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1 Fallen
used 2 preach on the street for Jesus, thought I loved Him, fasted, and controlled my appetites for Him, wanted to do everything for Him, would wake up with Him, spend all day with Him, go to sleep with Him in my soul. until I fell into the sin of complacency in prayer and loving food when I was supposed...
2 ive lost my connection with God.
ive lost God. i want and need him back in my life. i dont no how but i have let my faith slip away from me. its like there are 2 sides of me and i dont no which one is actually me or maybe its neither. with my christian friends i act like a christian "should" but around others i act like i think i should...
3 sabbotage
I've already lost it all once because of sexual sin, internet porn being a huge problem. Now I'm heading down the wrong path again. It hasn't gone that far this time. Not yet anyway. But it could easily. Loosing control. Please pray for me. I'm a pastor.
4 Unescapable
I am almost 27 and have been addicted to pornography since I was 15. The most I have ever gone without looking at it has been about 6 months and that was years ago. I was a pastor for 5 years and even then I was using my work computer to look it up and could not seem to stop. I know that someday it is...
5 I
I am ashamed. I keep having thoughts that I get arrested for something I did years ago. Credit cards r the DEVIL. I racked up my CC debt to where there was no turning back. I was making enough money or so i thought...to pay it back....and then I lost my job....now i owe about 20K in CC and stopped making...
6 dear lord
Dear lord, There are times when i feel worthless and lonley. I know that in these times i feel this way that i can rest in your promise of peace and joy. I have been through so much in my life , disapointed so many times and hurt to the point that i lost all hope for myself and couldnt figure out how...
7 My it clear so i can live!!!
as a kid I was molested by my oldes brother, this happen for a long time and no one was paying attention, finaly I decided that this was not normal and it stop, a few years late I found out that he has hiv and so do I, how unfair is my live, I feel lke killing my self, my mother will not talk to me since...
8 masterbate
i cant understand why if god loves us so much why he lets our body experience sexual desires so we fall into sin, ive tried so hard to stop masterbating but it always gets the better of me please god deliver me from...
9 hurt a friend
i hurt a dear friend with my insensitive, irresponsible behavior. i made her loose the trust she had in me, i lost her forever. i am a horrible person who sincerely regrets his mistake. Is there a redemption?
10 Lost everything
I am the person who has no drems now? i dont want to live because my life (My wife) has left me due to her family pressure..after spen two years with her now i am helpless. I am crying last 3 days but what can be happend. i am feeling very weekness insinde.
11 I stole from my boyfriend
we were due to get married at the end of the month and 7 weeks before the wedding he turned round and told me he didnt want to get married ! i lost alot of money as i had payed for the hall booking and i wont see it back even tho he said he would give me the money i lost as it was his fault ! he is...
12 Addiction to Transexual Porn
I am addicted to transexual porn. I work hard to keep from looking and then I go on a binge for a several days/nights. Then I will stop. I pray all the time for a cure to this. I have already lost my job (not due to this), I gave up my apartment as I am literally broke, I have filed bankruptcy and I...
13 A Teachers Mistake
I teach a pre-k class which is four years olds. I am normaly a very quiet and easy going person and very loving to my students. I don't know why i lost it one day but I took a child who was screaming and throwing a fit and spanked him on the bottom. I didn't do it hard enough to hurt him but the quilt...
14 All that i can take!
i'm 18 and lost. I cant stop looking at porn... I confess to you reader and to God. Lord, Help me! I want to be done with this forever, all i want to do Jesus is spend everyday with you.
15 The 3rd time
I am 15 years old. I am a model christian, representing Jesus in my high school that is practically Sin city, I am a role model to some and an inspiration to a few. I have a problem with pornography. I never thought it would b this difficult either. I loved it when I was in ignorance, because i didn't...
16 I'm a lying cheat of a girlfriend
I'm 20, I've been with my boyfriend for just over 3 years, about 2 years ago I cheated on him with someone i thought I liked, but it was in fact lust, I told him, and we managed to overcome it, but over the last month and a half, I have been straying elsewhere and have cheated on him several times, all...
17 Impossible love
I'm deeply in love with my friend's best friend. I spent the last night with him, taking care of him because he was sick, we even slept in the same bed, and nothing happened and I just can't stand it anymore. I don't know what are his feelings for me and I don't know if he's found out mine. We are close...
18 Salvation
I believe I lost my eternal salvation. My life has been torment and agony for one year. I am in bed or on the sofa. I can't function. I lost my business, my singing career, my church, my ability to pray or read the Bible. My sins were pride and lust. I am insane. I am a mad woman. My hope is...
19 lost someplace in the nite
i've been carrying this sin for more than 15 years......when I first got to know a girl who was a slut at that time....since then I cannot resist.....im a catholic faithfull who goes to church, having a decent family with two kids and still i cannot resist sluts and whores.....now im very desperate since...
20 porn adiction
I was an active christian musician in my church , until I starting to have problems in my marriage due to pornography , now is very hard for me to let it go, I don't feel god in my life anymore ,I don't have the desire to go back to church , i feel dirty, my life is mess ,I have lost everything my...
21 Confession
I misplaced important document in the company,due to which my colleague stayed in Jail for few days.I was unable to help him .After some days i lost my job for another reason.Now i am without job for eight months.I face rejection where ever i go inspite of my high qualification &experience.Its very difficult...
22 Afraid
I am too afraid to love someone else so i pick at every single flaw in everyone. i think it's just a way of finding a reason not to love them, so that i'm not open to the risk of my heart getting broken. I'm lost.
23 Lieing
I tell lies so my wife wont be upset and worry. I am trying so hard to break this habbit. I am also wanted by the law for bad checks. I lost my job and have no way to pay for them right now so its just a matter of time before it all catches up. I have prayed the God help me in this matter. I need...
24 the bottom fell out
i was doing really really good for several days. Then i got busy in the mornings and i had forgotten to spend quiet time with the Father and because of the that the past several days the bottom has fallen out. I started masturbating again. i yesterday masturbated until i caused physical pain because...
25 Best Friend
I lost my best friend in high school because he accused me of "liking" her. He had no idea we had been sleeping together for 3 months though.
26 Love Letters
I am going through a divorce, separated for a year. I moved from California to Florida on April '06. In the summer '06 my wife asked me to write a love letter to her. I wrote one, but i must admit I labored at it... I tried to summon all the reasons why i should love her in our nine years together. When...
27 Words I can't take back.
I got in a fight with my wife and lost control. I told her I wished she were dead. I've never said anything that hateful in my life. Now I feel like crap and no amount of apologizing can make up for what I said. I hate myself for saying those words to her...wish I was dead.
28 To much sex.
I am not a big believer in god but I have found that confessing gets issues like this off my back. I am only 18, and I had an affair with a 40 year old man who was married. Even thought no one knows I feel like a jerk. I feel like that "bitch" who ruined a good household, and furthered an unstable marriage...
29 Forgetting God
I sometimes forget God during the day, and only turn to him at night. Or I only remember him when I tell someone else about Him. I know I'm not following His plan, because I'm too lazy or scared to take the steps needed, and it's caused me to step aside my path for a while. And even though I see it,...
30 confused...
So i cheated on my husband about a week ago. After it happened, i started having stronger feelings for him than my husband. Needless to say he completely blew me off. I feel so rejected, this had caused me to go off the deep end. I started drinking and flirting more and i even slept with my husbands...
31 Loss
Over the past few years, I have lost too much. My father, my house, a car, financial well being. My mariage is at risk and I am tired. I don't know how to move forward and most of all a faith that I thought was very strong is ;eaving. The trust I use to have in God is going. Is he still there? ...
32 Regret
I lost my virginity when I was 15. I regret it more then anything because I can't get it back and I'm judged and I judge myself for it.
33 guilt is served
i have been raped and i liked it. i got pregnat and lost the baby. im only 12 and i love sex i have had it 7 times already i cant stand it i need help pray for me
34 Lost
I am lost. I have always felt alone, even as a child. I am married, with kids. No one seems to ever be there for me, I am always the one there for everyone else. I give and give, but when I need help...no one of flesh and blood is there. It is lonely, I sometimes fall into deep depressions that only...
35 A huge mistake
I was robbing a house, there was a man beating a women in the house, i lost it, i killed him, i became addicted to coke, i had to keep on robbing houses to pay for my habit, i killed a man... i had an other mans blood on my hands, she didnt call the police, probaly because i was so young, I paid her...
36 Lost
I don't know what I want to do with my life. I started out college knowing exactly what I wanted, but now it feels like I just hit a wall and suddenly I want to change everything around. The problem is, I don't know what to change too.
37 Sinned, want forgiveness.
I recently got married to my love, my sweetheart. The woman that i love and that i am going to spend the rest of my life with. I am 20 years old, young for marriage, but my heart has been taken. I made a mistake, we had a very rough patch at the end of 2008 and i sinned. My Wife lost her father this...
38 NO Room for a BREAKDOWN
I have so much anger inside for my mother. I lost my home last year which was devistating to me. She encouraged me to move in with her and my father instead of getting an affordable apartment. After all the expense of moving and trying to get re-established in a poor ecomony, my mother has put me and...
39 Needing hope
I just recently realize that I am addicted to porn and masturbation. Its ruining my life with my wife and kids. I havn't been able to see them for two days and its tearing me apart. I've sinned against them and God in the worst way. I never physically cheated on her but I feel like I have mentally....
40 Please pray for me
I never thought I would end up asking for prayer for this, especially since I've grown up in a Christian family but I think I'm pregnant.I usually plan out when my next period is going to be & I've missed the due date.If I am pregnant I don't know what I'm going to do! I'm still in school and I already...
41 Trapped
I feel so horrbile inside i am a lovely person but i have to many hang ups. I wanted to be married to a wonderful man who would except me. My husband verbally &physically abuses me. I want to leave he tells me he'll 302 me i am afraid and scaried. I am not in love i've lost respect dignity and trust...
42 Im a cheater and a compulsive liar
The lying started out with my parent because they were so over protective. But as I grew older i noticed i was lying to friends colleagues and everybody. Small lies to big lies. I cheated on most if not all of my bfs esp when things got rocky or just for no reason. Ive lost so many friends because of...
43 Tired of Living
When I was 11 I was raped. I was angry and I beacame intolerable to my parents and ended up across the country in a home for troubled teens in New York. I left the home without resolving anything. Flash forward to 20. I moved to Lake Tahoe to be a ski bum where I began the party life. There was always...
44 Victory in Jesus
When I was only around 10 an older friend started groping me on a regular basis. At first I didn't know what to do, so I didn't do anything. Eventually I looked forward to it. In seventh grade a boy put his hand down my pants while we were in class watching a movie. I didn't know what to do, I wanted...
45 so many sins
I've committed so many terrible sins which I am sorry for. I lost my virginity at 12, and between that age and 24, I had about 50 partners. I had 2 abortions, which both times my mother encouraged me. I can't believe I did that- it was so evil. I am no married and I have 2 children. I also worked as...
46 lost.
sometimes I feel like such a loser because the people on * really make me feel like we can change the world.
47 sins are explicit
In the past 1-2 years i've struggled with porn and sexual impurity. It started with magazines. Then progressed to internet, where it remains today. Only now i've moved onto homosexual porn which i never would have wanted and still don't want to do. I believe the homosexuality is a sin, but yet i find...
48 coomunication with a minor for immoral purposes
I am a military member who got pursued for over a year by a 15 yr old..I gave in and inappropriately spoke with her via email for 2 days....I later came back and told her we could not longer do this, she got mad, but later agrred...she then told EVERYONE. I have since been arrested and look at possibly...
49 death sounds lovely
i've over 30 awards from high school for academics and presidential fitness. i've driven back three people from killing themselves already. i've saved two marriages. and i've revived a woman who's heart's stopped beating. so why can't i just kill myself already. i already know i'm contridicting what...
50 how do i stop fantasizing?
i fantasize. when i was younger, my sister and mother agrued violantly, i would in my room, turn on the radeo and vented energy in my head. a tv show or a recent movie i watched, i would insert myself into the show as a character i made up and interact with them.im now older and grown out of those shows,...
51 too young
i lost my virginity at * to a * year old guy from my church i thought it was okay because we were so close but now he treats me horrible and will not say one word. i am a strong believer but i always tend to fall back i am now doing drugs almost everyday and messing with many boys all older than me and...
52 just lost
When I was in grade * I was raped by a boyfriend. I was intending to save sex for marriage but after that I didn't feel like I needed to wait anymore, I was already screwed up. I continued to have sex and a boyfriend introduced me to porn and I became addicted. I'm still addicted now but am trying to...
53 Living a lie
God please forgive me. I am a liar,cheater, thief and worthless human being. My life has been one disaster after another and I hope someday that all will change. I just pray that God hears my prayers. I have made so many mistakes in my 50 yrs that there is not enough room on this post to confess them...
54 I was used by one of my best friends
I recently lost my virginity to a young man I cared about for a long time, however I did not feel ready to be that intimate with him, but he is bigger and stronger than I am and my protests did little to stop him. I feel he that he simply used me, and I fear I now have to endure the shame of feeling...
55 A Technical Virgin?
I took a purity vow in high school and vowed to remain a virgin until marriage. My first year of college was my first time "away" from home and I went kind of crazy with all the cute guys. I ended up giving oral to so many guys I lost count. Towards the end of the school term, I started having anal sex...
56 lost
I want to hurt myself and I don't know what else to do.
57 a lifetime of porn
Since first seeing porn in 7th grade or younger, I've not been able to get it out of my mind. Once again, tonight, I deleted the porn off my computer...I've downloaded and deleted thousands of images and videos. It has taken DAYS - MONTHS of my life that I could have spent building a career, having...
58 Lying
I have lied so many times I have lost count. I am ready to be healed completely. Father, please forgive me. Please allow me to feel your peace.
59 I Lost the Love of my Life.
I try so hard to hide the feelings i have inside. I cut myself whenever i cant control my emotional pain or anger. I contemplate suicide daily, i want to die, i would rather die then burden those around me with my presence. No one knows whats going throuhg my head. I see things i shouldnt be seeing...
60 Who am I?
I used to be a Christian. Now I don't know what I am. In the past three years, I have drastically changed. I do drugs and party. I have sex with whomever I please. I smoke almost every day. I have a terrible mouth. I like girls... and boys. I lie to my parents every day, several times a day. I am selfish...
61 gambling
i'm actually a partner/member of Life Church and i'm addicted to gambling. I'm a college student who has lost over $800 total to the casino. This is not a habit that I cannot break on my own. I love going there, but i tend to lose money every time I go, and it pushes me more into depression.
62 lovely girl, lost
In the span of 10 years I have had two affairs with married men and have been involved with other emotionally unavailable men, all of which have left me devastated. I hate myself for being "the other woman" and want everyone to know that it is a dark, painful, lonely place that i am desperately trying...
63 Scared
Years ago I was very heavy and after a lot of work I lost the weight. To celebrate my weightloss my girlfriends and I went out. Within 5 minuted of walking in a night club I had a guy interested in me. He was beautiful. Luckily I was smart enough to realize (after a week) that he was pretty useless....
64 Love Lost Long Ago
I lost my one true love over 30 years ago...I got pregant at 18 and had an abortion because I thought at the time that it was the correct thing to do....I became so depressed and upset and I Pushed Him Away. I was too proud or stupid to understand that I was just depressed and I lost him. I have been...
