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1 I want someone else
I can't stand my husband. I have been pushed away by World of Warcraft.. it has become his obsession. My son and I are ignored constantly... he won't even eat at the dinner table with us anymore. I long for attention and love, and it is something I haven't had in about 3 years. I know an affair is...
2 I hate being married and I wish I had run the opposite direction
I hate being married. I like my husband (for the most part) as a person, but I regret marrying him. I have never been so depressed in my life. Before we were married I was going to college, I had a great job, I paid off my car, and then I got married and for 3 1/2 years I haven't accomplished one...
3 Porn
I have been addicted to porn for some time now. I am a 21 year old married man. Although this problem started back when i was in middle school, it has now continued into my marriage. I started by finding a stack on porn in my dads room and started masturbation since. It went form there and into looking...
4 Unescapable
I am almost 27 and have been addicted to pornography since I was 15. The most I have ever gone without looking at it has been about 6 months and that was years ago. I was a pastor for 5 years and even then I was using my work computer to look it up and could not seem to stop. I know that someday it is...
5 I Think I Need Help
I am such a terrible person. I have cheated several times in my marriage, I ache for sex with strangers, I fantacise about having several partners at one time fighting over who getts to have sex with me, I am sick and I feel hopeless. I love sex of any kind! I was molested as a child and raped by...
6 Hopeless
I have battled a food addiction all of my life. It rules over me. My every waking thought is about food and what I will consume next. It has effected ever aspect of my life and has brought me to where I am now. Isolated, lonely, anxious and severly depressed. The depression is resulting in the loss...
7 Pastor Porn Addict
I have dealt with a failing struggle with porn since I was 13 yrs old. I am a Sr. Pastor now and go through very long periods of victory followed by severe binges followed by massive depression and self hate. I am scared. I preach the freedom that only Jesus can bring. I preach the power of the Holy...
8 Too fat to love
My wife has become so fat that I can't stand to look at her. We no longer have sex because the idea of being sexual or romantic with a woman as fat as she is makes me ill. I masturbate now because I know I can never leave her. A marriage vow is forever. Don't condemn me for masturbation. I have no other...
9 Fear of Love
When I was a young child my brothers sexually mollested me. When I told my mother she would spank me for telling on them. This went on for years. And now after therapy I am still afraid to Love a man and Marry. Im fear that he will hurt me and this time I wont have the strenght to Live through it.
10 Alone
God.. I'm tired of being alone...I'm 33, I want to be married, I don't want to be alone anymore. I'm tired of being fat, I wish I was anorexic/bulimic so that I'd be thinner and people would look at me....help me trust you, I want to be ok with Your will for my life....help me accept Your will for my...
11 Secret shame of gay porn
I am addicted to masturbation and pornography. Really the latter has become a way to feed the former. I am addicted to sex outside of marriage, rebellion against my God, and am unable (unwilling?) to turn away. About every other night for the last year I have looked at pornography and masturbated, hiding...
12 I commited adultery and accepted money for sex.
I have had numerous affairs - in my 10 years of marriage. Two seperate men, one ruined my friendship with him since I couldn't stand to face him again. The other, I can't even stand this guy and he goes as far as to pay me for sex. I can't remember when the line blurred. Try as I might to sever this...
13 Hypocrisy
Father God, you know how I have struggled with porn and immorality before marriage and now after marriage. I have not committed physical adultery, but have come too close. I have committed adultery in my heart and inner desires. I confess lust, immorality, lack of integrity, iniquity, procrastination,...
14 Only 23
I regret every second of the pointless money that went into that pointless wedding that lasted only a few pointless hours. The years that followed were nothing but abuse, regret, and affairs. I'm sick of it. And I'm only 23. I'm so incredibly ashamed that signing my name on that dottted line will haunt...
15 Does Porn Habit Die After Marriage?
Marriage is not your safe harbor against the desires to look at and masturbate to porn. Don't build up that false hope. The only hope you have is in trusting Jesus and keeping in His Word. Aka. dust off that Bible and read it daily. Don't do this as some religious obligation, but seek God in all things...
16 Married and Alone
I love my husband. But he is SO not for me. We have no sexual attraction. I miss good sex. I will leave him somday when the kids are older.
17 Gay married alcoholic
In addition to being married and having gay encounters, I've also been addicted to alcohol which has helped me mask the guilt. It's been my false crutch of confidence and daring for gay encounters. Alcohol has clouded my judgement and messed up my relationship with my wife and kids. I love them too much...
18 I am married and have always been in love with my best friend.
I have a wonderful best friend. I have known her for over 10 years, and been in love with her just as long. Timing has always just seemed wrong for us to be together, and we have both had a series of unhealthy relationships with other people. I have been married once before, it was a travesty. During...
19 Is my husband enough?
I have been happily married for more than 10 years, but have in the past had a physical relationship with my best friend (same-sex). We are both Christ-followers, but when we are together I sometimes struggle with the desire to have more physical encounters. I don't know how to deal with these desires,...
20 Romantic
I 21 and I am a hopeless romantic. I fall in love with every guy my age that I meet. No matter who they are, give me a day of constant exposure and I'll be completely in love with them. Trust me, its for real. I have so much love to give and I'm so ready for a boyfriend or marriage but no one likes me....
21 Unhappily married and talking to a long time friend I use to date
I have been in marriage for 13 years. Thoughtout the years I've suffered physical emotional abuse my husband walked out on us several times. He has been a heavy alchol user and marijuanna smoker over the past 13 years. He tried to turn his life around but fell off the wagon recently. im so tired of this...
22 porn adiction
I was an active christian musician in my church , until I starting to have problems in my marriage due to pornography , now is very hard for me to let it go, I don't feel god in my life anymore ,I don't have the desire to go back to church , i feel dirty, my life is mess ,I have lost everything my...
23 What else can I give up?
For my wife and children I gave up smoking, smoking weed, partying, all my friends, my career of choice, a great sex life, the city I loved, the hobbies I loved, EVERYTHING. And for God, and my family, I know it's right. I know it's worth it. But it's made me miserable. Now, instead of being a happy...
24 I want to walk away from all of this
Since I got married I have regretted it every single day. I gave up being an artist and now I'm a pastor. When I was an artist I was doing incredibly well and I was truly fulfilled. I told myself I wouldn't let marriage stop me from doing what I love. But it did. I find myself going to a job that I would...
25 Not good enough
all my life i have never felt that i was good enough. Between being denied by boys and being made fun of, I have never felt as though anyone really loved me. Now that I am getting married, i keep having feelings that i am not good enough for him, either. all i want is for the flashbacks of my past...
26 selfish
I wanted the wedding more than i wanted the marriage.
27 affair
I have been Married for almost 14 yrs, I thought of having an affair MANY times,I had a very slow sex life with my wife and kinda would "validate" my behavior. some days I would have had the affair if it would have just happened. I would masturbate often, online porn, checkin out every other girl id...
28 Prayer Needed
I am a married man who has always been struggeling with porn. I struggled before marriage and after. My wife knows that I struggle but she doesn't know that I am still trapped in the sin of porn. She is pregnant with our first child and I don't want to be the kind of father who has a porn addiction,...
29 To much sex.
I am not a big believer in god but I have found that confessing gets issues like this off my back. I am only 18, and I had an affair with a 40 year old man who was married. Even thought no one knows I feel like a jerk. I feel like that "bitch" who ruined a good household, and furthered an unstable marriage...
30 I can
I'm about to graduate from college and like I predicted I've never had a girlfriend before. I can't wait any longer. I need to love and feel loved. Besides with the way things are today if I ever do get married she most likely won't be a virgin. Why should I be the only one in that partnership who has...
31 Not Completely Happy
I got pregnant before I was married and my parents pressured me into getting married the week after the baby was born. I felt so ugly and fat at my wedding and I was miserable. I just did it because they told me it was the "right thing to do". Now, a year later, I wish that I could have stood up to my...
32 addicted to porn & impure thoughts
I look at porn on the internet, Ive been addicted since i was very young. I have impure thoughts of having sex with women. I am married & feel this is hampering my marriage, but most of all its killing my relationship with my Savior Jesus.
33 The pain I cause.
I have been addicted to pornography for years. I have been married for four years to a wonderful woman. We are now expecting our first child. During our first year, I was able to abstain from pornography, but as the years rolled on, I began looking at more and more porn and masturbating. Whenever,...
34 depress
im doubt if i still love my husband, and if he still do too. our marriage is in chaos. Now the way i see it were only together because of the kids. i want to be separated from him, but im afraid he might get the kids from me because i had psychosis before. i guess i still love him that i can still swallow...
35 Engagement
My boyfriend and I have been together for three years. When he comes back from Rome I want him to propose to me. I can't tell anyone because the more I say it, the more I want it, and the more I'll be crushed when he doesn't propose.
36 What is my problem
I am an unhappily married woman of 10 yrs who masturbates frequently, look at porn sometimes and mostly look at the women. I'm not attracted to them, I just want to see their bodies, weird, I know. My husb doesn't know any of this. I'm not attracted to him, and not in love with him either. Seems like...
37 Married for financial reasons not love. Big mistake
I married a man that I wasnt in love with for financial reasons. I am by no means financially better off but instead indebt $30K more due to either misunderstandings that he was going to help with his share or poor judgement. Each wrong investment I made to please him landed me further and further in...
38 The Sin I want to get rid of...masterbation/lust
It's been hard to admit this, but I have a problem with masterbation and lust. I so want to get over this, but it always seems to come back from time to time. Like others, I've asked God to forgive me and I'm sorry, but then I go right back n do it again. I'm so sorry, God! You've helped me b4 and when...
39 secretly craving for something to happen in my life.
I'm secretly cravng for something to happen in my life , I'm maried to a wonderfull guy because its easy , he has a nice and steady income we live in a great house , I have a'n important job ,..... I'ts all so boring , Behind his back I dream about a sexy encounter with a college or a perfect stranger...
40 porn
I got addicted to porn when young looking at magazines at my aunts place. Then I got a computer and internet and spent so much parents money on porn once. I stopped spending on it but got addicted to free porn for years. I thought marriage would solve it but it only decreased its occurence. I though...
41 Lesbian Lust
My husband found comfort in another woman by choosing her coversation rather than mine. I felt horrible and he had little remorse. So I decided to get him back... the only person who cared enough to listen was another woman. In text messages, one day we somehow got on the idea of "liking" each other....
