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1 Arrghhh
Being a woman is so hard, why must they teach us that being a mom is so great or that we must have children. This leads to abuse, and people killing their kids because they can't tell the truth to anyone. There is no support for people who can't stand their children anymore or who hate being moms. You...
2 My dark passenger
i have done something that im ashamed of. I dont know how do i got to watch that. I have watched child porn and im so ashamed of that.I have also masturbated while watching it. I believe that it is the worst mistake i have ever made in my life. I want to leave that kind of habit right know because i...
3 my renunciation
I am christian since I was a child, and I´ve been watching porn on and off since I was at high school. There were moments when I got completly desperated, and feeling really far from God, that hurt me a lot because He showed me his love deeply when I was a chid. When I was around 20 I took a firm decision...
4 I Can't Go On Like This.
I'm 59, my career is in the tank and have no friends interested in helping me. I hate my job. My daughter and grandchildren live with us and I love them dearly but my wife and daughter don't get along. I made some terrible errors in judgment - moved back to N.O. from a beautiful place in TX, took...
5 masturbation
I am ashamed to say that I love God and I work for his glory in a great way but but but I have only a grave silly single fault only so simple to say but I am deeply hurt when I regret doing it! that is masturbation, I have 24 hrs available internet online, finding a porn site is so easy for me! I do...
6 I Think I Need Help
I am such a terrible person. I have cheated several times in my marriage, I ache for sex with strangers, I fantacise about having several partners at one time fighting over who getts to have sex with me, I am sick and I feel hopeless. I love sex of any kind! I was molested as a child and raped by...
7 emotional affair (online & phone)
My husband had an affair last year while deployed, he had a profile on craigslist and was chatting with a few differnt women but "serious" with 1. He had an online/phone affair with her, I found out during a family day celebration 4 months after they left for training. It was devistating, I blamed myself...
8 Battling The Beast!
My secret is that of sexual sin....I've been struggling with pornography (The Beast) since my early years and a couple of months ago, I got into a program that I've developed faith in. However, the struggle hasn't been easy and 4 days ago, I fell into watching it again.....I know that what I did was...
9 I Love God, love Kids, and love Porn
I work in Childrens Ministry and love the kids I minister to-in a Godly way. I love the Lord with all my being, but I have had an addiction to pornography since I was in second grade. My "head injury" occurred when I was even younger, as my friends, cousins, and neighbors would play the "you show me...
10 Fear of Love
When I was a young child my brothers sexually mollested me. When I told my mother she would spank me for telling on them. This went on for years. And now after therapy I am still afraid to Love a man and Marry. Im fear that he will hurt me and this time I wont have the strenght to Live through it.
11 Abuse, Abuse & More Abuse
I have been sexually abused since I was 2 years old. It continued throughout my childhood. I was in care & those who cared for me did it. As an adult I married a man who abused me. he slept with a knife under the pillow to get his own way with me. I turned to the occult for help & almost committed suicide...
12 Supposed Perfection!
I'm a Christian Teen who struggles with pornography. Every one around me supposes I'm the golden child, who never does wrong. I even want to go into Youth Ministry. However, this bondage to pornography is taking me away from a close relationships tonight. I'm sick of porn, I've always been, however when...
13 Starting over.
I've prayed that my wife and child would die in an accident so that I can start all over with my wife's sister.
14 We Need Pastors Who Preach Against Sin w/Love
I have struggled with porn since discovering my grandfather's magazines when I was 8 years old. I am now a 46 year old father of three grown children. I have never paid for online stuff and God has been gracious enough to keep me from falling too deep. It has truly been his grace. The danger of course...
15 I hate my child
i always wanted a son from the time i was a teen. over the years with new experiences i always thought i would be a great parent. when i reached my late twenties i was living it up and feeling totally free. then at thirty i got knocked up. i was looking into adoption but i opened my big mouth and told...
16 horrible Im so ashamed I want to change. Forgive me Lord.
Lord, forgive me for my sins. I believe in your word, your gospel, I believe in you and love serving you. Mi sin is so shameful that I feel that if I confess it my church leaders will think awful of me and never let me serve. I know this is not the best way to confess, bur right now is all I have courage...
17 So confused
I was very confused as a child about sex and sexuallity and at the age of 7 was sexually abused. This injury to my body effected not only physical aspects of my body but my psychological mental frame of mind was really messed up. i would experience with other neighborhood kids about sex and even with...
18 Childhood Pain
I remember being only in about the 2nd grade when I was sexually assaulted. My mom's friend babysat me and my sister while my mother worked and her son who was in about the 7th grade was the one who sexually assaulted me. I was so confused at the time and he told he not to say a word about it. One night...
19 Confession on my Dirt
I am a minster, and I struggle with Porn! I dont know why I can't shake this bondage. I have done it since I was 11 and I don't want this passed down to my children. I believe it was a gateway for my ex-wife to cheat on me with 9 men and marry a man that was close to me. I hate everything about it, the...
20 I commited adultery and accepted money for sex.
I have had numerous affairs - in my 10 years of marriage. Two seperate men, one ruined my friendship with him since I couldn't stand to face him again. The other, I can't even stand this guy and he goes as far as to pay me for sex. I can't remember when the line blurred. Try as I might to sever this...
21 A Teachers Mistake
I teach a pre-k class which is four years olds. I am normaly a very quiet and easy going person and very loving to my students. I don't know why i lost it one day but I took a child who was screaming and throwing a fit and spanked him on the bottom. I didn't do it hard enough to hurt him but the quilt...
22 Pastor in Porn
I've been addicted to pornography for years, experiencing some long periods of victory but always going back . I am having a child in 2 months and I desperately do not want him to fall into the same sin that I have. I want to cleanse my home of the filth that I've brought into it. What's more is that...
23 My children
sometimes I don't want my children and wish I could send them off to their dads and sign away my rights. I'm sick of being a mother.
24 ive have exposed myself to my little cousin when i was 15.
i feel so ashamed of what i have done in my past i exposed myself to my little cousin. and ive lived with the guilt and shame of what i have done for years.i am a born again christian now and live a normal life i have never done anything like this ever again.but im haunted by my past i know im forgiven...
25 Still Hurting- 10 Years later
I had an abortion 10 years ago. I still feel remorse, hurt, weak and stupid because of it. I can't talk about it with anyone. My husband cant deal with it. I am always unhappy. I don't want my children to have an unhappy Mom.
26 Sex molested, hurt by men, now sex business escort
I was molested as child and was very promiscuous growing up. I became a Christian and good girl and married. He divorced me and I felt so betrayed. Then more guys hurt and used me. After that, I felt I could not trust men again. I fell into escort biz, I am still active, that was 12 yrs ago. I liked...
27 Love and betrayal
I still love my ex. I always have done. I always will. We would argue, squabble, make up, fall out, make up again, laugh, cry and sing together. He cheated on me when drunk. I pretended I had an affair, just to hurt him back. I lied that I was pregnant with another man's child and he still wanted...
28 need prayer for masterbation/transexual porn
I keep falling into watching transexual porn.I feel so convicted and then repent.but then it catches up with me.i stopped 4 about 6 months and now am starting to fall back into it.i had a problem with masterbation since i was very young. i was touched when i was a child and ever since then struggled...
29 Feeling two faced
Don't have the guts to share with my home friends but i know God tells us we need to take it out of the dark and into the light before it's put in the light and breaks your life. something on those lines. The internet, Porn, Sexual, temptation masterbation . I was exposed to porn so much as a child and...
30 confused
my boyfriend and i have been together for 5 years and i have lied and cheating in our relationship as i did not believe in him or us that he really loved me but really it was myself. My childhood was messed up and i have put up walls and lived in fear ..just recently i recieved a phone call that he...
31 Years of acting
I am A young man who is married with my first child, i have been given a amazing wife and ministry. looking back at life i was molested by an older cousin which killed me. later on in life i was exposed to freinds black box ( free cable with porn access) and thats where it all started this rollerocaster...
32 Control and Cure
For twenty-one years my Dad lied to my entire family and controlled us, while abandoning us for at least 8 years of that time. Recently I was told that he had a 2nd life slept with another woman and had a child with her. The emotional pain of my experience is unbearable and I don’t know how to move...
33 What else can I give up?
For my wife and children I gave up smoking, smoking weed, partying, all my friends, my career of choice, a great sex life, the city I loved, the hobbies I loved, EVERYTHING. And for God, and my family, I know it's right. I know it's worth it. But it's made me miserable. Now, instead of being a happy...
34 Prayer Needed
I am a married man who has always been struggeling with porn. I struggled before marriage and after. My wife knows that I struggle but she doesn't know that I am still trapped in the sin of porn. She is pregnant with our first child and I don't want to be the kind of father who has a porn addiction,...
35 Single Parent
My ex boyfriend left me when he found out i was 3 months pregnant. I've never seen him since and he's never met our son. That was 3 years ago and i'm petrified that one day he'll come looking for his son. My little boy is the most amazing thing in the world and i am so proud. I don't ever want to share...
36 Endless Cycle
I've been dealing with a porn and masturbation since I was eight years old. I've looked at so many different types of porn and have incredibly damaged my view of women. I even went as far as touching my sister when we were children - I am thankful that it didn't last nor turn into anything horrible....
37 Sex addiction
I am addicted to sex. I am married, and have a child....I rarely have sex with my husband, but am easily led into having sex with other people. I have cheated on my husband with 2 different people, and have a desire to continue to do so. I love being wanted, and enjoy the excitement. I know its wrong,...
38 I
As a child, as early as I can remember my sexual desire was awake and motivated. I learned to masturbate early and as a teen ager I began to regularly look at porn. When I married and had children I stayed away from it for years. Then I began to look at porn again. This time I moved into gay porn....
39 What to do?
I am a single. It's over a month now since I slept with a divorced woman who has 2 children. She became pregnant. Now she wants to abort the baby. Everything got so complicated that I dont know where to start. I don't know how my friends (including my family and church) will react to this. Please advice...
40 abuse
It struck me the other day... I was probably in one of the first waves of children to have been sexually victimized over the web by a predator much older than me. I turned 15 during that time period. He told me, at 15, I was a woman.
41 The pain I cause.
I have been addicted to pornography for years. I have been married for four years to a wonderful woman. We are now expecting our first child. During our first year, I was able to abstain from pornography, but as the years rolled on, I began looking at more and more porn and masturbating. Whenever,...
42 suffering in silence
For as long as i can remember alchol has allways been part of my life as a child growing up, to my own adult life, im now a mother who from day to day feels the need to drink the poison of hell ... it brings guilt to myself missery to my family, and it takes you into a life which, i dont want to go,...
43 Lost
I am lost. I have always felt alone, even as a child. I am married, with kids. No one seems to ever be there for me, I am always the one there for everyone else. I give and give, but when I need help...no one of flesh and blood is there. It is lonely, I sometimes fall into deep depressions that only...
44 Fraud
I feel like a fraud. Everyone thinks I am a great, strong, faithful military wife and devout Christian. They don't know that I fell in love with someone else. Someone married, with children. Someone of great influence, who is also a Christian. Someone much older. He fell in love back. Nothing physical...
45 Just a mom
Im a alcoholic.Im a single mom.My children are my blessings.I have been through detox,and I went right back to whiskey.I have a very blessed life, I would give anything for one day without this lie I have believed for so long.I can drink infront of anyone and they dont see it. But I feel it, and my life...
46 Lord forgive me for I have sinned
Lord please forgive me for I have sinned. I have been addicted to pornography and masturbation since the age of 15, I will turn 46 next week. The addiction started with me reading Playboy and Hustler magazines, that belonged to my dad, then progressed to watching porn videos. It has now progressed to...
47 My Confession
I survived a horrible domestic violence marriage. Now other sick memories have surfaced (some 40 years later). I was molested as a child. I'm not sure why these memories have surfaced now, but I am just sick about them. The first memory I have involves a sleepover at a friend's house - I was about...
48 Porn and Masturbation Addiction
I must admit I;ve never thought I would be addicted to something like this, but like many others I am, I've tried and tried again to stop, but It seems like the more I put my foot forward to stop, the more I indulge in this unGodly behavior, I reaaly wished I've never layed eyes on porn of any kind,...
49 I Love my Mother, But...
I love my mom but every day I make efforts not to become like her. She let herself go and became a fat, badly dressed, bitter and manipulative woman who would say harsh things and spank for almost anything. I am married with two beautiful children now....I am scared to death to become her. I want...
50 Sick of Lust controlling my Life!
I have hurt myself, strangers, friends, my children and my wife thur my self centered belief that my sexual actions are my concern only. I have stumbled thru life and somehow have come across a woman (my wife Julie) that is a true example of Gods love for his people. I confess now that I can not heal...
51 A life ruined
I had an abortion before I was married. Never felt guilt or shame. Then I suffered from miscarriages. As a married woman, I got pregnant. My husband informed me he did not want this child. The end resulted in an abortion & now I am childless & resentful of my husband & living in regret, guilt & shame...
52 NO Room for a BREAKDOWN
I have so much anger inside for my mother. I lost my home last year which was devistating to me. She encouraged me to move in with her and my father instead of getting an affordable apartment. After all the expense of moving and trying to get re-established in a poor ecomony, my mother has put me and...
53 Happy Secret
I am in love, not just a fling, not just lust but full blown in love. But I am also very scared that he is not in love with me so... I opened an facebook page with the picture of a very pretty boy.... I started to flirt with myself in hope he will get jalous and finaly make a move... ... Well...
54 Truly feeling Romans 7:21-23(the msg)
I am a college student who is VERY active in my church. I grew up in the church and have been going ever since I was 5yr old. I attend EVERY Wednesday night & Sunday for Bible Study & Worship. I even help out on Sunday morning's with serving communion, greeting, usher, and even children's church. But...
55 cruel love
I want to marry a man who has a girlfriend and a child ~_~. Love is cruel to me always. I want him. He should have told me no in the begining!
56 sex
i had sex and the condom broke, I cant afford a child right now, pray that gods will be done.
57 Please pray for me
I never thought I would end up asking for prayer for this, especially since I've grown up in a Christian family but I think I'm pregnant.I usually plan out when my next period is going to be & I've missed the due date.If I am pregnant I don't know what I'm going to do! I'm still in school and I already...
58 My Dirt Little Secret
I have struggled with porn and masturbation since my childhood. I actually confessed to my wife and even got professional counseling, but now I have started all over again. I don't want to tell my wife because I don't want to drag her thru this again. Dear heavenly Father please heal me and help me...
59 SECRET
I was molested as a child by a priest at our church. I've had to live with this baggage hanging over my head for over 20 years; everyday I want to kill myself for what he did.
60 How can God want me?
I'm 57. I was born when my parents were 45, 18 years after my sister. She'd moved out and my mother was also going to leave my alcoholic, unfaithful, abusive father...but then there was me. I've heard that my father raped her, or she had an affair, or that he tried to get her to have an abortion. Whatever...they...
61 Nacho
I am now a 50 year old woman, at age 28 I was going to a community college taking my general ed classes and I was taking a piano class on Friday's. There was a student in my class, not a tall man nor a extremely handsome man but there was something about this guy, his energy he was a pleasant and funny...
62 Recovering pervert
I was in grade school when I was first exposed to sex. It started with magazines. Then it lead to my friend and I engaging in our first homosexual experience (pray for him please as he has not found Christ). Since then I was very sexually confused. Probably the worst thing I ever did was download...
63 I am Broken
I am a Father of 2 wonderful girls, with another child on the way. I have a wonderful wife, who has supported me through some difficult times in my life. I try to be a great example to my God and my Family. But when I was young and single I thought watching and reading porn was a better alternative than...
64 Too many secrets
I have secrets that I have kept for years. I was molested by an uncle when i was 8 or 9-years-old. I told my mom about it ( he was her youngest brother) she told me to tell him to stop it. Because of this molestation I have made horrible decisions when it came to personal relationships in my life....
65 My love nightmare
I miss a guy from my old neighborhood and he's sitting pretty somewhere with his girlfriend or wife now and child having a wonderful life and I'm missing him every year of my life. Especially near Christmas. I get on with life without him but the hurt never goes away :(.I wonder if he even thinks about...
66 I love you not
I have a boyfriend and he tells me all the time how much he loves me. We've ONLY been together two months, and he tells me how he wants to spend of the rest of his life with me and have children with me....Im only 19...I just dont see this relationship going the way he wants it to...Along with that,...
67 I am insecure
I am so insecure with myself that I hide behind being a smart mouth class clown. I shield my true feelings behind a false armor. I don't trust anyone because I am the queen of all liars. I am jealous of everyone and everything but I hide it by being overly nice to people. My true venomous feelings eat...
68 so many sins
I've committed so many terrible sins which I am sorry for. I lost my virginity at 12, and between that age and 24, I had about 50 partners. I had 2 abortions, which both times my mother encouraged me. I can't believe I did that- it was so evil. I am no married and I have 2 children. I also worked as...
69 Christian woman addicted to porn and mastrabation
I have been struggling with this issue for some time. I feel so alone. Who would think that a woman would be addicted to porn and other filth? I am ready to put it to rest by the grace of God. I am only * and have had this struggle for years. I am so unhealthy in life and in my walk with Jesus....
70 What to do in a world of no direction
I cheated. I had what I thought would be a little affair. But what ended up happening was that I fell for the guy. I can't live a day without thinking about him. But I can't leave my husband because we have kids together and it hurts more to imagine my children being torn between us than my suffering....
71 I
I grew up a christian my whole life.. I started dating this guy 4 years ago, he got me into oxycodeine real bad.. I got pregnant, stopped taking them, moved in with him.. started taking regular perks instead.. Had to be high all day, all the time.. It was comsuming my life.. Not to mention he had cheated...
72 how do I cope?
I was molested by people I believed in all my life, even my uncle. i never told my mom who is a preacher because i was was afraid of disapointing her. i got to the point where i just "gave it up" because i felt if i did not do it willingly, they would take it from me anyways. i blocked out my past,...
73 DYING
I experienced pornographic material for the first time when I was 13. I will never forget it. Now I am 27 and happily married with 3 children. I haven't had an addiction that requires daily attention, yet I AM an addict, and my mind is dirty and in need of healing. I have a successful ministry and...
74 going to hell for cert.
I am 15 and i have a real problem. I am a christian and i am struggling to break my addiction to masturbation but tonight i failed. I know for certain now i am going to hell because God said to me in a dream that "while you masturbate, you are a child of the devil." I am terrified now, but i could...
75 One Day at a Time!
Please pray for me as I'm trying to get back on my feet from having an affair with a very close friend of mine and my husband's. After he ended the affair cause he's married also, I fell apart. I've thought about ending my marriage because I feel like the love has died. I don't know how to get that love...
76 In Need of Help
I am the wife of a minister. I have beautiful children but I have a secret life. I am in secondlife, having an affair and living the life completely opposite of what those around know. I have found that this is feeding to other things like porn and so forth. I have failed the Lord, my husband and...
77 Confession of a Minister
I am husband, father, and minister. I was introduced to sexual impurity when at a young age. I was molested once and my father's porn collection. For 15 years i have been addicted to pornography. My passion for Jesus Christ is failing and i have become lazy at work. I am ashamed very time i looked into...
78 confession
I am a believng christian from childhood on. My parents were pentecostals but I remain in the Evangelical Lutheran Church. I live in a happy marriage since 25 years, however we have no children. By the grace of God we have taken care of our godson whose parents are divorced and given him love and care....
79 Fatherhood
I gave up custody of my two children to my ex-wife when I was younger. They came back into my life when they were around 8 &10 years old. I endured a custody battle with my ex in-laws and had temporary custody of my children but things were starting to go their way and my kids wanted to go live with...
80 keeping fat keeps guys away
I grew up with the girls/ women should look great ,look sexy attitude to gets guy's and yes I did look great and I did look sexy and got hit on all through my teen years and 20's. But all I every wanted was a male to love me for me not my looks. I had a great childhood loving mother, no struggles all...
81 gay
I attend * youth group in *. i've been gay pretty much my whole life. i was molested by my cousin, a male, when i was a young child. which might have sparked something. i gave my life to christ and thought my problems were over. its been over a year since i've slept with a male or anyone for that matter....
82 Blamed God for my decision
My deepest desire in life is to be married with a family. When God sent my current boyfriend into my life, I thought it was meant to be and jumped into the relationship with both feet. Because his father is a pastor, we knew better than to live together, but we did/do. Once, I suspected I was pregnant...
83 I'm sooo sorry
Me and my husband were going through a really hard time after our second child was born. It was a traumatic experience as our son was 3 months prem and had be in an incubator for just over 2 months. During that time i found out that my husband had had sex with another a younger girl, but it was only...
84 starate gay bisexal counfused
im * male stated to masterbate snice 13 to females at 15 gay * i love shemales but i always go back to girls than guys and shemale i have a fethis for panyhose when i masterbate to woman im fine but to males i feal disgusted with my self a shamed but i cant stop i dont now how to pray to god becuse when...
85 I will be free
If I hide my sins I will not prosper, but If I confess my sins I will obtain mercy, so here goes. I never thought I'd ever admit this, but I'm sick and tired of struggling with it. I've had homosexual affinities ever since I was in pre-school. I don't know where they came from or how a child of that...
86 my hypocritical life
I am a pastor who has been involved with pornography. I am so ashamed, so guilty. I have blasphemed the name of God and sinned against my wife, children, and church. I'm wearied with living a double life, wearied of my abominable wickedness. Please pray for me.
87 Scared Mom
My husband is an alcoholic. My life consist of lies and no trust. I can't have any time to myself because that would entail leaving him with my children and I wont. I am going into a nursing program feeling insecure, stupid, and that my attempt will fail just like my life. I can't help but wonder if...
88 Fam(ily)
My mother is always telling me how much she wants grandchildren and how she has wanted them since she was a little girl, but I want to be a virgin for the rest of my life.
89 Inner conflict, pastor fighting homosexuality
I am a youth pastor. I love God and I will do anything to keep and protect my ministry. I was molested when I was a child for about 4 years every Saturday. From when I was in 7th grade til after I graduated High school, I lived a homosexual lifestyle. I have struggled with pornography since then....
90 Boylover
I dont know how this came about, but I have an attraction to little boys. I dont act on this attraction although I have had many thoughts about doing things with boys. I live a normal life, only a few know this about me, just those I knew I could trust. When I was 24 I was caught looking at pictures...
91 Possible pregnancy...
Forgive me, for I have sinned. I did not abstain until marriage as I once believed I was to do. We did not use protection, partly in stupidity, partly by being caught in the moment. I realize it was a very foolish thing to do, considering neither of us is ready to support a child at this point in...
92 Sham
I am a woman, and I was sexually abused by two of my older girl cousins when I was 6. A year later at age 7, I sexually abused my younger girl cousin. We thought it was like playing doctor or "pretending" to be boyfriend and girlfriend, but as I got older, I realized it was wrong and I am ashamed that...
93 Broken Covenant
When my daughter was two I asked GOD to let me win the lottery, I offered to trade my child. Some months later, my child was taken from me. I never won and am still as poor as I was that day. Today is the first day I haven't bought a lottery ticket in 18 years. For the longest time I blamed GOD, because...
94 Secret Oral Sex with Friends Daughter
Last week, I went on a camping trip with my best friend and his family. My two children also went, but my wife (who hates camping) stayed home. All of us had separate tents to sleep in at night. I was awakened in the middle of the night with the sensation of receiving oral sex. I could tell from her...
95 I can
I am married to the most beautiful woman/wonderful mother in the world.... But.... I am a habitual adulterer. I am so ashamed and am sick to the point of almost vomiting after the act. But for some reason I can't stop..... I stated above that she is beautiful and I love her dearly but we don't communicate,...
96 Crippled
I can remember the first time my brother and I found porn at a very young age. I found myself saying that the urge for porn and masterbation would leave when I got married, then after that I thought it would leave when I left the Navy, then I thought it would leave when I started to attend Bible college....
97 Wasted time. Father forgive me.
The whole time I've been married I have wasted time. Browsing online, playing video games, talking with friends or clients on the phone about stupid things. Somehow or another I waste hours every day. I have struggled to limit my wastefulness and failed. God continues to protect me despite my stupidity....
98 came this close...
I'm a male pastor. Been a Christian for many years. Married with children. A female friend of mine (not from the church) hit on me last week and I let her. I also flirted back with her. As we flirted I became aroused. And she knew it - and enjoyed it. It got to the point where we could have had...
99 i was sexually abused when i was a little girl
i was sexually abused when i was a little girl by an old man, my neighbour. he touched me and i touched him and we played, i didnt understand what was that at the age of 5. My problem is now i am 28 years old and i have never had any relationships with men.i think i am scared of men, though i know i...
100 Living 2 Lives - Internal shame is killing me - Please Help Me
Where do I start. Father that wasn't ready for kids and luckily a mother that gave her life to me. For 40yrs my father =petty criminal, liar and gambler. Mom = stood by him and accepted him back. Gone from a strong woman to a shell of a woman. Emotionally hurt both of us. Now me. Strong independant...
101 I sleep with my sister
For as long as I can remember, my sister and I have been having sex together with our mothers blessing...we have both been married, yet our liasians continue to this day anytime we are together. I don't feel it is bad , yet we have both had bad marriages and we have talked about commiting to each other...
102 my confession
I saw my first magazine when I was 6 and I've been hauted by porn ever since then. My list of wrongs is large. I've viewed so much porn, gone to clubs, adult bookstores, let myself get involved with other women and men for oral sex. I have felt and still do feel disgusting. I have been in ministry full...
103 what am i thinking?
Where to begin........I"m married with three amazing children. I view porn on the internet regularly while masterbating. I currently have a dirty magazine and a masterbation toy hidden in my closet, under my bed that my wife is sleeping on is yet again more magazines. I have frequented strip clubs...
104 Online Porn and Sex Addiction
I have struggled with porn and sex addiction since I was very young. I don't know how it started, but I have masturbated at work, in a public restroom, stayed up til morning looking at porn at the College Library, watched indecent movies, secretly watching young girls at public places, even getting turned...
105 i have
no matter how bad it is you can turn things around. wake up tomorrow and realize that it is the first day of the rest of your life. find those places (physical and spiritual) that will help to heal you. stay away from the ones that wont. you are superman, you are the mountain, you are in control. my...
