My second husband and I have had a rocky relationship from the beginning and things got progressively worse from there. To make a long story short he had...
187 i had an abortion when i was 26,...
i had an abortion when i was 26, it had been about a year after my divorce and i quickly got with another man and had been dating for about a year, but the kicker is it wasnt his baby, i didnt love him so i went out on him one time with a guy i hardly knew and got pregnant, i told my boyfriend it was...
188 i am young. i am very young. i'm...
i am young. i am very young. i'm only 18. i have a boyfriend that i've been dating for 2 years. we just started our senior year in high school this week. we have our issues and we argue but we do love each other. i have a big redneck country family on my moms side. its awesome. i love it. theres this...
189 I've been a Christian since age...
I've been a Christian since age 16. Raised in a Christian home.Married 24 years..5 kids.In 1997 my whole world came apart. At the time my then-husband and I were small group leaders at a Vineyard church. Our daughter ran away from home. Turns out she was on drugs majorly and been sexually abused by her...
190 My parents got divorced when I...
My parents got divorced when I was 13.. My mom went psycho on me, abused me, and such. I thought it was normal! I thoguht everything was ok. She told me she loved me, she told me i was everything. Once i cried so hard, cause she wanted to kill herself, that she said she was going to shoot me if i didnt...
191 I am still in love my high school...
I am still in love my high school boyfriend. he left me when he went into the service,we dated for 6 years,he just went out with another girl with the same name. He did try to see me but I married a man I only knew 10 months,it ended in divorce. I know he also got divorced. He has lived all over the...
192 I've been living a double life...
I've been living a double life almost all of my life. My adult life has been the worst. I am married, going through a divorce, I live with my boyfriend of 2 yrs and I've been married to my husband for 4. I have been a devoted wife and mother, and in my other life, I have been a devoted girlfriend and...
193 my mom and dad have been divorced...
my mom and dad have been divorced since i was 3 months old, my dad is an alcoholic and my mom so she could afford having a kid had to babysit little kids which i can understand cus she needed money, so i went back and forth from my dads to my moms and i never felt like my mom loved me or cared for me...
194 This is a relief to me to find...
This is a relief to me to find a web site that you can let it all out..I have been hurting inside for many many years. I was very happy married to a man I loved, but he did not give me the attention that I needed or wanted. I met this guy who gave me attention and I was attracted to him. I started...
195 I am female and was married 30...
I am female and was married 30 yrs ago, then divorced 25 yrs ago. Since then, I have lived with a best girl friend that I knew in college. We now own a nice home together. We have many friends that are lesbian, and we like having them over to our place often and going on vacations with them. I sing in...
196 hello, I dont really know how to...
hello, I dont really know how to do this as I have never been very religous.I think I have come to a point in my life where I have begun to realize that maybe god is what, or who I need. I am 36yrs old, have a "wonderful" wife I have been with for 7 yrs, no kids, a small business that is probably failing,...
197 When I was a 4 one of my older...
When I was a 4 one of my older brothers would touch me and try to have intercourse with me I was so young I didn't know what was wrong and right all I knew was that it felt weird and would keep asking him if we could stop, but he continued to do it until about 4 years later, when I was eight. It wasn't,...
198 I am an alcoholic and drug addict....
I am an alcoholic and drug addict. I have done drugs for 23 years of my life. I started at 13 with pot and continued until I was 36. I have done drugs through Junior High, High school,college, sports, weddings, family events, on airplanes etc.. I got married, had kids and worked. ALL ON DRUGS AND ALCOHOL....
199 i was molested by a male neighbor...
i was molested by a male neighbor for the age of 8 to the age of 12...when it fially ended i molested a female cousin...i was married for almost 20 years but i hated when he touched me..it brought me back to the molestation i divorced my husband and i now live a lesbian lifestyle....and my family has...
200 I am a woman in my late 50's. I'm...
I am a woman in my late 50's. I'm sure many stories that you get are similar to mine. I am ADDICTED to SEX.My husband and I just celebrated our 40th Wedding Anniversary. Everyone we know think we are the perfect married couple. And as far as I know my husband has never cheated on me. I wish I could say...
201 been married 5 years. cheated on...
been married 5 years. cheated on my husband 4 times. have adrinking problem. on meds that cause me to black out when i drink. but, i still drink. would rather not have sex with my husband. i kind of want to be divorced so i don't feel so trapped, don't want to have to answer to anyone. i hate my life,...
202 I fear marriage. Guys cheat...its...
I fear marriage. Guys cheat...its in their nature. I'm 23 and I don't think even in 10 years I'll want to get married. Every woman I've ran into has been cheated on. Men can't be happy with one woman. WHY? Why do they cheat? Why does it always have to involve sex? Divorce scares me too. What else do...
203 I slept with my Aunt's husband...
I slept with my Aunt's husband for money. It only happened once and it was awful. And even though my aunt is divorced from him for other reasons. I still can never fogive myself or feel so ashamed.
204 After my divorce I felt completley...
After my divorce I felt completley useless and ashamed because my husband had cheated on me with several different women. I bounced around from man to man for almost a year. I did start seriously daing someone. After dating for about 1 1/2 months he had to leave for a year long deployment to IRAQ. We...