65 friend lost
My friend moved away. I love her so much but its not just sisterly love. I know she felt the same way, but I was a coward. I regret it know and I relise even though my hole family would have hated me she would have been worth it. *This post has been edited for content
66 Hogwarts
When I turned 11 I waited for my hogwarts letter and couldn't wait to be sorted into slytherin. It never came and I cried all day. But then mom got me hooked on fanfiction. I lost all my friends and I just read slash now. But I'm happy cause mom and I discuss the details. Shes my best friend, I don't...
67 What Rebellion Has Lead Me Too
I have struggled with masturbation since I has 9 years old. This has been very difficult for me particularly because I am a 19 year female.I have never told anyone this. I am also a virgin who has committed myself to stay pure until marriage. I have never had any kind of sexual experience with anyone....
68 Plz Help
Hi, im a 20yr guy 4rm *. I have soo much to tell bt dont know where to start. If u had 2 meet me, you would think that im a gr8 kid bt ive been hiding things. 1> im a Zol smoker have been smoking for a while bt 4abt 8m0nths nw ive been smoking it almost everyday. Thinking dat it would solve my weight...
69 Affair with Best Friend
My best friend's man confessed to me that he was in love with me. I was already in a wonderful marriage and yet I gave into sex with him. He and I had sex several times a week in secret and I fell in love with him. He told me that he was in love with me too. My best friend doesn't know for sure that...
70 Lost
Sometimes I feel alone even when I am surrounded by "friends"
71 CHURCH
I haven't been to church faithfully in over 5 years. I don't regret it or anything. I mean i still love God and serve him all I can with all i know. I study the Bible and love to do it. I am even in Seminary. However... I think church is so boring and uneventful. I've visited tons of churches and the...
72 I still love him
I dated this great guy for 2 years..broke up with him for some silly reasons, but basically cause I was flirting with some other guy and felt bd. come to find out the guy I broke up with was going to propose to me ans is now engaged to someone else. Im heartbroken about it..I miss him terribly and can...
73 Gay Christian
I feel terrible that I have been struggling with homosexuality for what seems like a lifetime. Ever since I turned 21, I chose to experiment once drawn by a long built lust .. I thought I was never going to do it again, but that was just the beginning of a downward hill... Lately, I feel like Ive...
74 hardships of love
i read his emails, text msgs ...I thought it is very childish but turned out that he invites other girls for dinners, says"I love you" to others and calls them "babes". And what I am supposed to do? I should leave...but sth holds me back.It is called Love. I am playing happy and say "I love you too"...
75 Lost
I lost God a long time ago. I think when my uncle first started to molest me at the age of 7. I am now 17.. I smoke almost everyday (my parents don't know) I doubt about my sexuality, have a hard time loving people, am depressed and don't know who i am.. please pray for me.
76 Falling out of love
Long story, but to cut it short, for 10 years, I've been an "emotionally battered husband". It's kinda hard to explain. I've just been trying to patch how my wife has been doing. Then suddenly, about 2 months ago, I suddenly imploded. I felt that I had enough and I suddenly lost all the feelings I have...
77 i lost my virginity to a prostitute
had sex 3 times before marriage and my wife still does not know...i love her but cannot find the courage to tell her
78 sin
I have had an affair with a beautiful woman who I have falalen in love with. I have been seperated from my wife for 4 months also. Today I have to make the decision to return home or stay gone and start divorce proceddings. Right now I feel that the only way I would return is not to lose my chidren...
79 i can't stop
I've been bulimic now for almost 8 years now. It started when i was a freshman in highschool and now i'm graduating college.My dad used to weigh me every weekend i came to see him, they bought me diets and told me I looked like a whale at 14. I just can't seem to shake it. I've drastically dropped and...
80 I'm meeting the other woman today
And not for anything bad. Rather, I feel the need to share with her the peace that can be found only in a personal relationship with Christ. And I'm not even a very good or strong Christian. But this has been put on my heart that the poor thing (she's 20 years my junior) is a lost soul. And while...
81 I was sexually abused as a child
I was 12 years old, and my cousin, who was my idol, my hero, sexually abused me on multiple occasions. At the time, I was unaware of what was going on, and for many years after, I neglected to see how it has harmed me, until now. I am 21 years old, a college basketball player, and I have never had a...
82 Letting go of the past...
I was raped by an acquaintance as a teenager. My desire had been to save sex for marriage, and my whole life changed course in one moment. I buried that for years, and sex became a weapon - I enjoyed the power I felt over men as THEY lost control to me and their flesh. Thankfully, I rededicated my life...
83 Need prayer!
Please pray for me as I seek healing and forgiveness for all my sins of rebellion. My sins of self-seeking, covetness, and lust. My sins of unbelief and disobedience. My sins of ignoring and refusing the Saviour to have His way in my life. All my sins of evil and wickedness, all my sins of waywardness...
84 Lost what they most wanted
I want to tell good that one year ago I had a relationship with my ex-boyfriend and after 3 months became pregnant by .. Was the first time I loved someone and know that when I was pregnant I wanted to have this baby and the family was against abortion and what .. I had moral support ... came back and...
85 Lost innocence
I was sexually abused when I was 5 years old for my uncle... I didnt know what he was doing.. but he was a nice uncle to everyone...I couldn't tell anybody, and I didn't... I know that my aunt, his wife, knew that because I remember she was always mad at him when she saw us together. I remember he used...
86 hell never know
i lied to an ex about being pregnant by him and then told him i lost it to hurt him for what he did to me..and i dont feel bad at all
87 Just say you are sorry
I told someone an awful secret about me and one of my superiors. This person lost everything after that, job, position, benefits, etc.I feel bad and I shouldnt because this man lied, deceived and used me and a lot of other people. All I ever wanted from him was an apology. I had an abortion because...
88 i feel so trapt
i am gay i live my life wanting to be strait i am 27 i want kids i want to be marryed none of which i i do have have guilt because ive had sex with two men and enjoyed it i dont want to live this way i love god have a calling that i cant do because this sin is always creepin into my life each day when...
89 depressed party girl
Im not even legall and I party too much for my age. I had a bad incident when I was 15 with rape and since then I have had lost all respect to my body. I figured that since I have had sex that I might as well stick with it. I have had sex with 11 guys and I dont even like it. I have tried to kill myself...
90 ignorant
I have had an eating disorder since i was 16. that is 6 years now. it is no secret, but it is politely ignored. i dont talk about it, no one asks. not a week has gone by for the past 2 years in which i havent thrown up, over eaten, or starved. i am pretty sure i have lost my sanity. i hear voices,...
91 I ruined my husband's career
My husband was accepted into a doctoral program, but I wanted him on Active Duty in the Army. I was lost and depressed and hated my job, so I made life impossible for him. He couldn't take it anymore, and to save our marriage, he returned to active duty. Now he is in a branch he hates and I am still...
92 I have lost trust in GOD
I loved a girl who is of a different religion then mine, we were to-gether for 4 years, i left my luxorious life and strated working, wheni can have people working for me. I was even ready to leave my family for her and her family but now she suddenly left me for reasons i am not sure of. Now i have...
93 lost
I have walked the life of a faithful catholic, a christian, and an atheist. I am now in a place where I so desperately want to believe in something greater than myself; but am drowned with doubt. I have issues with all faiths I know about and all seem to have great flaws. I do believe there is a higher...
94 blah
well, i've had a rough year. I've been looking at porn compulsively for years...which i hide from my wife, whom i love very much. I've also just kind of lost momentum...turnning thirty this year and i don't feel much hope for the future...i'm usually a resiliant person, but this seems to becoming replaced...
95 Major Guilt
I knew that someone was going to intentionally try and get some fired. I didn't stop it. He almost lost his job. I talked with her and pleaded with her to come clean. Her exact words to me were "I f'ing with his mind." It's killing me that I didn't stop it, warn the other person, or call the employer....
96 Family or Career?
I work for my father's company which has been experiencing severe financial hardships. We fight about money frequently and I have lost respect for him in his ability to provide for me. I don't like to feel this way. I have been searching for jobs and fully intend to leave the company to pursue my own...
97 Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name
I lost God when I was six years old. A man called me on the phone and said lots of sexual things to me. i didn't hang up because I was confused. Afterwards I felt so guilty and scared. I have been lost ever since.
98 What
I am 17 years old and have had 6 sex partners. I lost my virginity at the age of 14. For a while, I just pretended I was having fun. But last night I came to the realization that there is something wrong with me. I have sex so these guys like me more. I always say I'm not making the same mistake again,...
99 Forgiveness for Abortion
When I was 22 years old, I lost my virginity and ended up, pregnant. I chose to do the right thing, I felt at the time and have an abortion. I didnt have sex until 4 years later. I met someone who told me everything I wanted to hear, I thought the relationship was going places. I got pregnant once...
100 I'm sick of making myself sick...
I am 20 years old and I have been bulimic for 8 years. I just don't know how to stop. I made my self stop and try losing weight the healthy way, and it worked for a while. I lost 30 pounds, but then I couldn't lose anymore and I decided to make my self throw up only when I ate something that I shouldn't...
101 How I lost my virginity
I started masturbating * at a very young age and I deflowered myself * at 12. *This post has been edited for content
102 Wanting the Pain to Go Away
I have been hurt all my life by jealous people. Bullied as a kid. Co-workers lied on me. In-laws steal from me. Friends laugh at me. I have lost my ability to foregive and forget. I'm nice, thinking that if I don't hurt anyone, they won't hurt me. It never works that way. I've been gullable and...
103 duplicity and complaining
i am such a hypocrite sometimes. i ama Christian, but live a double life. I mean, I'm not screwing aorund with anybody but I have been flirting with another girl. also, I lost my job back in December, and I told my mom it was because they made cuts in the department, when really, I didn't put up...
104 Sexual secret
For the past few years i've struggled with pornography and with lustful actions and passion. i just want to confess these things to the Lord and to my brothers and sisters in Christ. i'm a lost and lonely sinner and greatful for the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ that covers me for all eternity.
105 Where do I go from here?
I am 18 years old and a freshman in college. I was raped by my stepdad when i was 15 and i got pregnant. My mom and him encouraged me to get an abortion and thinking it was what was best i did it. I have never felt such guilt or shame in my life. After the abortion i felt hopeless, worthless and i desired...
106 In love with him
There's this guy that I am completely in love with. He is engaged and when I found out he had cheated on her (and told her) I was happy that they broke up. Well, that never killed the relationship, and they just got pregnant and are happy as can be. Up until recently when she lost the baby. It's...
107 Please forgive my sins.
Last year, i had an abortion, my partner did not want a baby, so i done it to sae our relationship. i regretted it the moment i done it and suffered depression afterwards. I fell pregnant again recently, and had an abortion. I have no family, no friends and no one to talk to. My heart is broken and...
108 in Turmoil
I recently spoke sexually with a youth (16) on my * email. I stopped it before it got physical and cofessed to the father. Enraged he told my superiors, now I may be lose my career, almost lost my family, lost my church, and may serve jailtime. Help! i have confessed, repented, and I am begging God...
109 alone and seeking God
I am a 28 year ols single mom with no family, except a mom and brother who are addicts and very unstable. my brother molested me from age 6 to 11. My mom and step-dad were alcoholics, ver abusive to each other physicall and mentally. Also abusive to my brother and I when we were teenagers. I was...
110 Sex at 13
i lost my virginity at 13, in a back alley behind *. the boy was 14 and had a reputation as being promiscuous. we have never dated. i am now almost 15, and have slept with six boys, all older. i have regular sex with one, another was in a relationship and the others were drunken mistakes. i have already...
111 gratitude yet selfishness
you know, I have a really blessed life: I am healthy, I have a good mind, I play a musical instrument, but recently I lost my job and a freindship. both weren't good for me, but I mourn them. the job was working with someone very micromanaging and I think God put me there as a test, but I failed the...
112 was my girl a *?
she is very shy. when she was 14 a guy she liked said to her and her friend. none of you are leaving here until one of them gave him *. apperently she was scared so she did it and it took forever as she put it. first time ever. he was 16. she said she was ingle until 17 where she met a 47 yr old and...
113 i am depressed
I have a good job. But i also have anxiety issues and because of that i get nervous at work and sometimes around my friends. I use to work in an adult novelty store but i quit and finished school and got a real job and left the past behind me. It mad me feel uncomfortable but i only did it because it...
114 Lost
For years my father molested me when I was a child into my teen years. It didn't stop until I attempted to end my life. I thought I did something wrong and didn't understand why my father hated me enough to do this to me. At times, I couldn't understand how God could look the other way for so long. Because...
115 Lost
I am rolling lost. I haven't felt like i have been on my purpose for some time now. After I was Baptized on Easter, life was magical. Now I seem to have reverted back God, Please Lead Me again. Give me strength to be positive *This post has been edited for content
116 Love is always lost
When you love someone you put all of your heart and soul into their well being. They are the first person you think of in the morning and the last thing you think about before you fall alseep. That person is the only one who knows you inside and out, and you know them as if you had known them your whole...
117 Just a girl.
Six months ago I was raped. Raped. That word is difficult to articulate and continues to haunt me everyday. I constantly find myself searching for a lost self-confidence and the innocence that was taken. I'm 19. Before that, I never had a boyfriend, never really been kissed, because I was holding out...
118 i lost it early
i lost my virginity when i was 14, with a 16 year old. i was in love with him, he was in love with my hair color, and breasts. i went through puberty at a very early age. i told him my secrets, and he told me his (fake ones, im guessing.) he said he loved me no matter what, but as soon as i dyed my hair,...
119 need to quit
everytime i lust in porn i feel lost. i want 2 stop caz i don't want to be a lost soul forever!So please pray for me caz this is not a sin that i want to carry for the rest of my life!thanks
120 Release From Porn
I have been addicted to porn since I first saw it when I was 7. I am now 25 and I am sick of what I have become. I was caught masturbating with a friend at the age of 9 and lied to my parents saying he made me do it. I have lied, stolen, cheated, lost friends and girlfriends, anything I could to get...
121 NO MORE!!! I IM FREE
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122 i want 2 quit..but can't
Many times I try to quit only to get back on it again. I FEEL SO CONFUSE, HATE MYSELFING FOR DOING THIS STUPID THING, AND FEEL SO LOST AFTERWARDS. Again I ask GOD for his forgiveness and mercy, BECASUE i WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE THE RIGHT WAY. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME,THANKS!
123 Heartless *
a 'friend' of mine is suffering from an addiction to sex. she says she wants to stop having promiscuous sex but i recently read through her emails and they suggest otherwise. she always comes to me after her 'nights' terribly upset and crying. she lost her virginity at 16 to an older boy who she liked,...
124 I want to quit porn
Its like I have two sides have me. One wants to look at porn on the internet and the other WANTS TO QUIT SO BADLY, BUT FOR SOME REASON HE CANT. Evertime I think about it, I know its wrong. I feel so lost right now, because I think its impossible to quit. BUT I KNOW I CAN QUIT, AND BELIEVE I'LL QUIT.PLEASE...
125 I want to die
my life was ruined when i found out my husband was an alcoholic & misused all our money on porn & booze. i lost my house that was my family home & that i loved very much. i never believed that there were wounds that couldn't be healed until then. now everything that reminds me of my life before makes...