42 My Confession
I survived a horrible domestic violence marriage. Now other sick memories have surfaced (some 40 years later). I was molested as a child. I'm not sure why these memories have surfaced now, but I am just sick about them. The first memory I have involves a sleepover at a friend's house - I was about...
43 A life ruined
I had an abortion before I was married. Never felt guilt or shame. Then I suffered from miscarriages. As a married woman, I got pregnant. My husband informed me he did not want this child. The end resulted in an abortion & now I am childless & resentful of my husband & living in regret, guilt & shame...
44 one month
My husband and I were only together for one month before we got married. He made me feel special and loved, something no man had ever been capable of doing. I love him with all of my heart, but I regret alot of haste decisions. I know in my heart that this marriage is wrong, but I couldn't ever leave...
45 Sinned, want forgiveness.
I recently got married to my love, my sweetheart. The woman that i love and that i am going to spend the rest of my life with. I am 20 years old, young for marriage, but my heart has been taken. I made a mistake, we had a very rough patch at the end of 2008 and i sinned. My Wife lost her father this...
46 Struggle with SSA and gay porn
Since I was young I struggled with same sex attraction. At some point as a little boy I stumbled upon nude photographs of men on the internet and that only solidified my attraction to men. Despite my SSA issue, I got married last year (2007). Being best friends with my wife for a few years prior...
47 my cheating heart
This past year has been a difficult one in my marriage. I have fallen away from my practice of my faith--I keep coming back, and then back sliding; I have a problem with porn--and I don't view it online--but I have my own pix; and have physically cheated on my spouse twice in a 10 month period. But,...
48 I Dont Want to....but i do
I Am Married to a wonderful man and I Have Sexual feelings for another man. I try not to be alone with him, but when I am and he makes me hot. He pulls me close to him, and Embraces me in a way he shouldnt. I shouldnt let him, but it feels good to be wanted, and i know thats a sin. We almost kissed...
49 Gay sin just before getting to know a dream woman
God is directing me to finding a wife. A woman i used to know came from far back to our church. She is beyond my dreams. I have many problems though. God has promised to heal me from them. Right when this dream woman came to our church, the devil attacked me harder than anytime before. In my frustration...
50 I am Broken
I am a Father of 2 wonderful girls, with another child on the way. I have a wonderful wife, who has supported me through some difficult times in my life. I try to be a great example to my God and my Family. But when I was young and single I thought watching and reading porn was a better alternative than...
51 Forced Acts
My wife and I have been married for 5 years. Recently in the bedroom, she has asked me to role play and "force" her to perform certain acts such as oral and anal sex. Is this normal for women? Is it OK in a christian marriage?
52 i cant take this anymore...
i am in love with a married man. i know its wrong and i should not have these feelings for him but its too late and i cant stop now. on the other hand, Im tired of being used. Im tired of sitting at home waiting for him to "have some free time". It makes me sick to my stomach to think about his marriage....
53 ...About Marriage
I don't believe in divorce unless my husband abandons me, or commits fornication. My husband has been the most degrading, manipulative, insensitive, rude, slanderous, and egotistical person sense day ONE after the honeymoon. He has his entire family thinking I am the that needs the help and that I am...
54 Marriage
I'm not in love with my husband. He is a hypocrite, and though I have forgiven him for hurting me, I can't forget the pain he caused, and how he has not acknowledged it. I feel stuck. Every day hurts.
55 Fornication
I confess this sin unto you, O God. You know my heart. I have sinned and transgressed your law. I have had sex outside of marriage. However, you have in your grace forgiven me again. I love you with all my heart. Thank you for your grace. Thank you for your mercy. Thank you for your forgiveness....
56 DYING
I experienced pornographic material for the first time when I was 13. I will never forget it. Now I am 27 and happily married with 3 children. I haven't had an addiction that requires daily attention, yet I AM an addict, and my mind is dirty and in need of healing. I have a successful ministry and...
57 One Day at a Time!
Please pray for me as I'm trying to get back on my feet from having an affair with a very close friend of mine and my husband's. After he ended the affair cause he's married also, I fell apart. I've thought about ending my marriage because I feel like the love has died. I don't know how to get that love...
58 Obsessed with Married co-worker
I am so consumed with this married man that i work with. He is going through a rough patch in his marriage and he and i have become great friends. He has hit on me a few times, but I'm so nervous that i just laugh it off and not go any further. I have noticed lately that he's been looking at dating sites...
59 confession
I am a believng christian from childhood on. My parents were pentecostals but I remain in the Evangelical Lutheran Church. I live in a happy marriage since 25 years, however we have no children. By the grace of God we have taken care of our godson whose parents are divorced and given him love and care....
60 Good Dad struggles with porn
I've been dabbling in porn for SO long. I quit for almost a year, but have now found it easier than ever to pleasure myself when things in the real world aren't going well. I'm burdened with bills I can barely pay, living paycheck to paycheck, and not being prepared for the future. My marriage is...
61 neglect in marriage
I found my husband in the beginning of an affair, emotional and some physical. I turned to God and he changed my heart in a matter of hours to where I fell deeply in love with my husband and we shared awesome sex for the first time. But he's been neglected by me for so long that I thot sex would fix...
62 Trust
I know my husband has a porn addiction and I have caught him in the act, but he denies it. I also know he steals and I can not confront him. It's tearing away my trust in him and our marriage.
63 my husband is addicted to porn
i haven't been married for even a year yet and sometimes i have the feeling that i want to give up. two months into our marriage my husband told me that he was addicted to porn. i had seen all of the signs, found things on the computer, but always believed every lie that i was fed. i felt so betrayed...
64 keeping fat keeps guys away
I grew up with the girls/ women should look great ,look sexy attitude to gets guy's and yes I did look great and I did look sexy and got hit on all through my teen years and 20's. But all I every wanted was a male to love me for me not my looks. I had a great childhood loving mother, no struggles all...
65 Possible pregnancy...
Forgive me, for I have sinned. I did not abstain until marriage as I once believed I was to do. We did not use protection, partly in stupidity, partly by being caught in the moment. I realize it was a very foolish thing to do, considering neither of us is ready to support a child at this point in...
66 death sounds lovely
i've over 30 awards from high school for academics and presidential fitness. i've driven back three people from killing themselves already. i've saved two marriages. and i've revived a woman who's heart's stopped beating. so why can't i just kill myself already. i already know i'm contridicting what...
67 i don't see it that way
my brother passed four years ago. my father just two. my mother was filing for a divorce after she left him for his friend, and that was too much. three months ago i moved to cali to live with my uncle, who's only true friend was my father. he always says i remind him of my dad. i think it's funny. i've...
68 I love my husband..and my best friend that's a guy.
6 yrs ago I met a guy friend of mine at college. We fell in love, dated for a yr, and then became best friends due to all the research he was involved in. I still loved him regardless of who I was dating but didn't think he cared for me anymore so I faked being "just friends" and lied to myself. I even...
69 Lusting after sister-in-law
My sister-in-law is in great shape, very pretty, and extremely sexually attractive. I have been married for five years and I am sickened with my lust. I have prayed and fought the temptation but i feel I am losing the battle. I feel if I reveal my attraction I will destroy my marriage and my life....
70 just lost
When I was in grade * I was raped by a boyfriend. I was intending to save sex for marriage but after that I didn't feel like I needed to wait anymore, I was already screwed up. I continued to have sex and a boyfriend introduced me to porn and I became addicted. I'm still addicted now but am trying to...
71 impure
I am tempted to be sexually impure before marriage.
72 A Technical Virgin?
I took a purity vow in high school and vowed to remain a virgin until marriage. My first year of college was my first time "away" from home and I went kind of crazy with all the cute guys. I ended up giving oral to so many guys I lost count. Towards the end of the school term, I started having anal sex...
73 Crippled
I can remember the first time my brother and I found porn at a very young age. I found myself saying that the urge for porn and masterbation would leave when I got married, then after that I thought it would leave when I left the Navy, then I thought it would leave when I started to attend Bible college....
74 I sleep with my sister
For as long as I can remember, my sister and I have been having sex together with our mothers blessing...we have both been married, yet our liasians continue to this day anytime we are together. I don't feel it is bad , yet we have both had bad marriages and we have talked about commiting to each other...
75 What Rebellion Has Lead Me Too
I have struggled with masturbation since I has 9 years old. This has been very difficult for me particularly because I am a 19 year female.I have never told anyone this. I am also a virgin who has committed myself to stay pure until marriage. I have never had any kind of sexual experience with anyone....
76 My ex boyfriend
When my then boyfriend and I broke up I was heartbroken and in pieces. After which met a wonderful man who later became my husband. He has helped me heal and deal with all the emotional problems of my past relationships. However my ex bf and I are very good friends now, although we don't see each...
77 8 Years
I first fell into pornography when I was 12 my parents just got satellite and I stumbled upon "late night TV" and not knowing what was going to happen I wanted to emulate that on myself it has been off and on now for 8 years. I have been addicted to both porn and masturabation, and it is only now im...
78 Money
I secretly think my marriage will end with me having no money and bad credit.
79 Affair with Best Friend
My best friend's man confessed to me that he was in love with me. I was already in a wonderful marriage and yet I gave into sex with him. He and I had sex several times a week in secret and I fell in love with him. He told me that he was in love with me too. My best friend doesn't know for sure that...
80 Still LOVE Ex
I miss and STILL love my ex. I started going with him 18yrs. ago, and was with him for 4yrs. He is now married for 10yrs. and has 3 kids. I am still friends with him. He has his own business. I refer him to anyone I know who is looking for any type of work he does. I befriended his wife. He calls and...
81 Marriage
I hate being married. My husband is boring and inflexible. He is uninteresting and I have no desire for him. He wants to have kids and so do I. The problem is, I don't want to have kids with HIM. I want a divorce. I hate when he comes home.
82 contemplating divorce
I'm not happy with a lot of things in my life, but especially my marriage. I went into this 2 yrs ago with an ideal version of her in my mind, and to accept who she really is means I can't stay here or I'll go insane with misery. . its not even just her body which resembles that of a75 yr old(I'm not...
83 I hate being married
because I'm married to someone who woo's me, but doesn't totally respect me at the same time. I often withhold sexual intamacy because it doesn't feel right. We have been married for 11 years and have 2 children together. What's worse is that I've allowed myself to get comfortable in this lifestyle...