106 Love Lost Long Ago
I lost my one true love over 30 years ago...I got pregant at 18 and had an abortion because I thought at the time that it was the correct thing to do....I became so depressed and upset and I Pushed Him Away. I was too proud or stupid to understand that I was just depressed and I lost him. I have been...
107 I married the wrong man
I am in love with someone other than my husband. I cringe during sex with my husband unless I close my eyes and think of this other man. I am an adulterer, my mind strays, therefore I am. I wonder if this is it for me, is this all I get? A life without true love because I got pregnant and felt obligated...
108 angry
i have so many secrets that leaves me heavy with regret, i was abused as a child and raped by my uncle. these acts lead to many other acts that i would do and ways i would punish myself. lead to many destructive behaviors on into my adult life, i have committed sexual sins and have tried to stop but...
109 im sorry
When i was around 5-6 i was sexually abused by my older brother, i dont really think i relised it was bad untill a few years later, but i sexually experimented with my cousin and around 4 of my childhood friends. I belive i now face problems because of this, i feel like the only time i can connect with...
110 I want my husband back.
We have been separated for four years, married for twelve. I love him so much, and we have three children. We are trying to work it out, since he just began telling me the truth after lying to me for years about everything. He wants a divorce, and I am praying he will change his mind. He says he...
111 I'm Sorry
When I was 6 or 7, I flicked my nephew's penis while changing his diaper. When he smiled, I did it a second time. Although I've never done anything like this since then, I feel like a child molester. I was curious to know what it felt like but I knew that what I did was wrong. I knew that I shouldn't...
112 Raped By My Sister
I was raped by my sister for the first time last year. I know how most people view rape. I know most people think that a male cannot be raped by a female but that isn't true. Just because my body reacts to what she does, it doesn't mean my mind and heart does. I try to fight her off but she is just so...
113 hardships of love
i read his emails, text msgs ...I thought it is very childish but turned out that he invites other girls for dinners, says"I love you" to others and calls them "babes". And what I am supposed to do? I should leave...but sth holds me back.It is called Love. I am playing happy and say "I love you too"...
114 I hate being married
because I'm married to someone who woo's me, but doesn't totally respect me at the same time. I often withhold sexual intamacy because it doesn't feel right. We have been married for 11 years and have 2 children together. What's worse is that I've allowed myself to get comfortable in this lifestyle...
115 Disappointment
My sin is immaturity. I am 40+ years old, and I still am too impatient. I am too often quick to react. I do not always use my years of experience to make the best decisions I can. I sometimes act childishly, sometimes with my own children. I am sometimes impulsive. I am not disciplined enough to...
116 I'm tired of it...
I've been addicted to porn for years now. I'm sick of it and the shame and worry is driving me nuts. I've even been known to look at child porn. It disgusts me to know i could be interested in something so sick, yet still be drawn to it. I've given my life to Christ recently and just want this sickness...
117 This temptation
I have been saved for about 2 years now..But since I got saved the enemy has came in twice as hard..When i was living a unsaved life everything seemed peachy but now it seems like its going down hill..I try not to lust but its just human nature is what everyone tells me..I used to be a huge druggy and...
118 Cheating Husband?
I can not trust. I doubt and am afraid all the time that my husband will cheat on me. He has done this before and although he swears to his faithfulness. I react daily in fear that he is cheating. We have children together. And I know, I put to much trust in him. I know I need to trust God but find...
119 I want to commit suicide...
Ive struggled so much with porn, i first saw regular porn and then after a stupid decision i started to watch gay porn, because i basically got so many bad thoughts when i was around women. I have been molested by a guy sexually one when i was a child... perhaps thats why i turned to fay porn?!? I dont...
120 Secret Rage
I can't stand my sister in-law and how she tries to control things in our life. Also can't stand my in-laws and their shallow self-righteous act of theirs. I wish he, (wife's father) would fall into sin sometime so that he wouldn't think so much of himself as he does now. He's a real piece of work this...
121 sin
I have had an affair with a beautiful woman who I have falalen in love with. I have been seperated from my wife for 4 months also. Today I have to make the decision to return home or stay gone and start divorce proceddings. Right now I feel that the only way I would return is not to lose my chidren...
122 I AM SO ASHAMED
I posted personal information on the internet about an ex in a childish attempt to hurt and embarrass her. While I have taken steps to have this information removed, I am very ashamed of what I have done. Please pray that God will forgive me for these dispicable acts, that I never do anything like...
123 guilty
i am a woman that has had 3 abortions and i hate the fact that I did that to my unborn chidren, to my living children. each time a part of my soul leaves me. no matter what i will never do this again...under no circumstance and i pray that god will forgive and does not hate me for this. the pain runs...
124 I hold it all in
I am in my early 30's. I am a single mom and I am in a wheelchair. I am pretty, nice, LOVE to meet people, VERY sociable. My secret is that I hold all my sadness inside. I might look happy, act happy, but truly I am so SAD. I would've killed myself by now, if it weren't for my child. I have NO ONE to...
125 Terrible secret
I had an abortion at 22...I was raped, but it was by a man I had been dating, so I felt like I really couldn't call it rape and tell anyone. It was the worst decision I have ever made. I felt like I was in a fog and had no one to talk to. I grew up in a very faith-filled home and wondered how could I...
126 Depressed and lonely
I was an abused child by my parents. I was emotionaly and physicaly abused. As a result I remain deeply depressed and sad as a grown middle aged man with a family. I have been lonley all my life. I am in pain most of the time. I feel threatened and insecure most of the time. My loneliness is so deep...
127 Gross Sexual Sin
I have trouble with porn, and sometimes on rare occassion I look at, though pretty much just look or maybe a quick side glance, child or animal porn. It's very rare, and the child porn may not even be children, just young women maybe. But anyway, I'm addicted to regular porn. And at least once a week...
128 Food addict
I love to eat food, but I hate my body because of it. I have been diagnosed as a compulsive overeater, but I don't want to do anything about it. I mean, I do, but I don't. I was sexually abused as a child, but I don't know who did it or all of the memories surrounding it yet, either. This causes...
129 Drugs Make me A Lier And A Theif
I've been a christian as long as I can remember. Ihad a strong Holy Spirit experience in the late 80's I've used drugs since I was A teenager . History of child sexual abuse and emotional neglect.I"ve been to tereatment several times and12 step meetings I had a mental break down in1996. I,ve been in...
130 CONFESIONES
Buneo I really want to confess that I have sinned a lot, and I was engaged to my wife since we were children. The first time was that engage with a prostitute me oral sex, as there were never done and what I really like. He lied to my mother, ... borrowed money to be able to ask handle and cover some...
131 My path led to the suffering of others around me either way.
I didn't dare to become me in my childhood and teenagerhood because I would rather be hurt than to hurt others. My expectations were that I would kill myself before I turned 22. My depression led unto schizophrenia. And my wanting to resolve my schizophrenia caused pain unto others. Eventually, it hurt...
132 I was sexually abused as a child
I was 12 years old, and my cousin, who was my idol, my hero, sexually abused me on multiple occasions. At the time, I was unaware of what was going on, and for many years after, I neglected to see how it has harmed me, until now. I am 21 years old, a college basketball player, and I have never had a...
133 Molested as a child
I am almost 50. When I was a child, I was molested by other kids at school repeatedly. There was no rape, oral sex or penetration, but they would fondle my genitals and my rear end with my pants on. I was very little and couldn't defend myself against the bigger kids. I was too ashamed to tell anybody...
134 Happily married father of 2 addicted to porn
I have been addicted to porn since I was 16 years old. I always thought that I could stop but have never been able to. I have been a elder and a Deacon in 2 different churches. I have been at one time charged with possesion of child Porn. My wife by the grace of God has stuck with me through out...
135 I
Some years ago I was a a very romantic girl believeing in love. I thought I fount a very good man. I married him 6 years ago and I gave birth to 2 wonderful children. He comes home only late at night just to eat and go to sleep and I'm completely alone. He doesn't care for me at all no matter how sad...
136 I Don't Want Your Child
I tell my family that I don't want children because it's too big of a responsibility and I want my freedom. In reality, I don't want children because I know I will be just like my mother, and I couldn't bear to do that to a child.
137 I've had an affair and its turned my life upside down.
I'm married to a very strong woman. Strong in every way. Unfortunately she is very much one sided and overly argumentative. I can't say ANYTHING to her about a concern I may have without her insulting me in such way that at one point I stopped loving her. I remember that day. I broke down in tears at...
138 leader child victim
I am a leader of a church group who is working very hard to deal with this addcition. I relize today that I don't know when my life did not have pornagray in it. I was so young when it first was introduced I can't place when. I know at four I knew all there was to know, I say that loosely. My brother...
139 I will never forget....
When I was 12 I had sexual thoughts and feelings of wanting to experiment that were very strong and I had a thought in my mind of experimenting on a child sexually, but that thought only lasted a split second and I knew better and did nothing. I still feel like just having the thought in my mind...
140 Sacrifice.
I would give my life for another. If I saw someone in harm's way, I'd place myself in front of them. I'd defend any woman, man, animal or child being abused. Not because I'm a good person. But because I want to die so badly. And suicide feels like cheating.
141 I Betrayed My Wife and Children
I was married for many years to a very fine woman with whom I have children. She was a good wife, but our sex life was infrequent and very inhibited. We had different sex drives, mine was much stronger. I supressed it or engaged in pornography and masturbation. After 10 years of marriage I began...
142 Dressing up.
What a great site&ministry this is. Found it via podcast on xxxchurch&so encouraged to see the work being done here. My confession is in part a celebration. I'm 36&for most of my life I've indulged myself in dressing up. I didn't have the happiest childhoods&I found pleasure, release, escape, excitement...
143 Husband "blows" off affair
My husband & I've been married for 12 years and have 3 children together. Although, I can't prove it, I suspect my husband is secretely gay (or bi-sexual). We're both Christians and try to live a Godly life, but I believe my husband will take it to his grave that he IS only heterosexual. We are intimate...
144 Confused By Affair
I'm a 33 yr old woman & I'm on my second marriage. The first marriage was "forced" by my parents due to an unplanned teenage pregnancy. Married at 17, I decided 2 years later that I was unhappy. I took my 2 year old son and became a single mom at the age of 19. By the age of 21, I met a very successful...
145 Wish he'd just go away
My secret is that I wish my ex-husband would just die. He cheated on me while I was pregnant. My son is now 18 months old and his father wants more visitation rights. I cannot stand the thought of missing out on time with my son. It's not fair. I know that my son deserves a relationship with his...
146 My Wife or My Girlfriend
It started when I found out my wife cheated on me with a co worker of mine. Their affair lasted physically for 3 to 4 months but emotionally about 18 months. I was devistated when I found out. We went to counselling....that didn't work. We separated for 6 weeks.....that didn't work. I wanted my...
147 help
I am a survior growing home achol drugs and sexual problems. I always felt so alone..I was never good enough my parents pushed me to always do better. Just being me wasnt ever good enough I am a surviror of drug addiction in recovery for 2 1/2 years. I have surived in my childhood and in 20s many rapes,...
148 Is god punishing me
I am a twenty six year old lesbian but I love christ, I stuffed a hellish childhood growing up in foster care enduring sexual,mental and emotional abuse. I was eventually adopted and thought I was free from hell when a year later my older brother started molesting me it crushed my world. I know I am...
149 disobedience of the Bible
i married my elementary school sweetheart. i divorced him after almost losing my life and plenty of kicks in the head. he called me after thirteen years and said he has loved me since we were ten years old and wants to have babies with me. i almost went back to him, to my home town and family. i couldn't....
150 Please forgive my sins.
Last year, i had an abortion, my partner did not want a baby, so i done it to sae our relationship. i regretted it the moment i done it and suffered depression afterwards. I fell pregnant again recently, and had an abortion. I have no family, no friends and no one to talk to. My heart is broken and...
151 Going to hell...
I am a married man with three children. I have been having an affair for the last month, and it recently got sexual. I don't know how it happened, she was a good friend and we worked together and then somehow it got serious. I know I need to just end it, but she makes me feel like I count for something...
152 Una enamorada *A lover
tengo pareja desde hace 5 años y dos hijos, pero solo tengo 20 años y soy muy joven, me enamorado de otra persona y ya no siento nada por mi pareja pero me da miedo dejarle por si me hace algo, me a pedido que me case con el y me a regalado un anillo cosa que mi pareja nunca habia echo, necesito...
153 Life of inferiority
I am constantly attacking myself, second guessing myself. I have poor self image and I know that I need to see my identity in Christ, but it is so hard when you've grown up feeling inferior. This has either been because or has brought on feelings of worthlessness and depression within my life. I need...
154 Womanizer
I was a virgin until I was 17 1/2. I found myself able to manipulate women very easily. I was in a relationship for 2 years and almost got married. I have now been with over 40 women. It's only by God's grace that I do not have an STD or any children. I'll be 22 this month. Time for me to do a 180 and...
155 Confused
I feel very confused. I live with man who is going blind we have a child together and our child might not even be his. I feel terrible but I still continue to be dishonest, cheat, and don't love him as much as I want to. But deep inside of me I am terrified, b/c if he does go blind I don't know I would...
156 Church splits...
I have been through several different churches, each of which went through a split. I felt like a child racked by a divorce. I feel that I perpetuate this pattern of breaking off relationships in my own life. And the abandonment issues I carry from the last split have given me an excuse not to form...
157 alone and seeking God
I am a 28 year ols single mom with no family, except a mom and brother who are addicts and very unstable. my brother molested me from age 6 to 11. My mom and step-dad were alcoholics, ver abusive to each other physicall and mentally. Also abusive to my brother and I when we were teenagers. I was...
158 Traveling Heartache
I'm married and I cheat on my wife...All the time. Sex and Emotion from other woman are like drugs for me. I travel from city to city, and woe woman. They think they've found the perfect man. After my week or two long affairs im fine for a few weeks for months, but I always do it again. My wife has...
159 Life
I work, I have a wife and children.. I sleep more than I should. Pray for me. I battle depression. I need God in my life more than ever! Not just for me but for family and friends.
160 Christian MD that struggles with homosexuality
I'm a 28 yo single Christian male that struggles with homosexuality. I am also a physician. I know both the spiritual and health related consequences of such and still have placed myself at risk. My dad and I never connected when I was a child, my mother was overprotective. I sufferred at least two major...
161 The Guilt of my Texting/Messaging Unfaithfulness
I have an old friend from high school whom I have gotten in touch with in the last 2 years via the internet. We were good friends in high school and tried on various occasions to have a relationship; it never panned out. I met the love of my life and got married, 14 years now. We have 3 gorgeous...
162 Dying Inside
I am a married man with children who has recently redidicated his life to Christ. I have struggled with addiction to sex and pornography. A few months after my wife and I were married 8 years ago I had sex with a co-worker on a business trip after too many drinks. I immediately felt guilty about it and...
163 she drives me crazy
ok well im at a childrens home and I live with a house mom and a house dad. well my mom is driving me nuts. She takes things too seriously and then tries to tell me that it is all my fault well ya....I told her that Splenda wasnt good for you and she was like, "Well then Im stupid, im stupid..." and...
164 Monster Mom
i am in a childrens home. wich is totally lame! and my house mom is nuts! she is crazy! im pretty sure she is lying to me. and she will argue with me about something. and i will win. and then she will change her story and say that SHE said that ALL along! at the place im in, they make us call our house...
165 thief!
i used to steal money off my mum to fuel my addiction for a childs card game, i just wish i could tell her
166 I dont like my children
My kids are grown. One is lazy, with 4 kids, 3 moms, no job. The other is just out of prison, drug and alcohol user, no job. I think I must have been a bad mom for them to turn out like this. I thought I was a good mom. I was home with them, did school stuff, sports, church. I don't know what happened....
167 he wasn't the one
My ex housesister * was very obsessed with this one boy *. She would always say that she was deeply in love with him and I have a fear that he forgot who she was while she was at the childrens home. I think he was cheating on her. I just want people to pray that * maybe wasnt the right person and she...
168 was the time I lived by stealing and selling
I live in *, my family four children, now all is well. But there was time when I was stealing and selling marijuana. I ask those people from whom I stole forgive me. *This post has been edited for content
169 Moral dilemma
Long story, but here goes, A few years back, my girlfriend (we weren't together at the time) started sleeping with her best friends' boyfriend...I was told this started when she was drunk and was taken advantage of. I was also told that he had continued to talk to her about sex (ie: cheating on me...
170 Lost
For years my father molested me when I was a child into my teen years. It didn't stop until I attempted to end my life. I thought I did something wrong and didn't understand why my father hated me enough to do this to me. At times, I couldn't understand how God could look the other way for so long. Because...
171 guilt
i have gave 10 years of my life to drugs and wasted 10 years of my children lifes i am clean know and struggledaily to stay that way but the guilt is over welming
172 Took over my life
I went to this youth group and the church my whole life and last school year we found out that every thing was going to change for the better they said. But finds out that it wasnt every thing changed.Because of this church that took over my mom almost lot her job because they said they dont want them...
173 desire forgiveness and healing
I would like to confess to atleast one Christain so I may be healed. I am a sinner. I am self-centered, self-seeking, rude, argumentative, sexually immoral,rebellious, lustful, greedy, unthankful, unholy, have provoked my children to anger, unloving, unkind, unbelief, prideful, selfish ambition, lazy,...
174 Abortion
I have had two abortions in my lifetime. One at 17 & another at 21. I beg God to forgive me every single day. I am ashamed & remorsefull. Today I have two beautiful children and I often wonder why God has blessed me so much when I know that I don't deserve it.
175 Need prayer
I continually seem to fall back into sexual sin. I also try to get my wife to join me and talk to her about things that are innappropriate. I also have recently had dreams that told me I am going to die soon because of my sins, and that there is no more hope for me. I also want to be a better husband...
176 Mother masturbating infant son.
I am a mom of 22 years old and on a nurse's suggestion, in order to quite my 6 month-old son ,who was having very frequent erections, i began relieving his sexual tensions with my hand. This is a very common practise in many parts of the world she told me. My son is uncircumcised and i just work his...
177 Codependent
I am codependent. This basically means that my self-worth and self-esteem is so low that I take others problems and responsibilities on myself to confirm that I have worth in this world. I have been a Christian for 12 years and have yet to truly experience God's love because I even feel inadequate...
178 I abused my pets when a child :(
I abused my beautiful cat and dog twice when I was a child. Poor cuties ~_~. I have paid the price! Please noone else torture me......I will be eternally grateful
179 Addicted, Confused
Sexually abused as a child I grew up sexually promiscuous,paid for a girlfriends abortion, and later addicted to pornography. I've got two wonderful kids now and after being caught with porn by my wife I've been able to receive her forgivness and confess to my parents and siblings. My wife has fallen...
180 What burned me for life
I was raped when I was a very young girl. I got wind of this 'no sex before marriage' idea and asked my religious day-care center teacher about it. She confirmed that yes, people who have sex before marriage go to hell. I told her I'd already had sex, and she called me a liar and I had to change teachers....
181 Backslider
I met the lord when I was 15 teen in a girls home and had a really close relationship and came home to find out I was having a hard time fitting back in this world being scared ran back to old friends and past sins to fit back in.Now I am 38 and have three children and desperately what that relationship...
182 Prayers needed...
When I started High School I started drinking and doing drugs. My mom decided to send me to a christian childrens home and it hurt alot. I thought my mom didnt care. Well now I have found Jesus...for real and I have realized that I really need him. I am dealing with what my brothers dad did to me. He...
183 Divorce should be an option
If two people are married and truely unhappy together, when is divorce ok? There are children involved and I think they would be happier if their parents were happier, and I think their parents would be happier pursuing different relationships. It's not that they aren't great Christians, just that...
184 My ultimate life sins
I was a whore for four months. I mainly did oral. I felt bad and wanted to stop. I did it cuz i badly needed the money to accomplish my dream and move to the other side of the world away from pain and start over. One day a man gave me huge sum to keep in touch. I took it but didn't keep in touch. Flew...
185 My marriage sucks...
I feel like my marriage really bites. I'm sure this is normal and I've probably got it better than many, but I also don't feel like I should be happy because I don't get beat or cheated on. I also feel betrayed by God because I knew (or thought I did) that my husband was "the one"... and I don't want...
186 Abortion
When I was 15 years old I got pregnant. I did not know what to do. I was so afraid. I wrote a letter to my best friend and left it for my Mom to mail for me. She sensed something was wrong with me and something was going on so she decided to open it and read it before mailing it. She immediately told...
187 Need to get this off my chest
I have been keeping this horrible secret for many years now. I am absolutely disgusted with myself. When I was about 19 years old I did something sexual with a toddler girl. I was also really heavy in to lesbian porn. I don't know how or why I could ever do something so horrible. It was a one time thing...
188 Im sorry cousin for judging.
I just found out yesterday that my cousin was sexually molested as a child. And she is now a teen. That is why she always acted so differently than everyone else. If I wouldve known when I was younger, I wouldve treated her differently, not as judgingly. Im sorry cousin. I do love you.
189 anger
my ex boyfriend turned out to be a pedophile. he molested 4 children that we know of. he has slipped through the loopholes of the justice system and is free. i feel i turned him into a pedophile because i like to role play sexually and i brought the monster in him out. i hate myself. i used to be...
190 I died that day.
I am a nanny and about to get married and yet when I found out that I was 15 weeks and 5 days pregnant I ended it and now I just want to die to stop the pain. I am suppose to act like that is our first child, NO it isn't and I hate myself for taking my little boy away from myself I would have been 18...
191 I Truely Cant Forgive.
I told you I fogive you for taking my children while I was out, but the trueth is my pain does not let me keep my word and my tiers still hate even when I say I love You too.
192 jealousy
I am jealous of all my friends at church. Their grown children seem to be happily married with children and good jobs. My children are struggling with relationships and direction. I can't stand it when people in church ask me how my daughters marriage is doing. Or when is my son going to find a wife....
193 STILL IN LOVE..
I was in a relationship with a man for 8 years, we have a 6 year old child together.Within that time, he met someone else 4 years ago.He cheated on me with her, and now he is married to her and they are expecting a child. I am still seeing him and having a sexual relationship with him. I feel bad, but...
194 show
i love this life. but i sometimes i dont understand what i have to do to live right. as being a child i was dreaming about becoming a singer. so now i desided to realise this dream. but i dont know how.there are dificulties. trere is an opinion that actors are people who sold a soul to devil. but i dont...
195 abortion 16 yrs ago
i had an illegal abortion 16 years ago. i still remember the pain... i didn't regret it at all and still consider it to be the correct move. or else, i won't have the life i have now. i'm so in love with a guy now and hope one day we could get marry. when talking about having baby, i'm so afraid...
196 sexual sin
I'm divorced, w/an illegitimated child. I love God but have a lot...A LOT of trouble trusting people. I keep everyone @ arms length and have not truly had a romantic relationship in 6yrs. I've had a sexual relationship, a "friend" who I know I want nothing more from. I try to abstain, when I think...
197 Vitamin C
I have never wanted children, and I recently got impregnated. When I realized I wanted to keep the baby because I couldn't imagine killing any part of my boyfriend. But I purposely miscarried by over dosing on vitamin C so I could stay with my boyfriend. The next day I cried when I saw a little baby...
198 Neglect and rape in youth still hurts too much
I have survived a childhood of neglect with a mentally ill mother and mostly absent father, due to his work. When I was young I got in a relationship with and lived with an abusive guy for 5 years total, even though he was abusive and raped me unbelievably somewhere between 3,000-5,000 times, I lost...
199 My Confession
Almost 8 years ago I had Sex with a guy and we where in love. My mom and dad hate him. We made a mistake and we know that we should have waited and that is what we are trying to do now, but my parents act like its to late, I moved with my parents to Florida about 6 months ago. We moved from Houston that...
200 Kids
I hit my son in anger after he ran away from me in a public place. I was very worried he was missing for a good 15 minutes. But then got mad when I found him and hit him in the neck and leg very hard, leaving a mark. I hope he can forgive me.
201 Hate Sundays
I hate sundays because i have to spend dreadful hours at home with my screwed up parents who have nothing better to say but complain about life and money. It sucks having parents who complains and talk * in the dinner table. It sucks to stay home especially when i know i can be somewhere else appreciating...
202 I need to tell someone.
Before marrieage my wife and I were not sexually pure. I thought marriage would fix it, it didn't. I am now a pastor with no one to talk to. I still dable in porn though I go for very long periods without using. I've been to strip clubs. I've gone to online sexually oriented dating sites. "The journey...
203 My Teen Daughter Hates Me
My teenager gets right in my face and says she hates me, I'm ugly, and I'm the worst father, among other things. She also says she hates God, if God even exists. She's 15, been raised as a Christian and was baptised when she was 11. A few months ago, she told me she wanted me to divorce her mom. At the...
204 lonely childhood
when i was young, my mom told me my dad had another woman but that he loved us. more than 10 years after, i have never confronted my dad, and i dont think i can ever forgive him for that.sometimes, i dont want to admit it to myself but i hate him for all the verbal abuse and brainwashing. for all the...
205 Cannot Forgive
My wife had an affair with one of her best friends husbands and I cannot forgive her. She keeps telling me to get over it and I cannot. The worst thing about it is her friend told her son who told my childern and all of their friends. What a cluster. The only reason I am sticking around is for my...
206 this is my secret
my parents think my boyfriend and i are both still virgins, we have been together for almsot 2 years. iv had 2 miscarriages and the damage done by them has made me unable to have children. im 17 years old.
207 Facing an unwanted pregnancy
I am the mother of a 5 month old baby and i just found out that I am 10 weeks pregant again! I feel overwhelmed and I really don't want another baby and i've contemplated abortion even though i am happily married i want to focus on my career. After reading some of the confessions on this page i have...
208 Marriage for life?
I am a christian and have been married to my husband now for 11 years. He is a Christian as well. I wonder if we should have gotten married. We were married as unbelievers and have since became Christians together. He loves me, but shows it in a funny way. I just see other married couples and think...
209 Sleepovers
I had these two homegirls who were sisters and slept over my house alot when we were younger. The parents assumed it was an innocent sleepover, another excuse to stay up late. Basically I got to *. They would *. *This post has been edited for content
210 Depresed
I am so stressed and worried and sad, It's been a ruff few weeks emotionaly and finacially. My favorite Aunt died two weeks ago at the age of 65. I hadn't seen her in at least six yrs as she moved to a nursing some over a hundred miles from where I live and I don't own a vehicle.She was good to me...