205 I was married for almost 15 years,...
I was married for almost 15 years, had multiple affairs in my last year of marriage. I left my husband and I know that I hurt him very deeply. I carry the guilt and pain of the affairs and that I hurt someone who loved me so much. I have been divorced for 6 years now and I still feel horrible for what...
206 I had an affair for 3+ years with...
I had an affair for 3+ years with a younger man. I fell in love with him and he with me - though we never fully said as muchWe drifted apart when I got divorced and met someone else who I later married but I to do this day think of him everyday I love him and I think I always will even though I know...
207 For a few months after a divorce...
For a few months after a divorce and other serious things,while unemployed I would meet men from the internet and have sex for money so my children could keep a roof over their head.It ended when I was busted by one of the internet men.He was vice squad and I was arrested.It was actuallya blessing because...
208 I was sexually abused by my step...
I was sexually abused by my step father.But thank God, my mother is getting divorced with him and she's in the process of divorcing with him right now. I wish I could tell her, but I just can't.
209 I just found out that my husband...
I just found out that my husband has been having an affair with a friend. I have confronted him a number of times in the past and he always denied it but I finally got proof for myself. I filed for divorce but am so confused what to do because I still love him so much. Can I ever forgive him for being...
210 I'm a 26 year old divorcee. I've...
I'm a 26 year old divorcee. I've been divorced now for two and a half years. I'm currently dating someone I think I could marry, but he is very judgemental. We've been dating for almost a year and a half, and I've continually lied to him about my sexual history. I told him I've only been with 8 people,...
211 I have been married two times.....in...
I have been married two times.....in the first marriage I actually hated my husband....he was very cruel to me...cheated on me all the time and even gave me crabs one time right after I had my first baby. Then I met a new person in my life who gave me all the love I needed....and that is what started...
212 I have three boys. The oldest son...
I have three boys. The oldest son lives with his father and step mother and we have a very strained relationship.I remarried a military man after my first divorce and moved all over and ended becoming a stranger to my son. We don't even know each other.We live an hour apart and never see each other.I...
213 I cheated on my husband. Why did...
I cheated on my husband. Why did I do it?!?! A month into our first and only childs life he was shipped out overseas for ONE YEAR!!! He started to change...or was it me? Nothing but fighting, nothing but put downs! I prayed every night to God to please give me strength, please help me to get thru this,...
214 i am 49 yrs old and only recently...
i am 49 yrs old and only recently after blocking this i started to remember my stepdad starting when i was around 8 yrs old touching my private area. one day my mother was at the store i had a bad pain in my rt.side. my stepdad said let me see. he asked me where it hurt i told him 2 times. he said take...
215 During my younger life, as a teen,...
During my younger life, as a teen, through adulthood, I had had several abortions. I was very promiscuous and was not sure why. I later discovered that I had been abused as a child and had somehow repressed the memories until my 40's. I regret and I feel shame about them. I belive that the abortions...
216 I have a problem with chatting...
I have a problem with chatting on-line with married men. I am married to a wonderful hardworking man, but he works so many long hours that I get so lonely at night with no one to talk to so I end up looking for someone to chat with. I have been talking to 2 differnt men, one of which lives in the same...
217 when i was younger i moved around...
when i was younger i moved around alot and didnthave many friends. i was adopted at 2 days oldand still have never met my real parents... myreal father doesnt even know that i was born. mybirth mother never told him that she was pregnant.well growing up i was diognosed with quite alot ofdifferent things...
218 I have knowingly had sexual relationships...
I have knowingly had sexual relationships with married men and I feel very bad about what I've done. Years ago when I was married my husband cheated on me. He was my 1st love and I was so hurt that it almost killed me. His adultery broke my heart and I left him. We got divorced. After that I didn't care...
219 I fought for a year and a half...
I fought for a year and a half through my divorce to win custody of my boys. I won. Now I wonder if I'm the right one for them. I hate myself. I cut myself to ease the loneliness and depression. sometimes when I drive home and I pass the pawn shop, I debate turning in and buying a gun and ending it all....
220 my father verbally and emotionally...
my father verbally and emotionally abused me as a child. my mother did nothing, said nothing and avoided me as much as possible therfore neglecting me. my brother was constantly trying to molest me and eventhough intercourse never took place, my sexual life has always been negative. I got married and...
221 I really could have picked more...
I really could have picked more than one category to describe what I'm experiencing. I am totally upset--mostly with myself--and of course, the "other" person with whom I've been involved. My story is a long one; I've wanted to have someone with whom to share this awful secret--I feel like such a hypocrite,...
222 My ex-husband ended our 12 year...
My ex-husband ended our 12 year marriage in order to become a Catholic priest. We have been divorced for 6 years. Once our children turn 18 years old in 4 more years, my ex-husband can apply to seminary and then take holy orders. He is currently enrolled at a university studying for his master's degree...
223 I belonged to a co-op art gallery...
I belonged to a co-op art gallery and didn't get along with some of the people. One in particular was pretty awful to me and they told me that I was no longer welcome in the co-op and they broke their contract with me, kicking me out.I was humiliated, enraged, sickened, horribly sad and felt that there...
224 I am married to a good man, but...
I am married to a good man, but my life at 50 years of age is not what I expected it to be by now. When things get difficult, I keep wishing I was still with my ex-husband, who divorced me 20 years ago. I don't obsess about him, but I can't help comparing my current husband with him. My ex was more refined...