84 Failure of a Husband
I met my current wife 10 years ago, while being married at the time (good start huh?) and fell in love. After my divorce, we married before building our freindship and relationaship to where it needed, since then I have done nothing but lie, decieve, and cover up any mistake I might have made in order...
85 Bad marriage
I have been married now for almost 16 years to a woman who refuses to grow up. I am sick and tired of having to live a person who will not even try to please me or think of anyone but herself. No sex anymore, she doesn't keep house and she is always running around with her friend instead of taking care...
86 i lost my virginity to a prostitute
had sex 3 times before marriage and my wife still does not know...i love her but cannot find the courage to tell her
87 Can't Forgive
I cannot forgive my husband as he cheated on me for the first 4 years of our marriage with multiple people in secret. He came clean putting everything on the table. He apologized and we have gone to marriage seminars and counseling but I cannot forgive him. I try to forgive him... but the thoughts of...
88 My Troubles
I sometimes feel like my family is falling apart. I don't look at my wife the same way any more, her life and mine seem to be taking separate paths. I love her, and she is my life, but something must happen.
89 I have an off switch
Our marriage has been sexless for one year and one month. I am sad about it, but I am done pretending. He wanted me, and he has me, but not all of me. "Touch me not, I am not yet descended to my father."
90 doing the right thing, all the time.
I traded passion for security, and I've been miserable about it since the third month I was engaged. I don't want to break a promise or break a heart, and instead I wrap myself in chains that, of course, I am too honorable to break. This summer will be my 13th year in a sad and lonely marriage. It...
91 He was still married
His marriage was on the rocks and he was using drugs. He said he loved me and I thought it would all be ok. I know now I should have never had a relationship with him. I am so unworthy, please forgive me Father.
92 Never loved my wife
I was immature and had no dating experience when I met and married my wife 20 years ago. I didn't know what I wanted at the time. Now I wonder if I ever loved her. I am unhappily married with kids, for 20 years. It seems my wife an I are incompatible. We don't satisfy each other intellectually, emotionaly,...
93 Letting go of the past...
I was raped by an acquaintance as a teenager. My desire had been to save sex for marriage, and my whole life changed course in one moment. I buried that for years, and sex became a weapon - I enjoyed the power I felt over men as THEY lost control to me and their flesh. Thankfully, I rededicated my life...
94 Complicated or Not ?
My wife and I have been very happily married for almost 11 years now. Here's the problem; we have a female friend who has been through several two divorces in the time we've been married. To be short, we want to offer her the emotional benefits we have in being married to each other, and possibly the...
95 My name is * and I am addicted to pornography
It started in 6th grade A friend and I found a dufflebag full of porn magazines A short time later I discovered masturbation and have not stopped since I have gone on the internet to look at porn, and have also had phone sex and cyber sex more times than I can count. I was dating a girl and the whole...
96 I ruined my husband's career
My husband was accepted into a doctoral program, but I wanted him on Active Duty in the Army. I was lost and depressed and hated my job, so I made life impossible for him. He couldn't take it anymore, and to save our marriage, he returned to active duty. Now he is in a branch he hates and I am still...
97 Have to stop...
I have to stop drinking. It is hurting my marriage. This is my second marriage and I finally found the one. Now I fear I am pushing her away. i would be devastated. I would die. So now I have to make the easy decision. I choose her.
98 I Betrayed My Wife and Children
I was married for many years to a very fine woman with whom I have children. She was a good wife, but our sex life was infrequent and very inhibited. We had different sex drives, mine was much stronger. I supressed it or engaged in pornography and masturbation. After 10 years of marriage I began...
99 ashamed
My secret is shame: for not loving God, in spite of the fact He saved me from death twice--once when my car was hit by a train and I had only a 50/50 chance to live, and once when my ex-husband nearly strangled me to death. Instead of joining a church and rejoicing in a miracle, I committed adultery...
100 Lust
I had myself convinced that it's not actually an "official" affair. It was. I've been married for almost 6 years and have a wonderful son. I do love my wife, and my son, but for some reason the attention that I was getting from "the other woman" was too hard for me to resist. I was too weak because I...
101 Hurting her and myself
I tell my fiance every day that i love her, and i do, but im not inlove with her, i don't know if i can really spend the rest of my life with her. but im scared to leave her incase i cant find anyone else and up alone for ever, its hurting me knowing that i'm not totally committed to her (i havent cheated...
102 Confused By Affair
I'm a 33 yr old woman & I'm on my second marriage. The first marriage was "forced" by my parents due to an unplanned teenage pregnancy. Married at 17, I decided 2 years later that I was unhappy. I took my 2 year old son and became a single mom at the age of 19. By the age of 21, I met a very successful...
103 Affair
I got married young & have been married for 20 years & have had several affairs. I feel horriable what I have done. I am married to a wonderful man and he does not deserve this. I am currently having an affair with one of our friends. I know I should not be doing this & I can't seem to stop myself....
104 Confessions
I've lied to my husband! I told him that my last and only boyfriend before I met him tried to rape me, but in fact I only said that to get attention. The situation was actually that my previous bf and I just got farther then we ever had gotten before and that was the first time I almost had sex before...
105 In Preparation!
As much as I long for the future and as assured as God has made me about taking care of my future betrothed, I can’t break the habit. I dread the day I will have to confess my sin to her. I believe that porn originally started for me as a generational curse but since then has been broken, now I must...
106 Two Lives
I am a mom to three little kids, a housewife, married for almost 10 years. Yet I have a secret - an addiction that I can't seem to get past. Early into my marriage I cheated, not for a relationship like most would, I had a friend that I crossed the line with, a friend-with-benefits if you will. I even...
107 Homosexual Acts and Adultery
Lord please forgive me of the past and recent homosexual acts and acts of sexual immorality. Forgiving me for leading other into my disgusting life style. I felt it was wrong and did it anyway please lead me from temptation. Please forgive my unfaithfulness, unforgiveness, and resentment toward my beloved...
108 Ashamed
For the first few years of my marriage I would go to bars and end up having sex with strangers. I always justified this by telling myself that it was not that bad because it did not mean anything. The last time it happened the guy left a mark on my neck and I had to burn myself with a curling iron...
109 Professional Wrong-doing
I was an adolescent drug and alcohol counselor. I fell in love with a patient that was 17...I married him when he was 18...I got sick of his immaturity...so I washed my hands of him and started seeing another man 3 weeks ago. I feel horrible for ruining this young man's life.
110 A broken Man
This is my confession. I am 28 years old and have struggled with lust and addiction to pornography since I was 18. I have a great deal of guilt and shame associated with my sins. I have asked God’s forgiveness countless times but am unable to be free from it. I thought when I got married the desires...
111 Almost a Year
My husband is a whole different person now. I am not in love with him anymore. I hate our conversations. I hate that we have nothing in common. I don't want anything to do with anyone in his immediate family ever! I wish I could take our entire marriage back. I can't though. I am stuck with him for life....
112 beginning stages of adiction
i never used to masterbate..ever...i am an 18 yr old female...and i have always been a sexual person btu always been in controlof my desires. but oneday i jsut decided to add this guy onto msn and we started to have sex convo's ....from that day forward i began masterbationg...one or twice a week....but...
113 Fending off lust
I am a 35 year-old man, great marriage, two kids. I have been saved for nearly seven years now and desire a strong walk with God. However, I can't stop lusting! I frequently lust after my wife's sister, whom we see often. My wife recently discovered this fact when she found a bible study I was doing...
114 Addictions as a leader in the church
I have been addicted to porn and smoking for years now. I am only 24 years old. I recently got married thinking that it would go away after marriage. God has a calling on my life in worship but I keep smoking. I have thrown so many packs of cigarettes out the window just to go buy more after doing so....
115 What burned me for life
I was raped when I was a very young girl. I got wind of this 'no sex before marriage' idea and asked my religious day-care center teacher about it. She confirmed that yes, people who have sex before marriage go to hell. I told her I'd already had sex, and she called me a liar and I had to change teachers....
116 lonely..
i've been married for 11 years, the last 2 years i've been seeking relationships online because i'm so lonely...my husband is content but i'm ready to leave...i've never committed sexual sin, but in my heart i have no desire towards this man i married...i desire a godly husband...but in my heart i know...
117 My marriage sucks...
I feel like my marriage really bites. I'm sure this is normal and I've probably got it better than many, but I also don't feel like I should be happy because I don't get beat or cheated on. I also feel betrayed by God because I knew (or thought I did) that my husband was "the one"... and I don't want...
118 Affair with pastor
I had a physical affair with a member of the pastoral team at our church over 20 years ago and a non-physical continuation via phone calls for another fifteen years. This person was also related to me by marriage. I never got over it. I am dealing with a lot of guilt and shame over 20 years later. I...
119 Struggling with porn addiction.
I had ruined my career in the Army and my 1st marriage because of my addiction to porn. Between my 1st and 2nd marriage I had many sexual encounters with people. I now regret this so much. God has since graced me with a wonderful loving wife (who is the closest thing to a saint I have have ever known)...
120 Losing everything
My husband and I got into swinging with other couples. He arbitrarily decided that this was my fault and has now left me over it. It was sexual depravity, but now that he is gone, he is trying to take our 4 year old from me, because he says if I can do that then I am an unfit parent.
121 Have I gone too far?
I'm engaged to a Christian whos n the army.I trust him, I dont need to worry about him.I know hes in God's hands.We r both virgins.After we got engaged he left,& he asked me if Id ever masturbated.He told me that he did, for self pleasure.I dont know if I need to worry about this, but he asked me if...
122 jealousy
I am jealous of all my friends at church. Their grown children seem to be happily married with children and good jobs. My children are struggling with relationships and direction. I can't stand it when people in church ask me how my daughters marriage is doing. Or when is my son going to find a wife....
123 STILL IN LOVE..
I was in a relationship with a man for 8 years, we have a 6 year old child together.Within that time, he met someone else 4 years ago.He cheated on me with her, and now he is married to her and they are expecting a child. I am still seeing him and having a sexual relationship with him. I feel bad, but...
124 abortion 16 yrs ago
i had an illegal abortion 16 years ago. i still remember the pain... i didn't regret it at all and still consider it to be the correct move. or else, i won't have the life i have now. i'm so in love with a guy now and hope one day we could get marry. when talking about having baby, i'm so afraid...