211 shame
I experimented sexually with my first cousin who is of the same sex for years as a child. I was the older cousin. I feel so ashamed, and I am horrified that one day he will confront me about it. Some people say it is normal to experiment, but the shame still destroys me inside every day of my life. I...
212 please forgive me
when i was a child i was sexualy active. i have commited some sexual things with my cousin and brother. some people have also abused me sexualy. when i did it i wasn't old enough to understand it. to this day i feel guilty for what i did and i asked god for forgiviness. I also promissed the lord that...
213 Gaydom.
When I was 3, I was molested by a childhood friend & then at the age of 8, this time by a female family member & I had blocked out the incident completely until I turned 13, when I realized that I was bi-sexual. Ever since I have been battling w/ my lack of trust for both men & women. I've grown to...
214 i had sex with my sister
i am a 30ish lesbian that had sex with my sister when we were kids. we are the same age and it was not a molestation thing. we were curious and experimented as most children do. however, once we were grown we had (consensual) sex again. i didn't want to stop and i'm ashamed that i masturbate sometimes...
215 pornography masturbation
am born again 32 year old husband to a beautiful wife and father of two beautiful children, I have been watching to porn, having sexual fantasy and masturbating since my freshman year in high school I have tried stopping without success. There are times I stay away for months only to fall back into...
216 confessions of a pastor
I am a broken pastor whom is need of strength to help with my addiction. But not only am I a pastor, I am a husband and a father of two beautiful and innocent children; but I am also addicted to impure thoughts and internet pornography. I wish so badly that I could stop, however I can't. I wish so...
217 Secret Shame
My husband and I were seperated for a year and a half. Because he cheated on me and we were in limbo working through all the emotions. We have 3 children together and didn't want to rush into any decisions. I felt like we were on our way to divorce. It was almost Christmas. I was feeling empty and...
218 Grieving for my lost little one
I am a woman of God and I KNOW BETTER. Less than a year ago, I found out I was pregnant with my third child. My husband and I have two children together and they are my world. I have no excuse for doing it other than selfish disgusting reasons, but I aborted the pregnancy. I have sought peace for my...
219 Pain
I am homosexual and addicted to pornography. I hate it. The years of viewing have screwed up my mind. I feel like I have committed sins too many times to be forgiven. I feel like I can't be forgiven because I am so angry at the people involved in causing my problems. I am so angry at my dad. Fathers,...
220 Please Help
I am a addicted to Porn. I just started as the youth leader. This is my first full time job in ministry. I am afraid that my addiction is going to make it my last. I want God to be able to use me in a real big way but this addiction is killing me from the inside out. Not long ago my wife was pregnant...
221 I am in love with my husbands best friend
My Marraige has always been hard and I started to be attracted to my husbands best friend . He felt the same though nothing was ever said about it. I know there is still an attraction and I find myself thinking of him all the time and now sexually. He is apart of our lives and my children adore him....
222 Going to Loose it all!!!!
I am a married man with 2 children, and one on the way! I am married to a great woman of GOD a true Worshiper! We have the perfect marrage (so people think). I am divorced my ex-wife is a very good person and also loves the lord. I have a very seriouse problem with sexual sin everything from pron to...
223 I cant control my mouth.
When I am angry or frustrated, I yell and curse alot. I have children and I often curse at them. My husband hates my language. I am a christian and I feel that what I am doing is wrong but I just can't find a way to control it. It happens without thought. I have prayed about it but I havent yet found...
224 can't forgive myself
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225 hate
sometimes i really can't stand my own children. it seems that they think that the world revolves around them. they are grown and i really hate them at times and their actions.i don.t hate anyone,so it;s surprisily that i can.t stand my own family. i ask god to forgive me
226 Trapped
I have just been set in as the worship Pastor for a church of thousands, whose name you would know, yet I am addicted to hardcore internet pornography. I have tried everything to break free, but I can't. I have never told anyone about this sin in my life. I know that accountability is the only way...
227 angry with Him
My boyfriend of a very long time recently broke up with me. I am in my mid 20's and thought this was the man God had meant me to be with for the rest of my life. He loves God, loves children, and I thought loved me. I have been very angry with God for not letting me see that this man did not feel the...
228 Confusion to the third degree
I'm winging this confession. So, please forgive if it is of no value to you are anyone whom may read it. I haven't really read any of the other confessions. I just feel the need to get things off my chest. I don't know where I'm going with my life. I want to glorify the Lord and all. I write inspirational...
229 I've failed as a husband
I am married to the most faithful, beautiful woman a man could ever hope for. She loves God and has been the rock in our marriage. We have two beautiful children that I also know are God's blessing. We have been married for 7 years, and I have failed my wife miserably. I have betrayed her trust and...
230 I'm not sure Iove my husband anymore
I have been married for 13 years we have 5 children...I am not even sure I love him anymore. He has an addiction to porn and it has hardened my heart so much that I can't feel love for him. I am so spiritually dead too. I can't pray with him...and I don't even bother to read the bible. Honestly, I...
231 Remorseful
My wife and I would have been married 26 years, but I found out she had an affair 15 years ago. It ruined me and caused me to lose my self-respect and place with God. I was a strong supporter in my church, in fact-the assistant pastor. I've fallen from my place with God only because she wasn't honest...
232 problems
I was going out with a guy who constantly would stared at other women while I was with him mostly those who barely had clothing. I approached him but he had an excuse. This continued. He did several things that really hurt me as: saying that he loved his ex girl friend still with all his heart while...
233 Anonymous
my secret is that, I've been with my wife for about two years. I had such a love for her, yet she had a bad drinking problem and even when she was pregnant it killed me to see her binge. I prayed to GOD that he would kill off this demon of addiction but it kept on going untill she loost her job and then...
234 I love God
I watch porn. I have been since I was about 15 years old. I love it but I know that I am not supposed to do it. I have a beautiful wife and beautiful children but I dont know what to do. I need help
235 I'm a terrible mother
I wanted so badly to be a better mother than my own mother. She was cold and it was so obvious that she resented me for being around. Now, I'm turning into her. I feel like I'm being eaten alive by my 2 kids. I feel like they're smothering me. I am so sick of repeating myself all the time. I'm sick...
236 Afraid of growing old alone
I'm afraid I'll never find anyone to share my life with and I'll grow old ...alone. I'm a 36 year old male, was married, and divorced within 6 months because she found she was Bi-sexual and left me (and still claims to be). I feel guilty, as I know that when I question if this fate of being alone is...
237 My son
I feel guilty that I couldn't save my son's life. I feel just as guilty that I didn't kill the lazy, negligent, bastard doctor who I trusted to take care of him. If I would have done it then, I could have walked.
238 Unfaithfulness
Dear friends, I must confess that I have been unfaithful to God, my wife and my children. A few days ago, I was on a business trip and requested an in room massage. At the end of the massage, the masseuse suggested a special service which I did not resist. I did not have sex with her but I touched...
239 Abortion, Masturbation, Fornication
I have tried every which way I know to have a successful relationship & have always turned up alone, hurting and broken. I have had two abortions (just so he wouldn't leave me), I have fornicated & pulled the usual desparate moves. Now, I thank God I am free, healed, delivered and restored. I am writing...
240 She was perfect
Twenty years ago I met my first cousin pretty much for the first time. I was 16 years old at the time. Over the next several years I fell madly in love with her. I suspect that she knew, but I never openly declared my feelings because I did not want to lose our friendship. Now we are both married...
241 Shallowness
I'm jealous of skinny, average girls. I know God says not to envy sinners, some aren't though, but I just think it's unfair how society almost every one chooses people to date, hire for jobs, etc. for how they looks. If your overweight maybe a little different, dress different, etc. they reject you....
242 Need to get this under control
I am a wife and mom and I drink way too much. I have anxieties and take on too many problems and it's my way of escaping. It's too much now. I'm missing out on my life, my child, my husband and I hate myself. Please God, I need this cross lifeted from me now. Please pray for me. I want help now.
243 lust, lies, and ministry
I'm heavily involved in collegiate ministry and will be attending seminary in the fall. I've been a follower of Christ since I was a young child, but have only been truly following Him for the last 4 or 5 years. I have given Him control of almost every area of my life, accept for my addiction to lust...
244 I hurt and wish for God to heal me
As a child I was bullied and belittled by the boys at school and also my father. Received Christ as a child. In my teens I was raped. I have surrendered so many times to God and I don’t know what more God expects from me. I struggle with the church and things that has happened in the church where...
245 mother rejected
my husband is cheating on me with people online, and he refuses to admit it-here's the hook...we just had a child.
246 Cheated on ex-husband
My ex-husband was very mentally unstable. We didn't know that he had bi-polar disorder, multiple personality disorder and paranoid schitzophrenia. But he did. He was terrible to live with and miserable to be around. I felt that he didn't love me or our child. He tried to commit suicide. Every day...
247 Got what I deserved?
I lost my virginity to my husband, before we got married. He cheated on me, before we got married, and I knew about it. He cheated on me while we were married and I ignored it, lied to myself, and pretended it wasn't happening. I started working outside of the home, became good friends with a co-worker...
248 I can
I'm a shameful person, and I've sinned in countless ways for which I pay the price by feeling the deep sadness within myself and seeing it in my loved ones around me. I cheat, lie, steal, and I feel so ugly. I hate the sound of my name-it smells putrid when I hear it. All of this comes down to how...
249 I despise his mom
Ive been dating my boyfriend for quite awhile now, and try as I might, I despise his mom. She hates me, and has only met me once. She is controlling, and is constantly trying to get her son into more debt, of which I have to talk him out of. It is the summer now, and we are home from college. I wont...
250 oh lord help me please for i have sined..
lord help me please i have sined through porno,im only 22 and i have been addicted to porn and masterbating now for 5years i have even viwed childporn what makes me feel really sick,please help me lord,please forgive me..im really going to change my life from now on,i cant sleep at night with the shame...
251 miscarriage
I had a miscarriage last summer & I think I was responsible for my losing my baby. I didn't want to be pregnant again. It was a total SHOCK when I found out that I was. I had unprotected sex a few days before my period was due, but still ended up pregnant. I already had a 4 year old and a 9 month old...
252 Still Think About Him
A few years ago, my neighbor and friend of my husband and I came on to me at a party. He was drunk. He said he wanted me. I turned him down and told my husband. He confronted this man and he apologised to me, but I secretly liked it. I was lonley, with a young child at home, while my husband worked....
253 Stuck in a lie
I have this horrific story about childhood abuse which I made up to tell to individual persons as it benefits my need for attention. I also really like the shock value of this story, the empathy it creates and the compliments it brings, ie "you are so strong", "good thing you're so smart so you got through...
254 lusting for a man other than my husband...........
recently someone I work with had been giving me attention. Something that my husband hasn't been giving me in a long time. We started emailing each other and flirting. What started out as meaningless flirting turned different. I was starting to enjoy it and wanted more. He wanted to meet and I wouldn't....
255 lusting for another....
My husband hasn't given me attention in so long and the problem is that someone else has. What started out as flirting turned into cybersex and I wanted more. I have put my marriage and children at risk for someone who only tells me what I want to hear. But it felt so good. I wanted so bad to just...
256 Whitewashed Tomb
I am in my twenties, married to a wonderful woman, a leader in my church, and completely addicited to pornography and homosexuality. I can't stop looking at porn - from regular gay porn to beastiality to child porn. I have tried for so many years to stop, and I can't. Not only that, I don't even know...
257 Why Bother?
I've been depressed since I was a young boy,and started hearing voices in my early teens.My childhood was marked by abuse and neglect.The only human I've ever felt a connection to commited suicide when we were 15.My adult life has been a morass of addiction and personal failure.I've always wanted to...
258 Lost & Searching
I am a wife and mother of 3 amazing children. I love my huasnd very much but I was weak. I had an affair for over a year and developed a strong bond and friendship with that man. He's my soulmate. There's no question about it. My affair was discovered nearly two years ago. My husband has stayed...
259 Idolatory
My whole life I have struggled with daydreaming. It sounds like such a stupid thing but its not. I cant stop. I am an only child and my parents werent around much when i was growing up so i was always lonely and to comfort myself I used to imagine that I had brothers and sisters. I would talk to them...
260 Unforgiven
I am in love with my ex husband who says he's forgiven me for leaving him but that we can never be together again. I wait and wait and have been waiting now for seven years for him to change his mind and take me back. I feel I don't deserve anyone else, anyone better, or anyone at all. Not only b/c...
261 Porn Addiction
I struggle with online porn addiction. I know it's wrong and that I am a child of God but all I can think about is when I will meet my next good ****. I belong to several "adult dating" sites which are really just sites to "meet 'em, screw 'em, dump 'em." I need help please pray for me! I even belong...
262 Confession of a dark childhood
I was sexually abused since I can remember. I can recall the faces, the names and the times when men in my family or strangers had put their filthy hands on me. It's sick & I feel disgusting. I knew it was wrong, yet I never told my mother. I was 5 yrs old when this started. The 1st person to touch me...
263 family problems
my elder sister molested me when i was younger and my mother would innapropriately kiss my little sister when she was young and i didnt stop it. My mother physically abused all her children and i think she may abuse my little sister but im not doing anything to stop it. My mother was also sexually and...
264 Wife with a broken heart
My secret is one that my husband and I share. He is a childrens pastor, and although he fights, and wins many battles, he still gives into pornography. My heart has been broken many times, yet Christ continues to heal me. I love my husband, and I know he needs help. I dont know where to go.
265 trapped
i'm a married youth pastor with 2 young children. I was openly gay before I accepted Christ. I initially worked very hard to erase that sin from my life. But through years of just living it has crept back in. I'm addicted to masturbation and exhibitionism via webcams again. My marriage is failing. My...
266 recycled abuse
i gave my life to Christ 4 years ago. I believe I've been washed and cleaned by His blood. But before I knew Him I hurt people. When i was about 14, i sexually molested my younger girl cousin of 11 or so. it happened several times for the next 3 or 4 years but to different girls. most of them were family...
267 no more ties
1 month before getting married I found out I was pregnant. I already had children and so did he.I was entering my last year of a Master's program. I had an abortion. I never told him. Then the following year I found out I was pregnant again. I had an abortion. He still doesn't know. And we have since...
268 abuser- abused
well my confession is that i am female and i am 21 yrs old...i have been aboused and iv'ed abused too... i been with so many men and woman all my life i can't even rememebr with how many...i was molested by my older sister,,older girl cousin,,my uncle...and my ex-step father.... i lost my virginty...
269 I am crying out ...
Father, please forgive me for taking what is not mine. I have stolen items in stores and returned them to buy things for my house, my child, my self, and others. I am covered with shame and guilt for even lying about the items and how I got them. Lord please help me, help me to walk in your truth....
270 unworthy of love
i am a 41 year old male. Never found relationships easy and have never felt worthy of love. Found out my brother was abused by a family friend when he was a child ten years ago. I now dont trust anyone, cant allow myself get close to any woman. But have such a deep desire to find a soul mate, yet...
271 masturbation
I confess that I have had a problem with masturbation since i was a child...i still masturbate, just not as much...
272 I confess...
I confess that I stoled over 20000 from a bank when I was younger working as a bank teller. I was caught for some of it but not all. I also totally confess that I was very sexually active when i was a teenager, I have been with over twenty men in my lifetime. I confess that I have told many lies in...
273 my marriage
well my husband left me and our children I am also pregnant. I tryed to open up to a leader in my church and she treated me like I had the plague. I'm praying that he'll come back but that I won't be so weak next time.I have no one to call, no friends or family (all of my family is in another state)...
274 abused as a child
i was sexualy abused when i was young but 5 on a family vaction. it was by a teenage boy that was apart of a camp that i went to on the beach. i'm not actually sure that this happend or not because i think i blocked it when i was younger and didn't know what was happening, but now i can not get close...
275 lord i am addicted to masturbation
lord I am addicted to masturbation. So much so that it has affected me in a way that I cannot reach climax when I have sex with my beloved fiancee. Lord please guide me through the this tunnel and out the other side. I want children one day and am very afraid this will cause problems with that. Please...
276 i'm disgusting.
i've tried to convince myself that i am in love with someone who is addicted to crack cocaine, but the truth is - i'm afraid 2 leave him for fear that he will hurt me more than he already has. i've disrespected and hit him thinking he will hit me back and then it will become clear 2 me 2 leave him. but...
277 Numerous partners
To this day, my husband thinks that I have only been with a few sexual partners. He doesn't know that I have probably had sex with at least 70 men before I met him. I used sex as a way to feel "loved" and good about myself because someone actually desired me. I have Vaginal Herpes and PPV. I found...
278 we have been married for 20 years...
we have been married for 20 years and have 3 grown children. whenever we talk about something important. the conversation turns violent. he will hit & choke me, then says how much he love me & that he apologizes & wont do it again. this has happened all thur the years. when we are around over people...
279 I cheated on my husband when we...
I cheated on my husband when we were first dating and I don't think he ever forgave me. He constantly goes through my person stuff. He is in the military and deployed alot. On the last deployment, I started talking to an ex from high school online. We talked for months then he came to see me and I cheated...
280 I was raised a Christian. I always...
I was raised a Christian. I always known right from wrong. At the age of 19 I was having sex with my boyfriend, which I regret. I became pregnant and I had an abortion. He did not want me to keep the baby because it was going to change our future. I was really into him that I did what he wanted. I remember...
281 As a child I was sterotyped as...
As a child I was sterotyped as the good child the perfect kid the silent type but had a strong influence.But I moved and now Im in highschool and my personality is a 180 of before, I used to disprove of bullying. Now Im a bully,Im not respectful, I dont make the grade. And what i hated now i do. And...
282 In 2004, I worked in a high profile...
In 2004, I worked in a high profile position. I was happy there. Then, one night, while preparing for the children's Christmas party, I made a highly inappropriate comment. I was reported. I was suspended for 8 months without pay. I eventually was stripped of all of my security clearance and fired. I'm...
283 I was 15yrs and babysitting. During...
I was 15yrs and babysitting. During the night I attempted to take a childs temperature rectally while she was sleeping. She woke and I told her her mother wanted me to check her. I never did it again but I'm tormented by dreams and shame. When I try to tell counselors about it I see they are legally...
284 I am married to a woman whom I...
I am married to a woman whom I love. I love our life and our two children. My job is wonderful and we make good money. I have cheated on her mulitple times because of my own self worth. I feel like the reappreciation that i get from these woman and the feeling of sex gives me a better confident personality....
285 Lord, today I was left home alone....
Lord, today I was left home alone. I had horrible thoughts in my head. It dragged me to look at porn. Lord, I want to stop.. I wish I could find a way where I could be with someone 24/7. I'm an only child, so im left alone at home a lot. Please Lord Forgive me for my Sin. Thank you for all you've done....
286 my sister is of my age and looks...
my sister is of my age and looks like me.she has 3 children and myself 2.she was like a mother to me. somehow she got involved with my handsome husband.this went on for 4months and was caught redhanded.i loved my husband very much.even i am good looking but have never strayed in my entire life.i dont...
287 Please Lord, Forgive me for all...
Please Lord, Forgive me for all the Pornography & Lust. I've had, ever since I was 12 I was exposed to Porn, I try to stop but since I am an only child, i'm home alone a lot.
288 This is the first time I have confessed...
This is the first time I have confessed this openly. I have been married for 5 years to my wonderful wife and two children. I started struggling with porn since age 15. God came and delivered me at age 20. At times I fell to temptation but repented and moved on. When my wife had difficult pregnancies...
289 Well there's a lot about me to...
Well there's a lot about me to tell but I figure I'll just get to the bottom of it. I have an awesome girlfriend and I can't wait to marry her but before she was with me she was a bit of a wild child. She had done things with a lot of other guys and it makes me really self conscious about myself and...
290 I feel so ashamed I want a relationship...
I feel so ashamed I want a relationship an a husband, but from two past marriages, and the hurt and pain left its scars, emotionally and physically, I'am ashame of the scars, maybe this is vain but here goes, from childbearing, has left my breast in embarrassing condition. Men look at me and I look...
291 I understand what you all are talking...
I understand what you all are talking about because Im going through the same. I have had an addition to porn for years now . i mananged to stay pure for two years and they were the best years of my life. Now I fall again to this evil sin. I dont want to do it and i keep teling my self to not and my...
292 I regret ever thinking romantic...
I regret ever thinking romantic love was real. That it was worth leaving my husband and leaving my children. I regret that I was so stupid to think that he was worth losing everything about myself. If I could go back, oh I would.
293 i had an abortion and no one knows...
i had an abortion and no one knows about it. i did it to cover up my cheating. i was not ready to let him know about my cheating ways. pray for me.....i am a people lover and wouldnt do anything to hurt my children now i just didnt put a lot of thought into how i was felling.
294 I was sexually abused by my brother...
I was sexually abused by my brother as a child. I was always afraid to tell anyone. I have never told anyone!
295 I was abused alot when I was a...
I was abused alot when I was a child. And I have alot of memories from it. The only way I knew how to deal with them was to cut and do drugs. They were both addicting. I continued doing these things over and over and over again. I would rededicate my life and then fall right back down. Then at church...
296 I am divorced. I met my ex-wife...
I am divorced. I met my ex-wife while she was separated from her first husband. We starting seeing each other while they were separated. She has a daughter from her first marraige. I felt very guilty for dating a woman who was married with a child. They eventually got divorced and we eventually got...
297 I am a female and I struggle with...
I am a female and I struggle with masterbation. :( I first began masterbating when I was in junior high. That means I was 13. If there are any parents out there that don't think this issue is something their child struggles with, they do. I encourage you to talk about it with your child. I tried...
298 I wish I didn't have a child. I...
I wish I didn't have a child. I hate being a mom. I am so depressed. I would kill myself, if I wasn't worried about what people would think.
299 It is almost 3 AM & I can't sleep...
It is almost 3 AM & I can't sleep because I did something horrible, and am terrified of the consequences I might face if found out! I stold someone's credit card and used it at three stores. I was raised in church but have not lived like it. I've had drug addictions (pills) and theft.I've spent time...
300 I am 23 and have had a problem...
I am 23 and have had a problem with cutting for about a year now. I think thier are three reasons I would do it. 1. punishment for my sins 2. relief from all the pain 3. Just plain hatred of myself. I hate myself and always have.I grew up in a broken home full of fighting. I blamed myself and would...
301 I have never told anyone this but,...
I have never told anyone this but, I am so ashamed of the things I have done and continue to do. I was baptized as child and confirmed in middle school. I have Christ into my life and recently started attending church regularly as well as Bible Study and Small group. However I continue to struggle with...
302 6 wks ago my mother comitted suicide....
6 wks ago my mother comitted suicide. I feel so much guilt, anger and sadness. I feel that my past drove her to this. When she told me she would do this 4 months ago I didn't do enough to stop this. When my sister called in the middle of the night telling me that mom had called her telling her that...
303 I am a married man whom loves my...
I am a married man whom loves my wife and child. I cannot seem to stop reading, watching, looking at gay pornography. I need to stop this habit.
304 I withheld information from my...
I withheld information from my ex. We began having sex, using condoms, then he stopped wearing them and didn't withdraw. I didn't care because I had cervical scarring from an abortion (age 23) that was performed too early. My doctor said it was affecting my ability to concieve. I had been trying for...
305 I AM A YOUNG PASTOR AND I HAVE...
I AM A YOUNG PASTOR AND I HAVE A MAJOR PROBLEM.IVE ALWAYS HAD A PROBLEM WITH LUST SINCE I WAS A CHILD.A YEAR AFTER I WAS SAVED I STARTED LOOKING AT PORN AGAIN ON THE INTERNET.IT WENT OFF AND ON FOR ABOUT THREE YEARS THEN I GOT MARRIED.ABOUT A YEAR INTO OUR RELATIONSHIP I CHEATED WITH A WOMAN OF MY PAST...
306 I don't know how it happened again,...
I don't know how it happened again, it seems like a lifetime ago since I cut myself last. I am 31 now and remember as a teenager I would cut and put myself in dangerous situations that would end in injury. I have all the scars as reminders. To backtrack through my childhood seems pointless, but it was...
307 I've been married for over a decade...
I've been married for over a decade to an alcoholic, liar, drug user & cheat. We have one child together. Six months ago I started having an affair with my brother-in-law whom I've known longer than my husband. His relationship has been rocky from the start & he wishes he'd never married "her". I had...
308 I am a mother of childern.I have...
I am a mother of childern.I have a significant other and we live together.I somked crack in our house last nite.With children asleep.Over the past two years of our relationship I have loved or thoughtand acted like I loved crack more than my partner or my children.I have been to rehab,suffered severe...
309 I am 19 and my parents are in the...
I am 19 and my parents are in the middle of going throught a divore per say. My older brother is 21 and my little brother is 14. I am the middle child nad the only girl. I am being put in the middle and having to deal with my dad threating to kill himself, plus thousands of dollars in debt we are. Im...
310 I used to eat like a pig and then...
I used to eat like a pig and then make myself throw up in high school, but no one knew the extent...not even me. Sometimes I vomited up to ten times in one day. I'm not sure when I stopped, but somehow I just became "normal" again. Now I weigh the most I have ever weighed in my life, and I wish that...
311 I have had sex with a lot of men....
I have had sex with a lot of men. I think that my number is around 25. I slept with them all, knowing that none of them truly cared about me, and never would. Sometimes I tried to fool myself, other times I didn't. I've had diseases (never any serious ones), have two children out of wedlock (and their...
312 So i've been havin family problems,...
So i've been havin family problems, and it just hurts soo much. Me and my mom argue all the time, and she expects me to be soo understanding bout everything, and truthfully all her complaining to me has just made our relationship worse. People tell me it's casue in August I'm gonna be leaving to go...
313 long story short: pregnant at 16,...
long story short: pregnant at 16, no food no money. had child at 7 months, only developed to 5 months. she was malnutritioned and only lived 13 hours. after 2 abortions, conceived 4th time at 28 yrs old. scared to death, i ate everything in sight - gained over 100 pounds. that child is 21 years...