126 Lost heart...
I often masturbate letting my imagination wonder uncontrolled to some pretty sick things. Recently I have viewed porn in the categories of beastility and in large insertions; it was appalling and I don't understand what I'm doing. I want to serve God in my heart but am ignorant as to the direction...
127 Confused
I'm very attracted to men, but when it comes to sex, it just seems gross. I'm not attracted to women, but when it comes to sex it seems fine. Please pray for me.
128 in the darkest hole
I'm the son of a pastor and the praise and worship leader, I'm addicted to alot of sexual stuff. I masturbate and look at porn. i've been doing this since i was a freshman in high school. I wanna quit but its so hard. Ive felt Jesus in my life, and Gods used me in so many ways but i keep on fallin into...
129 Struggling with porn addiction.
I had ruined my career in the Army and my 1st marriage because of my addiction to porn. Between my 1st and 2nd marriage I had many sexual encounters with people. I now regret this so much. God has since graced me with a wonderful loving wife (who is the closest thing to a saint I have have ever known)...
130 lost a friend
ive feel like part of me is missing ever since 2 of my friends died ing a car crash 2 years ago it feels empy and i dont like it
131 Lie
I have been one such person who has been always a thinker than a doer. This was very true during my engineering semester days when I was around 20 years old. One of the esoteric courses Analog Computers and Analog Electronics was indeed so dry, that inspite of putting required efforts, I had flunked...
132 lying
Ever since I was small I have always been able to make any story more interesting by coloring it to be a lot more than it was. I ly everyday: to points across, so I can get attention. To be the life of the office, or sunday school room. I need help with this. I have lost respect and friends. I know that...
133 Innosence Lost
When i was in 8th grade i had sex with my girlfriend. I fell in love with this. I began wanting more and more sex. I turned to porn and master bastion to for fill my needs. It even came to a point where i would try to peek in on my girlfriend as she changed clothes or went tot the bathroom. We aren't...
134 lost potential
intellingent, fit, good looking, capable......... piece of * decomposing in my own filth without the self confidence to achieve. i eat top ramen, masterbate, and pray upon the weak. sounds like im busy, but thats all i do. lord knows i need out. *This post has been edited for content
135 Lost Trust
My husband works and lives 4 hours away, 5 days a week. When he is home, he always seems to be text messaging with someone. He keeps the bank account and I am sure the money is not always being put to good use. I feel like an after thought, he is not mean or intentionally hurtful. I feel hurt just the...
136 I can't forgive myself
My (now ex)fiance and I got pregnant when I was 21. We had planned the pregnancy. I loved him so much and he loved me too. I don't know why, but I had an abortion. I was scared of so many things back then, but there's no excuse for what I did. I lost the baby, and I broke the love of my life's heart....
137 My deepest secret about when I lost my virginity.
When I was only 9 years old, I had sex with a 6 year old girl my sister was baby sitting at the time. It was partial penetration, and no coming involved, but I still can't forgive myself. I made her give me oral then I wnet on with the sex. I know that I was very young and very naive about things at...
138 Neglect and rape in youth still hurts too much
I have survived a childhood of neglect with a mentally ill mother and mostly absent father, due to his work. When I was young I got in a relationship with and lived with an abusive guy for 5 years total, even though he was abusive and raped me unbelievably somewhere between 3,000-5,000 times, I lost...
139 Adultry
I have been exposed for being a liar and an adulterer. My life as I knew it is over. I have lost my family and have been shunned by my church. I have been contimplating suicide, but am too much of a coward to follow through. I even fail at that. I will not recover. I have no hope whatsoever. I...
140 I'm sick of all my secrets.
I Fell in love and lost my virginity to my bestfriends older brother. Older as in 4 years. I can never tell her the truth of what went on during those 7 months our relationship.
141 adultery
I posted earlier about my sin but i cannot get it off my mind. I love him but i am so scared of being loved because every man who has ever been in my life has used me for some reason or another. Sex, usually. When i did have sex with the men i had affairs with most i didn't even know. I wanted to be...
142 I want another escape besides food
I am obssessed with food. I went on liquid "deit" for three months and lost 45 pounds, but I have only gained back all the lost weight plus more. I will not eat for three days and then binge/purge eat for the following three days. All I think about is food and I don't enjoy life anymore. I think that...
143 Lost in my pain
I am 19 years old and have been masterbating for about 10 months now i had never done it before than and i feel i have created a beast i cant tame or destroy..I am writing this to find closer by stating and believing that it was my last time tonight..God is a forgiving God but he is also a just one and...
144 Sick
I'm very sick. Can't work.Can't walk very well. Can't speak very well. Cant use my hands very well. Can't sit for long. Money woes. On tranquilizers for > 20 years. Doctors are happy that I'm their repeat customer. I hate them. I'll eventually reduce it but not now. I was too compliant to...
145 I Feel Hatered Twards God...
I am a Cristian but my family has never been committed to church every sunday or reading the bible....my dad recintly in the last 4 years found god and my mother also. I use to believe and love god untill this last year. I have lost so many people i love and it never seems to end. It never seems to get...
146 h2
I am a 29 years old girl and have had sex with many men. Some boyfriends, some not. I lost my virginity to a non-Christian boyfriend. At that time I went to church, but not a born-again Christian. I am currently having pre-marital sex. I have abandoned some boyfriends after sex because I can't still...
147 Secret Shame
My husband and I were seperated for a year and a half. Because he cheated on me and we were in limbo working through all the emotions. We have 3 children together and didn't want to rush into any decisions. I felt like we were on our way to divorce. It was almost Christmas. I was feeling empty and...
148 Grieving for my lost little one
I am a woman of God and I KNOW BETTER. Less than a year ago, I found out I was pregnant with my third child. My husband and I have two children together and they are my world. I have no excuse for doing it other than selfish disgusting reasons, but I aborted the pregnancy. I have sought peace for my...
149 Virginity
I lost my virginity when I was 21. But my real confession is that I've never had a girlfriend, and I am ashamed of myself because I lack sexual experience because of it. I happen to be 40 years old presently. I feel like a teenager because of my lack of experience.
150 My misery
I fell in love with some guy after we both had our own families. And we can't be together. I cry for him mostly every night. And it's hard as heck to continue my daily life of raising a family wishing of what could have been and being lonely and deppressed day after day. Nomatter how many things i find...
151 my addiction to cocaine
I never thought I'd be the one that would get so caught up in drugs, exspecially cocaine. I was the girl that always had it all.The summer after my freshmen year of college I went thru a bad breakup & lost it & resorted to drugs to make me happy&They did for a short time til everything started falling...
152 Lost
I've tried this before, and if it wasnt for me, it would have worked. Right now my life is lost, and its all my fault. I KNOW God is right there, waiting for me to turn back to him.. but, for some reason that escapes me, i am still walking away from him. Instead of being an example to the people around...
153 My Tragic Honesty
I am a guy, and i fell in love with my guy best friend. I took very long to confess what i felt towards him, and when i finally did, i didnt only lost love, but also a great great friend. Right now i am in the process of mending my broken heart, but i doubt i could forget. He and i have a secured...
154 diet
I have a hard time being self controlled when it comes to food because I used to be on a serious diet before. A very strict diet makes your brain keep thinking about food because you never eat enough or seldom eat what you like. Because of this, I lost control and since then, i've been having a hard...
155 im addicted to cocaine while masterbating online
ive been doing drugs since i was 10, ive done everything except shot heroin, i just kicked using crack by myself and now all i wanna do every weekend or every other weekend is hide out by myself sniffing cocaine and masterbating online for hours and hours. i feel so ashamed because its not something...
156 scars in my head
like every guy on this planet I tend to be visual and ever since i was 13 yrs of age i have seen porn the first time was unintentional but that hooked me and i feel lost and trapped inside of it i know i am doing wrong and I ask god to forgive me and give me the strength to act like it had never happend....
157 I'm not sure Iove my husband anymore
I have been married for 13 years we have 5 children...I am not even sure I love him anymore. He has an addiction to porn and it has hardened my heart so much that I can't feel love for him. I am so spiritually dead too. I can't pray with him...and I don't even bother to read the bible. Honestly, I...
158 My Guilt
I recently lost my wife. I know that this is part of life but she was such a great wife and I was an idiot. Although I never abused her physically or otherwise, I was not a very good husband. I never really appreciated her until after she had passed on. I look at my three sons and see what a great mother...
159 A broken spirit
I have to confess these sins, they are tearing me up. I am a leader in my church, and teach other Christians. I have to confess that I have an addicted to pornography and sex. It first started with simple porn, and has been blown up to the point of prostitution. I am so broken by this, and feel worthless....
160 hate
i feel hate when i think of my ex wife. she belongs to this church. she was always putting herself out there as such a rightous person but in the end was a liar, thief and two faced. within 60 days of us getting married she had stole every penny i had by hiding the mail and cashing checks i had wrote...
161 I have been stealing at work
I have been considered an over achiever at every job I have had since the age of 16. I have received praise from my bosses, I have been given numerous awards etc. At age 16 on my first job I was envolved in stealing beer multiple times with the assistance of co-workers and selling it outside of school....
162 Lost trust from rape
I was brutally gang raped in high school. I'm almost 40 now and have gone thru 2 divorces due to my inability to trust. I have been divorced now the 2nd time for 13 years. I've asked God to send me a man that I can completely trust. I don't even date anymore, just wait for that 1 person, not sure how...
163 my sad life
Aim a 22 yr old male. I was hit and brutally abuse by my father. I always felt different from others, was tease in elementary school I was a loner. I have always been interested in the same sex from a younger age. When I was 12 I gave oral sex to a sleeping homeless guy. And I also had sex with my 24...
164 Sadness
I am twenty-five and never thought that I would fall in love but I did. That was 2 years ago. The problem is he never fell in love with me. Now he is moving on and it is killing me inside. I gave him everything I had. In return, he shared his life and his family with me because mine is far from perfect....
165 I feel like a failure
I have tried so hard just to be myself and i feel so lost because all the girls i grew up around are girly and skinny ab beautiful and though im not fat i always stand out to be the odd one. For so long i just desired to be close to girls and i finnaly have and it was with a close friend and for hte...
166 Feeling horrible
I can barely type I am so nervous...my heart is racing this very moment. Back when I was 16 I was addicted to pornography and became a slave to it. I became a slave to masterbation....(I cant believe I am writing this.) I wanted that extra pleasure when I was doing it and I had my dog lick me when...
167 Shut in Again
Well, I keep trying to change but I cant. my ways keep leading me to shut myself in literally. I cant change, my life is a wreck and I cant change even though I know he's there I just am lost....
168 FULL of resentment
Anytime my husband needs money for something we spend it. I am tired of having things that need taking care of and they are ignored. My health will not allow me to work so I am stuck. I refuse to ask family for help. I just want to get out of this hole. The anger has taken over my life and I have tried...
169 internet
I think I may have a problem with the internet. I cannot seem to mix reality with my online persona. It is like two different people. I can say lots of things online that I would never dare to say out loud to someone in person. I fear that I may just be fostering this unhealthy addiction. I like who...
170 The Girl Next Door....
You name it I've done it.. I'm a recovering drug addict and I've confessed all the harm I've caused along this broken road... all of it, every lie, crime, robery, drug, battery, scam, con, and cheat i've taken part in..except for one thing: I molested my little brother two or maybe three times when i...
171 Got what I deserved?
I lost my virginity to my husband, before we got married. He cheated on me, before we got married, and I knew about it. He cheated on me while we were married and I ignored it, lied to myself, and pretended it wasn't happening. I started working outside of the home, became good friends with a co-worker...
172 Can
I spent the beginning of college falling away from the Lord. I drank excessively, did drugs, and started dating a guy with whom I lost my virginity to. I have since reconnected my relationship with God, and I have stopped doing drugs and drinking. But I am still with the guy I was seeing, and still having...
173 SECRET SHAME OF MY MARRIAGE
Two years ago, I made a very graphic porn video with my wife and a prostitute. The video showed my wife doing some things that even I did not expect she would do, both with me and with the hooker. Last week, I ended up betting it in a poker game that got out of control. I lost it to a guy I work with....
174 You have nothing
You have nothing, no authority, no power to stop the demons that rule over my soul. You put up this site as if it accomplishes something for all the darkened souls that post here. You use technology and your experiences to separate you from the agonized screams you see here. I wonder how many of your...
175 Lost & Searching
I am a wife and mother of 3 amazing children. I love my huasnd very much but I was weak. I had an affair for over a year and developed a strong bond and friendship with that man. He's my soulmate. There's no question about it. My affair was discovered nearly two years ago. My husband has stayed...
176 just reach out
If we all had just one person to reach out and hold us when we feel so lost that we can hardly breathe and you fear that you are about to lose your grip on reality and you want to run and scream and die... one person to tell you it will be ok, to never judge you, to encourage you... I don't have one...
177 Confession of a dark childhood
I was sexually abused since I can remember. I can recall the faces, the names and the times when men in my family or strangers had put their filthy hands on me. It's sick & I feel disgusting. I knew it was wrong, yet I never told my mother. I was 5 yrs old when this started. The 1st person to touch me...
178 FANTASIZE
I confess to God that i have had sexual thoughts about adolesents and teens. I lost my virginity very early. and began masturbating and looking at porn much earlier. probably around 8 or 9. Please pray for me. I need healing. I need these thoughts to go away. I need to quit masturbating. God delivered...
179 premarital sex
I am only 20 years old and have had sex with 6 men. Some boyfriends, some not. I was 16 when I lost my virginity, and it has taken me 4 years to completely rededicate my life to Christ. I have asked him to forgive me for these sins, but I still feel guilty and feel as if it's standing in the way of a...
180 Please pray for us
I struggled with pornography from age 9 when I used to watch films my parents left around. Now married and 37, my wife and I watch movies at least once a week together and I feel extremely dirty and guilty about it afterwards. I now find myself getting into increasingly weird porn- transexuality and...
181 abuser- abused
well my confession is that i am female and i am 21 yrs old...i have been aboused and iv'ed abused too... i been with so many men and woman all my life i can't even rememebr with how many...i was molested by my older sister,,older girl cousin,,my uncle...and my ex-step father.... i lost my virginty...
182 miles away from nowhere
i think i battle depression, im not sure. i know that i cant remember the last time i laughed without restraint. i keep myself from happiness i think, though im not sure why. living in a busy city like edmond is odd to say that im lonley but i am. i have no real friends... no REAL friends. nobody knows...
183 Cheating at will
Iam a married woman and I have cheated on my husband with many men I lost count of how many men I've had sex with,I love my husband but he's so weak has man in bed so I sex is best friends,co-workers even his brother a 17 year old , I come som homesometimes at 5 in the morringn and invent some excuse...
184 Struggling and Will Be for Life
I've been so lost. I love Jesus my Savior and I trust in him but I can't seem to stop my lustful ways and wanting sex. I just turned 16 years old and I am bisexual. I know that I should repend of my ways after all that my Lord and Savior ahs done from me but I can't seem to find the strength or will...
185 Struggling young man
I am young man with an active christain faith. I have been struggling with porn for the last two years, it started after I lost my virginity at 16. I am really involved in the chuch and I love God with all my heart, I want to stop so badly, but it's is so very hard. Pleade pray that I can stop, and that...
186 he was shot..and killed at 17.
A friend of mine was shot and killed last weekend, by a black guy. I've always been a bit racist, despite the fact that I knew a few very nice, caring, chrisitan black people. But now that this has happened, I feel like I've just lost all respect for them. I feel bad saying it, because I know there are...