125 sexual sin
I'm divorced, w/an illegitimated child. I love God but have a lot...A LOT of trouble trusting people. I keep everyone @ arms length and have not truly had a romantic relationship in 6yrs. I've had a sexual relationship, a "friend" who I know I want nothing more from. I try to abstain, when I think...
126 help I keep having these toughts.
My wife admited having a sexual relationship before marriage, we have been married for 15yrs, we are both christian and are in ministry right now, I keep having thoughts about her relationship before marriage and start fantasizing about it and i privately wish to see her in another relationship, with...
127 New relationship?
My marriage is over, my wife and I have not had sex in almost a year, we are filling for divorce. I met someone new last night, we hit it off very, very well but i wonder if it will end up just a one night stand.
128 I need to tell someone.
Before marrieage my wife and I were not sexually pure. I thought marriage would fix it, it didn't. I am now a pastor with no one to talk to. I still dable in porn though I go for very long periods without using. I've been to strip clubs. I've gone to online sexually oriented dating sites. "The journey...
129 What nobody would ever guess about me.
When I was 12 or 13 years old, my parents got divorced. My dad was always kind-of mean, in that nothing I ever did was good enough, so I started "punishing" myself by putting myself in physically uncomfortable circumstances. This eventually turned sexual when one night I was making myself do sit-ups...
130 BIG PROBLEMS IN MARRIAGE
I watch pornographic site an I feel so guilty an i also masturbating myself . The pain is big because I am married and i lie to my wife when she ask me if I do something bed like... adultery in my heart... In the past, in the time when we are just friends I was with another girl ...after 2 or...
131 Marriage for life?
I am a christian and have been married to my husband now for 11 years. He is a Christian as well. I wonder if we should have gotten married. We were married as unbelievers and have since became Christians together. He loves me, but shows it in a funny way. I just see other married couples and think...
132 just wanna go.
i'm married with 2 kids, and i want to leave them all. not for a fling or something. i just want to go. disappear. be alone forever. no friends, no family, not even pets. my marriage is in trouble anyway, my kids... they'd probably be better off - tho i feel like a bad mom saying that. i don't really...
133 my marriage is fake
I got engaged because I wasn't ready for the relationship to end, the next thing I find out I'm pregnant, and walking down the aisle. It's been a little over two years and I feel like I'm in a downward sprial of disappoinement and disaster. I am afraid to leave because I know I can't make it on my...
134 Puberty, touching my sister, girlfriends, wife
Puberty brought on so many sexual feelings that I didn't know how to control. When I was 12 years old I would touch my sister's chest while she was sleeping. When I was 15 I dated a girl who was 17 who pretty much showed me the ropes on the "everything, but" sexual experience. From here on I felt...
135 Struggles
I have struggled with pornography. I try not to look at things but sometimes the temptaion is too great and I let my flesh win. I used to be very sexually active when I was younger and so I think that I have let it control me for too long. I am not married but I don't want to take this into a marriage....
136 Secret Shame
My husband and I were seperated for a year and a half. Because he cheated on me and we were in limbo working through all the emotions. We have 3 children together and didn't want to rush into any decisions. I felt like we were on our way to divorce. It was almost Christmas. I was feeling empty and...
137 in love with someone esle
I recently got married to a wonderful man he spoils me rotten and everything is great except for the simple fact that i love someone esle my ex and i have no idea if he still feels the same way its gettting to me bad cuz i still love someone esle. then to make matters worse i have been lying to my husband...
138 Love addiction
I am struggling with efforts to recover from a very close relationship, which was my first one after a 23-year marriage ended in divorce (my wife left). I continue to obsess about my ex-girlfriend and am not succeeding in surrendering control of my life to God, who I know has a much better plan that...
139 Prayer Help
After trusting and exchanging personal Law career investments for family and 15 years of home schooling, husband loses everything. (home, job/trade, credit, etc.) Worst loss (when needed the most) is the once, personal and intimate spiritual life and walk. (Can not even hear anything, anymore.) Despite...
140 LIed to my husband
I have lied to my husband about smoking again - this is not the first time but it has to be the last or our marriage is over. I got caught last night and I feel so scared that I have screwed things up again!
141 want my wife back
my wife has moved out of the house. our problem is easy to understand but hard to solve. nothing much then verbal fiting she is sturborn and so do i , this made us fight eaven on the firt day of our marrige. befor marrige we dated for 7 years and never expirience so many problem. please want her back...
142 living a lie
i have been a christian for a long time, since i was 9 infact. I have lied to get ahead, make people feel better, and to avoid the ugliness of truth for years. I am very involved in my church and feel as if i am living two lives. One with the false face of a person who live for christ, another who...
143 I'm Letting It Go
I am a single woman who has been having an affair with a man for almost 5 years, the last 3 of which he was married. I have never even thought I was the kind of person who could do something like that especially since my ex husbands affair caused the end of our marriage.I think I did this because my...
144 Mortal Flesh Addiction/Perversion
I have for the last several years been involved in sexual relationships that are not in the context of the marriage bed. In 2005, i attempted to battle the addiction with sex and it didn't work. I'm back in 2007 and hoping with the One within me i can fight my flesh. God is good.
145 I've failed as a husband
I am married to the most faithful, beautiful woman a man could ever hope for. She loves God and has been the rock in our marriage. We have two beautiful children that I also know are God's blessing. We have been married for 7 years, and I have failed my wife miserably. I have betrayed her trust and...
146 Damaging Marriage with Porn
I've been viewing internet porn for a long time. It used to be just simple pictures and stories then it moved to more hardcore type stuff. I used to feel horrible afterwards, I still I get upset that I to this but its like I am numb to it. Awhile back my wife found out, we talked about it, I promised...
147 My husband makes me sad!
I love and appreciate my husband, but after his sickness I don't enjoy being around him like I used to! I feel like I am more afraid than anything! I want to get away from hiim, and I need to be with him, he and I are ONE! I feel like a sinner, but I still serve God whole hearted! I wish there was an...
148 cheating
i've been cheating although it never went "all the way" but it involves petting..i felt very awful..my girlfriend really loves me so much..and all i did was gratify my flesh with other...mann..its been the second time with one person,but the other time i really did it i had sex..but still i;ve had intercourse...
149 Afraid of growing old alone
I'm afraid I'll never find anyone to share my life with and I'll grow old ...alone. I'm a 36 year old male, was married, and divorced within 6 months because she found she was Bi-sexual and left me (and still claims to be). I feel guilty, as I know that when I question if this fate of being alone is...
150 hate
i feel hate when i think of my ex wife. she belongs to this church. she was always putting herself out there as such a rightous person but in the end was a liar, thief and two faced. within 60 days of us getting married she had stole every penny i had by hiding the mail and cashing checks i had wrote...
151 MY desire
My ex-boyfriend has a big hold on me and recently I gave him oral sex..the thing about it is: I like to do it..I mean i really like the way it feels and the way that it makes him feel. These feelings are great for marriage of course but they persecute and tempt me all the time..I'm always horny..I repented...
152 Masturbating for 27 years
I started masturbating at around 13 years of age and have continually done so at age 40. I have never been with a women outside of marriage, even though the opportunities have been there. I have often commited adultery numerous times however in my mind. I do not watch porn but can fantisize my desires...
153 She was perfect
Twenty years ago I met my first cousin pretty much for the first time. I was 16 years old at the time. Over the next several years I fell madly in love with her. I suspect that she knew, but I never openly declared my feelings because I did not want to lose our friendship. Now we are both married...
154 bulimia
i've been bulimic since i was 15. i'm 33 now. i go months without doing it, but then i get stressed out and start. it makes me tired. i stopped for 2 years and then things were going bad in my marriage and i got divorced. it's been 3 years since the divorce and i do it almost every day. usually at night....
155 Loneliness
In my 24 years of life, I have learned that there is nothing more wonderful than a woman on this earth. Because I have experienced sex before marriage, I feel like I have ultimately screwed myself for life. I know more than what sex feels like, I know what it means to make love. But, it never lasts....
156 What I want most
I'm only 18 but I want so badly to get married to my boyfriend of a year and a half...I know we're meant to be..but i'm afraid of what people will say..
157 FULL of resentment
Anytime my husband needs money for something we spend it. I am tired of having things that need taking care of and they are ignored. My health will not allow me to work so I am stuck. I refuse to ask family for help. I just want to get out of this hole. The anger has taken over my life and I have tried...
158 secret life
I keep taking these pills to numb myself, and it is not helping me anymore. I am afraid to go to a detox to get this out of my system, I just pray to god all the time to ask for help. This has ruined my marriage, my job and I always need to escape instead of facing the truth about what I have done, I...
159 Losing my temper
My wife and I are having problems in our marriage and are fighting a lot. We have fought and I have called her bad names and used cuss words while fighting in front of our 6 year old son. My son has shown the effects of our fighting and I feel like I have failed him and that he will be scarred forever....
160 Can
I spent the beginning of college falling away from the Lord. I drank excessively, did drugs, and started dating a guy with whom I lost my virginity to. I have since reconnected my relationship with God, and I have stopped doing drugs and drinking. But I am still with the guy I was seeing, and still having...
161 Marriage
I am really angry with my wife and mother. Those two cannot and will not get along. They always put me between them. I am so tired of fighting and choosing. Some may say, "try this.. or choose your wife." Yes, that would be easy. But my this is feels like the plan seprate but united attacks on my life....
162 SECRET SHAME OF MY MARRIAGE
Two years ago, I made a very graphic porn video with my wife and a prostitute. The video showed my wife doing some things that even I did not expect she would do, both with me and with the hooker. Last week, I ended up betting it in a poker game that got out of control. I lost it to a guy I work with....
163 Masturbation
After 31 years of wonderful, happy marriage, filled with awesome sex, we now often choose sleep over sex. We attempt to have "planned" sex on our day off, but home and family come first, so that doesn't happen. So during the week when I have a day off, in between laundry and vacuuming I retreat to...
164 SEX ADDIT.
I'm a happily married man with three kids and loves my family, but I have a problem with sex. I am so embarass to admit it but over the course of my marriage I have not been faithful. I have cheated with several women and hates myself for doing so. I want to ask GOD's forgiviness for this terrible act...