225 I had an affair with a married...
I had an affair with a married woman,and called her husband and told him that she was being unfaithful.They are divorced because of it,but I'm secrectly happy about it because now she's all mine.
226 I am divorced. Have been for almost...
I am divorced. Have been for almost 17 years. For 16 of those years I have loved a man who is married with 4 children. I know him through business and worked for him at that time for a period of 2-3 years. I ended up leaving that position because it became awkward. I thought if I were out of sight, out...
227 i guess i should start off by saying...
i guess i should start off by saying thanks to this website i can finally get it off my chest.well i been dateing a married woman for over 2 years and i just found out resently that shes married she lied to me and i never knew it shes separated from her husband and there not liveing together anymore.now...
228 Sometimes, I feel like getting...
Sometimes, I feel like getting a divorce would be so much easier than dealing with the problems a marriage can have. I secretly look up the divorce laws in my state. Sometimes, I wonder if I am better off alone
229 I was married to a wonderful woman...
I was married to a wonderful woman twice, both times for 5 years. I've been in the Navy for 19 years. We divorced the first time because I was unfaithful. Got back together, had a son and a daughter. Second marriage was better...except I chose to do 2 back to back isolated duties, which killed it. I...
230 I have been divorced with 2 kids...
I have been divorced with 2 kids for 10 years. I am lonely and stringing some guy along right now waiting on the "man of my dreams" which I know is out there but I am afraid I will never find because I can't get rid of him. I have cheated and felt guilty for it but I can't seem to say to him " I want...
231 I cannot believe that I am going...
I cannot believe that I am going to do this...here i go. This time last year I worked at a golfcourse. I had been there a year when we got a new boss. At first i did not like him cause i thought that he was a little rude, and i rarely talked to him. Then, one night I had a dream that he and I had kissed....
232 I've been divorced for 1 1/2 yrs....
I've been divorced for 1 1/2 yrs. My ex is an alcoholic. He was verbally, emotionally, and physically abusive to myself and my children. I have put it in the past, and met someone new. The problem is my ex refuses to pay child support. He lives in China, so I cannot legally make him pay. He is remarried,...
233 the hurt i feel is unbearable....
the hurt i feel is unbearable. my mother is cheating on my father. she doesn't love him. she tells me that she doesn't love him. she tells me she wants to leave him. she cries when her, whatever he is, goes out with another women because she won't get a divorce. WHY DOES SHE TELL ME!!! it eats away at...
234 I've had 3 men in my life, and...
I've had 3 men in my life, and all 3 relationships turned out disastrous. What is wrong with me that I am never the one to be picked or chosen? My husband cheated on me for years until I couldn't stand to be with him anymore. When I found out about all of the lies, I was devastated. My next relationship...
235 I am dating a divorced man. When...
I am dating a divorced man. When we first met a year ago, he was married. We started talking on the phone completely innocently. He said he wanted to introduce me to his best friend, because we would be perfect for each other. When he disclosed that he was interested in me, I did not stop talking...
236 After my wife divorced me, I made...
After my wife divorced me, I made a half hearted attempt to kill myself by taking prescription medications. I believe now that it was just an attempt to stop my wife from divorcing me, but it didn't work. I ended up in a mental hospital for a while due to severe depression.I had five children at the...
237 i cheated on my husband the last...
i cheated on my husband the last month of my marriage and i knew that if i could cheat on him them i must not really love him and so i got a divorce......then i started thinking i have cheated on everyone i have ever dated...even my current boyfriend who lives in another state and thats how i justify...
238 shame...shame seems to be the constant...
shame...shame seems to be the constant in my life, shame controls what i do the lies i tell and how i think and feel about myself on the inside. i'm ashamed that i made bad decesions in college and that now i'm in debt. DEBT....debt rules my life, you can't get an apartment, a car, respect when your...
239 When I was a young girl about 8...
When I was a young girl about 8 or 9, the husband of the lady who babysat me and my brother inappropriately touched me. He would not actually have intercourse with me but he used his fingers a lot. I did not understand what was happening to me because at that time, the late 60's and early 70"s because...
240 I have not told my husband this...
I have not told my husband this and probably never will because he uses things i tell him against me, to put me down and I do not want that. Anyway, I was married before back in 1985 to another man and I left him and met the husband I have now in 1989 and married him in 1990, well, the lie comes in there,...
241 Dear Lord please hear my prayers....
Dear Lord please hear my prayers. I haven't been much into God since I got divorced. My x husband got custody of my kids because I was scared to stand up to him. I have never been in trouble my whole life not even a speeding ticket. I have been in and out of my kids lives and I miss them everyday there...
242 I decided to fast for 2 years from...
I decided to fast for 2 years from sex. Divorced and bitter and angry, I felt it was the right thing for me. Now, the person I have loved for about 8 years has come back into my life and I don't think I can reach my goal. I have only until November of 2006 and my 2 year goal will be reached. I just...
243 I am a married woman, I really...
I am a married woman, I really loved my husband when we got married, but I think it was mostly the fear of ending up alone. I have been talking to this guy and nothing has happened it's been mostly interent, but it seems right him and I please GOD pray for me and lead me down the right path. Also,...