314 I'm 25 yr old single mom. I struggle...
I'm 25 yr old single mom. I struggle with adultery on several different levels. I have had issues with group sex, casual sex, and sex with one person in particular that hits me during. I don't know why I do these things. My spiritman testifies to the fact that somethings wrong with this picture....
315 Lord God, I have sinned because...
Lord God, I have sinned because I lust after women. As the other sinner mentioned, I lust after the emotion and feelings of the rush my body gives me when I see the breasts of women. I have sinned because I have been taught, or picked up the feelings that the vagina is sinful. It is dirty, and...
316 I was lusting for many years and...
I was lusting for many years and also ashamed of decisions I have made but feel nothing is wrong with where my Life is Now. I was sleeping around after an abusive 5 year relationship with my children's father. I then met a younger man at the age of 27/10mnthsAge. He lied, told me he was 18 but turned...
317 When I was about 21 and pregnant...
When I was about 21 and pregnant with my third child, I was in a very abusive relationship. It was mentally and physical. The relationship was just getting worser every passing day. I had a choice to either leave or stay. I stayed and allowed myself to be hurt till my significant other got another person...
318 I'm a 29 yr old mother of three...
I'm a 29 yr old mother of three children and been functionally drinking since I was 11.I wish I could stop but I was born into this lifestyle. I know that I can't blame my family 4 my choices..But God was right about Genetics that "if a you do to harm yourself loyally your also harming your off-spring"....
319 This has been so hard, I had 2...
This has been so hard, I had 2 abortions about 30 years ago, and sometimes I cry just thinking about it.I also had 2 miscarriages and I was never able to have any children. was I being punished because of the 2 abortions I had?I am so ashamed and I want God to forgive me.I am so very sorry and I wish...
320 my brother used to terrorize me....
my brother used to terrorize me. he would come up behind me and try to analy rape me. this is when i was a child, he was 3 years older. he would whisper obscene things in my ear. he would expose himself to me. i think my oldest brother molested him. now he is in prison. ive never confronted him. the...
321 i feel like i have not support...
i feel like i have not support system anymore. my dad has astro cytoma brain cancer thus causing him to have no short term memory. it's like a dont have a dad anymore. my mom is always at work because she has to pay the bills for our family of five and she is always freaking out about money and what...
322 I started sleeping with a 32 year...
I started sleeping with a 32 year old cop when I was only 15 He has always had another girl in his life but I never cared about her We have only been apart for 6 months in the past 5 years but during that time he married this other girl. I have loved this man with all my soul and I know for certain that...
323 I was molested a lot as a child...
I was molested a lot as a child my only regret is that sometimes i liked it and I sometimes wish it were happening to me now.
324 I'm approaching my one year anniversary....
I'm approaching my one year anniversary. Most people would be thrilled. I can't beleive we have wasted so much time together. I love him as a person. But he is the opposite of everything i want in a man. He doesn't show me love the way i need to be shown. He is begging for a child but i just cant do...
325 I am in my second marriage. My...
I am in my second marriage. My first marriage ended not because of something I did. I found out he was cheating on me. I also cheated several times on my first husband but I would never ever admit my affairs to him. And I never felt bad about having affairs. Now my second marriage I am having thoughts...
326 Over the last 2 years, I've been...
Over the last 2 years, I've been bullied by a certain gang of children, both verbally and physically. Unfortunately, this has affected me badly, and I get continuous attacks of anxiety, and regret for not standing up for myself more. Now, I really want to fight the main gangleader, just to show myself...
327 I am now a 19 year old male. Having...
I am now a 19 year old male. Having finished 6th form, I've taken a years work placement away from home. This has given me time to reflect on my rather troubled past. I have started getting flash back of my child hold when my brother kept on trying to hug me, and worse, kiss me. I hated it but my brother...
328 I want to die and the thoughts...
I want to die and the thoughts consume me. I have children so don't want to take my own life but I wish I'd die. I'm tired and I'm lonely and I hate me. My soon-to-be inlaws wrote me a 3 page letter in which they refered to me as "evil" 3 times, called me "svengali" and told me what a failure I am...
329 I have bben addicted to porn since...
I have bben addicted to porn since I was a little child. My dad exposed it to me. Ever since then I have always wanted to watch it. Now that I am older, I want to stop it all together. It is just hard on my own.
330 People hate fat people but I don't...
People hate fat people but I don't think they would handle some of the things I have been through as well. I was slender and athletic until my dad made sexual advances. He was really pissed when I wasn't turned on so he hit me really hard. I have had problems/issues with my weight ever since then. My...
331 Almost 8 years ago I had an abortion.I...
Almost 8 years ago I had an abortion.I married the father of that child 3 months later.(He knew,he paid for it).God I was so stupid,I didnt want to do it.I dont even believe in abortion.Its weird how our beliefs change when we are making decisions for our life.So often I can remember the horrible noise...
332 I have had a lifelong battle with...
I have had a lifelong battle with depression and guilt. I know I have a chemical imbalance but a childhood of neglect and abuse didn't help. I have had a past of cutting and trying to committ suicide on 2 occasions. It' weird my biggest fear is death, but all I want to do is die. I feel like I am worth...
333 I'm having an emotional affair...
I'm having an emotional affair with an ex-boyfriend from high school. It was entirely accidental. I'm married with two children, he's married and currently deployed. I just came to the realization that our friendship has become something deeper, at least for me. I've not spoken to him about it, I don't...
334 In the early years that I was married...
In the early years that I was married to my husband, I had several relationships outside of marriage that involved sexual contact, although not sexual intercourse.I don't know why I did these things, and I wish with all my heart I hadn't.After a time, I and three of my children were struck with a chronic...
335 Well let's see, I guess it all...
Well let's see, I guess it all starts as a young child, I was sexually molested by my cousin. I blacked all this out and know only because now as young adults she has confessed it to me. I think it lends to explain some of the behaviors I've exhibited over my life, but I except full responsibility.When...
336 I'm 20 years old. My boyfriend...
I'm 20 years old. My boyfriend is the best friend I have ever had, I have never been this close to anyone before. The problem is, he is a virgin and I am not. I lost my virginity when I was 18 to a 23 year old man, I thought I was in love. I was in so much pain I hate to say I was promiscuous after he...
337 i hate myself. i always have for...
i hate myself. i always have for one reason or another. when i was a child, i often thought of ways to kill myself, just for the hell of it, just to see if anyone would notice that i wasn't around. life never felt right to me, like i never should have been here.i have been cutting myself since i was...
338 i could very well become addicted...
i could very well become addicted to pornography. i almost lost my job over it a few years ago. have since gained some control, but the urge is still there. although my counselor said my urges were due to some things that happened to me as a child, i dont believe i am a victim. i do believe i can be...
339 I am a mother of two beautiful,...
I am a mother of two beautiful, talented boys and married to a wonderful man whom I love. I have been drinking way too much. I am also addicted to cigarettes, but try to hide it publicly. I manage to put up a good front by staying fit and eating healthy. I feel guilty for being such a bad example for...
340 First of all I would like to extend...
First of all I would like to extend my prayers and support to all of those who are struggling with sharing their own pain and life struggles with others. By the grace of God we will all be healed. I love my husband with all of my heart. I have failed in being able to have children - 4 miscarriages and...
341 when i was 9 years old, my cousin...
when i was 9 years old, my cousin locked me in his closet and tried to have sex with me. every time i went to his house, he laid on top of me or offered me money to take my clothes off. i blocked it out of my memory for years, but when it came back to me in high school... it ruined me. i started going...
342 I have a loving wife, 3 amazing...
I have a loving wife, 3 amazing children, I have been a Christian all my life, I have a good career and live a very comfortable life. By all accounts I am very blessed. BUT, I wish God would take me home to heaven right now! I am sick and tired and weary of life. I will not take my own life, but that...
343 I am a married man of 10 years....
I am a married man of 10 years. I met my wife while in High School and have been together ever since. I have not been faithful and the reason is not so clear. She is a wonderful person and we have wonderful children. My lust for other women is very confusing. I have everything I could ever want in life...
344 I just had my fourth child and...
I just had my fourth child and was diagnosed with postpartum depression. I feel like I am the worst mother in the whole world. It takes everything I have just to get out of bed and take care of my precious babies. When they cry or want my attention, it chills me to the bone. It makes me just want to...
345 I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR 3 YEARS...
I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR 3 YEARS WITH A MAN. WE WERE ENGAGED BOUGHT A HOUSE AND WERE PLANNING OUR WEDDING. HE STARTED PULLING AWAY THEN ONE DAY HE CAME HOME LATE AND I COULD TELL SOMETHING WAS WRONG. HE ADMITTED HE WAS CHEATING ON ME AND THAT HE HAD GOTTEN THIS OTHER PERSON PREGNANT. HE TOLD ME HE...
346 Dear Lord forgive me for the abandonment...
Dear Lord forgive me for the abandonment of my wife and three children. For the past 20 years I deeply regret this, feel ashamed and depressed. Forgive me for holding on to anger and resentment I hold towards my ex-wife. Lord I pray that I forgive her, that I need to forgive myself. Lord I wasn't strong...
347 I invited some coworkers to my...
I invited some coworkers to my 40 year old birthday party last Friday night to hear some jazz. No one showed. I'm still single, a virgin, and I have no children. There are no prospects for a girlfriend / wife at the moment. I lost 9 days of leave at work due to admin issues. I'll probably not...
348 I had an abortion when I was 16...
I had an abortion when I was 16 years old. I never even questioned the idea of having the child. I just knew i had to "get rid" of it. Now many many years later and a mom several times over i realize that I was so young and naive, I was so immoral and led a completly immoral life, I never questioned...
349 When I was sixteen I had an abortion.This...
When I was sixteen I had an abortion.This has haunted me all these years. I now have 3 wonderful children and i often wonder what my first child would have been like. I had no idea what joy and love a child brings to your life. I didn't know that then. All I knew was that I had to get rid of "IT" ..I...
350 For as long as I can remember my...
For as long as I can remember my life has been going downhill fast. Everytime a crisis happens it just gets worse. I seem to be abusing one substance after another. When I gain control overing abusing a substance,within a month I'm abusing something else, from alcohol to perscription drugs. I lost my...
351 I am still in love with my ex of...
I am still in love with my ex of six years. It has been 3 years and I still love him miss him and think about him every day. He developed a drug problem and I tried to help him through it with no success. I broke up with him and told him he needed to get help. We still spoke every day and was showing...
352 I see internet sites almost every...
I see internet sites almost every day. I look at the worst. I've seen child porn and it excites me. I hate it. I would never touch a child. But the pics excite me. And that makes me hate myself. It's not all I see. And I haven't seen it for a while. But I have seen it. And I'm in the ministry....
353 For my 10th birthday I had my first...
For my 10th birthday I had my first and last slumber party. I invited friends from school and from early childhood. None of them wanted to play with me. All they wanted to do was play on my Nintendo or with my dolls, but nothing that I wanted to do. I complained to my mother about it and she stepped...
354 I have been married for 15 years....
I have been married for 15 years. I had an affair & have ruined my life. I have two beautiful children 2 & 3 years old. After the children, my husband would not spend time with me and the kids. He worked and went with his friends a lot. felt my life changed and his didn't. When I asked for help...
355 I have never been abused. I have...
I have never been abused. I have never been taken advantage of. I have never lost a child or done drugs. I dont have kids and im not in love. But i feel as though everything i do in my life is wrong. Every decision i make, or person I trust is wrong. I fell head over heels in love with a guy and our...
356 I can't stop fantasizing about...
I can't stop fantasizing about a married doctor. The fantasies are very detailed and they are disrupting my life. I often think about his wife and hate her because I am so consumed with jealousy/envy. I wonder if their marriage is good. I wonder if they have a good sex life and those thoughts eat...
357 I have been married to a wonderful...
I have been married to a wonderful man for the past 5 years, I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him.....he has three children from a previous marriage and I love them dearly as well. My problem lies in my relationship with the children's mother. I have tried and tried to make things...
358 I was sexually abused when i was...
I was sexually abused when i was a child by a person i dont know. I was very young and all i can remember is that i we abused my when i was at the most innocent age. I dont know what to think but i do know from this experience, it has made me gay. I dont know if i will ever be able to change, or if...
359 All through high school, I was...
All through high school, I was a model christian for my parents. I joined the navy when I graduated and was medically discharged due to multiple mental illness. I felt worthless and like a failure. When I got back, I started smoking pot again, which led to coke, X, acid, shrooms and alchohol. Im so confused...
361 I recently left my husband and...
I recently left my husband and his kids w/my child from a previous marriage. All we did was fight. He would say something about my child and I would ignore it. Since we have moved I have seen all of it and more that my child is doing. I broke my husbands heart. He told me if I moved out that he...
362 I CRY EVERY NIGHT AND ITS BECAUSE...
I CRY EVERY NIGHT AND ITS BECAUSE OF HIM HE MAKES ME HURT SO BAD KNOWIGN TAHT IM CARRYING HIS CHILD HE TRIES EVERYWAY TO MAKE ME FEEL WORTHLESS I CANT STAND THE PAIN NEMORE AND IM SO ALONE.....I LOVE MY BABY BUT SOMETIMES I WISH I WAS BETTER OF DEAD THE ONLY PERSON THAT IS KEEPING ME ALIVE RIGHT NOW...
363 I have been married for 30 years...
I have been married for 30 years to the most wonderful woman. We have two adult children that are super in every way. My double life lie is that I have been involved in homosexual activities since I was a teenager. I have battled it time and again and nearly every time I think I'm past it, or have...
364 I had an affair on my husband between...
I had an affair on my husband between March and May of this year. It started as a one time one night drunkin deal well neither him nor I could do this. So we kept it up. My husband was very suspicious of us but never had any proof and he will never have any. The worst case scinerio happened and I fell...
365 I am married to a wonderful man....
I am married to a wonderful man. He is my best friend. Together, we have 4 children. I had one child from my preivious marriage and he had two from his. We have one child together and one on the way. A big family! All is well except for one thing, I cannot stand one of his children from his previous...
366 My lie does not fall in any one...
My lie does not fall in any one category,but could be described in 16 of the 18 available.The lie I live started when I was 10 years old,it is one of a sexual manifestation,and I will regret every bit of it for the rest of my life. I played truth or dare with my 3 younger cousins,friendly at first,but...
367 Father God I come to you in Jesus...
Father God I come to you in Jesus Name i am a man of 21 years i have lusted since i was a young child. I ave masturbated from the age of around 5. Lord it stil feels good and you know I do it over my girlfriend. Lord I have tried to refuse that it is a sin but it clearly is I need deliverance but I also...
368 My earliest memory was of my grandfather...
My earliest memory was of my grandfather sexual abusing me, I kept it in for many years while it was eating me inside, when I was about 15 I started drinking and using pot, it numbed the pain for a while. After it quit working I started using meth. It was a very bad addition, I would tell myself "oh...
369 I am So angry. I defended my country,...
I am So angry. I defended my country, i was a good husband and father, and soldier. i betrayed my wife one time home on leave to get back at her for doing this to me early in our marriage of 9 yrs. She did the same to me while i was in combat. I found out on my return. I am riddled with guilt of not...
370 When I was younger, I was molested...
When I was younger, I was molested by a family member, because of that I became very sexually interested. I was about 10 and started becoming sexually curious with my sister as well as my cousin. I was older than them, though not by much. I should've known better. I shouldn't have done that. I...
371 I'm married, i had two children...
I'm married, i had two children but suddenly i found another person that makes me feel live. I have had a relationship with this man
372 I AM A HAPPILY MARRIED MAN FOR...
I AM A HAPPILY MARRIED MAN FOR 17 YRS. I HAVE WONDERFUL CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN. BUT MY PROBLEM IS THAT I LOVE TO LOOK UPON WOMEN IN LUSTFUL WAYS. SEVERAL WEEKS AGO AND ACTUALLY TWICE LATLEY MY PASTOR HAS MENTIONED IN SERVICE THAT THE BIBLE STATES THAT IF YOU LOOK UPON A WOMAN TO LUST AFTER HER BEAUTY...
373 I am 23 years old, I have lied...
I am 23 years old, I have lied about many things for many years. I used to chalk it up to being creative ( I have a writers soul), but in the end it is just a bunch of bull. I lie to co-workers extensively about how many children are in my family, and the occupations of my parents and I have no idea...
374 I am so afraid, so confused. I...
I am so afraid, so confused. I have had so many life changes in the past 2 years... My middle child died of an overdose, my invalid mother(I was the full time caretaker of her for six years) died 3 months latter and then 4 months after that I found out that my husband of 25 years had been living a double...
375 I had an affair with a wonderful...
I had an affair with a wonderful man. Seemed like we would end up having a great relationship. 2 months into the relationship I found out he is married, and now I'm expecting his child. I'm learning and my faith is growing, but he refuses to tell his wife for fear he will lose his 2 year old son.
376 My secret is not your normal secret....
My secret is not your normal secret. It's a secret that I have kept for over 10 years. I've put it in such a deep vault with chains around, so my daughter and I could have a normal life. Ten years ago, my life changed dramatically forever. I wanted to be delivered home by the fire, but instead God wanted...
377 I pray inconsistently and I do...
I pray inconsistently and I do not go to church allthough I liked church as a child. My parents never went to church and my foster father later became angry an God (and still is). I remember my life from about the age of 2. My mother was addicted to drugs, alchol, and violent relationships and my father...
378 I REGRET NOT BEING WITH MY TWO...
I REGRET NOT BEING WITH MY TWO SONS WHILE THEY WERE GROWING UP AND MISSED ALL THEIR CHILDHOOD, NOW I WISH I COULD BRING THOSE TIMES BACK BUT I CAN'T.ONE OF MY SONS COMITTED SUICIDE TEN YEARS AGO AND IF I WOULD HAVE BEEN WITH HIM THRU OUT HIS LIFE MAYBE THIS WOULD NOT HAVE HAPPENED.
379 I was sexually abused by my father...
I was sexually abused by my father as a child. He used me from age five to age twelve. It only stopped when I got old enough to empower myself to avoid the situations where it could happen. I confronted him when I was twenty, and he apologized with words, but not his soul. His apology emphasized what...
380 I'm a married 33 yr old with 1...
I'm a married 33 yr old with 1 child. I'm 104 lbs. In the last 34 hours all I have eaten is 3 oatmeal cookies. I don't throw up or take laxatives. I just starve myself, not because I feel fat (I do enjoy being skinny) it is more because I want to die. I also suffer from Narcolepsy a sleeping disorder...
381 Once upon a time more than a decade...
Once upon a time more than a decade ago I had a crush on a childhood friend. I've liked him since we were little kids playing together, but I've never told him the truth. Now he's about to graduate college and get married to his sweetheart in Shanghai. I regret not telling him how much I adore and love...
382 i have cheated on my husband many...
i have cheated on my husband many times. we are a young couple. the first time i cheated on him was with my ex boyfriend. i have had sex with 6 men since then. i fell in love with one of them. and another of them was his brother. im cheating on him with someone right now. this other man is in love with...
383 I have a 12 yr old boy (diagnosed...
I have a 12 yr old boy (diagnosed with bipolar at age of 3) and have had 4 abortions after his birth. I also am bipolar amoung other mental illnesses. It runs in my family and as much as I want a baby (4 attempts) my bipolar kicks in and I abort. I'm 33 and my hubby of 11 yrs. and I want a baby of our...
384 I have been bulimic since I was...
I have been bulimic since I was 16 years old. My weight fluctuated wildly while in college until I hit an all time high of 177 pounds. After that I started exercising like a maniac. I lost 30 over the summer. I felt good at 147. I felt strong. My weight creeped up to 155 over the next few years. Something...
385 I'm here to ask for forgiveness....
I'm here to ask for forgiveness. I know I have did something terriable. I don't know how to stop. I have been stealing from my employer for sometime now. I feel terriable everytime I do it, yet I continue to do it. I love my job, I love my boss. Our relationship is more like father/daughter than...
386 I have been married to my husband...
I have been married to my husband for 20 years. Like every married couple, we have had our share of problems in our marriage. I think I got married expecting a fairy tale life. Some days i sit and try to remember the feeling of innocence when I was a child. I came to learn my husband has an obsession...
387 I was sexually molested very young,...
I was sexually molested very young, I think 5 or 6 by an 18 year old male babysitter. I am very distrusting of people with my children, especially males. I have a child with special needs and I'm tortured with fear, he can't speak and I always worry about him. Please pray for me, I want desperately to...
388 I hurt, I am a single parent raising...
I hurt, I am a single parent raising a disabled child. I wish sometimes my child would fall asleep and not wake up. This is so hurtful, I love my child so much. I am lonely and without hope. My childs father is not involved/doesn't want to be involved. This burden is heavy...crushing....I feel isolated...
389 I lied to my husband about my ability...
I lied to my husband about my ability to have children.
390 I am filled with enormous shame...
I am filled with enormous shame and reqret. I'm 65 yrs old, alone and in not so good health. For 4yrs. I cheated on my wife with a younger woman. My wife knew about it and every year I told her I would end it and strung her along with lie after lie. I now know that Satan had totally entered my life at...
391 We are having our 2nd baby in a...
We are having our 2nd baby in a few weeks. We both work and have for the most part equally supported our family but when our first was born my husband quit his job of 5+ years and was unemployed for 6mths while I was home with our newborn he even had to file bankruptcy. Luckily we had good savings from...
392 I am married to a man who is wonderful...
I am married to a man who is wonderful in almost every way, and we have two children. Still, I recently chose to rekindle a relationship with my first love. He and I have been corresponding for the past 9 months, and have had two sexual encounters during that period of time. He is also married but...
393 I am scared. I was abused as a...
I am scared. I was abused as a young child by my birth father and later adpoted bu by step-father. I love both my father (that adopted me) and my mother very much but I am lost. I got pregnant at 16 while i was still in high school. I have my daughter now. Back in 2004 I got married to my husband and...
394 I am drug free six months - marijuana...
I am drug free six months - marijuana the choice , but only now do I see how my actions have hurt my children - as they enter adulthood , I cry about their using - if only I had been a better role model for them - i ask Jesus for forgiveness all the time - i feel like i failed them over and over again....
395 About 10 years ago, I led a double...
About 10 years ago, I led a double life as an escort. It only lasted for a few weeks but I live with this secret every day of my life. I did it only to help support my children, but I am still so ashamed for what I had to do. I have since come a long way. I have found Jesus and live a very Christian...
396 I am 57 and wishing I could just...
I am 57 and wishing I could just fade away. I am not suicidal, but I often think of how ridiculous and worthless my life has been. Drama and pain and failure define nearly every moment of my life. I live with absolutely no emotional support from family or friends. I have done that since I was a child,...
397 I am a HOMOSEXUAL in a relationship...
I am a HOMOSEXUAL in a relationship with a exceptional man. We grew up in different parts of the country, him Oklahoma, me New England. I find that he struggles with his sexuality more than I do in regards to religion. He once was married and had grown children. I don't think homosexuality is a sin,...
398 My secret is that I am full of...
My secret is that I am full of self- loathing over sins that I have committed in the past... before Christ AND after. I cannot seem to get past the hatred of myself & the shame I feel for the things that I've done (adultery which resulted in my marriage breaking up; I've been married three times (currently...
399 I have a disorder that causes some...
I have a disorder that causes some disfigurement. I recently had a "flare-up" with this disorder that needed emergency surgery. Everything was great and some of my previous disfigurement was removed. I was happy for about two weeks, then something happened and the disfigurement returned. I have seen...
400 I wish he would break up with the...
I wish he would break up with the mother of his children, so we don't have to be together in secret anymore and he could be my boyfriend. After all if he really wanted to be with her, he could have married her. He had more than enough years to do so.
401 Hi, I have a confession.My early...
Hi, I have a confession.My early child YEARS were in abused state,I was sexually abused by my elder brother.Though I have never felt any tempatations from other male members.I have this one thing which I haven;t confessed to anybody.And i request you to pray for the release of the hurt from my mind,and...
402 My relationship with my husband...
My relationship with my husband has turned so bad that I wish he had been killed in the postal shooting last January. Our Children and I would be better off without all the problems his gambling, cheating and lying have caused. I am truely stuck in this god awful marraige. I am ashamed to admit that...
403 I dont where to begin. I have a...
I dont where to begin. I have a controlling father that drinks to much. A mother that has always been totally dependent on men. I dont have one childhood memory that isnt filled with hurt pain and stress. my father cheated on my mother when I was five or six. I can remember looking out the living room...
404 when I divorced a number of years...
when I divorced a number of years ago I was left with 2 children, no support and no car. My mother offered to buy me a used vechile in good condition if...I would make a fantasy come true for her boss. I did. As I was driving my 'new' car home I felt as degraded as a human being could...
405 Last year I had an abortion because...
Last year I had an abortion because my boyfriend said he was not ready to be a father. I didn't want to do it but I knew I could not raise a child on my own. I am deeply ashamed and fearful that God will punish me forever for this terrible thing I did.
406 I had an affair with a man at work....
I had an affair with a man at work. It lasted about six months, that was 2 years ago. Now we are starting our affair again. I know it is wrong on every level and I really like his wife, but I really love him. I would never let him walk away from his family, that is what happen to me and my children....
407 My life has turned out totally...
My life has turned out totally not what I had hoped or planned for. I grew up in a little boon dock town, got married young, had 2 kids. Got divorced before I was 25. Immediately got involved in another relationship that lasted almost a year, then ended up in another one. I have been in this relationship...
408 I have been with my husband for...
I have been with my husband for about 10 years, we have lived together for 4 years before we got married and have now been married almost 12 months. I never wanted kids before we got married, but afterwards, almost straight away i had an urgent desire for them. My husband always said clearly, that he...
409 Sorry for my poor english. I have...
Sorry for my poor english. I have 40 years old married and with my husband I not have sex about 5 years, more or less. I dont know why. Since, when we had in loving always though that he is was homosexual.And now I feel that my first impression was not wrong. We have 4 childrens and know I have 67 years...
410 I would like to confess the fact...
I would like to confess the fact that I had an adulterous affair before I chose to leave my husband of 16 years. After I left him, i tried my best to put all the blame on him for my marriage breaking up. Even though my lawyers told me to never confess to adultery, it has eaten me alive that I never had...