165 My husband is addicted to porn.
My family thinks he's perfect. He seems perfect on the surface. But he's been addicted to porn for years. I caught him the first time on the computer the week returned from our honeymoon. He always had magazines as a single man, but I thought that's what single men did! Of course, now that I've caught...
166 lusting for a man other than my husband...........
recently someone I work with had been giving me attention. Something that my husband hasn't been giving me in a long time. We started emailing each other and flirting. What started out as meaningless flirting turned different. I was starting to enjoy it and wanted more. He wanted to meet and I wouldn't....
167 lusting for another....
My husband hasn't given me attention in so long and the problem is that someone else has. What started out as flirting turned into cybersex and I wanted more. I have put my marriage and children at risk for someone who only tells me what I want to hear. But it felt so good. I wanted so bad to just...
168 Lost & Searching
I am a wife and mother of 3 amazing children. I love my huasnd very much but I was weak. I had an affair for over a year and developed a strong bond and friendship with that man. He's my soulmate. There's no question about it. My affair was discovered nearly two years ago. My husband has stayed...
169 The truth about my feelings
When I took Jesus into my heart several years ago. My life was not yet complete, something was missing, and I did not know what it was. My ex-wife was supportive, but would not go to church with me. Was my marriage falling apart even though I felt a change might do us some good? It was too late for...
170 Unforgiven
I am in love with my ex husband who says he's forgiven me for leaving him but that we can never be together again. I wait and wait and have been waiting now for seven years for him to change his mind and take me back. I feel I don't deserve anyone else, anyone better, or anyone at all. Not only b/c...
171 trapped
i'm a married youth pastor with 2 young children. I was openly gay before I accepted Christ. I initially worked very hard to erase that sin from my life. But through years of just living it has crept back in. I'm addicted to masturbation and exhibitionism via webcams again. My marriage is failing. My...
172 Marriage is evil
I can stand being married!! I'd rather die than be married one more day. Actually I just want to leave my husband and live alone for the rest of my life!!!! I have no desire for a significant other to order me around and tell me how to feel and how not to feel. Being that annoying purposely and willingly...
173 Damaged goods
I was 14 last year. with a boyfriend. On our 11 month anniversary we decided to have sex for the first time. I am still with him, and have been for almost a year and a half. I regret having sex with him. I wish we would've waited until marriage. That way if we break up, I can give my husband the respect...
174 I am a pastor's wife and a mess
I am a self absorbed, prideful person who has sought selfish desires in the past and present. I have had an emotional affair with a man outside of my marriage (5 years ago, but it still haunts me. I have confessed it to my husband and cut all ties but still wracked with guilt), a problem with pornography...
175 Feeling guilty
Last summer I made the mistake of cheating on my husband. I know that i hurt him deeply but at the time we were going through alot. He has cheated on me twice, once before marriage and once during. Many days I feel like I dont want to be married anymore. We've been through so much (he has physically...
176 Hatred for Mum
I hate my mum. she's the contributor of majority of my problems. I'm already 44 and have no job, no money, no wife, no house, in very bad health, church refuse to commit to help though I led Worship many years. My mum lacks wisdom yet she's talkative and long-winded. I'm now very angry with her yet...
177 I Have Betrayed My Wife..
Im 32 and i have been married to my wife who is 53 for two years now.We are very much in love with each other and even though she is many years older than me we have a very good and strong marriage which includes a very good and passionate sex life together.Recently after an office party I drove one...
178 Porn and lust helped me ruin my marriage and life.
I was a happily married guy who had a great family. It is because of my addiction to porn and lust that I lost it all. I would look at porn on the internet as well as talk to other women. After my divorce I hit rock bottom and started looking to christ for help. I have never admited to my problem before....
179 my marriage
well my husband left me and our children I am also pregnant. I tryed to open up to a leader in my church and she treated me like I had the plague. I'm praying that he'll come back but that I won't be so weak next time.I have no one to call, no friends or family (all of my family is in another state)...
180 my marriage
I consistenly forget things and my husband gets so angry he yells at everyone. He just says it's over and wants to leave today. I do so much work in our home and pour out all my time, energy and strength and still it is not enough.... Other woman always flirt with him, he never returns it. But sometimes...
181 The worst thing..
I've faked several pregnancies and faked subsequent miscarriages to "save" my marriage. If not save it, to create attention for myself so that my husband truly notices me. Has it really saved it? No...I have just been prolonging the inevitable, I'm sure. If my husband wants to leave, I should just...
182 I hate being married!! Its a miserable...
I hate being married!! Its a miserable extistence. Shortly after getting married, I started not believing in life-long love. I have recently read some articles on love being purely chemical and I believe it! I would probably get divorced except that he is paying for my college education. I know that...
183 I need to confess. I'm cheating...
I need to confess. I'm cheating on my one true love and I've been doing it all of my life. I cheated on him when I got high. I cheated on him when I had sex outside of my marriage. I cheated on him with impure thoughts and anger. I cheat on him daily because of my debt, my indifference.. .my cold...
184 I am suffering. I have been addicted...
I am suffering. I have been addicted to pornography for a long time now. Every time I act out by viewing porn, it feels like a rush in the beginning, but I later feel so ashamed that I want to run away from everything. I want to hurt myself. I have never felt more ashamed about anything else in my...
185 I am a woman and I am addicted...
I am a woman and I am addicted to porn. I watch it everyday on my laptop and then I masterbate for hours. I am really embarrassed b/c I try to force my fiance to stop looking at it. I always thought that the problem is that we don't have enough sex and the sex that we do have is NOT fulfilling. But...
186 I've been hurt alot by people and...
I've been hurt alot by people and situations in my life that I know I can't change. I was raped at 14 and thought my life was over, that was until I found out I was pregnant by the guy who raped me and then had a miscarriage when he found out about it and beat me so badly. At 20 I got married to a man...
187 I have been married to my wonderful...
I have been married to my wonderful wife for 2 years now, and around 9 months ago, a co-worker and I became very good friends, to good infact. To the point of us questioning our current marriages because we thought we had truly found soulmates within eachother. We were intimate twice and afterwards...
188 lying an ongoing tradition in my...
lying an ongoing tradition in my life, from moment to moment. i hate it with a passion because when i want to get better at and actually start working on things, i get frustrated with family, work, relationship, kids and more so just with me and where my life is, looking to make myself be better than...
189 i have sinned in every relationship,...
i have sinned in every relationship, more regret because it's been during my marriage of almost eight years. somehow my life of frustrations have detoured my thoughts, emotions, and lack of repect for myself, wife, and kids, more so, GOD. i the 4 h's help, healing, humble, and harmony. GOD please help...
190 This is the first time I have confessed...
This is the first time I have confessed this openly. I have been married for 5 years to my wonderful wife and two children. I started struggling with porn since age 15. God came and delivered me at age 20. At times I fell to temptation but repented and moved on. When my wife had difficult pregnancies...
191 Sometimes I resort to self-gratification,...
Sometimes I resort to self-gratification, even though I'm married, because I feel lonely...I am married, but my husband is stressed and tired, and I miss us being together intimately. I feel guilty asking him to take care of my needs, even though he should be meeting them, as my husband...it's very...
192 I feel so ashamed I want a relationship...
I feel so ashamed I want a relationship an a husband, but from two past marriages, and the hurt and pain left its scars, emotionally and physically, I'am ashame of the scars, maybe this is vain but here goes, from childbearing, has left my breast in embarrassing condition. Men look at me and I look...
193 I'm a single female college student...
I'm a single female college student at a Christian university. I have masturbated and viewed hetero and homo porn off and on for almost 10 years. Nearly helf of my life has been ruled with sexual sin, shame, and disgust. Only this year have I been thinking about telling people my secret. Only you on...
194 forgive me god for wanting to kill...
forgive me god for wanting to kill myself pray for me and my husband i cannot be divorce I cannot live without him please god bring him home and heal my marriage
195 I have the greatest husband. He's...
I have the greatest husband. He's my best friend, and we've been together 12 years. Recently, a guy I had feelings for way back in high school (whom I'd lost touch with long ago), found me online. Suddenly, those repressed feelings came up again. I don't regret marrying my husband AT ALL, we are happy,...
196 I am divorced. I met my ex-wife...
I am divorced. I met my ex-wife while she was separated from her first husband. We starting seeing each other while they were separated. She has a daughter from her first marraige. I felt very guilty for dating a woman who was married with a child. They eventually got divorced and we eventually got...
197 I like to look at women. It started...
I like to look at women. It started out as pure, naive, curiosity. Now, it's an addiction. I hate the sound of that word, but that's what it is, cut and draw. I am asking the woman I love to marry me in four months, and sometimes I am ignorant to think that marriage will fix my problem. I know it won't,...
198 I am a married woman who has been...
I am a married woman who has been in a loveless marriage for 12 years. I have been seeing a married man for 13 months. Because of the nature of our jobs we have the opportunity to travel. The problem is I am jealous because he loves his wife and I know they are not in a loveless marriage. I feel like...
199 For years ive lived a life of impurity....
For years ive lived a life of impurity. Starting back in jrhigh and now into college. My sophmore year I decided to accept Christ..yet to this day ive been fighting for my purity. Yet I keep falling right back down that sinful path. The past month or two I keep falling into temptation and say im done yet...
200 I used to look at porn all the...
I used to look at porn all the time because I thought that as long as I remain a virgin, then it's ok. I bought magazines and videos the moment I turned 18 and was addicted to it and masterbation. But thanks to the Grace of God and my girlfriend, I threw it all away and I no longer look at porn anymore!...
201 After ending my marriage of 6 years,...
After ending my marriage of 6 years, I am now in a relationship with a man I had a 2 year affair with at the end of my marriage. My husband had had multiple affairs early in our marriage and I used this to justify my actions. I have come clean with my x-husband and my parents-have sought church and...
202 I don't know how to start, but...
I don't know how to start, but here I ll open up and spit it out like it happened, it is been a while that I was stealing money from my wife's mom and sister, since I ve been living in the same house with em. When they discovered my acts, I denied that it was me, and now i am about to loose my marriage...
203 I am deeply in love with a married...
I am deeply in love with a married co-worker. I sometimes suspect he has feelings for me as well but then I chalk it up to wishful thinking. I'm a wreck when he's around me and I miss him terribly when he's not around me. I want him to return my feelings but then I feel so guilty and I don't want...