244 I have cheated on my wife with...
I have cheated on my wife with my ex-wife a long time ago. My current wife and I were not married yet, nor were my ex and I divorced yet. I'm a very sexual person and will probably cheat again.......
245 Sexuality...pornography....what...
Sexuality...pornography....what category? A divorced woman with a fulltime job. I date men and I love having sex with them. But I lust after women. I have never acted on this in real life, but I adopted a nickname and I have sexual conversations at a lesbian website. I also daydream only about women,...
246 years ago i was married to a man...
years ago i was married to a man with a young daughter. i used to beat her so bad for really no good reason other than the resentment i felt towards her mother. i feel so much shame and guilt its eating me alive. ive had her over since we divorced and she is queen for a day when i see her but i know...
247 I am 28 years old and i am continuously...
I am 28 years old and i am continuously filled with regret. I don't know why for the life of me that i continue to make mistakes over and over again. Or should i say bad choices that impact my future for the worse. I don't know where to begin other than to confess that i truly do not know who i am in...
248 I'm assuming acording to what I've...
I'm assuming acording to what I've read in the Bible that I am committing adultry. Right now I have been married to a man for almost 20 years, we divorced, I re-married and he passed away. I'm now living with a wonderful man, only because I don't want to live in my car! Situation is: I was renting a...
249 Please pray for my family. My husband...
Please pray for my family. My husband is verbally abusive to me. He has been this way for years. He will call me bad names and throw things if he is in his rage. He has never hit me, but the verbal abuse is just as bad as physical. Other times, he such a loving and wonderful partner, I can't imagine...
250 I have never had sexual intercourse...
I have never had sexual intercourse since I have been married to anyone other than my husband. There was a time in our marriage when we were on the verge of divorce and had even discussed it. I found myself attracted to two different men. One was at work and one was outside of it. Both of the men were...
251 I just saw a piece on the Today...
I just saw a piece on the Today Show about this site, and felt compelled to check it out. While I am here, I thought I may as well contribute. I am a 49-year-old disabled American Veteran. I have been gay for as long as I can remember. I was married at one time, but could not live with that lie, and...
252 I have been having an affair with...
I have been having an affair with a married man for almost two years. He also keeps telling me he is working towards getting a divorce and I beleive that he is. But its taking too long. I believe he is my soulmate so I'm afraid to let go for fear I'll never meet anyone that comes close to making me feel...
253 Two people I work with are married....
Two people I work with are married. When I came to work there everyone told me they met at work and I thought that was so romantic! I just found out that they were both married to other people and started an affair at work and divorced their spouses. My husband did that to me. He met a woman at work...
254 When my ex and I separated because...
When my ex and I separated because he was having an affair with a younger woman, I tried to stop the pain by sleeping with so many men that I lost count. I stopped doing that a long time ago, even before we got divorced. But I still regret what I did. I don't remember the names or faces of some of the...
255 I don't understand how Christian...
I don't understand how Christian leaders could pat me on the back when I chose to be a stay-at-home mom, wife, and homemaker and now, after my husband cheated on me and then divorced me to marry the other woman so that I lost that "job" they don't have much to say. I willingly gave up my career to help...
256 I DIVORCED MY HUSBAND AND MARRIED...
I DIVORCED MY HUSBAND AND MARRIED AGAIN .I AM LIVING IN A STATE OF ADULTRY WITH MY NEW HUSBAND BECAUSE MY ORIGINAL HUSBAND IS STILL ALIVE .... I NEED TO LEAVE THIS ADULTROUS RELATIONSHIP.
257 I am writing this in the hopes...
I am writing this in the hopes that my confession will bring me some sort of sanity, and a way out. I have been praying to God that I will fall back in love with my husband, and quit lusting after his best friend. I know it is only a fantasy, I would not really be able to deal with him in reality and...
258 I was married for almost 7 years...
I was married for almost 7 years when this happened. My husband and I had just moved with our two children back to our home town in alabama. We were happy and still in love as if it were our first date. We were very strong followers of God, and went to church and helped in our community. Anything that...
259 We don’t even know where to start....
We don’t even know where to start. We have been married for several years, but at the very beginning of our marriage I had a one night affair and had carried on phone conversations for several months, and even met up with this person on other occasions. After realizing the possible effects of what...
260 MY husband is in control of ALL...
MY husband is in control of ALL money...I have nothing that is technically "mine". He has invested in riduculous get rich quick schemes, given money to dead beat friends who never pay back and basically can do what he wants and wants to control all my purchases. He had me quit my job to stay at home...
261 It was real young when I was exposed...
It was real young when I was exposed to sex.I had thoughts about sex real young and even had had inappropriate homosexual contact by a friend when i was young that happened one time (but it has haunted me since).When my dad ran out on our family for the second time..i felt like he really didnt want me....
262 I have read other confessions and...
I have read other confessions and feel that I am not alone. I pray for all of us that God will break these chains that bind us to pornography. Mine started just a few years ago following a divorce. I began to miss the intimacy that was shared and not wanting to get hurt again, I looked to other ways...
263 I began dating the man who is now...
I began dating the man who is now my husband when he was still married to another woman. I justified it by telling myself that they were seperated and divorce was an inevidability, also that she had hurt him so bad that he had every right to leave but now we're married and we've moved several hundred...