187 Porn and lust helped me ruin my marriage and life.
I was a happily married guy who had a great family. It is because of my addiction to porn and lust that I lost it all. I would look at porn on the internet as well as talk to other women. After my divorce I hit rock bottom and started looking to christ for help. I have never admited to my problem before....
188 How stupid I am
I'm going through the worst patch of my life. I am sturggling with self harming, bulimia and anorexia but no one has even noticed. I lost my viginitiy to a loser who then suprising left, I argue constantly with my parents, I am failing all four courses at college and am £300 in debt after my bag got...
189 lost
After watching a movie.. a sad one.. i often feel sad and act as if I was the person who had the heartbreak in their life.. I don;t know why I do it.. but it always happens.. Maybe it's because I don't want to live my life sometimes..
190 when i was just 17 years old i...
when i was just 17 years old i was checked in to an addiction detox and rehab unit at a local hospital. i was just 17 years old, i had a very bright future in front of me. i had four Division 1 volleyball scholarships and a very supportive family backing me 100%. I played on the jr.national USA olympic...
191 my wife is ready to leave. I abuse...
my wife is ready to leave. I abuse alcohol and I compuslively look at porn. I want to change so bad and my words don't mean anything anymore. She does not believe that I can change and I don't blame her. I have lost all hope that things can actually be diffrent. She has told me that she hates me...
192 Dear Lord You know everything about...
Dear Lord You know everything about me and i know I cannot hide from you and I stand accountable before you. I have a wonderful boyfriend who trusts me implicitly, who loves You and whom I have always thought I love. Yet I entered into a sexual relationship with him, could not say no to a married colleague...
193 I don't know if I want to break...
I don't know if I want to break up with my boyfriend or not. He is addicted to pornography and I have caught him on many dating websites, but he says they are "just for the pictures". I've caught him in many lies as well. I am so hurt that I don't feel I have any trust left. I don't feel like I can...
194 hi i am from india and i use to...
hi i am from india and i use to gambe a lott and i ve wasted a losted a lottts of money so far and i m still paying for it .. i hvnt gamble for 5 months bt i still have lotss of credit on me.. once i even stolen my mothers gold chain and i hvnt got it back as i m still paying intrest on it.. i soon want...
195 It is so hard to choose just one...
It is so hard to choose just one category. I need to get this out, so here it goes... I was invited into the bedroom of my best friend and his wife. This was mistake 1, cheating on my wife. Then, the next day, I was lured back into that bedroom with just my best friends wife. I was told that he trusted...
196 Depression, My son pased away 3...
Depression, My son pased away 3 years ago and I loved him dearly, there is not a day that goes by without him on my mind, I miss him so much. I lost my vive for living and fell into a rut of sleeping in the daytime and being awake all night. keeping away from relationships and not feeling energy and...
197 I am in love with a married man,...
I am in love with a married man, and he is in love with me. We've never had intercourse, but we've done everything else, and I loved it. I never thought about his wife, until recently. Now I am dying inside, because I love him so much and want to be with him. Sometimes I wish that she would die so...
198 i was sexually molested when i...
i was sexually molested when i was 5. i don't remember details. i was in an abusive relationship from the time i was 15 to 17. he never hit me, but he was very verbally abusive with me. i finally broke up with him january of my senior year when i went on deppresive medication and had a major revalation...
199 I have the greatest husband. He's...
I have the greatest husband. He's my best friend, and we've been together 12 years. Recently, a guy I had feelings for way back in high school (whom I'd lost touch with long ago), found me online. Suddenly, those repressed feelings came up again. I don't regret marrying my husband AT ALL, we are happy,...
200 I hurt really bad since Beth left. I...
I hurt really bad since Beth left. I tried really hard to forget her but I cant. All I do is home she comes back to me. If God knows that she wont be back, then please help me forget her and move on with my life. I made 2 dates and cancelled them both, because I still love her so much. I...
201 I hurt really bad since she left. I...
I hurt really bad since she left. I tried really hard to forget her but I cant. All I do is home she comes back to me. If God knows that she wont be back, then please help me forget her and move on with my life. I made 2 dates and cancelled them both, because I still love her so much. I would...
202 I look down the side of this page...
I look down the side of this page and find that i fit into about 7 of those categories. Im only 16, but i lead worship at my church, both on wednesdays and sundays, and im addicted to masterbating, porn, and anything that relates to adultery. i feel so terrible when i do it, and i want to change sooo...
203 My mom basically left me to go...
My mom basically left me to go live with her boyfriend,so now I live with my brother becuase my dead beat dad died last year,who use to "touch" me when he came home to ask my mom for money, but she doesnt know what he did to me. But she thinks its all good here but, Im miserable going through high school...
204 For the past 5 months I've been...
For the past 5 months I've been binging, purging, and starving myself. My highest weight was 280 and now in January 2007 I am 195. Close to 100 pounds lost in not even half of a year. It makes me feel like i have control of something in my life, and while it causes more pain than heals it I don't plan...
205 I don't know how to start, but...
I don't know how to start, but here I ll open up and spit it out like it happened, it is been a while that I was stealing money from my wife's mom and sister, since I ve been living in the same house with em. When they discovered my acts, I denied that it was me, and now i am about to loose my marriage...
206 You asked why I lost my scholarship....
You asked why I lost my scholarship. It wasn't because school was hard it was because I was watching porn 6-8 hrs a day.
207 I went farther with my boyfriend...
I went farther with my boyfriend than I ever intended to... we didn't sleep together... but, I feel like I lost an innocence that I'll never get back. In the moment, I didn't feel uncomfortable and maybe that's the worst part. Lord help me to understand boundaries that are pleasing to Your heart.
208 I'm putting this under regret,...
I'm putting this under regret, because it's a few issues that I regret. I regret quitting school and not getting the masters degree and then flailing aorund for a couple years calling myself a freelance writer, when I was really just a lost and directionless and scared, frustrated artist. I came to...
209 Lord, I drink the way i do and...
Lord, I drink the way i do and indulge in drugs just to feel relief. From a past of bitter memories. I keep on doing it and i don't stop. Why you ask? because i know you'll forgive me. I'm a disciple lost to the world.
210 I grew up with pornography. My...
I grew up with pornography. My view of sexuality has always been heavily distorted, not at all likethat of my creator. I'm sorry Lord, that I am so far from your truth. Before my marriage, my fiance ran off with her gym instructor, only for sex she said. She begged for my forgiveness, and i gave it to...
211 About 3 years ago I had sex with...
About 3 years ago I had sex with my best friend's wife. At that time in my life I was very stressed out emotionally and far from G-d. In all honesty she pressed the me into the situation each time but I did go along with her. Eventually I told her it was wrong and stopped doing so.A year ago I confessed...
212 I'm 16 years old. I lost my virginity...
I'm 16 years old. I lost my virginity to my now ex-boyfriend when I was 15. I was with him for about 6 months and we had sex just about everytime we saw each other. In the back of my mind I always felt bad about it but I just pushed the thought away. After we broke up I promised God, and myself, that...
213 I have been in love with one man...
I have been in love with one man for over 38 years. We attended a Bible college. He was studying to become a pastor. Things did not work out-he married another,so did I. We lost touch until 3 years ago. We became fast friends again. He was a pastor. Then he fell, lost his job. He had an affair with the...
214 i entered into a relationship with...
i entered into a relationship with a christian, but not a follower. the relationship started with making out, and fooling around, and soon after led to sex. i lost my virginity when i was 16, and am now 20. at 16, i promised God that i would keep myself from ever doing that again until i was married......
215 well last night i was lonely and...
well last night i was lonely and all my friends are Engaged or Married so it's kind of hard for me to go out with my boy's. I do have other friend that i usally try to avoid cause i know the outcome of hanging out with them. Well last night i made the choice to go out with one of them and i got drunk...
216 i still love my ex fiance even...
i still love my ex fiance even though im currently with some one else who does try his best to make me happy but he was just a rebound that has gone too far we have now been together for 7 months and ive already cheated on him with 5 or 6 people (including my ex) but i have come to realise that all my...
217 i've always had a problem with...
i've always had a problem with eating. i was never a consistent person, always ate too much or too little, or whenever the mood struck me. at the beginning of summer, i lost ten lbs. i felt good. but it was only because i got drunk on an empty stomach, which messed up my stomach for weeks, and didn't...
218 I'm a 16 year old male, and I have...
I'm a 16 year old male, and I have been living with regret, guilt, and shame for most of my life. When I was about 8 years old,my friend bob and I, who was also a male, had sex with eachother. We continued to have sex with eachother until I was about 13, and it was then that I realized how sick and wrong...
219 i am a born again christian, but...
i am a born again christian, but i sometimews get lost, i must say i am surfering from adultery and i pray to God run away from this because this is just killing me.
220 I'm 20 years old. My boyfriend...
I'm 20 years old. My boyfriend is the best friend I have ever had, I have never been this close to anyone before. The problem is, he is a virgin and I am not. I lost my virginity when I was 18 to a 23 year old man, I thought I was in love. I was in so much pain I hate to say I was promiscuous after he...
221 I have been with my man over a...
I have been with my man over a year now and have cheated on him 3 times...everytime i have cheated alcohol has been involved, he doesnt know about these incidents and i just cant tell him because we are engaged to be married soon and i don't want to loose him, but this is just eating away at me knowing...
222 I started masterbating a while...
I started masterbating a while ago, about 12, I'm 16 now it has become worse and worse. I justify it with phrases like "everyone else does it" and "It's human nature". These are feeble excuses in the eyes of God. I feel like I've lost contact with Jesus and have become more shy and nervous. Please pray...
223 i could very well become addicted...
i could very well become addicted to pornography. i almost lost my job over it a few years ago. have since gained some control, but the urge is still there. although my counselor said my urges were due to some things that happened to me as a child, i dont believe i am a victim. i do believe i can be...
224 I starved myself for about 2 months...
I starved myself for about 2 months in order to drop a couple of dress sizes to fit into my prom dress. I have gained the weight back and I think that I will do it again to lost weight faster.
225 I've been wanting to die. I feel...
I've been wanting to die. I feel like I'm trapped in a room with no visible doors or windows. When I lie down to sleep.. I wish I could stop time and sleep forever, not moving, not dreaming, not seeing or hearing, just existing in silent peace.My heart hurts so badly, and I don't know how to make it...
226 I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR 3 YEARS...
I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR 3 YEARS WITH A MAN. WE WERE ENGAGED BOUGHT A HOUSE AND WERE PLANNING OUR WEDDING. HE STARTED PULLING AWAY THEN ONE DAY HE CAME HOME LATE AND I COULD TELL SOMETHING WAS WRONG. HE ADMITTED HE WAS CHEATING ON ME AND THAT HE HAD GOTTEN THIS OTHER PERSON PREGNANT. HE TOLD ME HE...
227 I invited some coworkers to my...
I invited some coworkers to my 40 year old birthday party last Friday night to hear some jazz. No one showed. I'm still single, a virgin, and I have no children. There are no prospects for a girlfriend / wife at the moment. I lost 9 days of leave at work due to admin issues. I'll probably not...
228 I am a meth addict. I've lost my...
I am a meth addict. I've lost my ability to cope... Instead I get high....it numbs any pain I might feel(emotions). I want to be clean...but I am scared...alone. I live with my boyfriend...he thinks I am a mental basket case. He doesn't know and that makes me very sad.
229 For as long as I can remember my...
For as long as I can remember my life has been going downhill fast. Everytime a crisis happens it just gets worse. I seem to be abusing one substance after another. When I gain control overing abusing a substance,within a month I'm abusing something else, from alcohol to perscription drugs. I lost my...
230 I have done so much to mess up...
I have done so much to mess up my life I don't even know where to start... did cocaine/crack every day for years. drank every day for years. fired from a job I had for 8 years because I couldn't stop doing drugs/drinking my vehicle was repoed, apt. raided by police, lost most of my clothes and furniture,...
231 When i was little, i went to church...
When i was little, i went to church every Sunday in a Catholic Church. I attended sunday school and even had my first communion. But then my parents got divorced and I moved to a new town. Somewhere along that journey, I lost God. Now my dad makes me go to LifeChurch with him, but I just dont feel the...
232 I have never been abused. I have...
I have never been abused. I have never been taken advantage of. I have never lost a child or done drugs. I dont have kids and im not in love. But i feel as though everything i do in my life is wrong. Every decision i make, or person I trust is wrong. I fell head over heels in love with a guy and our...
233 All through high school, I was...
All through high school, I was a model christian for my parents. I joined the navy when I graduated and was medically discharged due to multiple mental illness. I felt worthless and like a failure. When I got back, I started smoking pot again, which led to coke, X, acid, shrooms and alchohol. Im so confused...
234 I dont know if Im really addicted...
I dont know if Im really addicted to one certain thing, but I think its mostly addicted to the feeling of being apathetic.Ive done all drugs and drank more than any one person should. I feel so lost that I run to things that lead me nowhere. I need god's love and guidance to lead me through. I want to...
235 My first boyfriend, also the man...
My first boyfriend, also the man I lost my virginity to, was 40 and I was 20 yrs old. I found out a couple years later that he had been having an affair with another older woman for about a year sporatically... maybe even longer than that. He used to treat me pretty badly in our first year together but...
236 I'm such a jerk...My wife and I...
I'm such a jerk...My wife and I were arguing and exchanging hurtful words with each other. I lost my temper,slammed the door and broke 2 of my wife's antique glass bottles. She had been collecting miniature shells from different visits to the beach so she could fill these bottles up with something special....
237 I´m 17 years old. I have a great...
I´m 17 years old. I have a great problem. Since I was 16 I´ve been sleeping with many men. Even I don´t know how many there had been. Everything started when I started going out with my friends. They flirted a lot, and I liked it, but they never got as far as I did. I just couldn´t say "NO" to anyone....
238 My husband won't let me leave our...
My husband won't let me leave our marriage. I've been together with my husband for 12 years married in 2001 and we have a 10 year old son. My husband is abusive both physically and mentally. I belive he has mental issues, it runs in his family. He is also an alcholic. He's just destoryed our lives financially...
239 This might seem trivial but it...
This might seem trivial but it is not to me. We had a small family dog that was always nervous. I would have to be very careful and calm with her or she would start to urinate. The dog would also potty in different parts of the house. It drove me crazy because I wanted a clean house and that really...
240 My secret is that I lost God in...
My secret is that I lost God in my life. This was the worst part of my life and God and got me back on track when he had me start running and I met my friends Liz and Brittney. God had them come to me and bring back to church and thanks to them and God caring I now have God back in life and it feel...
241 Because of my addiction to herion,I...
Because of my addiction to herion,I lost my parental rights to my 2 daughters.I can't say i might deserve it,but they don't.I was clean when it all happend,but it was too late.it kills me everyday because I can't do what i want to do legally with them.I now have been clean for 4 years in december!!I'm...
242 I was once a god-fearing, incredibly...
I was once a god-fearing, incredibly devout christian, but at home and in my family I secretly came to believe in logic and reason, and I lost my faith in Christianity.
243 I pray inconsistently and I do...
I pray inconsistently and I do not go to church allthough I liked church as a child. My parents never went to church and my foster father later became angry an God (and still is). I remember my life from about the age of 2. My mother was addicted to drugs, alchol, and violent relationships and my father...