411 I am in a troubled marriage. When...
I am in a troubled marriage. When my husband was deployed to Iraq, I honestly thought that my life would be better and easier if he were killed in action. I love my husband, but we have a lot of problems, and I am not in love with him. I do not feel passion for him. We fight a lot. We have children...
412 I have to admit I'm a little angry...
I have to admit I'm a little angry with my mother-in-law. I recently found out she had an abortion after having her 4th child; my husband. I am infertile. She got rid of a child when I can't have the one I desperately long for.
413 I don't even know which category...
I don't even know which category to pick or where to begin. I have been lying for so many years I don't even know where to begin or which sins to specifically ask forgiveness for. I pray for forgiveness of all of my sins and lies. I love God and truly believe in the power of God but I feel so disconnected...
414 I am ashamed of my life! It was...
I am ashamed of my life! It was not always good! My home life was a broken one--my mother got saved when I was two yrs old--she's the one that made sure my sister and I got to church--my dad was not a christian until the mid to late 1980's! My father drank, cheated on my mother, was into pornography...
415 I'm in LOVE with a woman who entered...
I'm in LOVE with a woman who entered my life six years ago. I'm on my second marrriage and want so so much to be in LOVE with the person who I call my wife. My first marriage was to my high school sweet heart and I have a wonderful child from that marriage. My first wife left me for another man and...
416 When I was a child my mother &...
When I was a child my mother & father were divorced. I was ten. She remarried a year later, my father got a girlfriend, but my mother was an hour away and I rarely saw her. I went into the Navy @ 17 and couldn't hack it, so I came home to a dissapointed father. He treated and looked at me as if I were...
417 I am ashamed that I talked my first...
I am ashamed that I talked my first love into aborting our child. I hurt her and myself more than any war, drug or atrocity. And I lie about it on a daily basis.
418 Today I stole a very expensive...
Today I stole a very expensive item from someplace I go every day. I have been stealing since childhood, and was only caught one time, 18 years ago. It seems like the only sin I get away with. ALthough I stole today, I havent for 7 months and I used to every day. A sin, no less. I know it is not mine...
419 I am a christian, but have a crush...
I am a christian, but have a crush on kd lang and get turned on by butch women. I think it's something stemming from my childhood. but strong women are a turn on for me. but like i said, I am a Christian. nobody but God and a few close people know this about me.
420 I would never hurt anyone. I want...
I would never hurt anyone. I want to love at all times, and be loved in return. I have only had childish relationships. As a teen I lost my innocence to my longtime girlfriend. Ever since then, I find myself only attracted to girls around that age. I have tried to date women closer to my age....
421 I am really not sure how to begin....
I am really not sure how to begin. I have been married to a wonderful man. But have lied to him several times. To the point the trust is gone. I love my husband and don't understand why I lie to him. I just got caught in a lie, a couple of days ago. I told him I had a job interview for a managemnt position...
422 When I found out I was pregnant...
When I found out I was pregnant last year my entire family was very happy for me, even though I wasn't married, I wasn't even in a relationship! I didn't want a child and the thought of abortion kept crossing my mind. When the time came that the decision had to be made I chose to abort. I couldn't tell...
423 I don't have much of a secret other...
I don't have much of a secret other than I cannot trust my husband. I have tried to talk to him about why (I think I know the reason), but he just doesn't listen. I honestly don't think he cares. We got married because I got pregnant in high school. I was stupid, and I have never told anyone and...
424 Sometimes I hit my husband, and...
Sometimes I hit my husband, and he hits me back. I was abused as a child by my grandfather, and then again by my uncle. I don't think I have ever dealt with the pain, and it comes out. Sometimes I drink, and when I drink I become a different person. It is at this time that I am physically and mentally...
425 I'm not a very good mom...I get...
I'm not a very good mom...I get very frustrated with my kids...I've never physically hurt them, but I'm very emotionally abusive..I yell at them and make them feel sad and unloved. I know they dont deserve this type of treatment but sometimes I feel like the only way to get through to them is by yelling...before...
426 I've attempted suicide 3 times...
I've attempted suicide 3 times in my life, I always grew up being told I was the ugly kid, but now I'm told the exact opposite, I was trying to give up and give my life up but I wasn't thinking of what was REALLY important: The family and friends that god had given me. Like they all care so much about...
427 I have lied my entire life. The...
I have lied my entire life. The thought of letting someone down destroys me so I lie to them to make them happy, or so I think. I have lied to everyone I have ever loved including my children. Big lies, little lies....sometimes the difference is hard to tell. I have lied to get jobs and lied to gain...
428 I have allowed alcohol to become...
I have allowed alcohol to become a part of my day-to-day routine and, as a result, my quality of life is not very good.My decision makeing process is now flawed and my self disipline is almost non-existant.In addition to destroying my health, I am quickly losing my self-respect as well as the respect...
429 this confession seems to belong...
this confession seems to belong to a lot of categories, but i guess "double life" should cover it all. i am a youth leader in our church, the eldest of the children in our family, a sunday school teacher, Bible Study leader. people look up to me and they think i'm so scarily perfect. i had a boyfriend,...
430 I have always had problems with...
I have always had problems with self-esteem. Going back to my childhood it seems I was always put on the back burner. My father actually told I was "an accident" and he wished it never happened. Fast forward to my adult life, personal relationships always seemed to mess up because I could never express...
431 I suffered with bulimia for many...
I suffered with bulimia for many yers. I was either of normal weight or under weight. I read all these posts of pepole who think they are ugly but I really feel I am. After having my child I gained 150 pounds and could not get this off. I was a completly different person. People looked at me differently...
432 I had 2 abortions when I was young....
I had 2 abortions when I was young. I now have 3 wonderful children with my high school sweetheart and we've been together for 15 years. But these 2 abortions in my past haunt me. I wish I had made different choices. I wish I had known better. I wish....
433 When I was a teenager I was sexually...
When I was a teenager I was sexually molested by an older friend,who was married with childre,and with whom I though I could trust. I feel so ashamed and am constantly haunted in present relationships with what happened in the past. I just cant seem to get over it.
434 I was sexually abused as a child....
I was sexually abused as a child. Recently, I opened up to my best friend who has been through the same thing. I also ended up telling my parents. They were shocked and devastated, but were not much help. With the help of my friends I have managed to feel a lot better. I believe I can get over this. Growing...
435 To J--------------------------------------------------------------------------------I...
To J--------------------------------------------------------------------------------I am married with 2 children go to work each day and try to earn as much as I can each year. I have been lately earning extra on the side so they have more to spend and be happy with their lives. Me on the other hand...
436 I am a father with four children,...
I am a father with four children, a loving wife, and a dog. But I live another life as well. I have sexual relations with my male lover, Raul, and the two of us have adopted two children.
437 I have lately been looking at women...
I have lately been looking at women on the internet and notice some behavior that has not been handled( even though it is swim suit its my thoughts that will take it to the next level) properly from childhood i have confessed my sin and really need prayer so i may be strong. Please church pray that i...
438 When I was 23 I start chatting...
When I was 23 I start chatting with a man on the net. We became real good friends and we fall in love. He came to my country several times to see me, all this for a duration of 3 years. After some visit I decide to present him to my parents and on the same night we where engaged. He was a really nice...
439 I hurt for every child I have removed...
I hurt for every child I have removed from an abusive home. I hurt because I still feel I haven't done enough. I hurt because I no longer suffer the illusions of innocense. I hurt because I have looked into the eyes of a child beaten down to nothing by the ones that were supposed to love it. I hurt and...
440 I have cheated on my boyfriend...
I have cheated on my boyfriend a few times, he cheated on my the first 2 yrs of going out and so to get back at him I slept with 3 of his friends, he only find out about one, and I also slept with someone at work a few times after I had his kid which I feel terriable about. I can't tell him ever, cuz...
441 I am not sure if my 2 year-old...
I am not sure if my 2 year-old child is actually my ex-boyfriends. My child could be 2 other people that I have no idea where they are at.
442 i just turned 17 in july, and right...
i just turned 17 in july, and right after my 17th birthday, i had sex with a guy that i was "talking" to. after we had sex i knew in the back of my mind that i was pregnant, but didn't want to believe it. i found out for sure that i was pregnant 6 weeks later. i was scared, and not sure what to do, but...
443 I was sexually abused from the...
I was sexually abused from the age of about 5 by a sibling. The abuse went on for years. When i was about 6-8 years old, I thought that was how things were and it was okay. I began abusing my cousin who was a couple of years younger than me. I began somehow to realize it was wrong and stopped but the...
444 I've always been known as the "good"...
I've always been known as the "good" child in my family because my brother is the one who is always getting in trouble. But no one knows that I have been watching and reading pornography since I was 11 years old. I'm so ashamed and while I go months without viewing anything, I always get sucked back...
445 I am 22 years old. I was first...
I am 22 years old. I was first exposed to pornography as a child. When I was 18 the Lord delivered me from pornography and masturbation, right before I left home for bible College. While there I remained pure for a year and a half. I was 19 at this point. Now I am 22 and have an up and down battle...
446 I struggle with thoughts of committing...
I struggle with thoughts of committing murder. I revel in vigilantes who kill. I'm female and I'm not supposed to be like that right? I am constantly think about sexual predators, worried to the point of obsession, that someone will hurt my children sexually. I have repeated images of killing predators...
447 I'm a crack addict. I have been...
I'm a crack addict. I have been for 2 years. I quit while I was pregnant, but no one knows I did it two times while I was pregnant. The 1st time, i was only a few weeks, the 2nd time, i was 6months. I didnt do it after that because i thought i killed my baby because it didnt move for hours. I was terrified....
448 I was involved with a married man....
I was involved with a married man. He was not married when we started dating - but while we were dating he got another girl pregnate and he had married her. I cont. to date him because she had "trapped" him into marriage by getting pregnate (yeah - right). He kept saying that he only married her because...
449 I am successful and established...
I am successful and established now, business owner, mother...I talk so sweet, look so nice...everyone loves me...I'm perfect...so everyone thinks, everyone but my husband. I am so harsh to him whenever I think he even looks at another woman. I belittle and berate him verbally. I punish him, when the...
450 I am lusting after my husbands...
I am lusting after my husbands friend. I am imagining myself with him and he taking over as the father of my children. I am always thinking of him and want to have sex with him. I sometimes think of him when I have sex with my husband. I don't want to cheat on my husband, but I can;t get this guy...
451 I have been struggling my entire...
I have been struggling my entire life with addictions. I have "mental issues", and the doctor's cannot find the right "prescription cocktail" to help with my symptoms. I've been diagnosed as bipolar, told I may have multiple personalities, etc. I have suffered an addiction to alcohol, tobacco, food,...
452 5 years ago at 35 years old i found...
5 years ago at 35 years old i found whom i was told for all my life was my birth father, i called my mother and told her he was found and i was going to call him and then the shocker came, she told me she had lied and he is not my birth father, he is my sisters father. it hurt to think she lied to me...
453 I cheated on my husband and I am...
I cheated on my husband and I am not sure if one of my children is his or if my child is the "other mans".
454 As a child I was sexually abused...
As a child I was sexually abused by a cousin and step sisters. By the end of 4th Grade I had been taught mostly everything there is to know... The humilation came later by my stepsisters... i was made to do things, to a family member and then to their own friends while they watched, then made to take...
455 I was sexually abused several times...
I was sexually abused several times as a child by my moms 12 year old brother when I was 5 or 6. My Grandmother was home when it happened. How could she not know?? After that happened, I always felt sex was bad and dirty. To make my problems worse, I had a mean Step-Father from the age of 1 1/2 until...
456 I knew he was married when I first...
I knew he was married when I first saw him, but I was swept away -- animal magnatism? lust? who can say? And amazingly he seemed to feel the same way. We were careful, doing a slow dance. I didn't want to do this, to screw up my life; he was older and loved his child; I coulnd't bear to hurt her or even...
457 i cut myself when my childs father...
i cut myself when my childs father hurts me emotionally. i have the scars but he doesnt seem to notice them......
458 I was molested as a small child,...
I was molested as a small child, I'm not even sure how old I was. Years later when it all came out, my mom told me that the same thing happened to her when she was a little girl. Now I'm terrified that if I ever get married and have a daughter the same thing will happen to her, like the women in my family...
459 When I was little my half-brother...
When I was little my half-brother would molest me. I have these horrible memories of it that I've tried so hard to forget, but I can't. I was extremely suicidal for years because I hurt so much and I knew I couldn't tell anyone. But finally I spoke to a counselor at my university. It helped to get it...
460 i regret being selfish after leaving...
i regret being selfish after leaving my husband. i was too young when we got married. i thought i was doing what i should've been able to do. my selfish, childish acts cost me custody of my children. now their 6yrs and 7 yrs, and i only see them 2xs during the school year, and all summer! i miss them...
461 People say a child is innocent...
People say a child is innocent but as a child I was introduced to sex at a very young age by other children and made a terrible mistake. I didn't attend church until I was nearly 11 so how I knew the things is a mystery to me. I use to dream on many occasions that my bed would fall out beneath me and...
462 Since I grew up with an alcoholic...
Since I grew up with an alcoholic father I never truly realized how much alcohol can master you. I always felt it was okay to drink and often times boozed it up with my dad. Its When I began experiencing difficult times in my life, divorce, financial hardship, raising a child, trying to get to konw God...
463 I sm 27 years of age and have been...
I sm 27 years of age and have been married for 10 years now.For so long, I have been carrying a big load over my shoulders. At times like now, I look back at my life and wish my past were different. To start, at the age of 17 I was having an affair with a man who was my co-worker. I soon turned 18, and...
464 When I was 15, I got pregnant....
When I was 15, I got pregnant. I did not want to have an abortion and adoption was also out of the question. My father convinced me to have an abortion, while my mother tried to talk me out of it. I decided to go ahead with the abortion. When I got to the clinic, they were playing hot steamy romance...
465 I am always sad and depressed,...
I am always sad and depressed, always thinking suicidal thoughts. I have two wonderful, beautiful children and I love them very much, but I don't think I'm a good enough mother to them because I yell at them a lot. I love their father, but am not in love with him. I pretend for the children and it makes...
466 It's happened again, and I thought...
It's happened again, and I thought I was free from it. I've had many fights and flights to be rid of this thing that has driven me to desperate measures. I thought I had it under control. This thing that so eats away at me can be self destructing- it can ruin all that I've worked so hard for. The worst...
467 I was inappropriately touched by...
I was inappropriately touched by two neighbor kids when I was young. Nobody knows about it and I can not find the words to say it out loud. One of the "kids" is married with two children and a successful business. The other has "fallen through the cracks of society." As for myself, I think this has caused...
468 I left home at fourteen and went...
I left home at fourteen and went to florida. I slept with so many men that I cannot even remember their names. I didn't really know any better since I was sexually abused, which is why I left home. My adopted father touched me several times and once almost raped me. Due to all of my promiscuity, I became...
469 its been 4 years since i left my...
its been 4 years since i left my wife of 9 years and my 3 children for another woman.im a devoted dad,but still cant get over the guilt of what i did to my family.i committed adultry and feel so horrible for my actions.sinse then,me and the mother of my children have devorced.i have had many relationships,all...
470 I have been a very sexual being...
I have been a very sexual being since I was 5 or 6 years old. I used to get my "boyfriends" over to my house and mess around with them. I started masturbating around then too. I got into the 6th grade and when wrestling around with one of my friends, I realized that I was very attracted to girls as well...
471 It started out as abuse from my...
It started out as abuse from my oldest brother. Then wenton to include my other brothers. My whole life I have felt that I was unworthy of love or caring. Then as I grew up it went on further with men who were friends. It was as if I had a sign on my forehead that said abuse me. Then came my husband...
472 It never crossed my conscience...
It never crossed my conscience that at 50 I'd still lie with less hesitation and remorse than at 16. I married a young girl of 15, telling her that I loved her. The naked truth was that I didn't, that I only intended to use her family - a very professional, religious, loving, honest, wealthy, elite clan...
473 i have been in a monogomouse relationship...
i have been in a monogomouse relationship with a man for 18 years we have a beautiful child, and a happy life together, he treats me with love and respect, and i trust him implicitly, i met him when i was still in my teens, after the death of my mother, at the time he was in his thirties, married, with...
474 For the 19 years I was married...
For the 19 years I was married I never cheated. Then I found him molesting our daughter, we tried counseling and I was led to believe that all was better. I prayed a lot back then, but all was not better. He started acting like a lunatic. I finally got the strength to file for divorce. This hurt...
475 I am a divorced woman with two...
I am a divorced woman with two grown children. The divorce was my choice and I have never married again. I like to look at gay porn. I masturbate a lot and usually can't make it unless I imagine some gay porn. I confessed this secret but now I am in love with my priest. I don't know if he is gay...
476 This is going to be more difficult...
This is going to be more difficult than I even imagined, but I will try. I have never told anyone before because I am too ashamed and no one would understand. At times, I would like to think I dreamed it, but it is all too real. I was(am)a very shy sheltered girl and really not physically attrative....
477 I have sinned so many times and...
I have sinned so many times and in so many ways that I often pray that God will take my life, so I do not have to face the shame of my sins any longer. Then I regret thinking that because I selfishly want to see my children grow older. There are so many people I have hurt and I do not have the courage...
478 As a teen, I had an ongoing affair...
As a teen, I had an ongoing affair with a married man. I also had an affair with another married man. Since I have been married, I have been drawn to 2 different women. I had sexual encounters with one of the women.I have not told anyone. I thought I was in love each time but I don't think I really knew...
479 When I was 7 yrs old my older brother...
When I was 7 yrs old my older brother molested me. My family didn't believe me.When I was 12 yrs old an uncle and a neighbor both molested me. I couldn't tell anyone. This went on for two years. I didn't think anyone would believe me. I still cry when I think about those men and and what they did to...
480 My husband of 25 years divorced...
My husband of 25 years divorced me for another woman. I married again 6 years ago. I am still in love with my exhusband. the man I am married to is wonderful, I just wish I loved him like he deserves. I am a christian and when I took my vows in both marriages I believe I meant them. I did not want the...
481 I married my college sweetheart...
I married my college sweetheart after an 8 year hiatus during which time I had married another man and he had been engaged, but never married. We were sexually active in college, and again when we reconnected later.After dating for about 18 months, we moved in together with my 4 year old daughter. Eighteen...
482 I have a serious problem with pornography...
I have a serious problem with pornography and lust. It is consuming my mind and impairing my ability to have a healthy marriage. I find myself sneaking away to act on this urge rather than spend quality time with my only child. It makes me sick to think of all the other constructive things I could do...
483 i regret so much the conditions...
i regret so much the conditions of my first marriage/divorce, God. basically i left him because he had major surgery followed by a massive stroke. he was not the same person i had married. he was mean to our children and our special dogs on the weekends i brought him home from rehab hospital. i did what...
484 i am 19 years old. I did sexually...
i am 19 years old. I did sexually unclean things with my ex-boyfriend so i dont even know if im still a virgin. i lied to my parents and sisters for months about him and told them i wasnt dating him because theyd disapprove because he wasnt a christian. my parents found out and were very hurt. i lied...
485 "My confession could easily fall...
"My confession could easily fall under the categories of addiction, pornography, adultery, lying, regret, lust, and self harm... ...The truly sad part here, is that I honestly would like to settle down with a wife, have children, etc. But at this point, I feel tainted and that I would never be good enough...
486 a few months ago I had a miscarriage...
a few months ago I had a miscarriage and it bothers me. its not uncommon in my family history to happen...but ever sinces my husband now (the child i losts farther) seems like he is stepping farther away from me.. we have myspaces and so when i get on i talk to my friends and he has his to talk to his...
487 I am a mother of a 20 year old...
I am a mother of a 20 year old male. He was hooked on meth while i worked away from home for 11 months out of state and left him home alone. When i came home he went to court after getting caught with some in his pocket at a car wash. He was set up by a friend.He receaved huge fines and 10 year probation....
488 I am surprised and somewhat relieved...
I am surprised and somewhat relieved that I am not the only woman in this category. I have been masturbating since I was 8 years old, since I was sexually abused as a child. I was sexually involved (not really intercourse, though) when I was 13 and 14, and full-blown sexually involved with guys throughout...
489 I was about 8 when I was molested...
I was about 8 when I was molested by a close relative. I did not understand exactly what happened but I acted out the act with another child shortly thereafter.I deeply regret this now that I am older. Through the years I have struggled off and on with pornography. Mostly of the written kind.I would...
490 I was unpopular and overweight...
I was unpopular and overweight all through elementary and junior high school. I was constantly teased and made fun of. I know now that lots of people went through this, but at the time it was devastating to me. I also had an alcoholic mother, so there was no safe place for me. Home nor School. I...
491 Some days I hate being a mom. Most...
Some days I hate being a mom. Most days I hate being a mom. I'm a single mom so I get to raise my two toddlers all by myself. On those days when I am hating this "role" I yell at my kids to "go away" when all they want to do is play with me. I put them in their rooms to watch tv for hours while I sit...
492 I use food to make me feel good,...
I use food to make me feel good, then I lie about how much food I eat. I was starved as an child, emotionally and nutritionally as well. the only attention I got was when some man was trying to get sexual with me. So I learned to eat to feel better. Then as an adult I was raped and every man I picked...
493 as a child I lied and stole from...
as a child I lied and stole from my family. Everything is locked up and i can't do anything. How can i chnge my patterens? Every time I tell the truth no one believes me. How can I change that?
494 I am afraid for my daughter. Before...
I am afraid for my daughter. Before I met my husband, he had an addiction to child pornography, and almost molested a young girl. I know it was while he was doing methamphetamines. he is sober now (going on a year and a half now!), and I know that is all behind him, but I was scarred and now, deep down...
495 I have been having an affair with...
I have been having an affair with a very influentual man who is olmost 60 and Iam only 30. He is married and has a family. We've been ssing each other for over 2 years and I know he loves me but his culture wont allow him to divorce.He has given me everything my heart desires. A new car, home, pays all...
496 When I was about 8 or 9 yrs old,...
When I was about 8 or 9 yrs old, I had a friend down the beach who had an baby sister about 6 mos old. Since my mother had been abusing me even then, since I was born a girl& not a boy, I desired love & attn from others, & had gotten it from these people but lost that attn when they had their...
497 After two failed marriages I have...
After two failed marriages I have had huge difficulties in managing my pain. The emotional pain has been so intense at times that I have utilized self inflicted pain, mostly burning of the flesh, to mask or rather distract from what is really hurting me. My three beutiful children have helped me keep...
498 I had an abortion while I was still...
I had an abortion while I was still married to my now ex-hisband. We were separated and I was seeing someone else. I have never told anyone AT ALL what I had done, and most times when I think about it, I am truly ashamed. I feel dirty, and a sinner in God's eyes. If my family had found out, they would...
499 I started masterbating when I was...
I started masterbating when I was eight and for the last ten years or so I've never been able to go longer than a week without falling. The worst part is my attraction to child pornography. I have no wish to ever harm a child, but I can hardly look at one without thinking about them sexually. I don't...
500 I am married with 2 young children...
I am married with 2 young children and I was unfaithful to my wife. It was over 3 years ago but I have been living with the horrible results of this stupid decision. I called a girl from my past when I was out of town and we met up for drinks and then kissed. That led to more kissing and concluded when...
501 I am confessing harboring hurt...
I am confessing harboring hurt feeling anger for my exhusband. NH..during our marriage he was sexually active with my then 10 year old niece for 3 years. This has been over 18 yrs and I still carry this pain around with me. I have since forgave him but I can;t seem to let it go completely out of my life....
502 I find myself in love with a married...
I find myself in love with a married man. I know what he and I are doing is wrong, but yet, I can't help it. The bad part of it is, if he were single, I doubt I would date him because he is not what I look for in a man. So many things about him make me mad and I couldn't imagine being in a serious relationship...
503 I go out about once a month to...
I go out about once a month to do a HOBBY of mine. I love it more then anything but, the thing is I take things to my work station and say I need to think about them and I end up just putting them away with my things. I really need some prayers on help stopping this I know it is wrong. I was caught at...
504 My dad hasn't gone to church in...
My dad hasn't gone to church in 9 years and makes me feel guilty like it's my fault he doesn't.he was an artist and I and my ex payed him 275.00 for a portrait of us,then when we split I payed more to have it done of my 3 kids,then i had another child payed more to add that one in then had another child...
505 When I was a young child, my cousin...
When I was a young child, my cousin (of the opposite sex) and I watched a rather racy movie. We then pretended to have sex. One day we were caught by my mother. At the time we didn't know what we were doing and nothing had happened other than each of us seeing the others privates, but it haunts me to...
506 I yell at my children.
I yell at my children.
507 I love the Lord and have been saved...
I love the Lord and have been saved since early childhood. When I was 26, I dated my one and only boyfriend, who was gorgeous and in medical school.I willingly had a sexual relationship with him. However one day he savagely beat me, ferociously raped me for absolutely no reason at all. My head injuries...
508 I was born with a disability that...
I was born with a disability that has left me unable to walk, when I was a little girl age 6,I asked a priest in my church why God would not want me to be able to walk he said “God did not do this to you Satan did� Needless to say I was mortified, I told my mom about this she did and said nothing....
509 I want a relationship so very very...
I want a relationship so very very badly that I cry at night sometimes. I'm smart, good-looking, and a decent and kind person with a lot of good friends. But I want a boyfriend, and I eventually want to marry and have children. I'm getting older (over 30) and don't know if I will have that chance, and...
510 I have been adulterous many times...
I have been adulterous many times over my life. My children's father had an affair when I was pregnant with our first child; I didn't know anyone could hurt me that much. We stayed together for another child and finally got divorced. Some time later, I went with a married man for 4 years until his wife...
511 I hate my job so much that it makes...
I hate my job so much that it makes me very depressed and physically sick. I'm a teacher and the stress is terrible. I love children and love the profession greatly. However, teaching today has turned into being a correction officer in the classroom. I have one more year before I retire and I pray that...
512 My ex-wife walked out on me and...
My ex-wife walked out on me and our children in Oct. 2001. She abandoned me with our three children plus a step child she had when we got married. Her excuse was she had never lived and she wanted to experience life before she found someone else to settle down with. It took me from Oct. 2001 until Sept....