264 My husband recently confessed to...
My husband recently confessed to me that he cheated on me in the past. He had admitted to me once before about one occurence and I had my suspiscions about other occurences. The only thing is he is confessing them to me because he wants a divorce, not because of remorse. Well, I have also cheated on...
265 I am 24 and I got married when...
I am 24 and I got married when I was 19 and my ex husband cheated on me so we got divorced and I have been single for some time now. I have really big trust issues with other guys and it's very hard for me to find the right person for me. I was just in a relationship with a guy for four months and I...
266 Wow, it's hard to label my confession...
Wow, it's hard to label my confession in a specific category. It fits into several, but shame is the best fit.I have been divorced over 3 years, and I have been using sex to feel loved again. My ex-husband cheated, and pursued that relationship instead of our marriage. I have become promiscuous to fill...
267 I had an affair with a married...
I had an affair with a married man. I didn't find out he was married(he wasn't living with her) untill i found out i was pregnant and he left me to go back to his wife. She found out and they are now divorced. I feel daily guilt and shame because of this and dont know how to forgive myself. He has 2...
268 when i was a child, i was molested...
when i was a child, i was molested by my grandfather on several occasions. i spoke out a couple months later, and it ultimately led to my parent's divorce last year. i cannot forgive myself for speaking out about it, because i know that my parents would still be together today. i have lost trust in everybody,...
269 i regret that i did not listen...
i regret that i did not listen to my husband when he begged me to change my nagging and argumentative ways. now we are getting a divorce ( of course he filed ) and i am still in love with him. please pray that god gives me the strength to go on with my life and be friends eith him, especially since we...
270 I am a cheater. i have cheated...
I am a cheater. i have cheated on my husband numerous times, with women and men. its not like he didn't satisfy me. i just wanted something different. we are in the process of a divorce and according to Jerimiah 17, i do not need to ask why my marriage of 11 years is ending. i just ask for prayer to...
271 I believe God doesn't let us go...
I believe God doesn't let us go through anything that together with Him we can't handle. That said, He also lets us reap the consequences of our choices. Sometimes it's as simple as whom we choose to love. My first husband was an abuser. I was 18 and he was a skilled deceiver. The abuse didn't start...
272 Dear whoever,I apologize in advance...
Dear whoever,I apologize in advance for how lengthy this confession may turn out to be, but I'm scared if I don't get it all out it'll consume me. I have been in a constant and brutal battle with lying all of my life. When I think back to my earliest memories of childhood, I remember times I exaggerated...
273 I dont even know where to begin,,,my...
I dont even know where to begin,,,my life has been filled with nothing but shame and regret. When I was 15 I willingly had sex with a guy I wasnt even attracted to just to lose my virginity, because my friends had already and I wanted to "get it over with"...year after year and man after man followed...
274 It's a past addition; two actually,...
It's a past addition; two actually, one follows the other that I had a hard time breaking. One was an addition to crank after my divorce. I did it because I was numbing the pain from a controlling, manipulative, abusive marriage. It then turned into sexual addition, which was brought on by the crank...
275 I had an affair with a married...
I had an affair with a married man who also happened to be my boss. He had been seperated from his wife for a couple of years but had not gone through with the divorce because of his kids. I tried to stop the affair numerous times but I had fallen in love with him and it was extremely hard. I knew that...
276 I want to divorce my husband! I...
I want to divorce my husband! I feel ignored, unimportant. We have been married almost 10 years and I hate these feeling of rejection. Our sex life is non-existent, there is no affection or NST. I feel like I am the donkey in Shrek " OOhhh pick me! Pick me!". I am soooo sad, depressed about this situation...
277 I have been in an abusive relationship...
I have been in an abusive relationship for 10 years now. my husband is physically and emotionally abusive.I know that my husband has no intentions of changing considering he places all the blame of his anger on me.I am at the end of my ropes. I can not take the abuse anymore.I know divorce is a sin so...
278 While I was trying to pick the...
While I was trying to pick the appropriate category above, I could have picked so many and all related to one thing. My addiction to sex. I have never heard of such a thing...I mean, I've heard people talk about liking sex and wanting to participate in the act time and time again or someone stating the...
279 I am writing this today because...
I am writing this today because for the last three years I have done so many things wrong. The beginning of my problems was when I was raped at the age of 12 by a family member. And throughout high school I felt as if the only way that a man would love me was me giving him my body. And once it was over...
280 I had an affair with my neighbor...
I had an affair with my neighbor which lasted almost a year. I had been married for 5 years when it started. I ended up getting a divorce because of it even though I continuley deny it to my ex-husband. I can not forgive myself for it and find that it even interfers with the relationship I am in now....
281 I have lost my marriage. I became...
I have lost my marriage. I became distant from my wife and she finally couldn't handle it anymore and decided that it's best for us to divorce.I could never tell her the reasons why I became that way for fear of hurting her and for fear of what she would think of me. But I have come to understand that...
282 He said he was divorced. He said...
He said he was divorced. He said his wife was nuts and she took the kids and left. He said he was 39 and he didn't care that I was 21. He took me and some of my friends to his parents for Thanksgiving. He knew every Garth song ever recorded. He wore a cowboy hat and wranglers...dead giveaway there huh?...