244 I have a problem with overeating....
I have a problem with overeating. I always turn to food for comfort. If I have a problem, I turn to food. If i am depressed, I turn to food. I don't know when to stop.I also have another problem. I lost a son to suicide ten years ago. I left my two sons when they were small due to abuse from my brother....
245 I have been bulimic since I was...
I have been bulimic since I was 16 years old. My weight fluctuated wildly while in college until I hit an all time high of 177 pounds. After that I started exercising like a maniac. I lost 30 over the summer. I felt good at 147. I felt strong. My weight creeped up to 155 over the next few years. Something...
246 I am filled with enormous shame...
I am filled with enormous shame and reqret. I'm 65 yrs old, alone and in not so good health. For 4yrs. I cheated on my wife with a younger woman. My wife knew about it and every year I told her I would end it and strung her along with lie after lie. I now know that Satan had totally entered my life at...
247 Married for seven years to a wonderful...
Married for seven years to a wonderful man, but I have been having an affair with another man these past 5 months. I am ashamed, disappointed and disgusted with myself - I'm feeling very lost and confused.
248 I was Mormon, and married in the...
I was Mormon, and married in the temple. I was a virgin when I married. I was a true and faithful wife until I was 41. I had been married for 23 years. I had a affair and then another and another. I can't even tell you have many men there were. And I wasn't in love with them. I felt terrible about myself....
249 I am scared. I was abused as a...
I am scared. I was abused as a young child by my birth father and later adpoted bu by step-father. I love both my father (that adopted me) and my mother very much but I am lost. I got pregnant at 16 while i was still in high school. I have my daughter now. Back in 2004 I got married to my husband and...
250 I am drug free six months - marijuana...
I am drug free six months - marijuana the choice , but only now do I see how my actions have hurt my children - as they enter adulthood , I cry about their using - if only I had been a better role model for them - i ask Jesus for forgiveness all the time - i feel like i failed them over and over again....
251 I was raped almost a year ago....
I was raped almost a year ago. I was seventeen then, and still a virgin before it happened. Exactly a week before, I lost my best friend. I had my fair share or pain and depression and abuse in the few years earlier, and I had just gotten over some major depression and issues. But, "oops", it happened...
252 I've been feeling like I don't...
I've been feeling like I don't belong in my group of friends or my family. I've felt lost for a couple years now ever since my grandma died. I struggle with feeling worth anyone's time. I have one friend who knows about how im feeling, but it seems like I'm losing him. If i lose him, I'm not sure if...
253 I masterbate to porn often. I have...
I masterbate to porn often. I have fetishes that got me in trouble with the law 2 years ago (misdemeanor). My addiction is for older adult women and certian parts of the body. I lost my job and this caused my family much shame. My wife is aware but I have hidden from her my addiction to masterbation...
254 To begin, I am a rape victim at...
To begin, I am a rape victim at the age of nine. While growing up, I was very mad at GOD b/c I couldn't understand why this happened to me. A lot of people used to think that I way gay b/c I would fool around. That's a heavy load to carry b/c I don't like guys however I feel inadequate with women b/c...
255 i can't believe i am doing this...
i can't believe i am doing this but here goes. i am on staff at a church. i know i am a christian and i know that i what i believe but i can't break the sexual addiction that haunts me. i have been married for over 15 yrs and have cheated on my wife numerous times with both males and females and prostitutes...
256 I am ashamed of my life! It was...
I am ashamed of my life! It was not always good! My home life was a broken one--my mother got saved when I was two yrs old--she's the one that made sure my sister and I got to church--my dad was not a christian until the mid to late 1980's! My father drank, cheated on my mother, was into pornography...
257 Gambling.... the epitome of a wolf...
Gambling.... the epitome of a wolf in sheeps clothing. Recently this "sport" has not only become more acceptable, but even more accessible. I was born in a gambling family, and lets just say this curse has been passed down all to easily. I remember gambling being a part of my life as early as 10 years...
258 I'm in LOVE with a woman who entered...
I'm in LOVE with a woman who entered my life six years ago. I'm on my second marrriage and want so so much to be in LOVE with the person who I call my wife. My first marriage was to my high school sweet heart and I have a wonderful child from that marriage. My first wife left me for another man and...
259 My husband was in jail for a year...
My husband was in jail for a year before we got engaged. We were still dating and I wrote him faithfully every single day and told him everything that I did each day... I only left out that I was lonely and found comfort in sleeping with many men. I lost my virginity when I was 14, much to my regret....
260 I would never hurt anyone. I want...
I would never hurt anyone. I want to love at all times, and be loved in return. I have only had childish relationships. As a teen I lost my innocence to my longtime girlfriend. Ever since then, I find myself only attracted to girls around that age. I have tried to date women closer to my age....
261 its hard to categorize this one,...
its hard to categorize this one, and im not sure if this is the right one or not, but it definately hurts. last year, my dad was arrested for bringing a loaded gun in to walmart. he was arrested in greely, co, and charged w/ attempted robbery, menacing, and attempted murder. he used to be the manager...
262 i try to be who people want me...
i try to be who people want me to be and when i cant i i really want to die. it's so bad that i dont know really know who i am. people just think i'm so smart and so clever but i dont know what they would if they knew i wasnt all that. im just someone who barley passed high school and am lost in college....
263 im totally addicted to pornography...
im totally addicted to pornography im married and have kids and my wife knows nothing about it every time she leaves the house i look at porn everytime im alone i do it i hate it and i know God and i know he wants to deliever me from it but if my wife finds out she will divorce me im lost and cant figure...
264 Lying is the best way to descibe...
Lying is the best way to descibe what I have done. It sums up all the wrong doings for many years. Just recently I have figured it out that I need to come clean and help myself live a better life and finally feel free. I have lied about money, girlfriends, my dog, my job, bills, my where abouts, just...
265 I could sure use some prayer. A...
I could sure use some prayer. A couple years ago...at the age of 28, I lost my virginity to my girlfriend that i was dating at the time. I told her i didn't want to have sex, and asked for her help in this area so we wouldn't go there. Even though I saw many red flags in her, i ignored them thinking...
266 When I found out I was pregnant...
When I found out I was pregnant last year my entire family was very happy for me, even though I wasn't married, I wasn't even in a relationship! I didn't want a child and the thought of abortion kept crossing my mind. When the time came that the decision had to be made I chose to abort. I couldn't tell...
267 I don't have much of a secret other...
I don't have much of a secret other than I cannot trust my husband. I have tried to talk to him about why (I think I know the reason), but he just doesn't listen. I honestly don't think he cares. We got married because I got pregnant in high school. I was stupid, and I have never told anyone and...
268 About a couple months ago i had...
About a couple months ago i had this fantastic boyfriend who would loved me and would tell me that every time he could, he treated me the way i wanted to be treated and he was great. We were in a relationship for about 2 years and throughout this relationship i cheated one him from the very beginning...
269 On September 11,2001 not only did...
On September 11,2001 not only did the world trade center blow up but i lost a boyfriend that i loved with all my heart. He broke up with me on this day. I was so hurt and humiliated that I ended up in the hospital because i have a thyroid illness that often causes extreme deppression.I was so in love...
270 I suffered with bulimia for many...
I suffered with bulimia for many yers. I was either of normal weight or under weight. I read all these posts of pepole who think they are ugly but I really feel I am. After having my child I gained 150 pounds and could not get this off. I was a completly different person. People looked at me differently...
271 ok ... for a long... long time...
ok ... for a long... long time now i have been addicted to porn. i try to stop considering the way i feel is terrible after the looking at it and masturbating to it, but i can never seem to kick the habit... no matter how nasty i feel. i feel like a monster and i want to quit but i when i try it only...
272 I'm a 21 year old college student...
I'm a 21 year old college student and was sexually abused by a guy that I liked on campus. My friend and I had gone to the dorm where he stayed to see other friends. I didn't know he stayed there until I saw him in the hallway. We talked and he invited me up to his room. We then talked some more...
273 When I was in 9th grade I was extremely...
When I was in 9th grade I was extremely overweight and at a private school where the girls were seen as the prettiest in the city. My "best friend" was bulimic, and my other friend was anorexic. I made myself stop eating. It was all I would think about. I saw not eating as my way to fit in. I...
274 I have long wanted to have an affair...
I have long wanted to have an affair with someone, but 1 particular person at church. For 3 years I have been so sexually attracted to her, but I haven't acted on these thoughts. I've stopped masturbating and thinking of her, because it's not real. As I've realized that the fantacy will never happen,...
275 I have been struggling my entire...
I have been struggling my entire life with addictions. I have "mental issues", and the doctor's cannot find the right "prescription cocktail" to help with my symptoms. I've been diagnosed as bipolar, told I may have multiple personalities, etc. I have suffered an addiction to alcohol, tobacco, food,...
276 I was sexually abused by my older...
I was sexually abused by my older brother who is 6 years older than me. First time when I was around 7. I wanted to play with one of his toy trucks and he said that he would let me if he could lay on top of me and kiss me. I let him but when he tried to stick his tongue in my mouth i pushed him off....
277 5 years ago at 35 years old i found...
5 years ago at 35 years old i found whom i was told for all my life was my birth father, i called my mother and told her he was found and i was going to call him and then the shocker came, she told me she had lied and he is not my birth father, he is my sisters father. it hurt to think she lied to me...
278 I am afraid of commitment... In...
I am afraid of commitment... In the relationships I have been in- i've been cheated on so many times and left for younger 'cooler' guys that i just have lost what little trust i have left. When i do find someone and let down my barriers... it seems like no matter what, there is always pain. My last serious...
279 i have been struggling with drug...
i have been struggling with drug and alcohol addiction for a long time. i have been thru the ringer when it comes to drugs. i basically have done every drug under the sun at one time or another but became addicted to heroin a few years ago. life went down hill from there and have lost everything over...
280 My mother thinks that I am still...
My mother thinks that I am still a virgin until marriage. I lost my virginity at 19 and don't know how to tell her. Even more, I have had ten partners in less than two years. I don't think she could handle knowing.
281 People say a child is innocent...
People say a child is innocent but as a child I was introduced to sex at a very young age by other children and made a terrible mistake. I didn't attend church until I was nearly 11 so how I knew the things is a mystery to me. I use to dream on many occasions that my bed would fall out beneath me and...
282 I'm a teenager, and I have been...
I'm a teenager, and I have been molested since the age of 7 by my cousin. I never knew about abuse or incest and I never knew that what he was doing to me was wrong. I am still being molested to this day. I think I have lost my faith in God. I still go to church every Sunday, but it doesn't help at all....
283 I cant seem to get away from it.....
I cant seem to get away from it.. it is like it clings to me. I dont want to do it and the whole time I am not satisfied and disgusted for it. God is too good for me to be doing this. I dont know how to make it stop. It is sick and makes me want to vomit. I really need help and my husband thinks I am...
284 I was raped at the age of twelve...
I was raped at the age of twelve by my best friend. He raped and repeatedly beat me. I didn't tell because I was afraid for my life.At the same time, my stepfather was abusing me emotionally, making me feel worthless. So worthless that I tried to kill myself and stabbed him. They wrapped his and my wounds...
285 I lost my virginity to a married...
I lost my virginity to a married man at the age of 22. I didn't know he was married. After I found out, I tried getting away from the relationship but I wasn't strong enough. The relationship continued and still continues for almost 3 years. I love him. He tells me he loves me and I believe him...just...
286 When I was 7 yrs old my older brother...
When I was 7 yrs old my older brother molested me. My family didn't believe me.When I was 12 yrs old an uncle and a neighbor both molested me. I couldn't tell anyone. This went on for two years. I didn't think anyone would believe me. I still cry when I think about those men and and what they did to...
287 i didnt eat for about 7th months....
i didnt eat for about 7th months. i lost a lot of weight and i went from a size 8 pants to a size 0. i was sexually harrassed in the past and had to go though the police. it was hard and my eating disorder has gotten better but it still haunts me whenever i think of that horrible day. i have hard lots...
288 Before I never found I actually...
Before I never found I actually "had a problem" with eating. I did the ocassional one day fast every week, then that led to every other day, and now I fast every week except on saturday. If I'm lucky I get sunday too, but after that I feel like I'm the most disgusting thing on this earth.I even exercise...
289 a few months ago I had a miscarriage...
a few months ago I had a miscarriage and it bothers me. its not uncommon in my family history to happen...but ever sinces my husband now (the child i losts farther) seems like he is stepping farther away from me.. we have myspaces and so when i get on i talk to my friends and he has his to talk to his...
290 I have a gambling problem, and...
I have a gambling problem, and everything is falling apart because of it. I steal to cover what I gamble away, so I can still pay my bills. I almost lost my house, and my car, just barely managed to save them. No one that knows me, knows how bad a problem it is for me. I cant tell anyone. I need a way...
291 My boyfriend of 10 years and I...
My boyfriend of 10 years and I have recently broken up.. There is so much history between us good but mostly bad, he cheated on me 4 years ago, he is verbally abusive and sometimes physically. I still love that man, how can I not after 10 years. i have recently started to see someone else, and he is...
292 I am in my 30's and I recently...
I am in my 30's and I recently fell for a client of mine, he is a married man. He has just moved here, his wife and kid are not here yet they are only moving here next year. It started off strictly professional, I helped him out since he is new in town and we spend quite a fair bit of time together,...
293 When I was about 8 or 9 yrs old,...
When I was about 8 or 9 yrs old, I had a friend down the beach who had an baby sister about 6 mos old. Since my mother had been abusing me even then, since I was born a girl& not a boy, I desired love & attn from others, & had gotten it from these people but lost that attn when they had their...
294 I'm a very large woman. I underwent...
I'm a very large woman. I underwent gastric bypass and have lost a lot of weight, however I still feel FAT and UGLY. When I start to fill like this, I feel the urge to eat, which is what got me in this mess to begin with. I can not stand my body, which depresses me and makes me want to eat. I don't...
295 I love the Lord and have been saved...
I love the Lord and have been saved since early childhood. When I was 26, I dated my one and only boyfriend, who was gorgeous and in medical school.I willingly had a sexual relationship with him. However one day he savagely beat me, ferociously raped me for absolutely no reason at all. My head injuries...
296 I regret most of my choices i have...
I regret most of my choices i have made in my life, i lost everything that meant anything to me, but i feel that i was dragged through life, it's not my own anymore, everyday i walk in a daze trying to find what is real. I feel that nobody really cares about me and if they seemed concerned-it's just...
297 My "first" was when I was 18. He...
My "first" was when I was 18. He was my high school sweetheart. At the time I wasn't ready but I was afraid I would lose him if I didn't cave in. I was young and vulnerable. We were ALWAYS careful, but one day our protection wasn't so reliable. I ended up pregnant. We both wanted the baby very badly....
298 I had an affair with another woman....
I had an affair with another woman. I fell in love with her. But I could not leave my wife. Now the woman I had an affair with is pregnant. It is not sure that I am the father.I told it my wife. Now life is hell. I lost evereything.
299 i am 30 years old for the past...
i am 30 years old for the past 13 years i have been consuming drugs in various forms and dosages and i think i have become wierd in the head i am afraid i have lost all control on myself and i keep getting into arguments and fights with people around me for me its the entire world against me....
300 well you'v always heard it said"like...
well you'v always heard it said"like father like son" I was married 23yrs and my husband hated his father for treating his mom bad(verbal abuse,leaving for weeks at a time,lazy,mean, just hateful) and just guess who walked in his dad footsteps,yep you got it "my husband" I thought if I hung in there...