513 My "first" was when I was 18. He...
My "first" was when I was 18. He was my high school sweetheart. At the time I wasn't ready but I was afraid I would lose him if I didn't cave in. I was young and vulnerable. We were ALWAYS careful, but one day our protection wasn't so reliable. I ended up pregnant. We both wanted the baby very badly....
514 Could you please pray for me. I...
Could you please pray for me. I am a young married pastor with two children who is addicted to porn. I have tried to break free but I have never told anyone so I hope that confessing it here. My spiritual life is the worst that it has ever been. I have tried to think that this cannot effect me as I have...
515 When I was a child, six years old,...
When I was a child, six years old, a babysitter molested me and played doctor with me whenever I was in her care. She was the child of my mother's friends. This led to sexual curiosity and letting a dog lick me in the private area. It's like a horror flick that plays in my mind. I have never told anyone...
516 I am ashamed of myself and yet...
I am ashamed of myself and yet I kept doing what I am ashamed of over and over....I am a widow over 65 and I am sexually fascinated by masturbation and lesbians. I want so badly to enjoy pyhiscal love again but I want to share it with a woman. These feelings have led me to web sites that I would be horrified...
517 My secret is nothing significant....
My secret is nothing significant. It usually slips through the cracks, because it is "common". I am a college student. So most of the rules go out the window, right? The alcohol, the "shacking", the sex, its all overlooked. Simply dismissed as college. Well its more that I want to deal with. I'll start...
518 My baby brother killed another...
My baby brother killed another boy and then comitted suicide. This was the most hurtful thing i have ever been through in my life. My baby brother was my back bone and not to mention my daddy's whole world. I have a daughter who is now 8 and only 5 at the time and i had a 1 year old who both thought...
519 4 years into our marriage my wife...
4 years into our marriage my wife had an affair with a co-worker. She told me about it and for some strange reason I was sexually excited by it. I mean, I am not a jealous person by nature and was not angry ... I just felt aroused that someone other than me saw my wife as a sexual person and she felt...
520 my past has so much in it that...
my past has so much in it that it is realy hard to pick a category But i guess shame is where it ends up. i was molested when i was real young and for years i thought it was something i made up but it was to vivid of a memory not to be real i cant remember most of my childhood it seems i can only remember...
521 Im a CHRIST believer but its seems...
Im a CHRIST believer but its seems that life and the world is so cruel to all of us. I am married to my wife who bares my child but have someone in my heart whom I cant be with because of beauty discrimination. My family is going to church like others but still my sister is engage in a third party...
522 I don't know what it feels like...
I don't know what it feels like to be loved. How can I feel God's love if I don't know what being loved feels like? My heart has put up this wall to shut out the one feeling I would give up everything I have to feel. I have never dated. No guy has ever shown much interest in me. (The one guy that I have...
523 I'm 38 and have been feeling guilty...
I'm 38 and have been feeling guilty for years because I had an abortion when I was about 24. Previously I had always been totally against abortion. My parents and I were both very active in a church. I didn't want my parents or me to have to be ashamed. I didn't want anyone to know that I was not...
524 My Grandfather abused me as a child....
My Grandfather abused me as a child. Now, as a man I have never told anyone. EVER! I have started having feelings for my best friend. I know it is because of my Grandfather. When he died, I wasn't even sad. I was happy. Why is that? Now I have these feelings and they won't go away. I blame...
525 I was 5 when it started. My parents...
I was 5 when it started. My parents thought they were leaving my brother and me with a trustworthy babysitter. She was, after all, a popular high school cheerleader. She was 16. She played the part until my parents were gone and that's when the threats and physical torture began. She put me in a chair...
526 My step father molested me as a...
My step father molested me as a child. I was just 14, a middle school boy. I trusted him and always believed he had my best interests at heart - I realize now he just had is own interests. It went on for 3 years, mom never new, I finally had to break it off. It's caused me to distance myself from...
527 After looking through the categories,...
After looking through the categories, I found it easier to say that self harm was the only one I have not done, that is, except for the most important of all spiritually. God is so good to me all the time and has blessed me way more than I deserve. He has allowed me to raise 2 teenage adopted granddaughters,teenagers...
528 For years I have worked to make...
For years I have worked to make sure I have asked forgivness of those I have harmed and given forginess to those who have harmed me. After a sermon on the topic, that used some 12 step rules. . .I took inventory of my heart. I made adjustments and asked for forgivness of many and also forgave. . .but...
529 I am lonely and sad most of the...
I am lonely and sad most of the time. Everyone thinks I'm ok and have my act together. I look good on the outside, but on the inside, I am so very, very, very sad and very, very, very lonely. No one loves me or cares for me other than my child. I have no one to really talk to. No one to hold. No...
530 I lost my 1st marriage to pornography,...
I lost my 1st marriage to pornography, and now I am in jeopardy of losing my 2nd. I am happy to say I faced this sin months ago and as of the past several months I have stayed away from it. I use to tell myself it was ok to look, because I really own looked at what I called 'soft porn' - just naked woman....
531 It's actually several categories;...
It's actually several categories; I was sexually mistreated and neglected by my fater as a young child after my mother died when I was six and was repeatedly told I was stupid, fat and ugly by my older brothers. That left me angry and my mother's death left me lonely and bitter. I do not trust...
532 I am recently divorced and I regret...
I am recently divorced and I regret not being less controlling. I thought I was doing what was best for the situation and now I look back and see how controlling my distant family was over my wife and children and I was right in the middle of it. When I pledged to live for GOD late last year, I almost...
533 I carry past humiliation of my...
I carry past humiliation of my husband's(at the time) domestic violence. My ribs broken, major abdominal muscles badly torn, and now found out a cracked hip from the past abuse.The problem is I condoned the abuse-that is, I wouldn't leave my husband, and often would beg him to come home when he left(which...
534 I had a terrible child hood, growing...
I had a terrible child hood, growing up with two alcoholic parent/step parent(s). I thank god for my grandmother who gave me my morals and taught me about god and such. However, during the course of my life, I have been lied too, had relatives steal from me, cheated on, broken promises, married to get...
535 My husband is bisexual! He just...
My husband is bisexual! He just told me this after 13 yrs of marriage. I would have never guessed. (although, now I can remember moments where I should have questioned, but never did imagined this). I did catch him looking at porn late at night, a few times. I am so confused by his confession that I...
536 I am a minister and I am so ashamed...
I am a minister and I am so ashamed of my smoking habit. I try to hide it from my husband, children and church members/leaders. I know God is not pleased adn neither am I. PLease pray that I will stop this bad nad nasty habit.
537 I have been married for 14 years...
I have been married for 14 years to a wonderful man, but I have cheated on him many times. However, what racks me with pain almost everyday is that our middle child who is 9 years old is not his and he does not know that. I have kept it hidden from him and also the child, but DNA tests have conclusively...
538 I love my husband very much, but...
I love my husband very much, but I am so weak. I have had relations with a few other men during our marriage, and I know it is wrong. My husband doesnt know about any of my affairs, and he thinks both of our children are his, but I am not sure about one of them. The other possible father knows, and...
539 Scary is how I can't confess to...
Scary is how I can't confess to just one category. I wake up scared every morning of the day, lie and cheat at my job. I can't look at attractive women as just people, but feel lust. I am in a relationship but constantly seek out sex with other women, occasionally porn. I even have bi-sexual thoughts...
540 okay, here I am at the last moment...
okay, here I am at the last moment as usual. I have confessed my sins to God a million times over, but have never confessed to God's people so that they may pray for me and I can acutally lift my burdens. I am scared to death right now but I know this is the step that God is putting on my heart to follow...
541 When I was 3 I was sexually molested...
When I was 3 I was sexually molested by my 15 yr old babysitter I told my parents because I thought it was a game and I told them about the new game I learned. They did nothing.When I was 6 yrs old I was kidnapped and held in the man's home for 2 days being forced to do sexual acts my parents never reported...
542 5 years ago I found out from others...
5 years ago I found out from others that my wife had an affair with a "real man" in the 1990's, a swaggering, uneducated, boasting, 20-year older braggart.My life was destroyed that day. The world came tumbling in.Our teen age children were emotionally hurt watching their father giving up on life. I...
543 It seems that all I do is sin....
It seems that all I do is sin. My life revolves around the most vicious sins and evil deeds. I have refused God and denied Him. I have mocked him. Please pray for me and ask God to help me stop. I have committed so many atrocious violations I am now like a child too ashamed to face my Father. I am...
544 I was 5 years old when my Uncle...
I was 5 years old when my Uncle commited suicide. He is my Mom's youngest brother.. But ever since his death My mother has abused me. I know that the bible says to Love thy parents. But I cannot love my mom. I find it hard to have respect or love for someone who abused me and to this day still abuses...
545 I used to go to an after school...
I used to go to an after school program. I was young, i think 2nd & 3rd grade. I was Molested on the bus by an older female. She also made me touch her. I am ashamed that it happened and feel like I should have been able to stop it. I know I was little but I never saw that as a good enough excuse...
546 I have been married to my husband...
I have been married to my husband for 9 years, we have 2 beautiful children and I still consider him the love of my life. He had an affair a few years ago and it devastated me. Last year, I ran into an old friend and started having a sexual affair that has gone on ever since.I have tried so many times...
547 Our second child was planned by...
Our second child was planned by me alone. I knew my husband didn't want another child but I did. So I quit taking my pills and ended up pregnant the next month. I pretended I was devastated to my family and friends, and to my husband when I told him. Secretly I was happy to be pregnant again. I...
548 I do not love my husband, and...
I do not love my husband, and have not for many years. Truth be told, I don't even love him, and often fnd him to be disgusting. Very often I find myself hating him. I fear the ramifications of divorce, and so I simply wish he were dead. I spent my youth steadfast in my desire never to get married....
549 AS A CHILD, I DON'T REMEMBER...
AS A CHILD, I DON'T REMEMBER MY MOTHER EVER SHOWING ME LOVE, ONLY IGNORING ME. AS I GREW OLDER, SHE REMAINED THE SAME, ONLY ACTED LIKE SHE HATED ME. I'M NOT BRAGGING, BUT I REALLY WAS A GOOD KID. NEVER GOT IN TROUBLE, ONLY WANTED LOVE. MY OLDER BROTHER STARTED SEXALLY ABUSING ME WHEN I WAS 6 YRS....
550 I have been in a hopeless loveless...
I have been in a hopeless loveless marriage for 27 years. My husband got the flu on our honeymoon and has been either physically or mentally ill ever since. No lie. He got sunburned on our honeymoon and used that as an excuse not to have sex. Then we came home from our honeymoon, moved in with his...
551 For many years i cheated on my...
For many years i cheated on my wife, lied to my children, and had doubt about life until recently i accepted christ and my life changed,Now i don't cheat or lie to my wife and family. i never knew i can be so happy by having christ in my lfe. So to any one who have doubt about changing you can you...
552 I know my thoughts, actions &...
I know my thoughts, actions & words to my parents are not what God wants to hear. My parents are wealthy and have set up trust funds for educational purposes for their grandchildren. No one is entitled to an inheritance, I realize this but it has been told to me from the birth of my children that...
553 when i was 16 i became pregnant...
when i was 16 i became pregnant and had an abortion. I didn't know what to do. I had to turn to my parents because naturally the guy disappeared and my friends were scared that their parents might find out so they kind of kept their distance from me somewhat. I grew up catholic and was really faced with...
554 ...there is so much to say, and...
...there is so much to say, and so little space to say it. In the past, I have stolen from my parents and family. Had one child out of wedlock,2 abortions, had an affair with a married man, fornicated, lied, knowingly created a debit (without any intension to repay)and I'm sure there is much I am forgetting....
555 MY life could be rated X if it...
MY life could be rated X if it was a movie no one knows what really happen in my childhood for fear of shame and people would see how worthless I truly am.what I did just to have the food in my stomach where were the people that claimed they cared and say they didn't know this was so bad, BULL they knew...
556 I am married with 2 children go...
I am married with 2 children go to work each day and try to earn as much as I can each year. I have been lately earning extra on the side so they have more to spend and be happy with their lives. Me on the other hand rarely spend a dime on me. From the outside I look like a happily married man, but...
557 I steal all my clothes. I'm poor,...
I steal all my clothes. I'm poor, I have lived with no electricity, no water (therefore no plumbing for 8 monthsd, on the streets as a child/teenager. My parents couldn;t afford "back to schoo shopping" and I can;t blame them for that. I blame this materialistic wolrd. I was always so bitter when girls...
558 I was abused as a child by two...
I was abused as a child by two very close family members. Only a few know this. The worst part is I have to deal with these two on a near daily basis in my life and sometimes I just want to blurt it out to everyone around us what they did to me!!
559 I'm an eighteen year old female....
I'm an eighteen year old female. I was molested as a child by my stepfather. I told my mother what happened and he was tried before a jury. He was found innocent because I was only four. Even though my mother divorced him, I still have to deal with him because he is my brother's father. and it kills...
560 Many years ago my oldest sister...
Many years ago my oldest sister was stabbed to death in a resturant parking lot in Houston. The killer retrieved 40 dollars for his efforts. This event turned my mother to alcohol and caused her to loose her faith in God. My family tried to help her with rehab, group counseling, detox etc...But she never...
561 Well I always had a great childhood...
Well I always had a great childhood no bad memories there. When I turned 17 I moved in with my boy friend. I stayed in his sisters room so that I could watch his brother and sister at night while he and his mom worked. I was a vigin when I moved in with him. I had never even kissed a guy. Well after...
562 I am too self conscious about my...
I am too self conscious about my image and weight because of teasing and abuse I suffered as an overweight child. God is great, because he's teaching me not to worry so much.
563 I am not a member of the church....
I am not a member of the church. my husband is. I am an addict/alcoholic. I am in several 12 step groups and help other addicts and alcololics. I believe in god, and pray everyday. I feel that me and my husband are moving away from each other. We no longer see things the same way. I am very supportive...
564 This is something I've never told...
This is something I've never told anyone, because, it was so tramatic for me, and still is, that I am afraid to tell someone because, I don't want them to be hurt by it like I have been. It's a catch 22...I need to confess it,but I'm afraid to confess it would hurt someone like it has hurt me, and so...
565 First off I love my husband very...
First off I love my husband very much but life with him has been hard. Weve been together since we were teenagers and had a child when we were 17. He has been a real man and has stood up and taken on his reasponibility of being a father. The first time I did anything was the first time he went overseas....
566 I regret not ever showing my mother...
I regret not ever showing my mother any type of affection. I regret not visiting her more in the hospital as she lay fighting cancer. When I finally kissed her and told her I loved her, she started crying because she knew that I felt she might die. She asked me to forgive her for anything wrong she did...
567 When I was a child, I lived with...
When I was a child, I lived with my grandmother. She would only let me eat the three normal meals a day. I was not allowed to have snacks, or anything with sugar...she always said I had to eat right to watch my weight. When I was 10 I moved back with my mom, and it was at this point that I started binging...
568 I have very bad relationships with...
I have very bad relationships with people. I really don't like being around them. I'm always questioning why people talk to me. Most people say that I very nice and pleasant to be around, but I don't see how. Every relationship I've had has fallen apart. My marriage ended in divorce after about five...
569 When I was a child, I was picked...
When I was a child, I was picked on in school in the 6th grade by older girls who were bullies. Ever since then, I have found myself in adult situations (in my personal life or work life) where I am misunderstood and hurt by people. As a result, I became angry and lashed out by writing anonymous letters...
570 I am a 31 year old female who was...
I am a 31 year old female who was abused by my Grandfather as a child from as early as I can remember to about age 7. Like so many of the other people that have posted messages on this site I have felt guilt and shame. I have blamed myself and my family,since he started by abusing his daughters. I have...
571 I am writing because I havent really...
I am writing because I havent really been a good husband and father.I know i could be a better person.I worry too much about things.thinking of myself more than my family.I drive my wife crazy.Repeating things thatshouldone,and that is unessary.I spent more time locking myself and my thoughts to myself...
572 As far back as i can recall I had...
As far back as i can recall I had been sexualy abused by my stepbrother. I can recall it happening before my 4th birthday and happened untill I was about 13. He was about 5 years older then me. I now suspect it was happening to him by his bio.Father. We shared a room and sometimes a bed when I would...
573 When i was in my 20's and i had...
When i was in my 20's and i had several affairs with married men. I had so much hurt and anger inside i wanted to make everyone hurt the way i did. I saw what i wanted and just took without any regard for but myself. I am not talking one or twice that i hooked up with married men. SIX TIMES! I have never...
574 Back in the 70's I started doing...
Back in the 70's I started doing drugs,it carried on into the 80's.1988 I lost my boyfriend due to drugs and alcohol so I tried to change my ways and stop the drugs and also drinking. I married in 1989 and had my first child in 1991.I have had two more children and all three have autism. I cannot...
575 I am overwhelmed most of the time.I...
I am overwhelmed most of the time.I am not sure how to get out of it. I had put myself in the situation I can't figure the way out. I have no family here, I am married to the man I despise who, in turn, absolutely hates me. We don't talk anymore. Mostly he yells and I say "enough".I don't want to even...
576 As I have confessed to God, I know...
As I have confessed to God, I know that I have been forgiven. But, my thought continue to plague me and I know I can not tell my wife as I do not want to hurt her.We have been married for a little less then 40 years. Have three children who are grown, married with families of their own, and are doing...
577 I am staying with my boyfriend...
I am staying with my boyfriend of almost 9 years because I have no money to go anywhere....I am finishing college this winter and hopefully I can get out after when I start working. I loved him for a long time but grew out of love because he is so boring, and he is a slob & a mama's boy ...he makes...
578 When I was 16 I had my first abortion....
When I was 16 I had my first abortion. I was terrified to tell my parents. A friend supplied the birth certificate to say that I was older. I went to the abortion clinic by myself. My child would be 29 years old now. I often wondered; boy or girl. I had my second abortion at age 22. I foolishly...
579 I grew up in a very abusive home...
I grew up in a very abusive home - verbally and physically. Both my olders sister's got pregnant very young on purpose to get out of the house. I was left alone. No-one to talk to. My Mom and Dad fought all the time, then after he would leave to meet his girlfriend she would take all of her rage on me.She...
580 i thought when he died i i died...
i thought when he died i i died too. i wanted to crawl into the coffin and lay down beside him.but they wouldn,t let me. they all told me you have another child to live for, God help me she,s not the same. she,s everything he is not, she is everything im not i try to love her for who she is but...
581 My heart aches over an abortion...
My heart aches over an abortion that I had 32 years ago. I was 20 at the time and my mother was the one that insisted I have an abortion. I had no place to go and no money, so I did what she wanted me to do. I have regretted that action everyday of my life. I wish I had had the courage to choose...
582 It is difficult for me to choose...
It is difficult for me to choose a category, as so many of them apply to me. I am addicted to food. I often think that it would be nice to be bulemic or anorexic, but I am too weak-willed to pull it off. I despise men who are weak and seek out pornography, and yet, out of curiosity, I look...
583 When I was a young child, I was...
When I was a young child, I was sexually abused by one of my adoptive parents' military aquaintances. I never went to my parents because we never had the kind of relationship where I felt that I could trust them to do anything about it. ( we children were " seen " and not " heard " was my parents philosophy...
584 I was sexually and physically abused...
I was sexually and physically abused as a child. I think the afteraffects have ruined my marriage. I regret never telling anyone my problems before it was too late.
585 When I was a child my brother sexually...
When I was a child my brother sexually abused me for many years. I have only told one person in my life and she didn't believe me. I still have a hatred of him and my family for not acknowledging that it happened (how could they not know??) and now I fear for his daughter.. will he do it to her? Thaks...
586 I am extremely angry at my mother...
I am extremely angry at my mother and father and can not really forgive them for taking away my childhood. Its effecting my relationships now - I have a hard time being open with people and showing my vulnerabilities.
587 I am 44 and have never been married....
I am 44 and have never been married. I am very angry at my parents and this has made it hard for me to trust anyone enough to allow them truely into my life. I have, from what anyone can see, a very successful life. But my father beat my mother, me and my siblings as a children. He also never worked,...
588 I'm a married with children woman...
I'm a married with children woman who has had feelings for a married with children man for several years now. He does not know I feel this way, nor does my husband. Sometimes I think he may have some feelings for me too but I know he would never tell me so. I can't stop thinking about him and what...
589 please help me... I am a single...
please help me... I am a single mother to three children. My husband and I are going through a seperation but I secretly could never let him go. WHile we were married I lied to him and fell inlove with another man. I still long for that other man but it was lust not love. i thought for the lonest time...
590 I have been married twice, the...
I have been married twice, the first ended in divorce. My first husband left because I cheated on him and became pregnant with another mans child. My second husband and I have had a rocky relationship from the beginning and things got progressively worse from there. To make a long story short he had...
591 First... I feel like an awful...
First... I feel like an awful mother because I regret having my second daughter. She was unplanned and unwanted from day one.. I have an older daughter that was planned and prayed for and wanted. When I found out I was pregnant with my first daughter, I thanked God and spent nine months waiting to...
592 My father abused my mother for...
My father abused my mother for 22 years and as soon as all four of her children turned three he started abusing us. I have scars everywhere on my body from things he did and every time I look at them it disgusts me because I want to be beautiful so that I can prove him wrong when he always told me that...
593 I was touched sexually by a girl...
I was touched sexually by a girl in my neighborhood when I was around 6 years old. I am now 27 and married to a man but I think the experience has messed with my mind. I love my husband very much but I sometimes have fantasies about being with a woman. I don't know if this means I am bisexual or curious...
594 Shortly after I turned 21, I was...
Shortly after I turned 21, I was at a bar with a bunch of friends. A male friend of mine decided that I was unable to drive home and he offered me a place to stay at his house in a spare bedroom. Needless to say, he didn't have a spare bedroom and one thing led to another and I had sex with him. A few...
595 when I was twenty even though I...
when I was twenty even though I was married I didnot want to be pregnant. this was 1960s no abortion, I on numerous times banged my growing belly trying to have a miscarriage. to no avail, by the time my child was born, it was severlly brain damaged. the baby died after 28 months. the guilt the...
596 I was gang raped in a very religous...
I was gang raped in a very religous area out West. An area that would ask what I did wrong to be abused! I didn't want this to happen to me. I want to love a man, to get married; but I don't trust them. A few years after the rape I convinced my doctor to do a hystoectmony on me; telling him I was never...
597 My first cousin and I have always...
My first cousin and I have always been close friends and we became deeply in love in college. It was easy to pass off living off campus together because we were cousins and no one ever thought there was anything going on. We had loved each other even back into our young childhood. We were always inseparable....
598 I always end up with abusive men...
I always end up with abusive men who don't care about me. They use me and I let them. Then when I finally get enough and want out, they try to destroy me financially and emotionally. They use manipulation as well as threatening behavior to get me to stay with them. I think that I do not value myself...
599 I was sexually abused as a child...
I was sexually abused as a child when i was 4 years old. It is my absolute 1st vivid memory of myself as a child. i had no childhood because of it, and most of my adult life has been affected in one way or another. This person was a friend of my father's. They were in the Army together in Fort Knox,...
600 When I was 3 years old my stepgrandfather...
When I was 3 years old my stepgrandfather raped me at his home, my grandmother was in the house and afterwards found out.She choose to coverup what her husband had done, probably due to the shame and the times. It was the late fifties and no one ever talked about child abuse back then. She cleaned me...
601 Growing up, everyone thought that...
Growing up, everyone thought that we had the "PERFECT FAMILY". My parents seemed to be loving and generous. We went to parks, zoos, amusement parks, the circus, the movies, etc. But, behind closed doors, my parents abused me physically, mentally, emotionally and even sexually (only once but, that was...
602 I have so many issues with sex...i...
I have so many issues with sex...i think that it all started from early childhood where i was molested by my father....from that i also was sexualy involved with my siblings and many of my male cousins...now as an adult i am drawn to porn and also the dark side of sex. Please pray for me that i can beat...
603 I was molested by my uncle for...
I was molested by my uncle for years when I was a child. I told my family about it and they acted as if I was the one that was wrong. Then they tried to act like it never happened. It only made matters worse and I ended up abusing my younger siblings by exposing them to pornography, and being inappropiate...
604 When I was in high school I manipulated...
When I was in high school I manipulated a friend of mine who I knew adored me above all other girls. I seemed to be the most influential person for him that was his own age at the time. To him I was fascinating in seeming cosmopolitan and a sort of wild eyed pixie...or maybe I was just a masterful sociopath....
605 2 years ago I was a member of an...
2 years ago I was a member of an elite Army unit that did many horrible things all over the world. All but one person we delt with got what was coming to them, excpt one.We were sent on a black op in an Iraqi city to kill an Iraqi Insurgent. The Insurgents had a Child sentry outside he couldn't have...
606 When I was 16, I met a man who...
When I was 16, I met a man who was 26. I wasn't supposed to see him, but I did. My mother never knew. He brainwashed me and sexually absued me, then dumped me off because he decided I wasn't "young" enough - he decided he didn't like that, at sixteen, I had pubic hair, large breasts, and the fact that...
607 When my husband and I had been...
When my husband and I had been married for about 7 years, we hit a very rough patch. I started having an affair and after a few months, I decided to end the affair and get back in a relationship with my husband. Not long after that, we found out I was pregnant. We decided to abort the child because I...
608 My husband mistakenly discharged...
My husband mistakenly discharged his weapon in our home.......some say I over reacted when I told him to leave....he left ... 18 months ago .I feel I let him and our marriage down ...It eats me up for not being more understanding...I love him and I have felt like I do not care to go on without him, however...
609 I had not one, not two, but three...
I had not one, not two, but three abortions during college. I was lustful and irresponsible. I did not want to mess up my life with the responsibility of a baby. I always had this huge fear that when I grew up and married, God would punish me by not allowing me to have any children when I wanted them....
610 You know i well should have a heading...
You know i well should have a heading with everyone of the titles i have done so many things wrong in my life i have cheated on a really great husband and father who did not diserve what i did to him now he is gone and everyday i wish i could turn back time. i have had 2 abortions because of my cheating...
611 i just got married a few months...
i just got married a few months ago and my husband and i have always talked about haveing children before we got married and now we never talk about it and when someone asks if we are going to have some he always says something different like sometimes he said yea just later on and then he says to someone...