283 I am married and I am having an...
I am married and I am having an affair with a married man. He is in the process of a divorce, but I am not. I've been unhappy sexually for a long time, my sex life in my marriage is practically nonexistent. This makes me sad and depressed. I don't feel like there is any way to save my marriage because...
284 I had two abortions in my early...
I had two abortions in my early 20's both with my boyfriend. I would have never had either abortion If my boyfriend would have wanted the children. I had a very hard time dealing with what I had done and I could not forgive myself. I suffered from panic attacks and was in counseling. I know that ultimately...
285 After I got divorced several years...
After I got divorced several years ago, I was sexually impure in three different relationships. I felt that was the only way I could be loved. It wasn't until Craig's message on God, Love, Sex that I changed my behavior. His message opened my eyes to how love should be. I prayed to God and asked for...
286 All of the above...It's impossible...
All of the above...It's impossible for me to "select a category" for 'my secret' b/c in all actuality I have sinned in all areas of life. Therefore, I chose to list "Double Life" simply because I feel like the image that I'm putting out there for everyone is not how or who I am on the inside. I'll start...
287 I was married for over 17 years,...
I was married for over 17 years, My then husband had an affair. I tried to pray my way thru the pain and make the marriage work. I begged him and listen to him pretending to make same effort to work it out. He had moved on. He emailed me he was leaving me...nice huh? We divorced. He is getting married...
288 Once again I have fallen back into...
Once again I have fallen back into the grips of alcohol. I have had battles with it through out my life. I have been arrested for a DUI three times and convicted twice. I have conquered those battles before with the power of Christ, however I seem to have a self-destructive nature. Last year while...
289 Hurt, this is to famliar in my...
Hurt, this is to famliar in my life, I'm only 22 and people three times my age haven't went thru what I have. To begin my parents passed when I was young, my dad the first to pass. My mom was sent to a hospital in the next town and my sister and I were left to take care of our self I was 9. I find as...
290 I began to notice this man at church...
I began to notice this man at church watching me. I could feel someone looking at me during services and I would catch him staring at me. My mind would race thinking why is he staring at me and what does he want? Then one day he came into the store where I worked. He was too friendly and I knew then...
291 I don't want to live a lie any...
I don't want to live a lie any longer and I pray that I could just be "willing to be willing." I pray for God to create in me a clean heart and to renew a stead fast spirit within me. Then i just go out and do the same old things. I am in my mid forties divorced and my sins have never even come close...
292 I'm still in a seperation from...
I'm still in a seperation from my wife two years the divorce hasn't started because of money I pay child support for three kids,I live in another state and have fallen in love with another women and live together,and I feel guilty, I'm thirty years old. I know I gave my marriage the best I had,It was...
293 My secret is that I am ashamed...
My secret is that I am ashamed of the man I have become. I am in my early twenties, I have two children, I am divorced, and I REGRET most of my life. I am uneasy about myself and most usually hate myself. People don't know how I truly feel because I have a very powerfull mind, and can hide my aggressions...
294 I cheated on my husband. He found...
I cheated on my husband. He found out and forgave me, although we are still getting divorced. I can't seem to get the man I cheated with out of my head, or heart. I still want to be with this other man. He doesn't know how I feel though; I love him, but I still love my husband. I don't know what to do......
295 I'm addicted to cocaine. I went...
I'm addicted to cocaine. I went to prison when I was 17 for trafficking LSD. While in prison I found God and was saved. My sentence was 10-Life , but God showed mercy and I was released on a 5 year deferred sentence and only served 1 year. After prison I was on the right track, but slowly the addictions...
296 I had an affair towards the end...
I had an affair towards the end of my first marriage.To me it was because I was receiving no affection at home and so I looked for it elsewhere.somebody to validate me as a man and to show me that I was still attractive and worth having. I have since divorced,ended the affair and remarried.I am very...
297 When I turned 15 years old I had...
When I turned 15 years old I had sex with a 33 year old woman. I had been saved for a year (accepted Jesus Christ at 14) and felt so ashamed. My wife knows about it, I confessed several things to her that I dealt with before we got married. I found out later that this woman also had sex with my little...
298 my husband has hurt me so bad on...
my husband has hurt me so bad on so many occasions, I pray he will do something to give me grounds for a divorce. I have even asked God that if he is going to cheat on me or go back to his sexual addictions that I will find out so I CAN divorce him. I love him, but can't deal with not being able to trust...
299 I have a very difficult time forgiving...
I have a very difficult time forgiving my ex-husband for his "poor choices" before our divorce. I dont even think that i want to forgive him sometimes. I just find it easier to hate him and other Christian hypocrites. I had a very rough marriage and thought my husband didn't want me. I felt like such...
300 My brother is sixteen years old....
My brother is sixteen years old. I am nineteen. He takes steroids and does not work. Our mom had to move out of the house recently when our parents divorced. since that time he has become very abusive towards me and he knows he can get away with it. My dad is out of town more than half of the time. Even...
301 I'm in college and my first year...
I'm in college and my first year of school was kind of crazy. Growing up I was always the "church girl" and the only one who went to church in my family. I had low self-esteem with guys until I made my college dance team and ended up sleeping with a few guys. I even started dating a married guy (who...