301 Last summer of 2005 I stole money...
Last summer of 2005 I stole money from my aunt who is now 86 in an assisted living home.A few years before i found out she was rich $400,000 rich. My mom became power of attourney years ago when we found out. My mom is a little old so I helped her pay my aunts bills, helped with everything. She trusted...
302 When I was 22 I got married. It...
When I was 22 I got married. It only lasted 6 months, as I walked in on him cheating on me. I lost everything, though, because he knew I was bisexual and threatened to tell my family if I didn't give everything up to him. My Granpa is a Pastor, and to this day, I know he is baffled and disappointed...
303 I got my husband on meth i lost...
I got my husband on meth i lost my kids. i was a prositute.I need god but dont think i am worthy.
304 I lost my 1st marriage to pornography,...
I lost my 1st marriage to pornography, and now I am in jeopardy of losing my 2nd. I am happy to say I faced this sin months ago and as of the past several months I have stayed away from it. I use to tell myself it was ok to look, because I really own looked at what I called 'soft porn' - just naked woman....
305 I had a terrible child hood, growing...
I had a terrible child hood, growing up with two alcoholic parent/step parent(s). I thank god for my grandmother who gave me my morals and taught me about god and such. However, during the course of my life, I have been lied too, had relatives steal from me, cheated on, broken promises, married to get...
306 okay, here I am at the last moment...
okay, here I am at the last moment as usual. I have confessed my sins to God a million times over, but have never confessed to God's people so that they may pray for me and I can acutally lift my burdens. I am scared to death right now but I know this is the step that God is putting on my heart to follow...
307 I'm living a double life I am a...
I'm living a double life I am a mother of three who contracted H.I.V from my husband and every day I want to kill him when we found out threw one of his girl friends and got tested he left the state. Now i'm in a relationship and scared to tell this person that i am hiv postive I've been in many relationships...
308 When I was 14, I started dating...
When I was 14, I started dating a girl, who was gorgeous and very smart (later became the school's valedictorian). In my teens with her, I felt invincable, yet I always wondered about being single again. After my first year of college, I broke up with her. At the time, I felt as if I had freedom. A year...
309 I recently lost my grandmother,...
I recently lost my grandmother, two cousins and an aunt and although I am not weighed down with regret after these losses, I do wish that I'd taken more advantage of the time we had together. I now make sure that i spend as much time with my family and I always tell them that I love them. In fact i think...
310 According to this person I used...
According to this person I used to date, I live in another state and I've recently married and I am the office manager of my company. Oh and I've lost a lot of weight. I told this person this because I didn't want to see him because I really didn't lose a lot of weight, but I didn't want him to know...
311 I look at the catagories at the...
I look at the catagories at the left and dont know where to start I have so many problems. Many would say its because of my home life. My dad left and was never there for me. My mom found him and dumped me on him but kept my little sister and older brother, I havent even heard from her in about two...
312 I am/was addicted to movies. Not...
I am/was addicted to movies. Not bad movies, just usually movies about relationships---chick flicks, mainly. Movies about men loving women. I want that in my life because I often don't think my husband loves me. I imagine myself in the story, being loved. I will watch some scenes over and over again....
313 I have completely lost myself....
I have completely lost myself. I have had more sexual partners in my 25 years than I could begin to count. I dont even remember some of their names, nor do I know if I ever even knew some of their last names. Sex with strangers, sex with friends, pretty much anyone who paid any attention to me or told...
314 I am writing because I havent really...
I am writing because I havent really been a good husband and father.I know i could be a better person.I worry too much about things.thinking of myself more than my family.I drive my wife crazy.Repeating things thatshouldone,and that is unessary.I spent more time locking myself and my thoughts to myself...
315 Back in the 70's I started doing...
Back in the 70's I started doing drugs,it carried on into the 80's.1988 I lost my boyfriend due to drugs and alcohol so I tried to change my ways and stop the drugs and also drinking. I married in 1989 and had my first child in 1991.I have had two more children and all three have autism. I cannot...
316 I can honestly say I have no idea...
I can honestly say I have no idea as to when I lost my virginity. Maybe when I was 2 or maybe I just never had it. All I know is that what I can remember is having sex with my cousins for years and it didn't stop until I was about 18. I am so ashamed of myself because I just couldn't stop. What makes...
317 I'm not really sure which category...
I'm not really sure which category this would fall under....but I figured that bottom line, stealing was the most likely candidate. I had a good career at an insurance company. I had worked there about 10 years when the trouble started. It got to the point where they were taking advantage of my...
318 I always am worried about what...
I always am worried about what i look like. I am constantly grabbing my waist to make sure it suits my liking. I get angry with myself when I eat food when i haven't exercised for at least 2 strenous hours or i haven't eaten very much. I have lost weight dramatically. from 150 to 135. Everyone compliments...
319 I am addicted to sex... I have...
I am addicted to sex... I have come to find lately that I can not get enough of it. I find myself spending hrs on the internet, chatting, and looking for porn. It seems that I have lost my life inside my computer and as it passes each day, it makes me sad but its like inside the porn and chat i lose...
320 It bothers me that I'm still bothered...
It bothers me that I'm still bothered by something that took place over a year ago now. A former friend's daughter was posting her information/pics (to include pics of herself in bra and panties) pics of someone else with her information on sex dating sites. She'd been arranging to meet with men offline...
321 They say you can't force anyone...
They say you can't force anyone to do something wrong. Well I'm here to tell you that it can and has been done.When someone loves you and you threaten them, not physically, but mentally it's still a threat. I've lived a secret life for most of my life. I just want to get it off my chest and feel whole...
322 im 15 and i lost my virginity to...
im 15 and i lost my virginity to a rich boy who goes to all the right schools last summer my dad approved of him and trusted me and him enough to come over essentially unsupervisedand even worse even though we were technically dating i knew he was dating at least 4 other girls because thats the kinda...
323 I have always cheated on most every...
I have always cheated on most every woman I have been involved with. I cheated on high school girlfriends, I cheated on my now ex-wife (multiple times) and currently I am cheating on my 5 year girlfriend (woman A) with two other women. One of the women (woman B) knows that I am seeing others, but the...
324 I've been living a double life...
I've been living a double life almost all of my life. My adult life has been the worst. I am married, going through a divorce, I live with my boyfriend of 2 yrs and I've been married to my husband for 4. I have been a devoted wife and mother, and in my other life, I have been a devoted girlfriend and...
325 I have needed someone like you...
I have needed someone like you for such a long time, I feel like if I put it on paper so to speak that the hurt and anger will go away. I continuely lie to my husband and family about how I am paying the bills. I pay them, but just not like I should. I get overdrawn at the bank and have to lie about...
326 18 years ago I lied to a boy that...
18 years ago I lied to a boy that i had sex with and told him that i was pregnant with his child but that I wanted an abortion and that i wanted him to help pay for half of the cost and that my aunt was going to take me to have the procedure. I was trying to get some cash from him and today i don't even...
327 For the longest time now I have...
For the longest time now I have been struggling with my marriage and my husband ever since our daughter passed away last year while she was 11 days old. I have doubted him in our relationship and his honesty to me he has seemed to disappear since we lost her and did a complete flip from who he was. Now...
328 I lie to my own mother like its...
I lie to my own mother like its my job. I've never been honest with myself...which i believe is the main problem. I had successfully completed using every drug ive ever heard of by the ripe old age of 17. I've lied to myself about my addictions to everything...im not addicted to one thing and one thing...
329 I am sleeping with a married man....
I am sleeping with a married man. He hasn't even been married a year yet. What started off as casual flirting has turned to something more. He tells me he loves me and I tell him the same. We work together and when we are around each other he shows me great affection, even when others are around. A lot...
330 hello, I dont really know how to...
hello, I dont really know how to do this as I have never been very religous.I think I have come to a point in my life where I have begun to realize that maybe god is what, or who I need. I am 36yrs old, have a "wonderful" wife I have been with for 7 yrs, no kids, a small business that is probably failing,...
331 When I was 16 I had dated this...
When I was 16 I had dated this man who was 24 at the time, I was flattered and ignorant. I am very much ashamed of this time of my life because this man took my virginity. A week or so after he came to me crying (literally tears in his eyes) that his fiance was coming home and he felt very bad about...
332 this is true, most of what i don't...
this is true, most of what i don't say is i don't trust anyone but i don't even trust you guys i just have lost the will to stop myself i needed to tell someone that i am a lier and that i want to lie, im not adept to the religion of christainity and exscuse me if i misused the word adept but i lie so...
333 My wife and I dint really love...
My wife and I dint really love each other anymore.I dont know that we actually were ever in love. We've been married for 17 years now.We got married because we had premaritial sex and it ended up in a pregnancy.My wife had the child and he's an amazing 18 year old boy now,I'm so glad to have him in my...
334 I am an alcoholic and drug addict....
I am an alcoholic and drug addict. I have done drugs for 23 years of my life. I started at 13 with pot and continued until I was 36. I have done drugs through Junior High, High school,college, sports, weddings, family events, on airplanes etc.. I got married, had kids and worked. ALL ON DRUGS AND ALCOHOL....
335 I was with this mean man who used...
I was with this mean man who used to beat me up every day. I ended up having 3 children with him.. Well, after we had been together for about 5 years. I found out he was smoking crack cocaine. I confronted him about it, knowing what my fate was for disobeying him. Instead of him beating me. He made me...
336 My mother passed almost two years...
My mother passed almost two years ago, now. All I think about is her at night when I lay down to sleep---I wonder if I did right by her, what I could have done differently. I eat for emotional release. I've gained about 50 pounds since before December. If anyone saw the inside of my house, they would...
337 I'm having a relationship with...
I'm having a relationship with a man who I deeply love, and he loves me back. However, his parents find the relationship disgraceful because in his religion it's a sin to date. We need his parents blessing to get married, or else it won't happen. Or might happen with hardships, and would be out of sin...
339 I have failed so miserably in marriage...
I have failed so miserably in marriage that it's not even an option for me any longer. I wonder what God thinks of me now. I've lost hope for anything good for me.
340 I used to be called fat and made...
I used to be called fat and made fun of in grade school. I couldn't do things like run the mile in gym because I was so unhealthy. Even my own parents, who are in great physical condition, tried to get me to loose weight. I cut myself, and I still have to see a therapist and I am on Anti-Depressants....
341 I sm in love with a woman but in...
I sm in love with a woman but in fact I am a woman too. I have a son who I love very much but I don't want to confuse him on the right thing. I am in love and not sure what to do, I also love my son's father very much but I can't decide what kind of love is that. So now I don't know what to do. Please...
342 I lost my virginity on my thirteenth...
I lost my virginity on my thirteenth birthday and I have regretted it for eleven years.
343 I HAD A 3YR AFFAIR WITH A SINGLE...
I HAD A 3YR AFFAIR WITH A SINGLE MAN ON MY JOB ANDI'M MARRIED. AS A RESULT OF THIS RELATIONSHIP I HAD A CHILD FROM HIM. MY LIFE AS I'VE KNOWN IT, HAS BEEN TURNED UPSIDE DOWN. MY HUSBAND LOVES OUR DAUGHTER WITH ALL OF HIS HEART, BUT HER BIOLOGICAL FATHER IS OBSOLETE FROM HER LIFE. BECAUSE OF THE OTHER...
344 I'm not sure what this belongs...
I'm not sure what this belongs in. It started out as a little white lie. Then over time it grew into a larger and larger story. I want to end the story so I can stop lying. I need to end it, because I'm starting to wonder if it's true. However some people have caught on, even if there not sure if they...
346 I'm in love with my exboyfriend....
I'm in love with my exboyfriend. He's a Marine stationed in Iraq right now. 2 Weeks ago, he almost died in a road side bombing attack. He's coming home, and I can't wait to see him. he just wants to be friends for now and says that he still loves me. I'm so confused. I lost my virginity to another of...
347 I am young and i have accepted...
I am young and i have accepted that I am gay. In the past I tried to hide it and i lied to people posing as a heterosexual. Even though i have accepted it, I still live a lie each day. I go to gay clubs and parties and I participate in homosexual acts. I have also lost my faith. I feel that God either...
348 My girlfriend and I were dating...
My girlfriend and I were dating for years. I lied to her constantly and had a couple intimate moments behind her back, nothing huge...a couple kisses and a couple girls actually sent me naked pictures on the internet. The whole time i was jealous and overprotective and never let her talk to other guys...
349 I guess I am not worried about...
I guess I am not worried about anyone I know reading this but ... well here goes.I live in Atlanta and I work as an escort. No one knows, not even my husband. I am ashamed because its strictly for the money. I lost my job making $67,000 a year and there was no way to pay the mortgage with the job I secured...
350 About 8 months ago i was messing...
About 8 months ago i was messing around on the computer and put a picture up of another girl and pretended it was me. I met this great guy.Hes my dream guy both physically nd mentally. He does not live near me and we spoke everyday. It seems weird but pretty soon we started developing strong feelings....
351 As I sit here and listen to my...
As I sit here and listen to my music, I can’t help but question why I’ve held this inside so long. It hurts so much, the lies, deceit all of it. It tears me apart inside, but still, I choose to smile, ignoring it the best I can, so as I won’t hurt the people around me or the people I care about....
352 I made a promise to God and my...
I made a promise to God and my parents that I wouldn't have sex till marriage. I then, had a boyfriend of 2 years and things went to fast and I lost my virginity. Now, all I want to do is have sex and i don't respect my body and who I am as a person. I am ashamed of myself. Even if God can forgive me,...
353 I have been lying since I've known...
I have been lying since I've known it. I have lied about many things and I feel that it's time for me to let these demons go. I have lied to people that I have been in relationships with. I can remember I told this guy that I had got raped by one of my ex-boyfriends. Then I can remember I told him that...
354 last year was my freshman year...
last year was my freshman year in high school. fealt like i needed to be cool and like be experienced with guys etc... so i met a guy who went to a public school near me, and some days we would both ditch school and come to my house to fool around while my parents were at school. i never went all the...
355 I LOST MY EX ABOUT A YEAR AGO AND...
I LOST MY EX ABOUT A YEAR AGO AND EVER SINCE THEN I OFTEN THINK OF KILLING MY SELF I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY I FEEL THIS WAY I USALLY AM VERY CONTENT WITH MY LIFE EVEN THOU IT IS A COMPLETE LIE I TELL EVERYONE THAT IT WAS MY WIFE THAT PASSED AWAY WHEN IN FACT IT WAS MY HUSBAND AS I AM NOT OUT TO ANYONE I...
356 When I was alittle girl, around...
When I was alittle girl, around 5, a 15 year old boy, began kissing and touching me. He molested me, in short. I don't remember much, because I was too little. But bits and pieces come to me now and then.Then when I was 10 years old, I was molested again, by my female babysitter, and then by her two,...
357 I have a long list of things from...
I have a long list of things from addiction to adultery, lying, hurting others, relationships,past humiliation, regret,shame, abuse,substance abuse, The first time that I remember I was 3 the first time I was raped it went on until I was 13 and when I turned 13 everyone in my life left my stepmom and...