204 A couple of years ago my husband...
A couple of years ago my husband and I hit a major rough patch in our marriage. My husband rejected me sexually and emotionally for so long I was in alot of pain. During that time I turned to alcohol and men to dull the pain and to try to feel accepted, attracted and loved. I had sex with many men...
205 I am a married woman who is having...
I am a married woman who is having an affair with another woman. I care for her very much but our friendship took a turn and became an intimate relationship that I wish never happened. I was weak and because my marriage is in shambles, I allowed myself to get involved just for the thrill of it. Please...
206 My husband and I have been married...
My husband and I have been married for almost 4 years. He is obese, and suffered from low self esteem that affected our love life. He stopped touching me and we began to fight daily. But, for better or for worse I am commited to him. He decided on a weight loss surgery and has since slimmed down, but...
207 Hello, I cannot believe I am here,but...
Hello, I cannot believe I am here,but I have to tell someone. I am a 44 year old woman and I have been drawn or should I say addicted to porn for a long time. It started by my husband and I watching it to help our marriage or so we thought. But through the years it just made me feel cheap. But the images...
208 I am currently cheating on my husband...
I am currently cheating on my husband of almost 4 years, together for a total of 8. I hate lying to him. It sucks. The other thing that sucks is how unhappy I am in my marriage. But that is no excuse for cheating and I know it. But I have to be honest and say that the way I feel with the other man is...
209 Punishing self for 4 marriages,...
Punishing self for 4 marriages, 1st husband was unfaithful, 2nd one was psychologically unbalanced, had to put in psychiatric, 3rd one died after 20 yrs from 2 strokes, 4th one married for 3 1/2 yrs, a spender of my Dad's inheritance, grossly obese, about 380#,a 1 1/2 pk a day smoker,died 16 mo after...
210 I grew up with pornography. My...
I grew up with pornography. My view of sexuality has always been heavily distorted, not at all likethat of my creator. I'm sorry Lord, that I am so far from your truth. Before my marriage, my fiance ran off with her gym instructor, only for sex she said. She begged for my forgiveness, and i gave it to...
211 My husband and I were married just...
My husband and I were married just two months after we met. We have now been married for a few years and I love him with all of my heart and soul. For the first year of our marriage he was stationed overseas, during which time I (twice) slept with a friend and have never told my husband. I have completely...
212 When I was a young teenager,...
When I was a young teenager, I discovered one night the pleasure of masturbation. This pleausure over time became a habit, and also made me feel guilty about my sexuality. Even though I know it was wrong, I still did it. Once I begain dating, I felt guilty touching, or getting sexually close to girls...
213 This has been so hard, I had 2...
This has been so hard, I had 2 abortions about 30 years ago, and sometimes I cry just thinking about it.I also had 2 miscarriages and I was never able to have any children. was I being punished because of the 2 abortions I had?I am so ashamed and I want God to forgive me.I am so very sorry and I wish...
214 It's so hard to put my sin into...
It's so hard to put my sin into a category. It started with pornography and a complete addiction to something that sucked hours upon hours of my life away. That turned into an addiction to reading ads about people desiring casual encounters. And that turned into meeting someone outside of my marriage...
215 I hurt deep inside and I dont know...
I hurt deep inside and I dont know if it is my own doing or if it is my husband that does it to me. You see we have been married 6 years and this is our thrid marriage for both of us he was single for 15 years . And I am afraid he was not ready to get married.It seem like every time I try to tell him...
216 When I was a little girl about...
When I was a little girl about the age 11 I was molested by my brother. This went on until I was almost 13. I think the only reason why it stopped was because my grandmother caught us in the act. After that day I felt so ashamed and lead a life I am not proud of. I however managed to pull things together...
217 I am a believer with a wonderful...
I am a believer with a wonderful wife of nearly 38 years. The first few years of our marriage I worked as a musician. I was a heavy drinker and had sex with several women normally when I was drunk. I joined the Navy. Yesn a Christian but a drinker working as a hard charging diver. My final trist was...
218 I am in my second marriage. My...
I am in my second marriage. My first marriage ended not because of something I did. I found out he was cheating on me. I also cheated several times on my first husband but I would never ever admit my affairs to him. And I never felt bad about having affairs. Now my second marriage I am having thoughts...
219 one i first got saved i had confessed...
one i first got saved i had confessed to my then girlfriend that i has been going to strip bars and cheated on her. i repented from that along with masturbation for a few months. then it came back again. this time it deeply affected my relationship with my New girlfriend who also knows the Lord personally....
220 I am a recovering sex addict. ...
I am a recovering sex addict. I was exposed to pornography as a 11 year old boy. I was later molested by my best friend. From that point forward, I have struggled with pornography and masturbation. Over the years, I have had periods of sobriety but never have been able to conquer this addiction.After...
221 I am frightened of my husband....
I am frightened of my husband. I am a highly educated, professional woman who has always thought of myself as strong and capable. But my husband has a violent temper, and if I ever even slightly criticize him (simply telling him that something he did hurt my feelings) he flies into a rage. Over the weekend,...
222 I have been unfaithful to my...
I have been unfaithful to my wife of 5 years several times. She never pays attention to me and I began to look elsewhere. 2 years ago it was with a woman that I have fallen deeply in love with and her with me. She is married as well. We both know that we are meant to be together but are both to...
223 I"m not even sure what category...
I"m not even sure what category this would fall under, but I know that I am hurting and need A LOT of prayer. I am a Christian woman that has never been married and is waiting until marriage to have a sexual relationship. There is a man at work that I know has always been attracted to me, but he's not...
224 My secret is that I don't want...
My secret is that I don't want to have sex with my husband and that I fantasize about being with other men. I want to fall in love with other men and have other relationships. I know that these fantasies are just a distraction from me doing real inner work on myself and dealing with my own issues including...
225 I broke up with my girlfriend over...
I broke up with my girlfriend over two months ago, and I just found out that she's already dating someone that I knew was no good. I hurt so bad, I feel so betrayed because I still love her. But our relationship was not a good one, because we had sex before marriage. Please Lord, help me to forget her...
226 In the early years that I was married...
In the early years that I was married to my husband, I had several relationships outside of marriage that involved sexual contact, although not sexual intercourse.I don't know why I did these things, and I wish with all my heart I hadn't.After a time, I and three of my children were struck with a chronic...
227 I know that my fiance' has not...
I know that my fiance' has not been completely faithful. I have found text messages, emails, phone numbers, and pictures that all point to him seeking out other women. We have talked about it and I have decided to forgive him as he once forgave me. I am having a very difficult time letting go of what...
228 Is it possible to be married to...
Is it possible to be married to someone and that marriage not be God's will? My wife and I met as I was preparing to move out of state to accept another job several years ago. There were no plans on my end to continue the relationship because of the long distance. One week after moving, she called and...
229 I am married and completely desire...
I am married and completely desire another man, a married man....he is everyting I have ever wanted in a husband. He is extremely intelligent, funny and passionate. My husband is a good man and I love him, however he has no desire or passion. I cannot let the other man go, I know in order to save my...
230 1 years before my marriage, i had...
1 years before my marriage, i had a extra martial relation with a married women , who had to 2 kids (boy and girl) and before that couple of times with hookers (3 -4 years back) and we continued to have this , till one day i put a stop to it..Now iam married since 1 year and this my past thought makes...
231 While I knew my husband was a emotional...
While I knew my husband was a emotional affair, with a close friend, and I confronted him on it several times, and he did not stop---I went and found the same thing, and particiepated, in an affair. He does not know this. I ended my affair due to way too much guilt, but my husband continued his for two...
232 I'm 37, married and have 2 boys....
I'm 37, married and have 2 boys. Introduced to porn at the age of 5, I've struggled with it ever since. I'm anointed and called for music and worship.I was sexually molested at an early age and began acting out with men in college. I've had hundreds of anonymous encounters and even dabbled in alcohol...
233 I am not sure of the category to...
I am not sure of the category to put my confession. I chose adultery (but it could be shame, lust, regret, etc) because whether real or fantasy I sought out women other than my wife. For most of our marriage I never really thought about having an affair, then it happened, a woman seduced me and I went...
234 I have been married to my high...
I have been married to my high school sweetheart for four years now, but our marriage is in trouble and I really feel it's because from the time I was 12 till I was about 17 I slept with my uncle. I am so ashamed. I can't tell because it would ruin so many lives in our close knit family. Now I truly...
235 I am a married man of 10 years....
I am a married man of 10 years. I met my wife while in High School and have been together ever since. I have not been faithful and the reason is not so clear. She is a wonderful person and we have wonderful children. My lust for other women is very confusing. I have everything I could ever want in life...
236 I have a wife who has been sick...
I have a wife who has been sick a long time and who is sexually very cold. Once a week or every 2 weeks, I give in to some light pornography on the internet. Any is too much! I need God to deliver me once and for all - please pray for me and my marriage to overcome this and our sickness. God Bless.
237 I have been married for 19 years....
I have been married for 19 years. My husband has no desire for me and we have not had sexual contact for over eight years. My self esteem was in the toilet until I met someone a long time ago whom I had an affair with. Two more men followed. I feel terrible because my husband is a good provider and...
238 I chose relationships as my category...
I chose relationships as my category because my problems ultimately affect my relationship with my wife. I could have accurately chosen pornography, adultery, lying, past humiliation, or lust as well. My marriage is 99% perfect. I'm an attractive 27 year old with a beautiful 25 y/o wife and a wonderful...
239 I can't stop fantasizing about...
I can't stop fantasizing about a married doctor. The fantasies are very detailed and they are disrupting my life. I often think about his wife and hate her because I am so consumed with jealousy/envy. I wonder if their marriage is good. I wonder if they have a good sex life and those thoughts eat...
240 I've cheated on my husband for...
I've cheated on my husband for the past 2 1/2 years with his best friend. (who's also married)When my husband found out 6 months ago, at first, he was angry. But the idea of me being with another man excited him. So now I'm allowed to sleep with his best friend only. Except, I don't like my husband knowing...
241 I have been married to a wonderful...
I have been married to a wonderful man for the past 5 years, I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him.....he has three children from a previous marriage and I love them dearly as well. My problem lies in my relationship with the children's mother. I have tried and tried to make things...
242 I am not sure what the root of...
I am not sure what the root of this is....I have a tendancy towards destructive behavior such as food and porn when I am feeling hurt. I have done many things that I really regret. I have talked about most of them with my wife and for the first time in 18 years of marriage we are actually growing closer....