302 I have a boyfriend and about a...
I have a boyfriend and about a year ago I slept with another man because he seemed more interested in me. My boyfriend had gotten mixed up in drugs and I started feeling like I was second to them. So I just cheated on my boyfriend when I would start feeling lonely. I started seeing the same guy I had...
303 I grew up in a home where we were...
I grew up in a home where we were taught about Jesus and taken to church every Sunday. I became a believer as a small child. I was the youngest of 5 children. Our home was basically good, but my parents were busy and absent. My siblings were very abusive and I grew up with a lot of defensiveness and...
304 MY CONFESSION IS I'M LIVING WITH...
MY CONFESSION IS I'M LIVING WITH A MAN THAT IS NOT MY HUSBAND. HE IS MARRIED BUT GETTING A DIVORCE. WE HAVE HAD MOSTLY A PHONE RELATIONSHIP FOR 2 YEARS. HE IS A FAMILY FRIEND AND WE JUST FELL IN LOVE. I ENDED IT MANY TIMES BUT JUST CAN'T GIVE HIM UP. I HAVE PRAYED TO GOD - PLEASE IF YOU DON'T WANT US...
305 For thirty years I was married...
For thirty years I was married to a woman who thought sex was a quickie once every month or two. Since my divorce I have discovered I have a craving for performing cunnilingus for hours at a time. In the last three years I have, satisfied over 30 women this way. Many call me on a regular basis to come...
306 I can not, no matter what, seem...
I can not, no matter what, seem to let go of my bitterness that I carry for everyone that has ever caused me pain and hurt. Not even finding my way back into church and renewing my everyday commitment to God and loving every minute of it, is helping. Even seeing the Sickness within "Bitterness" service,...
307 I have had an affair. My husband...
I have had an affair. My husband has no idea. He has had one as well and came clean. I blame him and accuse him all the time, but I can't look in the mirror. I lust after men all the time and yell at him when he looks at another woman. He thinks I am a "good" girl. If he knew I was talking to my ex now...
308 My wife of seven years is mentally...
My wife of seven years is mentally ill but undiagnosed. I'm 99% sure she has BPD but I can not get her to go to a psychiatrist to get the appropriate medication. While I know she had some emotional baggage I did not know she would be completely irrational.I go to bed every night and wake up everyday...
309 I am married and I don't even love...
I am married and I don't even love my husband. Partly because he cheated on me with my brother's wife three months into our marriage. I can't seem to forget that even though I have forgiven him. I have not forgiven her. I dislike her so much, even if she claims it was not her fault that he made a pass...
310 Many years ago I was pregnant and...
Many years ago I was pregnant and the guy I was with I thought I loved but he freaked and I got scared. I was already a single mom with 2 kids. I didn't think I could do this again. I had an abortion. I think about it all the time. There are only 2 people on the planet that know but I live with guilt...
311 My parents divorced because my...
My parents divorced because my father used to beat my mom and my older siblings that she had from a previous marriage. He only became abusive after he found out my mother was pregnant with me. At one point my mom was admitted to the hospital from a beating. After they divorced, he remarried to a woman...
312 I have been married for over 12...
I have been married for over 12 years. I have always loved my wife, but I haven't felt IN love with her. For the last 6 I have been in love with my best friend. She was married when it started. I asked her to leave her husband, but she wouldn't. I was hurt, so I didn't see her or speak to her for over...
313 I married just over a year ago...
I married just over a year ago and we had a baby just 10 months after our union. Everybody thinks we are very happy. But the truth is we are living a lie. Entering marriage neither of us felt as if divorce would ever be an option, but we're just 14 months into it and we don't know if we can make it....
314 My ex-husband was abusive both...
My ex-husband was abusive both physically and mentally. We divorced because of it. But now I worry about how I am disciplining my son. I use a rod and try to never discipline in anger. But just to spank him hurts me. I can't get over the fear that I am abusing him. I know the verse "Spare the rod, spoil...
315 When I was married, I cheated on...
When I was married, I cheated on my husband with three different men in the course of a couple years. We were having problems in our marriage, and I knew it was wrong, but did it anyway. My husband knew of one incident, but I lied about why/how it happened. I told my husband that I did kiss the guy,...
316 I have been having an emotional...
I have been having an emotional affair with someone I met online. We have known each other for about 7 years and dated for a while. He moved back to his home state years ago but we have always kept in touch. I have always felt a deep connection with him. We have tried to move on with our lives and have...
317 My husband was arrested last year...
My husband was arrested last year for having an inappropriate relationship with a babysitter. Since that time our lives (including our children's lives) have been turned upside down. People who are very close to me know, but I am so ashamed of what happened that I can't shake the feeling people "know"....
318 When I was married I had an affair...
When I was married I had an affair with another man. I justified it because my husband was never home and I thought he was also having an affair. This eventually led to a divorce. I know God has forgiven me but I still feel guilt and shame.
319 I have never told anyone about...
I have never told anyone about this. The only person who knows is the other party involved. I was a young girl right out of high school when I married my husband. I know now we were friends in love with the thought of marriage. Anyway, two years into the marriage things were falling down hill quickly...
320 About 6 years ago my ex husband...
About 6 years ago my ex husband and I split up. As we were going through our divorce he filed for custody of our son then 2 years old. I knew that the courts in oklahoma always side with the mother in custody battles. So therefore I didn't feel the need to be represented by counsel. Nor did I have the...