612 18 years ago I lied to a boy that...
18 years ago I lied to a boy that i had sex with and told him that i was pregnant with his child but that I wanted an abortion and that i wanted him to help pay for half of the cost and that my aunt was going to take me to have the procedure. I was trying to get some cash from him and today i don't even...
613 noone knows it but i think i am...
noone knows it but i think i am a lesbian. i have two children and i have even been engaged to a man. i have had sex with men but something inside keeps drawing me towards women.
614 For the longest time now I have...
For the longest time now I have been struggling with my marriage and my husband ever since our daughter passed away last year while she was 11 days old. I have doubted him in our relationship and his honesty to me he has seemed to disappear since we lost her and did a complete flip from who he was. Now...
615 I think there is something wrong...
I think there is something wrong with me. even though I know it's sinful I can't get over my sick fetishes. I don't know why, but when I see childrens television, such as seseame st. teletubbies...etc. I feel these disturbing desires and will very often masturbate while watching shows of this nature....
616 There are many things from my past...
There are many things from my past that I regret. I am filled with guilt and remorse for my past actions, and wish I could take it all back. Unfortunately I cannot. It will be up to God as to whether or not I am deserving of a place in His Kingdom. It started when I was 16. I had sexual relations...
617 I carried on an affair before my...
I carried on an affair before my husband died, years ago, when my children were young. The reason for the affair? My husband went to a men's church camp and wrote to me a confession that he was addicted to internet porn. I thought I was getting even. The affair lasted several months. My relationship...
618 I am a young woman who has survived...
I am a young woman who has survived uterine cancer but because of it been abandonded and ridiculed by some family members. There are a few family members who claim it is Gods way of punishing me due to the fact that I was raped as a child and again as an adult in college. All the while it makes me wish...
619 I was abused as a child. I was...
I was abused as a child. I was raped by a cop. He tried to kill me. But when my parents found out. They said it was my fault. I have had addictions. for 4 years I was a coke heroin meth junkie. I shot up . I was homeless. I wanted some one to like me. I became a prostitute. I am now 2 years clean. But...
620 I sometimes wish my husband would...
I sometimes wish my husband would die and I would get the insurance and can leave where we live now (the ghetto), and not struggle financially and begin another life where I can make better decisions about who I get involved with.I pray for God's strength in my situation but it get's hard having a husband...
621 My wife and I dint really love...
My wife and I dint really love each other anymore.I dont know that we actually were ever in love. We've been married for 17 years now.We got married because we had premaritial sex and it ended up in a pregnancy.My wife had the child and he's an amazing 18 year old boy now,I'm so glad to have him in my...
622 I don't know why my life is falling...
I don't know why my life is falling apart. I am angry, sad, lonely you name it. I feel like I am always here for everyone but noone is EVER here for me. Why is that I am a good person I work, take care of my children, my husband, parents, but yet noone seems to care about me. I can't tell you the last...
623 I was with this mean man who used...
I was with this mean man who used to beat me up every day. I ended up having 3 children with him.. Well, after we had been together for about 5 years. I found out he was smoking crack cocaine. I confronted him about it, knowing what my fate was for disobeying him. Instead of him beating me. He made me...
624 I was sexually abused by my alcoholic...
I was sexually abused by my alcoholic father and my brother for many years. My mother could not deal with this, and so emotionally and physically abused me as well, at 29 years old, i have never heard the words i love you from my mother. It tears me apart. I turned to eating as a child, gained over 100...
625 As a young child, I was molested...
As a young child, I was molested by a cousin 10 years older than me. I have to face him at every family function and holiday knowing what he did to me.
626 When I was single I slept with...
When I was single I slept with a married man. We had children together and sometimes I feel like I should apologize to his wife. I asked god for forgiveness and only hope that he has forgiven me.
627 i was molested as a child by my...
i was molested as a child by my father and never told anyone
628 I believe I was sexually abused...
I believe I was sexually abused more then once in my childhood by both males and females. I don't remember the exact situations or the people, but i have blocked out most of my childhood. The abuse happened before the age of 12. I remember being way to sexual my whole life with very confusing sexual...
629 I'm having a relationship with...
I'm having a relationship with a man who I deeply love, and he loves me back. However, his parents find the relationship disgraceful because in his religion it's a sin to date. We need his parents blessing to get married, or else it won't happen. Or might happen with hardships, and would be out of sin...
630 About 2 years ago i cheated on...
About 2 years ago i cheated on my fiance. He quit his job and i was angry with him, becuase i didn't know how we would be able to live in our apartment without the extra income. I had a male friend who lived a few hours south from me. I would make up stories telling my fiance i was stay at a girlfirends...
631 I was sexually abused as a child...
I was sexually abused as a child by my father from when I was 5 until I left and moved in with my grandparents at 14. My grandfather then continued to abuse me until I ran away at 17. They raped me and broke me until I tried to kill myself over and over agin. My mother knew of it all and was even present...
632 i dont love my husband like a wife...
i dont love my husband like a wife should ..he is a very good man but i just dont want him like a wife should..i stay because of my children they love him so much
633 I was sexually abused in my childhood...
I was sexually abused in my childhood by an older sibling.Thankfully there is a large age difference so I didnt have to deal with this after about age 9 or 10, I never spoke of it. I was so embarassed and dirty. Until here recently after fifteen or so years of no contact, this person and "HIS" family...
634 When I was 15 I started hurting...
When I was 15 I started hurting myself. I was hospilized a couple times for being suicidal and put on anti-depressants and anti-psychotics. A couple of months ago I stopped them. I've started remembering things about my childhood. (sexual and emotional abuse) I'm not sure I should believe it or not....
635 I'm hurting inside. I feel very...
I'm hurting inside. I feel very lonely yet I have two kids and a husband who says he loves me and provides for us as much as I provide for us. I'm angry because I have a young child that I really don't care to care for, I guess I love this child because when he is ill or hurt-I hurt but at the same...
636 I HAD A 3YR AFFAIR WITH A SINGLE...
I HAD A 3YR AFFAIR WITH A SINGLE MAN ON MY JOB ANDI'M MARRIED. AS A RESULT OF THIS RELATIONSHIP I HAD A CHILD FROM HIM. MY LIFE AS I'VE KNOWN IT, HAS BEEN TURNED UPSIDE DOWN. MY HUSBAND LOVES OUR DAUGHTER WITH ALL OF HIS HEART, BUT HER BIOLOGICAL FATHER IS OBSOLETE FROM HER LIFE. BECAUSE OF THE OTHER...
637 Where to begin? I'm shocked that...
Where to begin? I'm shocked that I'm even doing this since I can't even talk about it out loud to my family, yet I can post it for the world to see on the Internet. My father sexually abused my sister and I when we were younger. God this is the first time I've even typed it (or said it out loud). Memories...
638 When I was about 3 years old, I...
When I was about 3 years old, I was sexually molested by a man with whom my mother was having an extra marital affair. I was a very depressed child all the way through my teens and when I was about 10 or 11 I began sexually abusing my little brother. I am 26 now and I am very proud of who I have become...
639 I can not have children. How is...
I can not have children. How is this a lie?Well, I constantly tell people that I don't want kids...truth be told; I am unable to get pregnant. The doctors say both me and my husband are heatlthy. I live in shame of this. I will never come out and verbally say to anyone that after 15 years with my husband...
640 I am a woman in my late 50's. I'm...
I am a woman in my late 50's. I'm sure many stories that you get are similar to mine. I am ADDICTED to SEX.My husband and I just celebrated our 40th Wedding Anniversary. Everyone we know think we are the perfect married couple. And as far as I know my husband has never cheated on me. I wish I could say...
641 I starve myself during the day...
I starve myself during the day only eating one meal, which is in front of my children so that they see eating food is good for you and that I am eating. My oldest son is 12 and is starting not to eat also counting calories. I I throw up every day. I am 30 now but the problem started when I was only 14....
642 I fear marriage. Guys cheat...its...
I fear marriage. Guys cheat...its in their nature. I'm 23 and I don't think even in 10 years I'll want to get married. Every woman I've ran into has been cheated on. Men can't be happy with one woman. WHY? Why do they cheat? Why does it always have to involve sex? Divorce scares me too. What else do...
643 I hate my mother so much. I never...
I hate my mother so much. I never call her or return her messages. I forgot her birthday again. I can't forgive her for my childhood.
644 my father often wonders why i do...
my father often wonders why i do not call him 'daddy' anymore. when i was 15 he beat me bad enough that i recieved a minor concussion and badly bruised ribs. i still have the remnence of a lump on my head from where i was punched. he hasn't done it since because i learned to fight to protect myself....
645 When I was younger, I was abused...
When I was younger, I was abused by my babysitter. Around the age of 2 or 3. Then I was abused by a older boy about 15 when I was 6. And again when I was 11 by another older boy at church. These painful experiances have caused me to sort of well not hate but I am pissed of at God. Why would he let a...
646 I regret getting married and having...
I regret getting married and having children. I am so unhappy I want to die. I am only 24.
647 I was picked on and beat up constantly...
I was picked on and beat up constantly for being sick while I was younger. The kids made up terrible rumors about my disease and me in general and life day in and day out in school was hell. Its over 10 years later now and still when I think of them and one person in particular I get overwhelmed with...
648 I'm 16. I was abused by my father...
I'm 16. I was abused by my father everyday until I was 9. He would come home from work he was a construction worker so he would be sun burnt. he would make me go to his room with him and tell everyone i was putting aloe on his back but he never made my brothers "put aloe on his back". i would cry everyday...
649 I've lied a lot.. more than the...
I've lied a lot.. more than the average person. I want to tell him that i don't love him.. that i love another guy. that my child isn't his..[its unborn, but i still know] i just want to stop the lies...
650 Well to start with I'm in a relationship....
Well to start with I'm in a relationship. We have been together for 3 and a half years. This happened when we had been together for aobut a year or two... I'm not sure of the date. I lied to my boyfriend about going to a party. The party was a birthday party for a friend of an Ex boyfriend and I told...
651 Last night I recieved a phone call...
Last night I recieved a phone call from my grandmother. She said my mom's drinking was very bad. She had started falling and blacking out. She didn't remember her falls. My grandmother wants me and my sister to talk to my mom about her behavior. The problem is.. I am also an alcoholic. Grandma has no...
652 ParentingLast night I was verbally...
ParentingLast night I was verbally abusive to my children. I took my anger, frustration and hurt feelings out on them. That was wrong. I made them both cry. I feel terrible about it. I had some wine and when I came home, they were not happy that I had been drinking and driving. That's all I needed...
653 I have been seeing my boyfriend...
I have been seeing my boyfriend for 3 years and no one in my family knows because I hide it from them. They don't approve of him because he has a child out of wedlock and b/c he is half mexican. I don't know what to do.
654 I went to a chruch were if you...
I went to a chruch were if you wern't from a high class you were nothing to these people. i was on the worship team and my mom was doing the daycare on wensday when i was singing and she was also working in the childrens department one day awe talked about something in the bible and my family was used...
655 I was diagnosed with cancer at...
I was diagnosed with cancer at 14 which led to abusive relationships, drugs abuse and self inflicted pain. At 20 I blame myself for these poor decisions but everyday I hate my father more and more. He knew i needed serious help and refused to even talk to me because I was sick. I feel very hurt to this...
656 I am a very confused young man....
I am a very confused young man. As a child I always had "crushes" on girls. As I got into middle/high school I began to look at gay porn and consider young men in my class to be attractive. I have always wanted a family with a wife, and children. I am completely confused by my feelings, and have prayed...
657 After my divorce I felt completley...
After my divorce I felt completley useless and ashamed because my husband had cheated on me with several different women. I bounced around from man to man for almost a year. I did start seriously daing someone. After dating for about 1 1/2 months he had to leave for a year long deployment to IRAQ. We...
658 I confess not aborting my fetus...
I confess not aborting my fetus when I was pregnant. Now I have to deal with this child I have no right being a parent to.
659 At the age of 13 I accepted Jesus...
At the age of 13 I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. At the age of 19 I fell deeply in love for the first time with the preacher's son. We dated for a time, but a few years later he broke up with me and married another. 6 mos. after his wedding he came to me and told me he made a mistake and...
660 I am now a proud mother to a six...
I am now a proud mother to a six month old child, but 6 years ago, I had an abortion. I got pregnant by someone I didn't even know who got me drunk. I cannot use alcohol as an excuse. I made the wrong decision to even have sex with him. I regret not telling him that I was pregnant. I regret having the...
661 I sometimes wish I never married...
I sometimes wish I never married my husband. We were in love and we had premarital sex and I got pregnant. We got married a lot sooner than we would have if I weren't pregnant. There are just a lot of things that I wish I would have known before we got married. My husband's father was abusive to his...
662 As a child I was sexualy abused...
As a child I was sexualy abused by a relative, Then years later I orally abused my daughter.I also cheeted on my wife, Let gay guys have sex with me.Did petty stealing. I am widowed and masturbate.
663 For a few months after a divorce...
For a few months after a divorce and other serious things,while unemployed I would meet men from the internet and have sex for money so my children could keep a roof over their head.It ended when I was busted by one of the internet men.He was vice squad and I was arrested.It was actuallya blessing because...
664 I am completely in love with a...
I am completely in love with a man I have never met in person. We are both the same age, 18. He feels the same as I do. As far as I know, we are the only people that know about it. Atleast until we are together. We have plans for marriage, living arrangements. We even talk about children from time to...
665 I lie about everything, but never...
I lie about everything, but never get caught. I don't know why I do, I just do. I lie about small things and I lie about huge things. I have met a wonderful man. He loves me and he loves my children. I don't want to lie to him, but I do anyway. I don't want to lose him, but I just can't stop.
666 Where do I start? I could say some...
Where do I start? I could say some things about my addiction to porn and alcohol but I guess the main guilt I have is when I cheated on my wife. We were married almost 6 years and she was diagnosed with a life threatening disease 5 years into the marriage. She was already a depressed person but this...
667 I am newly 46 years old. I grew...
I am newly 46 years old. I grew up being sexually abused by my mother's best friends son and my cousin. I still feel to this day that she knew.My mother tried to kill herself several times over my childhood, finally dying when I was 18. My father was an alcoholic who could barely hold a job and my paretns...
668 I love shaming people, especially...
I love shaming people, especially small children. What is the matter with me? Hearing a child cry is like music to my ears, taking things away from them makes me somewhat happy on the inside.How do I leave a habit that has consumed me for years? I'm afraid to have children, I can't help but think I'd...
669 I really didn't know which category...
I really didn't know which category to place my confession in since I have so many. I guess I'll begin at the beginning. As a child I was sexually molested by two uncles, a cousin and my father. I guess I was the family patsy because I never spoke out against any of them so one after the other they abused...
670 I had dated this guy for 2 years...
I had dated this guy for 2 years and when I was 16 my mom found out that we were having sex, so she took me to the doctor. I soon found out that I had an STD called HPV. When I confronted this guy he finally admitted to me that he had been cheating on me for 6 months. We were through, but now my husband...
671 I've lived a great life. An average...
I've lived a great life. An average one. Nothing really huge or out of the ordinary has happened to me or my family. I haven't had any drastic losses or a terrible childhood. I grew up in church with my family, and I always feel like something is missing when I don't go to church.I like to think of myself...
672 I lust over a best friend of mine...
I lust over a best friend of mine from school. I was emotionally abused since I was 6 for being overweight. I have no self esteem and no self worth at all. He was the only person who told me everyday, besides my parents, how beautiful I was. He would always tell me he loved me, and we would meet at a...
673 I have three boys. The oldest son...
I have three boys. The oldest son lives with his father and step mother and we have a very strained relationship.I remarried a military man after my first divorce and moved all over and ended becoming a stranger to my son. We don't even know each other.We live an hour apart and never see each other.I...
674 I am full of bitterness and rage...
I am full of bitterness and rage and anger. I have been lied to and betrayed by so many people and instead of taking something away from the experiences and learning from them, I hold on to it and it's eating me alive from the inside out. I have little or no trust in people or have the abilty to meet...
675 I am friends with two sisters....
I am friends with two sisters. I have been having an affair with thier brother who is married with children . I knew exactly what I was doing but the chemistry between him and I was to strong to deny.
676 For over two years now I have been...
For over two years now I have been lying to a wonderful man online. We have talked for so many hours on the telephone. I have painted a picture of myself from the beginning that had absolutely NOTHING to do with who I am. From my looks, to my career, to where I live, to if I have children, to how financially...
677 I got pregnant by my boyfriend...
I got pregnant by my boyfriend who was physically abusive, I didn't want another person to be afflicted by him, but I should've known better to get pregnant by him. Everyone knew he was bad news and I was still having sex with him behind everyone's back. I made up a story that I was pregnant by him before...
678 My wife gets no pleasure from sex....
My wife gets no pleasure from sex. I cant get enough of it. I would have sex 3 times a day if she would. We used to do that but now she just doesn't care. Since she's shut me out basically completely My mind and body went searching for something to fill that void and it resorted to pornography. Thank...
679 About 8 years ago I was seeing...
About 8 years ago I was seeing a beautiful woman who had recently broken up with her longtime boyfriend. We worked together so I had known her for a few years before we started seeing one another but even before we were together I fell head or heels for her. After a while I started to realize that she...
680 I am in love with a man who loves...
I am in love with a man who loves his freedom more than he loves me. I cannot talk to many people about it, and it is killing me. I want to die all the time. But, I have a child. This is not a healthy thing for me. It is an addiction and I cannot stop. I am slowly dying inside, becoming reduced to absolutely...
681 I cheated on my husband. Why did...
I cheated on my husband. Why did I do it?!?! A month into our first and only childs life he was shipped out overseas for ONE YEAR!!! He started to change...or was it me? Nothing but fighting, nothing but put downs! I prayed every night to God to please give me strength, please help me to get thru this,...
682 There is a part of me that wants...
There is a part of me that wants to have oral sex with another man. I am married, with children and completely in love with my wife and absolutley adore the female form. But I can't make this fanntasy go away. I don't want anything else from a man, not even a kiss... just to play with their member....
683 I struggle with lust EVERY DAY!...
I struggle with lust EVERY DAY! I have an unusually EXTREMELY high sex drive. Unusual because I am a woman and all of my other female friends always complain to me about how low their sex drives are. But I am 28, single and I have no children, all of my friends are married and have kidsAnyway I always...
684 When I was young, my childhood...
When I was young, my childhood was not a very stable one. I grew up in a family that did not respect nor like each other. I was molested by people who were supposed to be close to me. People who were supposed to protect me. The first time I was molested was by my god-sister, she was 16, I was about 51/2....
685 During my younger life, as a teen,...
During my younger life, as a teen, through adulthood, I had had several abortions. I was very promiscuous and was not sure why. I later discovered that I had been abused as a child and had somehow repressed the memories until my 40's. I regret and I feel shame about them. I belive that the abortions...
686 When I was 18 yrs old I had an...
When I was 18 yrs old I had an abortion. I am 40 now with no children and am convinced I missed my only opportunity to have children. I know god is not vengeful, but do feel I am being punished for my mistakes so long ago. I did marry my then boyfriend, and only wish he would have been stronger to convince...
687 My older brother molested me for...
My older brother molested me for years. When I finally told my family my parents failed to get the family together and discuss it. My Father was the only one who spoke openly to me about it, asking questions and questioning my brother about it. I felt he understood but could not relate and therefore...
688 I am ashamed of who I am. As a...
I am ashamed of who I am. As a child, I was phyiscially & verbally abused. Exposed to violence & pornography. That was so long ago. I'm 42. I've always hated myself...draw people in by being so pleasing & then push them away when they get too close. Attracted to those who abandon me. Addicted...
689 I was sexually molested from the...
I was sexually molested from the age of 11 until the age of 17 by my mother's boyfriend and close family friend. During this time of my growing into my adolescence, I became sexually promiscuous because I felt this to be the way to gain approval and attention from guys. I decided not to tell my mom until...
690 I have a problem with chatting...
I have a problem with chatting on-line with married men. I am married to a wonderful hardworking man, but he works so many long hours that I get so lonely at night with no one to talk to so I end up looking for someone to chat with. I have been talking to 2 differnt men, one of which lives in the same...
691 I gave birth to 5 children by the...
I gave birth to 5 children by the time I was 23 years old. I only have custody of 3 of them.
692 25 years ago I finally got the...
25 years ago I finally got the courage to tell my parents why I tried committing suicide: because my uncle sexually abused me and so did my Grandfather on the otherside of the family. Within two days after I filled out a police report on my uncle, he shot himself. I had to go through the police coming...
693 i had an affair with my youth directors...
i had an affair with my youth directors wife 5 years ago. we had a child together at the time.just last year she had an affair in our relationship. i am still not 100% over it, but she seems to be. i carry the pain and shame of my past with me always, and the pain of her cheating on me. we have a really...
694 i have had an eating disorder for...
i have had an eating disorder for 19 years now. I know someday it will kill me and my children will be without a mother....but i cannot stop! sometimes i am scared. i worry and feel fear everyday....and am happy when i wake up and make it through another night...alive.
695 My father was an alcoholic he used...
My father was an alcoholic he used to abuse the family every night for years, not a night went by that he didn't come home drunk and start the terror on the family. I hate him, I hate his guts, my father is gone now but not the scars, I have been sexually abused by relatives during my time as a child...
696 I have been married for almost...
I have been married for almost 6 years. My husband is in the Navy and was depolyed within the first year of our marriage. Thats the first time I cheated on him. I continuted to cheat. I even had long term realtionships with other men. My husband and I had a child and I stopped for a while but when my...
697 I was involved in an extramarital...
I was involved in an extramarital affair with a woman who was also married when we met. We both knew the risks of our situtation. We were going to leave our respective marriages.My confession is that after a year, I still think about her all the time. I want to contact her but I know it will not be healthy...
698 As a young child I was sexually...
As a young child I was sexually abused bymy father. My mother knew and did nothingto protect me from that monster. I hate both of my parents. They are bothdead. I am now 57 years old and to thisvery day I have flash backs.I would like to kill every person thatever sexually abused a child. I would like...
699 I am addicted to sex. I am unsure...
I am addicted to sex. I am unsure if it is related to my history of sexual abuse as a child. I have sex with prostitutes at least once a week. I have been married for 4 years and have always been faithful to my wife until my addiction started six months ago. I confess in church but I feel worthless because...
700 I was molested by a male cousin...
I was molested by a male cousin for years when I was a child. Though I told my mother and she--as well as all of my family--knew what was happening... she did nothing to stop the abuse. I can't bring myself to trust a heterosexual physical relationship now, years later. I am solely in relationships with...
701 As a child was I abused by my father...
As a child was I abused by my father and one of my older siblings. This abuse became so severe that at the age of three I had my first split. I became a multiple. By the time I was thirteen there I had split six more times. I never knew about this until I was twenty-nine and finally had a breakdown....
702 I am an at home mother of a few...
I am an at home mother of a few children. I have resentment toward the oldest. I have no patiences for her. She had odd behaviors and no motovation to do anything. She is hyper and loud. She is whiny and talks back. She's always getting into trouble. She never listens. She's a kid! I've reached out to...
703 I have a hard time picking one...
I have a hard time picking one catagory. I picked self harm because when I do wrong it is harming myself. Almost like I want to punish myself. I was abused as a child.. First abducted by a stranger.. then molested by my grandfather, then raped by my step father.. My mother knew but did nothing. I lose...
704 a few years back, i was a young...
a few years back, i was a young and immature boy and had sex with my girlfriend. she ended up getting pregnant and i didn't know what to do. i was so scared.i knew there was no way i could raise a baby and she had told me she wouldn't get an abortion. one day i just snapped and couldnt fathom raising...
705 Sometimes I wish I would have never...
Sometimes I wish I would have never married my husband, and I often think about past relationships. I married an older man, 17.5 years older than myself, and our views are different on the ways we raise our children to friendships. I have had thoughts of cheating on him, but I have never actually done...
706 My secret is I was molested by...
My secret is I was molested by an older female friend (I was 8 years old at the time and she was 14) one incident happened IN CHURCH, we all grew up together and we all attended the same church, our parents were friends, anyway that one specific incident involved me, her and another girl who was even...
707 I am a 35 year old single woman...
I am a 35 year old single woman that has never been to the gynecologist. I am scared to go and have someone look at and touch me down there. The more time passes the more ashamed I feel that I haven't gone sooner. I know it sounds silly but it is so hard. I have intimacy issues. I have never had a "boyfriend"...
708 I have spent many years seeking...
I have spent many years seeking God and the truth. The more I search, the more elusive He becomes. I once prayed that he find me a girlfriend, as I did not trust my own judgement in women. I then met a girl from a religous family. They tried to help me find God. They were wonderful, uplifting and an...
709 my father verbally and emotionally...
my father verbally and emotionally abused me as a child. my mother did nothing, said nothing and avoided me as much as possible therfore neglecting me. my brother was constantly trying to molest me and eventhough intercourse never took place, my sexual life has always been negative. I got married and...
710 I have been married going on 11...
I have been married going on 11 years now and 2 years ago I cheated on my husband and felt shameful about it but did it anyway. To make matters worse I got pregant and to hide the fact that I was pregant I had an abortion so I did not have to answer the questions of "is the child my husband's or my boyfriend's...
711 My ex-husband ended our 12 year...
My ex-husband ended our 12 year marriage in order to become a Catholic priest. We have been divorced for 6 years. Once our children turn 18 years old in 4 more years, my ex-husband can apply to seminary and then take holy orders. He is currently enrolled at a university studying for his master's degree...
712 I havent had a period for almost...
I havent had a period for almost three years. I know bulimia and anorexia can and probably will keep me from having kids. Ive always wanted four children, ever since I can remember. But, I'm too selfish to give up the comfort I find in my eating disorders.
713 I love my children, but I hate...
I love my children, but I hate everything there is about being a Mother.
714 I have been having an affair with...
I have been having an affair with a married man for a year..I myself am engaged. I could not imagine my life without my fiance, I love him more than any person in the world, but there is also such a connection between this other man and myself, it's been impossible to ignore it. He has a wife and 2 children,...
715 long story short me and my boyfriend...
long story short me and my boyfriend had a child after two years of being together. soon after our child was born i had an affair with his brother it was short lived but i regret it daily. i have never told him nor will i ever i am so deeply ashamed. i am the one who put an end to the entire situation...