243 I recently left my husband and...
I recently left my husband and his kids w/my child from a previous marriage. All we did was fight. He would say something about my child and I would ignore it. Since we have moved I have seen all of it and more that my child is doing. I broke my husbands heart. He told me if I moved out that he...
244 I am divorced now of a 20 year...
I am divorced now of a 20 year marriage. My husband rejected me and was unable to "show up" emotionally. He was addicted to pornography and lied about finances. I was faithful until the end. I almost had an affair one year before we separated. I resisted but almost had a nervous breakdown. I confessed...
245 My husband won't let me leave our...
My husband won't let me leave our marriage. I've been together with my husband for 12 years married in 2001 and we have a 10 year old son. My husband is abusive both physically and mentally. I belive he has mental issues, it runs in his family. He is also an alcholic. He's just destoryed our lives financially...
246 I had an affair on my husband between...
I had an affair on my husband between March and May of this year. It started as a one time one night drunkin deal well neither him nor I could do this. So we kept it up. My husband was very suspicious of us but never had any proof and he will never have any. The worst case scinerio happened and I fell...
247 I am a Christ follower, but i confess...
I am a Christ follower, but i confess that i have allowed my girlfriend and i to live together unmarried. We have been dating for two years. We were friends for a year before we started dating. She was not a believer at that time, and i was. I had given my life to Jesus Christ a couple years before...
248 I did some lesbian stuff with my...
I did some lesbian stuff with my friends and I layed on top of my boyfriend naked. I felt so slutty and worthless. I want God to forgive me. I'm afraid of not getting any affection but I am still a virgin and I hope to be one till marriage.
249 I am married to a wonderful man....
I am married to a wonderful man. He is my best friend. Together, we have 4 children. I had one child from my preivious marriage and he had two from his. We have one child together and one on the way. A big family! All is well except for one thing, I cannot stand one of his children from his previous...
250 I am So angry. I defended my country,...
I am So angry. I defended my country, i was a good husband and father, and soldier. i betrayed my wife one time home on leave to get back at her for doing this to me early in our marriage of 9 yrs. She did the same to me while i was in combat. I found out on my return. I am riddled with guilt of not...
251 I am so afraid, so confused. I...
I am so afraid, so confused. I have had so many life changes in the past 2 years... My middle child died of an overdose, my invalid mother(I was the full time caretaker of her for six years) died 3 months latter and then 4 months after that I found out that my husband of 25 years had been living a double...
252 I pray inconsistently and I do...
I pray inconsistently and I do not go to church allthough I liked church as a child. My parents never went to church and my foster father later became angry an God (and still is). I remember my life from about the age of 2. My mother was addicted to drugs, alchol, and violent relationships and my father...
253 I feel that I have been called...
I feel that I have been called to serve in ministry, but I am struggling with an addiction to gay porn. I'm tired of the excuses I make for falling into this temptation and fear for how this may affect my marriage, family and work. Please pray for me to overcome this so I can clear my heart and mind...
254 I have been dating my girlfriend...
I have been dating my girlfriend for over 2 years now and we have had our fair share of physical activity. I feel like at times our relationship is deeper than that and other times not. It seems to have gotten out of control.I'm not sure if this is the woman for me or not. She talks of marriage but I'm...
255 I am currently cheating on my wife...
I am currently cheating on my wife and it is so stressful that it is causing a problem in my house by me having to lie all the time to try and cover it up, I feel it will only be a matter of time before my wife finds out, and to say the truth my wife is a pretty decent person, and i dont kow what moved...
256 For years I kept myself pure but...
For years I kept myself pure but then slowly decided that what I had been told about God must be a lie. I started looking at porn and then having sex anytime I could. I completely fell away from God rejecting Him, hating Him. I found myself angry, abusive to the girls I would sleep with punishing them...
257 I love my wife dearly. We are...
I love my wife dearly. We are heavily involved in church and have been for years. We have 2 beautiful kids and a wonderful marriage, but with one problem. I like to have sex with other men. She has no idea. I also masturbate a lot, almost daily. When I do meet other men, I have an overwhelming...
258 I am a devout believer in abstinence...
I am a devout believer in abstinence until marriage. Recently I met a girl who does not share this view. I thought I could be strong, I thought she'd respect my view. I was at her house for dinner and we added some alcohol to the mix, petting and kissing followed. Finally she started to remove clothing...
259 I have been married to my husband...
I have been married to my husband for 20 years. Like every married couple, we have had our share of problems in our marriage. I think I got married expecting a fairy tale life. Some days i sit and try to remember the feeling of innocence when I was a child. I came to learn my husband has an obsession...
260 My addiction started progressively....
My addiction started progressively. I have been a christian for years, but I dabbled in porn such as magazines. It progressed to the internet and then television and video stores. I confessed to my wife and sometimes she caught me. We had been married for about 17 years and she put up with it all...
261 My husband and I haven't had sex...
My husband and I haven't had sex in over three years, and it kills me. I pray and pray about it, but God doesn't seem to answer. Why wouldn't he want us to experience that closeness in our marriage when it is part of His plan? I also struggle with viewing pornography and masturbating. I find myself...
262 I was Mormon, and married in the...
I was Mormon, and married in the temple. I was a virgin when I married. I was a true and faithful wife until I was 41. I had been married for 23 years. I had a affair and then another and another. I can't even tell you have many men there were. And I wasn't in love with them. I felt terrible about myself....
263 My husband and I have been married...
My husband and I have been married for about 6 years. About 4 years ago our sex life began dwindling til there was none. We haven't been intimate for over 2 1/2 years, because my husband has told me over and over that he had no desire or drive. We had tried everything including having him see doctors...
264 I am scared. I was abused as a...
I am scared. I was abused as a young child by my birth father and later adpoted bu by step-father. I love both my father (that adopted me) and my mother very much but I am lost. I got pregnant at 16 while i was still in high school. I have my daughter now. Back in 2004 I got married to my husband and...
265 My secret is that I am full of...
My secret is that I am full of self- loathing over sins that I have committed in the past... before Christ AND after. I cannot seem to get past the hatred of myself & the shame I feel for the things that I've done (adultery which resulted in my marriage breaking up; I've been married three times (currently...
266 I am Catholic and my Catholic website...
I am Catholic and my Catholic website mentioned your website on its news section. I want to go to a sacramental confession but I can't for the maintime so I decided to do it in your website. I am from the Philippines , male and in my 40's. I just got married five months ago. My wife doesnt know my secret.I was...
267 I am ashamed of everything about...
I am ashamed of everything about myself. There is so much that I hate. I have debt, I am untalented and overweight. I am incompetent in work and a bad housekeeper. I have overbearing guilt in my marriage. I know that I am not good enough for my husband. I contemplate ending my life so that he can be...
268 I was addicted to pornography during...
I was addicted to pornography during high school. With God's help I was able to get control of it. I didn't want it to ruin my life, my marriage or my testimony. I've since gone into the ministry to tell people the great news about God. I'm sad to say that I have found myself looking at some pictures...
269 I love my girlfriend and I hope...
I love my girlfriend and I hope that we will one day be married. It is the intention that we both have. We love God and we love each other. However, I used to have a pornography addiction. While I do not use pornography anymore, I still struggle with lust. Early in our relationship, it was commonplace...
270 I am a female and I am having an...
I am a female and I am having an affair with a married woman. I never intended on this and it was actually her who started the relationship. I don't want to break up their marriage, but I have fallen in love with her. I don't want to hurt either one of them, but I just don't know what to do. Morally,...
271 I'm a guy and I have always felt...
I'm a guy and I have always felt more attracted to men than women. However, one year and a half ago I converted to God because I knew homosexuality was not what he wanted for my life. It's really hard to deal with homo feelings because it's something I haven't decided to feel, it just happened. Since...
272 I have been with my husband for...
I have been with my husband for about 10 years, we have lived together for 4 years before we got married and have now been married almost 12 months. I never wanted kids before we got married, but afterwards, almost straight away i had an urgent desire for them. My husband always said clearly, that he...
273 My finance admitted his pornography...
My finance admitted his pornography addiction to me a few months before we got engaged. I feel like if I marry him, he might fall back into the trap and we'll have a miserable marriage. But if i leave him, I feel like I wouldn't be showing forgiveness and love. I don't want to share my husband with other...
274 I would like to confess the fact...
I would like to confess the fact that I had an adulterous affair before I chose to leave my husband of 16 years. After I left him, i tried my best to put all the blame on him for my marriage breaking up. Even though my lawyers told me to never confess to adultery, it has eaten me alive that I never had...
275 I am in a troubled marriage. When...
I am in a troubled marriage. When my husband was deployed to Iraq, I honestly thought that my life would be better and easier if he were killed in action. I love my husband, but we have a lot of problems, and I am not in love with him. I do not feel passion for him. We fight a lot. We have children...
276 I am a 21 year old college student...
I am a 21 year old college student that loves Jesus more than anything. Then why do I deal with this addiction. I've hurt myself, my marriage bed, my relationship with my future wife, my God, my mind. I've been wanting to break this addiction for six years now and I've finally had enough of it. Just...
277 Gambling.... the epitome of a wolf...
Gambling.... the epitome of a wolf in sheeps clothing. Recently this "sport" has not only become more acceptable, but even more accessible. I was born in a gambling family, and lets just say this curse has been passed down all to easily. I remember gambling being a part of my life as early as 10 years...
278 I'm in LOVE with a woman who entered...
I'm in LOVE with a woman who entered my life six years ago. I'm on my second marrriage and want so so much to be in LOVE with the person who I call my wife. My first marriage was to my high school sweet heart and I have a wonderful child from that marriage. My first wife left me for another man and...
279 When my husband and I first started...
When my husband and I first started dating, I found out that he had cheated on me while he was drunk at a party... In a heartbroken attemp to be close to someone, I slept with his best friend and it broke my heart. Even though he had hurt me, I still felt so awful. Two wrongs don't make a right. ...
280 i'm 5'4 and 120lbs. i feel like...
i'm 5'4 and 120lbs. i feel like i'm chubby and take diet pills and exercise only to be followed with binging 2x a week. i am a nearly perfect student and the class clown. i will be obtaining my second b.s. degree this year. this one is in biology. people tell me i'm pretty but they don't believe i could...