321 I know it started when I was young....
I know it started when I was young. About 9. My parents were divorced and my mother became a full blown alcoholic. She was drinking a fifth of vodka a day. Move 40 yrs later that one hurt is reflected in those that have hurt me after that. I asked my counselor, when does a child of an alcoholic stop...
322 My Ex-husband raped me 3 days before...
My Ex-husband raped me 3 days before our wedding day. While we were dating I told him I wanted to do it right this time. Waiting until our wedding night would make it that much more special. He agreed, even told our Sunday School Class about our commitment to abstain until marriage. I was so happy I...
323 I was never taught how to be in...
I was never taught how to be in a healthy relationship, marriage or otherwise. My parents were married for 19 years when they divorced, and shortly thereafter my father moved away (overseas). I was 14 years old. So I went from living in a two parent household to a single-mom household overnight. My father...
324 This isn't easy to do. I've confessed...
This isn't easy to do. I've confessed my sin to God and asked for his forgiveness, but never have I told anyone. No one here knows me or can identify me, but putting this in the public eye brings my guilt rushing to the surface. Though I so much desire forgiveness, I don't feel worthy of the cleansing....
325 For the past few years I have been...
For the past few years I have been sinking into a huge hole created from my gambling. I can not get away from the urge. It has cost me 100,000 easily. I will go through spurts where I won't gamble for one or two months but then it comes back and next thing I know I have lost 5 or 10 thousand. My credit...
326 I first became exsposed to porn...
I first became exsposed to porn in the 3rd grade. The neighborhood pervert had some magazines he showed us young boys. I still remember the black and white images of a couple naked and simulating sex. That was 29 years ago. My dad even had porn at his apartment when I would go over and vist (mom and...
327 I had an affair with a married...
I had an affair with a married man while I was married. How can God ever forgive ME? I could tell you how awful my marriage was. How I begged my husband to attend church. To talk to someone -- to slow down evaluate our lives - we were heading in the wrong direction......but it is what it is.....no excuses...
328 Revised:I was continually remined...
Revised:I was continually remined of what a disappointment and bad person I was from a very young age. It wasn't a big leap to start stealing for things I thought I wanted or needed. During adolescents, I would steal from school lockers and from faculty. This behavior subsided. Later I took a job with...
329 I cannot tell this to anyone, anywhere,...
I cannot tell this to anyone, anywhere, especially at my church --- I met a Christian man at a divorce group and we began to see each other and then started having sex almost right away, I guess because we were both so lonely and in need of that kind of comfort. We knew it was wrong, but he more so than...
330 I am in a very committed relationship...
I am in a very committed relationship with a man I know I will spend my life with. We are both divorced with kids, his divorce was bitter so he is hesitant on marriage. Two years after we started dating we have not taken the steps to make the commitment to one another yet we still continue to have a...
331 My husband and I have been together...
My husband and I have been together for 19 years. We have children and a nice home. Our marriage started off with us cheating on each other and him getting someone else pregant while we were still dating. Although, I don't have proof that he has physically cheated while we were married, he continued...
332 I am divorced. I was raised in...
I am divorced. I was raised in a yelling screaming environment and my parents have both been married and divorced many times. I find myself not being able to have a healthy normal relationship because if there isn't a lot of drama, I think something is wrong and I create it. I also have alcholic tendencies...
333 I have been thinking about this...
I have been thinking about this for some time now. I know that God is good and is able to forgive me, but it just doesn't sink in that He really will forgive me and bring me to a better life. I have had a problem with relationships and sex since I was a child. My father sexually abused me from the...
334 I have been having an affair with...
I have been having an affair with a amrried man for over three years.Everyone knows just about -everyone but his wife. She signed divorce papers but he hasnt filed - seems there is always a reason why he doesnt file. I have come so far in Jesus Christ - my motto is that of truth. How can I even utter...
335 I am a thief! I am also a Christian....
I am a thief! I am also a Christian. On Sunday I find myself begging for forgiveness from God for what I've done, yet the next day I am slipping stuff into my bags. I cannot seem to stop. I am divorced, single mom, and often find it hard to make ends meet. So I steal and I'm able to get things for...
336 I am in love with a married woman....
I am in love with a married woman. She is in the process of getting a divorce (not for or because of me), but nonetheless she is married. We are very good friends, and have a wondeful connection as friends, but I want more. I don't think she has the same feelings for me, but no matter how hard I try...
337 I am in love with a married woman....
I am in love with a married woman. She is in the process of getting a divorce (not for or because of me), but nonetheless she is married. We are very good friends, and have a wondeful connection as friends, but I want more. I don't think she has the same feelings for me, but no matter how hard I try...
338 I was going thru a divorce and...
I was going thru a divorce and fell in love with a married man. We had an on-going affair and I got pregnant with his child. During my entire pregnancy we never told anyone who the father was and I stayed friends with his wife and family. I live in a small town and people were very cruel to me during...
339 I am fearful that I will lose the...
I am fearful that I will lose the respect of those I lead if they learn of my past mistake and my poor judgment. Most people are aware that I was married before, but most do not know that I rebounded from divorce and hastily married again. I made marriage vows to someone without recognizing their true...