358 SINCE I WAS SIXTEEN I HAVE BEEN...
SINCE I WAS SIXTEEN I HAVE BEEN SEXUALLY ACTIVE, I HAVE AN ADDICTION & IT IS SEX WITH AS MANY WOMEN AS I CAN. I AM MARRIED & I PROMISED MYSELF THAT I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE, I PROMISED MYSELF I WOULD NOT CHEAT ON MY WIFE.I HAVE LET MYSELF DOWN, & NO WAY CAN I EVER TELL HER. I DO LOVE HER &...
359 I fell in love with a married man....
I fell in love with a married man. He cheated on his wife with me more than 7 years ago. He tried to break it off, and I obsessed over him. I contacted him last year and he is doing well, but I hated him for doing well. I wished for him to be as miserable as I was so he knew what it was like to really...
360 I am an addicted gambler and drinker....
I am an addicted gambler and drinker. I've tried many times to stop, but my addictions seem much larger than I am.I have lost a lot of money that I could really use and have wasted a good three years of my life.I do not want to do this anymore. I figure I have to stop drinking and gambling or I might...
361 a few years back, i was a young...
a few years back, i was a young and immature boy and had sex with my girlfriend. she ended up getting pregnant and i didn't know what to do. i was so scared.i knew there was no way i could raise a baby and she had told me she wouldn't get an abortion. one day i just snapped and couldnt fathom raising...
362 I have spent many years seeking...
I have spent many years seeking God and the truth. The more I search, the more elusive He becomes. I once prayed that he find me a girlfriend, as I did not trust my own judgement in women. I then met a girl from a religous family. They tried to help me find God. They were wonderful, uplifting and an...
363 I could post something in all of...
I could post something in all of these categories i think. The most troubling part of my life though, is my husband. i don't love him anymore, i LOATHE him. Hes not a good dad or a caring husband. My daughter is disabled and it makes my life border line intollerable. HE would rather be anywhere but here,...
364 I really could have picked more...
I really could have picked more than one category to describe what I'm experiencing. I am totally upset--mostly with myself--and of course, the "other" person with whom I've been involved. My story is a long one; I've wanted to have someone with whom to share this awful secret--I feel like such a hypocrite,...
365 This is in two parts and probably...
This is in two parts and probably belongs in two categories but here it is:Back in the summer of 2001, the pizza delivery place that I worked at and still currently work at, I stole I would guess about $5,000 in about 3 months. My Father had passed away on Fathers day that year and my mom was having...
366 My ex-husband ended our 12 year...
My ex-husband ended our 12 year marriage in order to become a Catholic priest. We have been divorced for 6 years. Once our children turn 18 years old in 4 more years, my ex-husband can apply to seminary and then take holy orders. He is currently enrolled at a university studying for his master's degree...
367 A little bit ago I took ecstasy,...
A little bit ago I took ecstasy, and lost my virginity to somebody I had no feelings, or even an attraction to. I think I might be pregnant. The next night I snorted coke off a toilet seat. I disappointed myself and everybody. I regret those 2 days, and they'll play over in my head until the day I die....
368 I am disgusted every time i look...
I am disgusted every time i look in the mirror, but the only time i don't feel depressed is after a binge, and i don't know how to change, i've lost 55 pounds in a healthy way, but still, i can't stop binging even though the thought of gaining weight makes me sick. i know i have a problem, but nothing...
369 i have screwed around and lost...
i have screwed around and lost two great jobs over the last 25 yrs. i lost them due to health reasons that i could have possibly worked on several of those days, but did not feel up to it. i need people to pray for me as i do and to ask god to give me strength.
370 For the past few years i've felt...
For the past few years i've felt i've lost all faith. Nothing could seem to go right. My family split up no one would ever keep in contact. I dropped out of high school to get a full time job so i could make money to support myself having no one to turn to. Later I fell into drugs badly, still giving...
371 I lost my virginity when i was...
I lost my virginity when i was 17 to a married man in his own house, in his own bed. I saw pictures of his family all over and it tormented me, but he kept pushing it on me. Being a virgin i didn't know what I was missing so i didn't need sex. But it still happened. my best friend was in the room next...
372 August 17, 1968..That date will...
August 17, 1968..That date will haunt me for the rest of my life.Flying over a fire base in Vietnam, we were transporting 3 pow's. My LT told me to push them out of the door of the helicopter. I was 19 years old. A door Gunner with the Ist CAV.I looked at him with disbelief. I can't do that I told him....
373 Im a married woman but I cheat...
Im a married woman but I cheat on my husband all the time and not only with one man. For the last 2 years we have been married and the last 4 years I have been with him I have cheated on him with at least 15 men. Some of them I barely knew some old boyfriends and the rest are close friends of mine or...
374 i lost my virginity at the age...
i lost my virginity at the age of eleven
375 I am so unhappy. And scared. I...
I am so unhappy. And scared. I don't know how I can keep going, but I know I have to for my son. I can't stop drinking. If there is a pill to make this stop, I will take it. I just have to escape from my pain. I don't know why I hurt so much, I just know it never stops. I feel unloved, alone, and unworthy....
376 My story starts from my childhood...
My story starts from my childhood and it escalated to adulthood. I love my mother,but, she never seemed to have loved me back in the way I needed, even from birth. You see my mother had me when she was 14 years old in 1973. My father was a man that was 19 and from Florida, that only came to Delaware...
377 I am so ashamed of myself. I had...
I am so ashamed of myself. I had sex with a man i barley knew. And I feel so horrible even though its been a year but i lost my virginity to someone i dont even know. i had planned to wait until marriage but i was so gullable and trusting of him and he caught me at a weak moment and he went in for the...
378 I grew up believing that I wasn't...
I grew up believing that I wasn't worth anything. My mother, God Rest her soul, emotionally neglicated me. I tried everything in my power to get her to love me. I never felt worthy of love or that I could be loved. I grew up and went to college never receiving the attention I craved, needed, wanted....
379 I've lied to my parents many times...
I've lied to my parents many times about how I lost my virginity... I regret it. What I regret most is when I did it... with someone I didnt even love. It messed me up pretty bad. Now I feel like I have to have sex just to feel close to someone. I go on every day living a normal life... but people never...
380 I was the treasurer of my church....
I was the treasurer of my church. I got into some financial trouble and started writing checks to myself. This lasted over 5 years. The church finally caught me doing this in February of this year after the audit. The police were called in and I was arrested. I was released on $25,000 bond. The total...
381 When I was 13 years old, I was...
When I was 13 years old, I was sexually experimenting with a boy while I was menstrating. This person then proceeded to tell everyone in our small hometown, and made my life a living hell until I went away to college. I am now in my thirties and wish I could find it in my heart to forgive this person...
382 i don't love him. i tried to break...
i don't love him. i tried to break up w/ him. he told me he couldn't live without me. now i'm marrying someone i know wont make me happy. he's emotionally abusive, this i know. i feel trapped. i'm only 23...and i think i'm to ruin my life. ever feel totally lost in life?
383 I lost my virginity to an 18 year...
I lost my virginity to an 18 year old drug addict. At the time I had no idea he was on drugs and thought he was sober. I love him and always will, but I can't talk about him without crying. I am only 15 so we keep it secret, but the other day his ex-girlfriend messaged me on myspace asking if we were...
384 I've been addicted to cocaine for...
I've been addicted to cocaine for 20years now.I shoot it up because I can no longer snort it. I have been clean for 5 days now, and neeed lots of prayer not to do it anymore.I have had periods of clean time all thoughI still have not been relieved of the desire to get high.Ive lost many jobs.-good 100,000+yr...
385 shame...shame seems to be the constant...
shame...shame seems to be the constant in my life, shame controls what i do the lies i tell and how i think and feel about myself on the inside. i'm ashamed that i made bad decesions in college and that now i'm in debt. DEBT....debt rules my life, you can't get an apartment, a car, respect when your...
386 sometimes i lie because i feel...
sometimes i lie because i feel like it will help others for instance...when i was 20 i moved out of my parents house and got a room-mate in another state where i attended college... i knew going into it that my room-mate wasnt the best to have but she was going through somethings and i thought that if...
387 Dear Lord please hear my prayers....
Dear Lord please hear my prayers. I haven't been much into God since I got divorced. My x husband got custody of my kids because I was scared to stand up to him. I have never been in trouble my whole life not even a speeding ticket. I have been in and out of my kids lives and I miss them everyday there...
388 I regret lying to the man I have...
I regret lying to the man I have been in love with for two years to make myself look better, to not hurt him, and to keep my life secret since he lives in another state. I may have lost him and it kills me everyday...
389 In 1994 I was in a realtionship...
In 1994 I was in a realtionship with a woman whom I loved very much. She had a daughter and another on the way when we met. After she had the Baby, I fell in love with her. [edited because it included a baby's first name] I cared for her most of the time. I had never been around children, and I...
390 I've lost faith in all monotheistic...
I've lost faith in all monotheistic religions since I was a little girl. I was a straight A student, teacher's pet, I had everything... right up until 5th grade. When I was 9, I was molested by my male math teacher (the first male teacher I had ever had). I never told anyone until I was committed to...
391 I've been struggling with porn...
I've been struggling with porn and masturbation since I was in the 5th grade. I found a porn video of my dad's and didn't recognize the cover since it was blacked out, I was home alone so I put it on to see what the tape was- from then on I was hooked. I'm 27 now, married, have three kids, and I'm a...
392 I have been coming to Reno for...
I have been coming to Reno for work, and I didn't mean to start gambling. I just did. The slot machines. Did really good at first, and then it slowly got worse, and worse. Last night I lost $400. That's my daughter dentist bill, my families food money. We are living pay check to paycheck as it is. It...
393 I am 28 years old and i am continuously...
I am 28 years old and i am continuously filled with regret. I don't know why for the life of me that i continue to make mistakes over and over again. Or should i say bad choices that impact my future for the worse. I don't know where to begin other than to confess that i truly do not know who i am in...
394 I lied to my family and friends...
I lied to my family and friends twice, about why I lost my job. I told everyone I lost my job because of something I said and they were making changing within the company, going in a new direction. The truth is I lost my job because my boss said, my work was not up his expectations. Also, another lie...
395 I do not want to live and have...
I do not want to live and have thought about suicide many times. I have come close. I don't do it because I have two children who are grown and family who love me and it would hurt them badly, but I hate life and I don't want to live at all. I lost my beautiful fiance recently when she broke off our...
396 I do not want to live and have...
I do not want to live and have thought about suicide many times. I have come close. I don't do it because I have two children who are grown and family who love me and it would hurt them badly, but I hate life and I don't want to live at all. I lost my beautiful fiance recently when she broke off our...
397 I am a compulsive liar. I lie to...
I am a compulsive liar. I lie to my kids, my husband, my ex husband. About stupid things. I absolutely hate my ex huband and wish him dead. I have hoped that he would crash his car, or even someone kill him while he was at work. He is a police officer. My current husband, I do not like. I cannot even...
398 I don't have an eating disorder,...
I don't have an eating disorder, other than I eat too much. But, I constantly think about making myself get rid of food, starving myself, or causing my body to get rid of my food sooner than it's supposed to. My husband doesn't understand how difficult this is to constantly think about it. I'm not fat,...
399 When my ex and I separated because...
When my ex and I separated because he was having an affair with a younger woman, I tried to stop the pain by sleeping with so many men that I lost count. I stopped doing that a long time ago, even before we got divorced. But I still regret what I did. I don't remember the names or faces of some of the...
400 I don't understand how Christian...
I don't understand how Christian leaders could pat me on the back when I chose to be a stay-at-home mom, wife, and homemaker and now, after my husband cheated on me and then divorced me to marry the other woman so that I lost that "job" they don't have much to say. I willingly gave up my career to help...
401 i am an alcoholic. the other night...
i am an alcoholic. the other night i made several sexual solicitations over the phone while drunk and appearently blacked out. I have lost control of my life and everything that I care about. My future is uncertain and I have no idea what to do to change my life. I pray often but find it suddenly...
402 Most of my childhood I was a devote...
Most of my childhood I was a devote catholic, I truly believed in God and Jesus Christ. Suddenly I lost my faith, I could not conceive a God that was suppose to be good but at the same time was willing to allow some many bad things in the world. I was told that I can not try to understand his reasons...
403 Right after I turned fifteen I...
Right after I turned fifteen I met a boy, I thought he would be there for me and would always care, One night when I was drinking and doing drugs, I did something that I would take back in a heartbeat! I lost my virginity to that boy.. he humiliated me through the whole school, telling everyone, calling...
404 Just to let you know that I am...
Just to let you know that I am a devoted follower of Jesus Christ and I know that he has forgiven me all my sins. I know that in my head and in my heart....I just can't forgive myself.I was very young when I became pregnant. No, I did not have an abortion but I feel that what I did was just as bad. I...
405 There are so many things that I...
There are so many things that I feel ashamed of I am not sure where to begin. I started having sex when I was 17 with a boy I hardly knew and I am not even sure why. From that point I had sex with virtually every one I was ever "with". I can hardly even remember their names or their faces, it has to...
406 I am ashamed that I had an abortion....
I am ashamed that I had an abortion. For the past five years I think about it almost daily.I have had a hard time with forgiving myself. I had just lost my baby and almost died giving birth to her 2 months prior. I was devasated. While my health had a lot to do with my fnal decision, I feel like I should...
407 I grew up in a wonderful Christian...
I grew up in a wonderful Christian household. However, when I was 15 I began to party heavily. One night when I was drunk, I lost my virginity to a guy I knew. I didn't even know it happened nor do I remember it. After that I fell into a horrible depression. I hated myself so I started to cut myself....
408 when i was a child, i was molested...
when i was a child, i was molested by my grandfather on several occasions. i spoke out a couple months later, and it ultimately led to my parent's divorce last year. i cannot forgive myself for speaking out about it, because i know that my parents would still be together today. i have lost trust in everybody,...
409 It all started when I was younger,...
It all started when I was younger, probably about 8 or 9 years old and my older male cousin whom I trusted began touching me. He would take me into the other room in my basement (when our other cousins were in the adjoining room!) and he would make me lay down on the ground and he would touch me. It...
410 I had an affair with a married...
I had an affair with a married man who also happened to be my boss. He had been seperated from his wife for a couple of years but had not gone through with the divorce because of his kids. I tried to stop the affair numerous times but I had fallen in love with him and it was extremely hard. I knew that...
411 While I was trying to pick the...
While I was trying to pick the appropriate category above, I could have picked so many and all related to one thing. My addiction to sex. I have never heard of such a thing...I mean, I've heard people talk about liking sex and wanting to participate in the act time and time again or someone stating the...
412 Before I confess I want to say...
Before I confess I want to say that my prayer is that this will help so many other guys like me to take that next step and coming clean.I was hooked on porn by the 6th grade, once i saw the images i took it the next step and mastrubated. Soon after I was caught by my parents, but that did not stop my...
413 As a young adult, I had 3 kids,...
As a young adult, I had 3 kids, and the husband left me, and I lost my kids..In the process of trying to get them back,my dad died, and left my ONLY brother a ton of money..over 60g in 1972...He would not help me get my kids back, and he totally abandoned me, and we didnt speak for over 15 years..we...
414 For years and years I have struggled...
For years and years I have struggled with lust. I think that it kicked off in my formative years as a child- somehow, beyond my comprehension, I would do sexually related things that a child should no nothing of. I was not molested as a child or anything of the like. It was "just there". So in the last...