716 I'm not 100% sure, but I think...
I'm not 100% sure, but I think I may have been sexually abused as a young child. For a while I'll randomly get these weird images in my mind involving someone I knew at that time of my life, but for whatever reason have no more contact with (my parents never say why). It seems so vivid and feels so real,...
717 My husband hits me and screams...
My husband hits me and screams at me when he doesn't get what he wants in bed. I want to leave but I am scared to because of our 2 children. He really scares me and I am scared for my life.
718 In the summer of my 12th year,...
In the summer of my 12th year, I was hanging out at the local swimming with two girls I thought were my friends, when the day took a bizarre turn. On the walk home, we began to talk to some boys we had met & played with at the pool, when they suggested hanging out in an abandoned building across...
719 I blame my Dad for a lot of the...
I blame my Dad for a lot of the pain I've gone through. He said he didn't leave me (and my brothers), he said we left him, because he was still in the same place when I realized that he was no longer around. We were sent to live with his parents, when I was almost four years old.I actually forgot what...
720 I am a male in m y early 30's....
I am a male in m y early 30's. when i was a child i was intoduced to sex by brothers father he would have me go down on him it was our special time together. the one time that i rember the most was at thanksgiving he and i went to the store to get something and i remeber we pulled up in an empty parking...
721 Although I love my husband for...
Although I love my husband for many of the qualities he possesses, after almost 9 years together, 2 children and living with qualities he possesses that are detrimental to my happines and piece of mind, I am no longer in love with him. I'm deeply in love with another man and have been for almost 2 years....
722 6 years ago my boyfriend and I...
6 years ago my boyfriend and I split up and I saw another guy while we were apart and we slept together. A few weeks later my boyfriend and I made up and got back together. A month after I found out I was pregnant and I was not sure who the father was. My boyfriend has always thought of the child...
723 I'm a very lustful person, so I've...
I'm a very lustful person, so I've gotten really turned on be a lot of people. But lately I've had a huge thing for a married man, and the way he turns me on is 10 times more intense than anyone else. I've never wanted anybody this bad. He wants me, too. He's married with a child, but all we do is tease...
724 Im a married woman but I cheat...
Im a married woman but I cheat on my husband all the time and not only with one man. For the last 2 years we have been married and the last 4 years I have been with him I have cheated on him with at least 15 men. Some of them I barely knew some old boyfriends and the rest are close friends of mine or...
725 I befriended a man on a message...
I befriended a man on a message board on the Internet. We hit it off in an amazing, soulful way and fast became good friends and decided to meet in person.However, we made the mistake of one time crossing the line and fell in love, we also had one night of some sexual contact. He is married with two...
726 I often lose my temper with my...
I often lose my temper with my children, particularly with my 9 year old daughter. I often scream at her, not just raise my voice, but scream, and scream, and scream. sometimes I scream at her for no reason. I often say things to make her feel badly and she does nothing to deserve such treatment. Sometimes...
727 I have memories of my sister humping...
I have memories of my sister humping me, as a young child, on multiple occasions. I do not know if she even remembers this, though she was older than I. I started masturbating at a very young age, completely unaware of the sexual connections. I suspect that my sister was molested by my father. I tried...
728 I was deeply in love with a guy...
I was deeply in love with a guy who was engaged and had two children that were three and a new born. We started having a sexual relationship, and we hid it for seven months from his fiancee. We would both bold face lie to her face about us just being friends. After seven months, I came clean about...
729 I lie about everything. I lie to...
I lie about everything. I lie to my boyfriend and my family. I know the only reason I do it is because I hate who I am. I was verbally and sometimes physically abused by my father as a child and it's followed me into adulthood as a result of that, I feel like I have to hide my real self. Internally,...
730 I am married to a good man, but...
I am married to a good man, but my life at 50 years of age is not what I expected it to be by now. When things get difficult, I keep wishing I was still with my ex-husband, who divorced me 20 years ago. I don't obsess about him, but I can't help comparing my current husband with him. My ex was more refined...
731 It has been 3 years since I had...
It has been 3 years since I had a mid term abortion of my only child, the doctor's told me and my husband that he would be born with out kidneys and there was no way that he could survive without being in my body to sustain his life. We found about this when I was 20 weeks pregnant and I had never been...
732 Hi;I'm 52 years old and have kept...
Hi;I'm 52 years old and have kept this to myself many years. I have allways wanted to tell my parents what they did to me while growing up was wrong and how it affected me and my life and my relationships! My father was a very abusive man small in stature and every day after he came home from work he...
733 I was sexually abused as a child...
I was sexually abused as a child by a family friend and then again by a neighbor after we moved to another state. I never told anyone about it and grew up thinking my whole life that I was not important. Practically my whole life as a result of this abuse I have had one destructive relationship after...
734 My story starts from my childhood...
My story starts from my childhood and it escalated to adulthood. I love my mother,but, she never seemed to have loved me back in the way I needed, even from birth. You see my mother had me when she was 14 years old in 1973. My father was a man that was 19 and from Florida, that only came to Delaware...
735 I am divorced. Have been for almost...
I am divorced. Have been for almost 17 years. For 16 of those years I have loved a man who is married with 4 children. I know him through business and worked for him at that time for a period of 2-3 years. I ended up leaving that position because it became awkward. I thought if I were out of sight, out...
736 I had lesbian relationships during...
I had lesbian relationships during college and for 3 years afterwards. I have now been married for 16 years and have 3 beautiful children. No one knows of my life before I got married. I have a wonderful husband. No one would ever believe this of me. I am president of my children's PTO. I still miss...
737 When I was 18 years old I had sex...
When I was 18 years old I had sex while a sophomore in college. I had protected sex but it wasn't protected enough apparently b/c I ended up pregnant. Two of my friends took me to get an abortion. I can't say I regret it b/c I couldnt then nor now handle a child but I do know that it went against everything...
738 My secret shame is that I hate...
My secret shame is that I hate my husband's daughter. She is only a child but I hate her because I feel she is why our marriage is failing. He chooses to put her before me because she is his flesh and blood. I find myself wanting terrible things to happen to her or hoping that he will just decide that...
739 I have been an escort for over...
I have been an escort for over 10 years now and probably seen and heard more than most do their entire lives... Its really hard for me at times knowing that I'm sleeping with other women's husbands and boyfriends and taking what money belongs to them and taking away from their families and I really genuinelyfeel...
740 All my life I've heard the following...
All my life I've heard the following thing, "You were chosen by God. Before you were here, I was told you were coming."On a bus in the spring of 1980 in a little town in Texas, my grandmother (a minister for over 70 years) had been told by God that her daughter was going to have a child; it would be...
741 My mother basically laid on a couch...
My mother basically laid on a couch for most of my brother's and I 's childhood. She never got dressed up and always in an awful mood. My brother and I never had breakfast before we went to school, were extremely lucky if we even got lunch money. On summer vacations, she shipped us off to my grandparents...
742 Well, on November 27, 2004, my...
Well, on November 27, 2004, my father passed away with a suicide. The strange thing is that our family had had a wonderful day the day before. But, he raped my mother that night. The next day all he did was sing to himself and smoke hundreds of ciggarettes. My eldest brother wanted to talk to my mom...
743 In the beginning of our relationship...
In the beginning of our relationship I kissed your best friend. When you asked us about it we lied and you said you believed us. This was many years ago...we're married now and have children. I've never told you because it was a stupid mistake that meant nothing and it would have only hurt you. It hurts...
744 My confession could easily fall...
My confession could easily fall under the categories of addiction, pornography, adultery, lying, regret, lust, and self harm. I am a 38 year old man. Since the mid-90s, I have had hundreds of sexual encounters, mostly one-time occurrances with strangers, and mostly other men. It started out with replying...
745 When I was a child (age 8-13)I...
When I was a child (age 8-13)I was sexually abused several times. I never told anyone for a long time, because I was afraid of what they would think. I felt guilt over not stopping it and not telling anyone sooner. It has effected me in my relationships with guys. For a while, I felt like I needed to...
746 I had an affair with a married...
I had an affair with a married co worker and became pregnant. I never told my partner that I had an abortion. I did it so quickly I didn't even give myself a chance to think about it too much or change my mind. Of the few people I told, not one told me that things would be ok. I knew it was wrong. I...
747 I worry about the future. I worry...
I worry about the future. I worry that this world is falling apart. people are so hard, self-centered, jealous, lustful. I worry for my children. I wish that I would have spent more time sharing God with them.
748 I have been with my boyfriend for...
I have been with my boyfriend for almost 4 years and I don't love him. Sometimes I really seem to hate him, but whenever he tries to leave I lie and tell him that I think he is my soulmate but really I have just decided to settle. I found out I have herpes and I don't think anyone else would want me...
749 I've been divorced for 1 1/2 yrs....
I've been divorced for 1 1/2 yrs. My ex is an alcoholic. He was verbally, emotionally, and physically abusive to myself and my children. I have put it in the past, and met someone new. The problem is my ex refuses to pay child support. He lives in China, so I cannot legally make him pay. He is remarried,...
750 I have never revealed this secret...
I have never revealed this secret to anyone. I am happily married, have four children, and one grandson. I lust after women constantly. I look at them and imagine what it would be like to have sex with them. Sometimes, I masturbate to my fantasies about having sex with some of the women I know. I can't...
751 My brother and I were molested...
My brother and I were molested by our aunt as children. We never told anyone, and it has never been talked about. I know it was a struggle with me because the abuse had played out with some of my childhood friends and relatives, and I ask for God's forgiveness
752 I was sexually molested by my father...
I was sexually molested by my father as a child. He still tries to touch me now and I'm 22 years old. My uncle also tries the same thing. He has been touching me for years and I haven't told anyone. I also had sex with 2 cousins and I don't know why. I am scared of men because of my marriage. I am married...
753 Before I was married, I had breast...
Before I was married, I had breast augmentation surgery because I was severely underdeveloped and it made me incredibly self-conscious. It has affected my ability to breasfeed both of my children and now I regret ever being so selfish and vain....it has cost my babies a good start in life and robbed...
754 I can't stand my dad. He drinks...
I can't stand my dad. He drinks every night, and has hit my mom. He calls her hurtful names and tells her he wishes they were never married. He swears in front of children, he yells constantly. He doesn't care about anyone but himself. I wish we could get along, but he is a self-centered jerk.
755 I am married (seperated) to a man...
I am married (seperated) to a man who has 7 children. He had 3 before I met him we had our son then he had a daughter with another woman we got married I had our daughter then he got another woman pregnant with a son. We are now seperated and I had sex with a man who knows I am seperated and he has a...
756 We had these two cats (brothers...
We had these two cats (brothers from the same litter). We loved them very much. Well, I daily look under the cars for cats...just in case...this particular day about 4 years ago… I didn't....I ran over the 16 year old cat. He was under the car and well...you get the rest. A complete accident. My...
757 When I was 13 years old, I was...
When I was 13 years old, I was sexually experimenting with a boy while I was menstrating. This person then proceeded to tell everyone in our small hometown, and made my life a living hell until I went away to college. I am now in my thirties and wish I could find it in my heart to forgive this person...
758 have stolen from my mother, shop...
have stolen from my mother, shop lifted, lied without regard for consequence, practiced sexual promiscuity, cheated, blasphemed, defamed others for my own personal benefit, emotionally and physically abused my children, wallowed in self doubt and misery, given up when I should have persevered, took credit...
759 I am a woman who lusts after men...
I am a woman who lusts after men and women. I'm in a serious relationship with a child. But I often wonder what it would be like to be with a woman, I never have. But I imagine it with random women that I see. I also do the same thing with men, I have a fireman obsession and it really doesn't matter...
760 Im 28 and i lead 2 lives i have...
Im 28 and i lead 2 lives i have been going out partying and drinking and always it leads to more im married and have 3 kids and i love my kids a ton i also love my husbandbut he hasnt been fulfilling my sexual needs for a while ive talked shown him initiated all i can think of to get him more involved...
761 I have been married for 20 some...
I have been married for 20 some years to the same man, but just a month ago, I found out that he had had an affair 20 years ago and fathered a child with this woman. The woman and child live close by and all these years he's "paid her off" and given money and birthday cards to the child. I always felt...
762 I'm on the verge of leaving my...
I'm on the verge of leaving my wife. Both my teenage daughters declared their homosexuality earlier this year (they're our only two children). While I'm not handling it very well at all, she's taken it even harder, and has become impossible to live with. She goes off on crying jags for hours at a time,...
763 I was sexually abused as a child...
I was sexually abused as a child by a family member. It happened for almost a year and I never told a soul. I later found out that my sister had been abused by the same person, I lied and said it never happened to me. I was too ashamed to admit it. When I was 13 I started to cut myself to deal with...
764 I have been a liar all of my life....
I have been a liar all of my life. It started as a child. I would lie and talk about how wonderful my life was but in truth I was molested and physically abused by my babysitter's son, my father was in jail, my mother and step-dad were addicted to drugs, and I often resorted to stealing money for food....
765 I learned recently that my grandfather...
I learned recently that my grandfather (he's passed away) raped my dad's older sister and inappropriately touched my dad's younger sister. I also learned that my father raped his younger sister!!! My dad's a Christian now and thank goodness he never really abused me (except if you count walking around...
766 In 1980, my Twin brother and I...
In 1980, my Twin brother and I were kidnapped from our Mother's home. What followed was 3 years of torture, sexual and physical. In the end, only I returned, rescued by Scotland Yard in a raid. My brother had been murdered a few WEEKS earlier. I was 11 years old when I was recovered. I re-entered the...
767 I can't stop eating and it's killing...
I can't stop eating and it's killing me and I don't know why I can't stop. I gained 90 pounds and I still can't stop even though my health is failing and i have children to raise. I don't know what is wrong with me. I have prayed to God to help me many times but nothing is working. Why am I addicted...
768 I am a very fit, hard working man,...
I am a very fit, hard working man, who has had a high profile career for many years.I have always taken pride in my life, family and our friends. My children are wonderful and I am married to the best women in the world. I have a good life! Only problem!! I am gay and I am now in love with another man....
769 When I was 5 years old until I...
When I was 5 years old until I was in 3rd grade I was raped by my next door neighbor's son. We moved away so the abuse ended, but I always felt guilty about it. I visited my old neighborhood about a year ago and ended up getting reintroduced to my abuser (his father remembered me so we got to talking...
770 Thank you for this site. I have...
Thank you for this site. I have been full of shame and regret for years. I have an emotional problem for which I take medications and I am now in control of my actions. During my 20's I have had 4 abortions, at the time I never thought of it as taking a life. I am so ashamed and feel that God will never...
771 There has been so many things in...
There has been so many things in my life I have done things that I regret. Some of these things haunt me while I am sitting alone with just my thoughts. Sometimes I regret the every day actions I have inflicted on to my family. I have a son with ADHD/Behavioral problems who pushes me to my limits and...
772 My step daughter bothers me. I...
My step daughter bothers me. I have been married for 7 years and she has been a part of my life since she was 3 but I just don't feel the way I should about her. She doesn't have any contact with her mother so I've taken over that role. I almost resent it. I'd rather do things with my own children. My...
773 I feel for everyone in my situation....
I feel for everyone in my situation. When I was 17 I got pregnant by my now husband. We decided that we could not have the baby. Mainly I believe because of pressures of family. I was supposed to go to college and his parents are very stright laced and we would feel like failures to dissapoint them so....
774 I have a beautiful baby that i...
I have a beautiful baby that i tell everyone I know who the father is, but the truth I truly dont know. I am guessing that it was one of three guys that I had sex with around that time. I guess I have been punished, since after I told the guy who I think is the father, he ran and has never seen this...
775 When I was 16 I was arrested on...
When I was 16 I was arrested on a very serious charge. A large file of underage pornography (41 photos) was found on my computer by police. I tried to tell everyone how I did not know where it came from, that I must have accidentally downloaded it from perhaps a SPAM email or an email sent to me by someone...
776 After my wife divorced me, I made...
After my wife divorced me, I made a half hearted attempt to kill myself by taking prescription medications. I believe now that it was just an attempt to stop my wife from divorcing me, but it didn't work. I ended up in a mental hospital for a while due to severe depression.I had five children at the...
777 I am married with three children...
I am married with three children but I do not love my husband. I dont think I ever did. I am in love with someone else.
778 I had an abortion at 16. I regret...
I had an abortion at 16. I regret it most of all because I feel my parents pressured me and I didn't stand up for my baby. I've wanted to be a mother since I was a little girl. Now at age 30, I can't have children and I feel I could just end it and it'd be better than living with this. I would never...
779 When I was a young girl about 8...
When I was a young girl about 8 or 9, the husband of the lady who babysat me and my brother inappropriately touched me. He would not actually have intercourse with me but he used his fingers a lot. I did not understand what was happening to me because at that time, the late 60's and early 70"s because...
780 I was married, Had 1 kid aleady....
I was married, Had 1 kid aleady. My hubby was away on long business trips sometimes up to 6 months. I was young only 20yr old and so alone. I met up with an old flame and one thing lead to another and when all was said and done I had done the thing i promised myself I would never do. I had sex with him....
781 I was sexually molested by my uncle...
I was sexually molested by my uncle when I was around 8 years old. I told my mother about what he was doing and all she said was "well tell him to stop it" (easier said than done). I live with this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach every day of my life because of what he did to me. I have never...
782 My confession actually falls into...
My confession actually falls into many categories...relationships....sexuality / shame / regret / adultery / double life, etc. I am happily married to a wonderful man of 17 years. We have four wonderful children and the truth is, I wouldn't trade my life for anything in the whole world. But I am desperately...
783 I was molested by my older brother...
I was molested by my older brother when I was young. When I was a teenager, he died tragically. I feel like I can never tell anyone because I don't want that to be what he is remembered for. I am scared to keep this secret inside, because like so many others who have confessed on this site, I am afraid...
784 In 1994 I was in a realtionship...
In 1994 I was in a realtionship with a woman whom I loved very much. She had a daughter and another on the way when we met. After she had the Baby, I fell in love with her. [edited because it included a baby's first name] I cared for her most of the time. I had never been around children, and I...
785 i confess to o mighty god that...
i confess to o mighty god that i have seen to my own fault. dear god i am so sorry that i have missed going to church for three weeks. not only have i missed but so have my children because thier only way to church is through me. please for give me also i have caught myself talking badly about my...
787 I am a married woman, I really...
I am a married woman, I really loved my husband when we got married, but I think it was mostly the fear of ending up alone. I have been talking to this guy and nothing has happened it's been mostly interent, but it seems right him and I please GOD pray for me and lead me down the right path. Also,...
788 I've lost faith in all monotheistic...
I've lost faith in all monotheistic religions since I was a little girl. I was a straight A student, teacher's pet, I had everything... right up until 5th grade. When I was 9, I was molested by my male math teacher (the first male teacher I had ever had). I never told anyone until I was committed to...
789 I hate leading a double life. I...
I hate leading a double life. I don't know where to begin. I am with my sons' father and have 2 children with him. But 5 years ago I started a relationship with his relative and I am overly in love with this relative. I have had no feelings for my childrens' father in years. Now for the doozie...one...
790 I was sexually abused as a child...
I was sexually abused as a child starting at age 4 yrs old. From a cousin he was in his 30's. There has been a total of 3 men that have touched me inappropriately in some form or another. Including my own father a pastor. I find myself unable to hate him as I do my first abuser. I try hard to block out...
791 I always feel totally alone - and...
I always feel totally alone - and most of the time I think that it is what I deserve. I try to be the perfect child, the perfect spouse, worker, parent, etc As if anybody can be perfect. I cannot let go of the desire for approval. So I just keep trying and hoping. I feel guilty that I assume that it...
792 I have gotten myself into a relationship,...
I have gotten myself into a relationship, which little by little has caused me to lose everyone and everything I care about. My exhusband even took my two children. Now for 6 and a half years I have been living with this man, being a mother to his two children from a previous marriage. And I find myself...
793 I was sexually abused as a child...
I was sexually abused as a child and I have never told anyone! I am now almost 40 and this has effected everything that I have done in my life. My husband of 20 years does'nt even know about it, I just keep it inside and try to forget.
794 In 1958, my then husband kidnapped...
In 1958, my then husband kidnapped my daughter, only a few months old, and took her to Spain.I was only a teenager and had no resources to follow.I never heard from her until she was 19. When she was 21, she mailed me and told me she was pregnat, andcould she come to the U.S..I was overjoyed, both to...
795 Ever since I was a child, I've...
Ever since I was a child, I've been attracted to the same sex. It's never felt wrong, and I can't fight it, no matter how hard I try to change.I go to church every Sunday.. I pray constantly... And I put God before all else...But I can't fight it. The opposite sex repulses me.. and the same sex intrigues...
796 I am 28 years old and i am continuously...
I am 28 years old and i am continuously filled with regret. I don't know why for the life of me that i continue to make mistakes over and over again. Or should i say bad choices that impact my future for the worse. I don't know where to begin other than to confess that i truly do not know who i am in...
797 Many years ago I was alone raising...
Many years ago I was alone raising a bunch of kids as a single parent..[I had just become sober on my own..after two hospital stays with the Lord's help.]. I could hardly make ends meet. The Church that I was attending offered me a little part time job for very little money .I still had no way to make...
798 i don't like my mother. it's not...
i don't like my mother. it's not a hate but somewhere between. i had a terrible childhood--mental, physical, verbal, emotional, spiritual abuse. i went to counselling as an adult. i decided to stop communications with her as a result. this lasted for two years. my husband asked me to reach out to her...
799 I do not want to live and have...
I do not want to live and have thought about suicide many times. I have come close. I don't do it because I have two children who are grown and family who love me and it would hurt them badly, but I hate life and I don't want to live at all. I lost my beautiful fiance recently when she broke off our...
800 when i was a child, i was sexually...
when i was a child, i was sexually abused by a sibling. it went on the whole time i was in elementary school. when i was about 16, i started dating someone i thought was in his twenties, but he was really in his thirties. by the time i found out he had brainwashed me into living with him. i couldnt see...
801 I do not want to live and have...
I do not want to live and have thought about suicide many times. I have come close. I don't do it because I have two children who are grown and family who love me and it would hurt them badly, but I hate life and I don't want to live at all. I lost my beautiful fiance recently when she broke off our...
802 I hate my life!I fake being in...
I hate my life!I fake being in love with my wife . I've spoiled my children into becoming people i hate. I dread going home. I want out!!!
803 I cheated on my first husband on...
I cheated on my first husband on several occations, with his friend. I can't say for a fact that my oldest child belongs to my first husband. I decided it was better to leave my husband than to continue to make him sad and he commited suicide. He would have rather had me cheating on him than not have...
804 Please pray for my family. My husband...
Please pray for my family. My husband is verbally abusive to me. He has been this way for years. He will call me bad names and throw things if he is in his rage. He has never hit me, but the verbal abuse is just as bad as physical. Other times, he such a loving and wonderful partner, I can't imagine...
805 I had five abortions in my lifetime....
I had five abortions in my lifetime. The last two, I can recall a feeling as if I should have kept them. I didn't have any family support and tried to find love from men. I was told that they were just fetuses and not babies and I believed that it was "normal." But almost 7 years later, I am very sad...
806 I am a compulsive liar. I lie to...
I am a compulsive liar. I lie to my kids, my husband, my ex husband. About stupid things. I absolutely hate my ex huband and wish him dead. I have hoped that he would crash his car, or even someone kill him while he was at work. He is a police officer. My current husband, I do not like. I cannot even...
807 I really want to leave my husband...
I really want to leave my husband but probably won't because of money. He is very verbally abusive. I have 2 children from a prior relationship and 1 child with him. Although he says he loves them all he does treat my 2 children very different and they notice. He is very controlling and tries to control...
808 I told everybody that I never wanted...
I told everybody that I never wanted a child. I knew I couldn't manage to take care of a child or deal with what it would do to my body, so I never had one. I really wanted one, but I knew I couldn't handle it so I pretended I didn't. I know I did the right thing, but I feel sad that I am so inadequate...
809 i really don't know where to start....
i really don't know where to start. when i was a kid, i lived to spread the word of God. somehow along the way, i backslid. now i am ashamed that God even loves me. i feel like an evil, dark, woman. i constantly try to manipulate people and hurt people i love emotionally. i have no one now. all i want...
810 My mother got pregnant when I was...
My mother got pregnant when I was in sixth grade. Having been an only child for so long, I was very upset at the thought of no longer being the focus of my parents' attention, and I fought with her a lot about how I didn't want the baby.She aborted it.I thought it was my fault. It wasn't until many years...
811 Please pray for me. I want to die....
Please pray for me. I want to die. I tried and failed a lot of times. I hate being here and my deepest wish is to leave but that would hurt my children and the rest of my family. I am nothing and it's hard to believe they love a nothing but they do. I love them & don't want to hurt them with grief...
812 I was a good wife and enjoyed making...
I was a good wife and enjoyed making love with my husband. I loved him and loved sex with him but after our first child was born he stopped pursuing me. I had to always initiate sex. I would go into the bathroom and find him masturbating there and would ask him why he didn't turn to me for his needs....
813 I have just found out my husband...
I have just found out my husband of 15 years of marriage and 20 in a relationship has a 1 year old daughter by a member of the church. They (She and my husband) choose to make us (My husband and I) god-parents to this child. I am totally in love with this baby, but feel betrayed by everyone. My husband...
814 I'm 60 years old and as a child...
I'm 60 years old and as a child grew up in church. After getting married at the age of 18 I stopped going to church and began to live a life that I thought was just grand. Forgot all about God. Had sexual experiences with numerous men and in the process neglected my children. Thank God they came...
815 My first marriage lasted a few...
My first marriage lasted a few months. I am looking forward to the anulment that is to come this year. My second marriage lasted for 53 years, with 2 children and now 2 grandchildren. I have been puting up with things that were difficult, simply because I did not want this marriage to fail, and the effect...
816 hey.. i am a 15Yrs boy from norway....
hey.. i am a 15Yrs boy from norway. and i have downloaded childpornography, and i am very scared to be detected by the police! . .. I have deleted all the childporn from my pc.. but can u help me whth this?
817 I lie to people that I like children,...
I lie to people that I like children, but really I hate them.