415 The Devil has a hold on me. I've...
The Devil has a hold on me. I've been praying for God to release me from the bondage that has overcome me. I have been cheating on my husband for over 2 months now and I can't seem to stop. I feel like there is no hope. I can't tell him, I can't tell anyone. I'm so lost I almost lose my breath thinking...
416 After hearing Craig's message this...
After hearing Craig's message this weekend I just lost it. I can vividly remember the day that I was "injured". I was in the 6th grade and over at a friends house, we were watching that movie Pleasantville, the one where the people turn into color once they have found their liberation. Well, the scene...
417 I have lost my marriage. I became...
I have lost my marriage. I became distant from my wife and she finally couldn't handle it anymore and decided that it's best for us to divorce.I could never tell her the reasons why I became that way for fear of hurting her and for fear of what she would think of me. But I have come to understand that...
418 I broke up with my girlfriend of...
I broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years which has left me devasted and empty. I loved this girl with everything I had. Unfortunately, I made some crucial mistakes by not acting as God would have me to be. I have lost sleep and prayed endless to end this pain. I fear I pushed her away from Christianity...
419 When I was younger I sustained...
When I was younger I sustained two devastating sexual injuries. The first was in the form of a homosexual relationship with a friend. I have since lost touch with that person. The second injury came in the form of sexual experimentation with my sister. Since that time both my sister and I have become...
420 I had sex with my girlfriend for...
I had sex with my girlfriend for about 2 years. We made life long commitments to justify the act. She is no longer fulfilling those promises. We both confessed our sins to our families. I believe I've lost someone that God brought into my life for me to marry, yet I feel such a peace knowing that I'm...
421 I know this is wrong and I don't...
I know this is wrong and I don't know what to do... I love the female body and I am a female.... It started with liking to draw them... Then it led to looking at them in porn... I have not evver liked a girl I know but I do like to look at them...I hate it... I am not GAY... I can't be... I am lost though....
422 Before college I had never experienced...
Before college I had never experienced alcohol, drugs, or sex. I first began drinking when my roomate introduced me to it. From there the drinking escalated all throughout college and led to drug use. I became a completely different person and even lost my virginity. I experimented with homosexuality...
423 I am ANGRY !!!!!! I have no reason...
I am ANGRY !!!!!! I have no reason to be. I hurt others around me with my anger. I have hurt one of my best friends...the one that God used to get me to come to Him. I get angry at the smallest things and blow them up HUGE ! Maybe I do it for the attention. If I do then I am really sick. I left my job...
424 Hurt, this is to famliar in my...
Hurt, this is to famliar in my life, I'm only 22 and people three times my age haven't went thru what I have. To begin my parents passed when I was young, my dad the first to pass. My mom was sent to a hospital in the next town and my sister and I were left to take care of our self I was 9. I find as...
425 I have been cheating on my wife...
I have been cheating on my wife (I am so sorry) with a co-worker for a few months. Last Sunday after the messege I confessed to her and saw how much I was hurting her. We are making it through this with God's help and I want to praise God for keeping my marriage together after I have done the most shamefull...
426 I cant stop ... I look and I Look...
I cant stop ... I look and I Look and it eats away at me. I can be having a good day... Good thoughts and then i see someone. Someone I cant seem to stop looking at. She may be wearing items to tight.. too small... that reveal too much. My mind then dives into lusting fantasy. I think wrong thoughts...
427 I am still hurt and angry over...
I am still hurt and angry over my son's biological father. When we met, he was a recovering alcoholic, but shortly after moving in together he was drinking all the time, verbally abusing me, breaking things in our apartment. I wasn't using birth control when I got pregnant, although I was so ashamed...
428 Almost 2 years ago my ex husband...
Almost 2 years ago my ex husband and our best friends(another couple) Were youth leaders in our church.We were pilars in our church. My ex started to secretly use crank. Soon after that I walked in and caught him having sex with my best friend(the other youth leader). The church didn't back me very much....
429 i didnt know where else to write...
i didnt know where else to write this..but it has to be said!i am having sex with my cousin's best friend!!we "messed around" when i was 16 and he was 20, in no other place, but in the parking lot after church. now 4 years later, we lost contact and regained it..i am a single mother, and he's just the...
430 My mom died unexpectedly almost...
My mom died unexpectedly almost 3 years ago (I am now 27) but my grief and anger is probably stronger now than it has ever been. The first couple of years I was able to mostly run from my grief and keep myself occupied, trying my best not to dwell on it. But I have learned you can never run forever,...
431 I am not a religious person. I...
I am not a religious person. I believe in God, but my faith in the church has been crushed by years of repeated hypocricy, lies, betrayal, abuse, cover-ups, scams, and deceit.I have spent over an hour looking at this site. I saw the sign for it driving home earlier this week, and then on my way to work...
432 My life is a mess. Not on the outside,...
My life is a mess. Not on the outside, although there are signs, but on the inside. Beginning with a controlling and violent upbringing led to promiscuity, drugs and deceit in high-school, then an early marriage to the "wrong guy". My husband cheated on me while all of my friends knew and then he left...
433 I grew up in a home where we were...
I grew up in a home where we were taught about Jesus and taken to church every Sunday. I became a believer as a small child. I was the youngest of 5 children. Our home was basically good, but my parents were busy and absent. My siblings were very abusive and I grew up with a lot of defensiveness and...
434 I first found porn (a stack of...
I first found porn (a stack of playboys) while taking a short cut through a neighbor's yard in 3rd grade. Although I was a virgin untilmy senior year, the images had planted a lust for girls bodies without even knowing what sex was. I was raised in a very Christian homeand sex wasn't discussed. When...
435 i am a 24 year old alcoholic. i...
i am a 24 year old alcoholic. i smoked weed daily for five years. i smoked my last joint april 18, 2006. i have not craved it since. i wake up in the morning and drink a couple beers. i just cannot quit drinking. i lost the only job i have ever had because i got drunk at work. i was there nine years....
436 when i was 16 i beat a man to death...
when i was 16 i beat a man to death in a bar. I was forced to join the military to avoid prison by the judge and my family . From there it got worse. I love the Corp and dont regret joining but they didnt help me with my violent nature they just made me more of a killer. Ive taken human lives...
437 I find relief from my train-wrecked...
I find relief from my train-wrecked life when I watch tv and especially movies with sex scenes... So God recently blessed me with an accountability partner and I gave him my tv. But what did I do a few days later when I had a bad day and I was tempted? Bought another one! I avoided talking to him for...
438 I've cheated on my husband. Three...
I've cheated on my husband. Three times with two different people. I'm going to be seeing one of them again in two months and plan on doing it again. My husband and I have not had sex in over two months. He will not touch me.I work out, and have lost 15 lbs unnecessarily, just to look better for him....
439 It's no secret to anyone who sees...
It's no secret to anyone who sees me. I am a glutton. I have been overweight for my entire life. God has dealt with me about my problem many times in the past, but I can't seem to stop. I not only eat too much, but I also eat badly. I am concerned about not being around for my children and husband in...
440 I began cutting myself at the age...
I began cutting myself at the age of 12. My boyfriend at the time, whom I lost my virginity to at 13, upset me so badly that I carved his initials into my arm with scissors. That was the beginning of a very powerful addiction, you could say. Pretty soon, I was using self-mutilation as a way to handle...
441 My secret...My sexuality was awakened...
My secret...My sexuality was awakened very early by some petting that occurred and that led to masturbation. The minute it all started its incredible that I knew it was wrong. I would watch porn until not too long ago and I had a lesbian experience with a family member when I was very young. I then was...
442 I'm not sure what category these...
I'm not sure what category these secrets should go in because there is a range of things I want to confess. First of all, I want to say that I was raised in a Christian home with wonderful Christian parents and was in church every Sunday and at all the activities that were provided to the youth at church....
443 I made the second biggest mistake...
I made the second biggest mistake of my life. I seemingly have lost the love of my life, my strawberry soda, my second. I want nothing more than to bring ultimate glory to God together and serve her like the queen she is... My secret is this: I now realize how much I need God to be "The One," so I can...
444 When I was young, I gained an immense...
When I was young, I gained an immense amount of weight - around the age of 13 or 14. The summer before my freshman year in school, I stopped eating and lost a lot of weight. Everybody noticed...and commented on how great I looked. This greatly helped my self esteem. Now at 37, and still struggle with...
445 Over the last year, I've realized...
Over the last year, I've realized that my "gambling for fun" has turned into something that costs me about $500 per month or so. My parents get bored and go to the Casino. They've passed on their pastime to their daughters. They don't spend hardly ANY money, but as I've learned the only way to win more...
446 I've been living a double life...
I've been living a double life for quite a long time.I'm married to a woman that I fell in love with during high school. But as I got older and matured, I found a lady at work that caught my attention. We began sleeping together and haven't ended it after almost 8 years.I have 3 children with my wife...
447 Almost every christian cd I listen...
Almost every christian cd I listen to, and almost every sermon or message I hear pretaining to sex always touches on the topic of how men are more sexual and women are more emotional. If jokes are made it's about the woman not wanting sex, not the man. I have to tell you that if you did some research...
448 I STARTED HAVING EATING PROBLEMS...
I STARTED HAVING EATING PROBLEMS ONCE MY FIRST LOVE BROKE UP WITH ME.I WAS 14. MY MOM NOTICED EVENTUALLY AND SAID I HAD TO START EATING.I DID BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE I'M FAT AGAIN. I'M STARTING TO BECOME OBSESSED WITH MY WEIGHT AGAIN. A FEW WEEKS AGO I FREAKED OUT BECAUSE I WEIGHED 134. I HARDLY ATE ANYTHING...
449 wow where should I begin, as a...
wow where should I begin, as a young man i, like so many others, found daddy's box-o-porn. Little did I know how its hold on me would be so tight. I lost my virginity at a young age and became so interested in sex that i became a student of it you might say. I found early on that I was very good at it...
450 I am a Christian and have been...
I am a Christian and have been so since I was a little girl, but I live with shame of my secret. I lost my virginity in my late teens and followed a lifestyle of active sexuality for years. I knew all along it wasn't right, but was somehow always able to just ignore those feelings of regret, as if it...
451 When I joined a company where I...
When I joined a company where I work, I was expecting to promote to a VP position within 3 years. However, 2 years into it, I lost my confidence and momentum. Now, even though I have stayed with my company for 4 years, I am still at the same position I was 6 months after I started. I sabotage my thinking,...
452 After my father died when I was...
After my father died when I was 11, my mother lost it. She was very abusive. My older brothers were either in college or could drive. My mother was very unhappy. I was trapped, alone (in my own home) and was verbally abused. Frankly she hated me.(I can't believe how painful this is to type) In the end...
453 I am mad at God for taking my first...
I am mad at God for taking my first born child from me. He was born at 26 weeks and lived for a month in the NICU. My husband and I prayed for him everyday. He got an infection in the hospital and his little 2lb 6oz body could not fight it. He took his last breath in my arms. I buried my first child,...
454 I have such guilt that I have be...
I have such guilt that I have be unable to completely let go of from a past affair with a married man. It was so out of my character to have even given into such a thing. I was unmarried at the time and lonely. He said and did all the things I wanted to hear and do and I'm afraid I gave into my feelings...
455 I had a boss that was more like...
I had a boss that was more like a mother to me than a boss. She actually provided teachings to me about God and Jesus Christ and got me more interested in going to church. I found out today that she was terminated for stealing money from people we care for. I had suspected this behavior for some time...
456 For the past 6 1/2 months I have...
For the past 6 1/2 months I have been sleeping with a married man. We had a great connection and an amazing time together. I fell in love with him. He was seperated from his wife, but not legally seperated. She recently found out about me and tried to contact me, I lied to her and told her that we were...
457 I had an STD from the father...
I had an STD from the father of my 1st child who I lost my virginity to at 15. I have had numerous sexual partners since then and have not told any of my past partners about this STD that could have been contagious.
458 I have admitted my eating disorder,...
I have admitted my eating disorder, but I have not admitted I am still out of control. I weighted over 400lbs with our second child, and I had gastric-bypass surgery shortly after she was born. I have lost weight, but I still struggle daily with my obsession with food. I am always hungry and wanting...
459 For the past few years I have been...
For the past few years I have been sinking into a huge hole created from my gambling. I can not get away from the urge. It has cost me 100,000 easily. I will go through spurts where I won't gamble for one or two months but then it comes back and next thing I know I have lost 5 or 10 thousand. My credit...
460 I lost my virginity at 17 to a...
I lost my virginity at 17 to a married man. I knew he was married... I convinced myself he wasn't. I never thought I would be that girl but I was.
461 Years ago I lost my soul mate in...
Years ago I lost my soul mate in an accident. After a few years I remarried so that my children would know a father's love. I had no faith left in God to trust in my own abilities nor His divine support to raise healthy, happy children alone. My not so new anymore marriage has had little joys. I left...
462 I am hurt by something my husband...
I am hurt by something my husband did to me a few months ago. I have lost my trust in him. I don't want it to be this way, but I just can't seem to get over what he did to me. I really want things to be like they were before all of this. I want to be able to trust him. I feel like if I don't get over...
463 Revised:I was continually remined...
Revised:I was continually remined of what a disappointment and bad person I was from a very young age. It wasn't a big leap to start stealing for things I thought I wanted or needed. During adolescents, I would steal from school lockers and from faculty. This behavior subsided. Later I took a job with...
464 I'm perpetually lost. I grew up...
I'm perpetually lost. I grew up in all this church stuff and have heard every subject preached on. I don't really believe most of it. I'm hopelessly in despair and nobody knows. I seem like a normal person on the outside, but I'm completely different on the inside. I'm great at going through the motions....
465 Everyone thinks I'm perfect. Perfect...
Everyone thinks I'm perfect. Perfect daughter, perfect employee, perfect Christian, perfect person.In reality, I'm the most jealous person I know. And the person I'm most jealous of is my mother. I worked my butt off for a college degree, going $20,000 in debt and sacrificing any chance of having friends...
466 Addiction has been a problem for...
Addiction has been a problem for me for a long time. It has sucked the life out of me.It has robbed me of my family.I lost my husbend to prison 2 times now. My 3 childrn have been taken from me 3 times. Im almost 2 years sober from meth.I recently got sick and was on pain medicine and muscle relaxers...
467 MY HUSBAND RECENTLY CONFESSED TO...
MY HUSBAND RECENTLY CONFESSED TO ME AN ADDICTION TO ALCOHOL AND COCAINE. THE NEXT DAY AS HE ENTERED REHAB, I FOUND OUT THAT HE HAD CLEANED OUT ALL OF OUR ACCOUNTS AND PAWNED MANY OF OUR THINGS. I WAS LEFT TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO SALVAGE OUR LIFE AND FINANCES AS WELL AS TO TAKE CARE OF OUR 2 YOUNG CHILDREN....
468 Actually, I am humiliated right...
Actually, I am humiliated right now. I have just spent 9 months looking for a job. I just sent out my 900th resume. My wife used to stay home...now she works and we farm out our kids to others. I used to do something that mattered...and now I have a job I am lost in...and it's a temp job. But every day,...
469 I had a family member make me a...
I had a family member make me a promise. A few years later they changed thier mind and it cost me an extra 100.00 a month on my house payment...then they changed thier mind again and I lost over 30,000 dollars when it was all said and done. They lied. And i've tried to forgive, but today they...
470 I don't feel like I love those...
I don't feel like I love those outside of God's family enough. I am ashamed of that. I pray that God gives me a renewed heart for the lost.