281 I am really not sure how to begin....
I am really not sure how to begin. I have been married to a wonderful man. But have lied to him several times. To the point the trust is gone. I love my husband and don't understand why I lie to him. I just got caught in a lie, a couple of days ago. I told him I had a job interview for a managemnt position...
282 I have many things to confess....
I have many things to confess. I have had affairs while being married. I have taken drugs to numb myself to the problems I was having in my marriage and my life. The drugs also numbed my morals. I can never confess these to my husband. I have asked the Lord for forgiveness and know it is said that if...
283 I don't have much of a secret other...
I don't have much of a secret other than I cannot trust my husband. I have tried to talk to him about why (I think I know the reason), but he just doesn't listen. I honestly don't think he cares. We got married because I got pregnant in high school. I was stupid, and I have never told anyone and...
284 i was raped at age 14 by a boy...
i was raped at age 14 by a boy that my mother thought was just it....we never dated...he was our paperboy...i never told anyone until i had been married for 25 years....it still haunts me everyday not so much the rape but the fact that i didn't do anything about it...this boy's brothers all knew what...
285 this confession seems to belong...
this confession seems to belong to a lot of categories, but i guess "double life" should cover it all. i am a youth leader in our church, the eldest of the children in our family, a sunday school teacher, Bible Study leader. people look up to me and they think i'm so scarily perfect. i had a boyfriend,...
286 Several years ago my wife said...
Several years ago my wife said that she did not want to have sex anymore. Since then we have had sex infrequently for a few years with the instances getting fewer and further between. Now I believe that we have not had sex in over a year. I have turned to masturbation but I am quilty about it and...
287 i am 35 years okd and have been...
i am 35 years okd and have been married for almost four years I married a man I didnt love.I married him because i thought he would be finacially stable for me and my son. I really wanted to make me marriage work for the first year i really tried my husband was a good provider. but he was emotionally...
288 I waited for marriage to have sex,...
I waited for marriage to have sex, but my husband cheated on me 6 years ago so I sent him on his way. He treated me badly. We never got a divorce. I've been with many men since then and have loved a few. I have met my mate for life, and it seems like I have had the opportunity to start over. I feel guilty...
289 I knew that I didn't love my husband...
I knew that I didn't love my husband when I married him, I just wanted to give my kids a father, problem is he isn't a good falther so now I am stuck with a man that I don't love and I have to have sex with him. he has a lot of porn and I don't even care. I would rather he look at porn than me. I pray...
290 MY CONFESSION IS I AM A LIAR..I...
MY CONFESSION IS I AM A LIAR..I LIE ABOUT EVERYTHING..IT HAS COST ME RELATIONSHIPS WITH MY FRIENDS AND MY FAMILY..IT HAS COST ME 2 MARRIAGES..I AM NOT AN ALCOHOLIC OR DRUG ADDICT..I AM JUST A LIAR...I MAKE THINGS UP JUST TO HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY..I KNOW ITS WRONG BUT DO IT ANYWAY..I HATE IT..I HATE IT...
291 I'm a young female... and growing...
I'm a young female... and growing up in this day and age, the media and almost everyone around you just forget that god wants us to wait till marriage to have sex. because of this lack of careing from almost everyone, especially in my area... i tend to feel the same. like i didnt care anymore, and went...
292 I was involved with a married man....
I was involved with a married man. He was not married when we started dating - but while we were dating he got another girl pregnate and he had married her. I cont. to date him because she had "trapped" him into marriage by getting pregnate (yeah - right). He kept saying that he only married her because...
293 I have long wanted to have an affair...
I have long wanted to have an affair with someone, but 1 particular person at church. For 3 years I have been so sexually attracted to her, but I haven't acted on these thoughts. I've stopped masturbating and thinking of her, because it's not real. As I've realized that the fantacy will never happen,...
294 I am what I thought "On Fire for...
I am what I thought "On Fire for the Lord". My husband is not the church type and he feels if he lives a life that is pleasing to God- he is acting like an old man and he still wants to have fun. Anyway, we have a lot of issues with our marriage literally fist fighting in front of our kids, cursing,...
295 I have a one year old son. Born...
I have a one year old son. Born and concieved out of wedlock. I know this is Sin, and even though the best intentions where planned at that time (marriage, future,etc)... It's hard for me to admit it to others but sometimes I wish he hadn't been concieved, or that he was from her cheating on me. My shame...
296 My mother thinks that I am still...
My mother thinks that I am still a virgin until marriage. I lost my virginity at 19 and don't know how to tell her. Even more, I have had ten partners in less than two years. I don't think she could handle knowing.
297 I sm 27 years of age and have been...
I sm 27 years of age and have been married for 10 years now.For so long, I have been carrying a big load over my shoulders. At times like now, I look back at my life and wish my past were different. To start, at the age of 17 I was having an affair with a man who was my co-worker. I soon turned 18, and...
298 I used to: drink heavliy ( I still...
I used to: drink heavliy ( I still have a beer now & then very rarely), use drugs, was sexually active, comitted adultury with a married man & when I was married, watched porn, masturbated, curse (still do) and addicted to cigs, still smoke pot, steal, lie, regret me first marriage to a drunk,...
299 My marriage was over and I was...
My marriage was over and I was so alone, I met a man on the internet... Met up with him and had sex for an entire afternoon, then kept seeing him. He was using me so much and I knew but I ended up giving him presents and money until I was so far in debt I had go forward with a divorce to hide the debt...
300 I am married and have been for...
I am married and have been for 14 years. I married young and haven't ever really been happy with my husband. I felt it was my duty to stay for the sake of our son. I am still in the marriage, but have another life that I lead. I joined a web site for swingers with my married boyfriend and we have sex...
301 It's hard to categorize this confession.....
It's hard to categorize this confession.. Shame is the best category, I suppose. Let's sum it up - two abortions around 1994-95. I am so, so sorry I had to do that. I didn't want to hurt my family any more than what I already had, and I didn't want to shame myself any more than I already had. It gets...
302 I have been a very sexual being...
I have been a very sexual being since I was 5 or 6 years old. I used to get my "boyfriends" over to my house and mess around with them. I started masturbating around then too. I got into the 6th grade and when wrestling around with one of my friends, I realized that I was very attracted to girls as well...
303 For the 19 years I was married...
For the 19 years I was married I never cheated. Then I found him molesting our daughter, we tried counseling and I was led to believe that all was better. I prayed a lot back then, but all was not better. He started acting like a lunatic. I finally got the strength to file for divorce. This hurt...
304 Last night had sex with my first...
Last night had sex with my first cousin by marriage. Im 36 she's 21.
305 I cheated on my husband just before...
I cheated on my husband just before our 3rd wedding anniversary. He had left for military training and I became so lonely just longing for his touch. I was a back-slider at this time in my life. I ran into my best friend's ex-husband. He was very flirty and asked if I would have sex with him....
306 This is going to be more difficult...
This is going to be more difficult than I even imagined, but I will try. I have never told anyone before because I am too ashamed and no one would understand. At times, I would like to think I dreamed it, but it is all too real. I was(am)a very shy sheltered girl and really not physically attrative....
307 I have been married for four years....
I have been married for four years. This is my second marriage and I do not want a divorce, however, I am sure that my husband will soon find out that I have been having a "phone" affair with another man. We have not met yet, but I think we soon might. I do not love my husband, and haven't for a long...
308 I had a short fling with a man...
I had a short fling with a man 15 years my senior when i was 19 (which was only about a year and a half ago). He insisted he wasn't married but he would never take me to his house. I started a new job recently and met a woman that I got along with really well. We were talking one day and she mentioned...
309 My husband of 25 years divorced...
My husband of 25 years divorced me for another woman. I married again 6 years ago. I am still in love with my exhusband. the man I am married to is wonderful, I just wish I loved him like he deserves. I am a christian and when I took my vows in both marriages I believe I meant them. I did not want the...
310 I have been afraid to leave my...
I have been afraid to leave my marriage these past 25 years as I would hae to look back at my entire life and realize the kind of person I've been. It is easier to stay and pretend then to leave and acknowledge who and what I truly am.
311 Hello brothers and sisters in Christ...
Hello brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus,I dont know how to begin this and this is really hard for me to do. I have a huge problem with lust. I can remember it starting back when i was a kid from both finding my father's pornographic videos and once when a baby sitter allowed me and another boy to...
312 I married my college sweetheart...
I married my college sweetheart after an 8 year hiatus during which time I had married another man and he had been engaged, but never married. We were sexually active in college, and again when we reconnected later.After dating for about 18 months, we moved in together with my 4 year old daughter. Eighteen...
313 I have a serious problem with pornography...
I have a serious problem with pornography and lust. It is consuming my mind and impairing my ability to have a healthy marriage. I find myself sneaking away to act on this urge rather than spend quality time with my only child. It makes me sick to think of all the other constructive things I could do...
314 i regret so much the conditions...
i regret so much the conditions of my first marriage/divorce, God. basically i left him because he had major surgery followed by a massive stroke. he was not the same person i had married. he was mean to our children and our special dogs on the weekends i brought him home from rehab hospital. i did what...
315 I've been unfaithful in my marriage...
I've been unfaithful in my marriage on various occasions. I've never had sex with anyone else, but I've kissed a few girls since we've been married. 2 weeks ago I went out of town to spend multiple days with a girl. Once again, i didn't have sex but did everything else with her. Last monday I confessed...
316 I had an online affair with another...
I had an online affair with another church member. She was very willing and still would have it continue. We met one time and became physically involved, but I felt so guilty about it I immediately broke it off and went through months of depression and panic attacks. I told my wife of what happened and...
317 I constantly think about sex. I...
I constantly think about sex. I have a boyfriend and we've been dating for a while now but I all think about doing with him is sex. I know I could never go through having sex as young as I am now, but to me it has become an obession. Mainly because I am so curious. My mother is very catholic and strictly...
318 I am surprised and somewhat relieved...
I am surprised and somewhat relieved that I am not the only woman in this category. I have been masturbating since I was 8 years old, since I was sexually abused as a child. I was sexually involved (not really intercourse, though) when I was 13 and 14, and full-blown sexually involved with guys throughout...
319 I have been struggling with sexuality...
I have been struggling with sexuality for a long time. I constantly feel the need to want to have sex with a woman, but I know that I have to wait until marriage because that is the right thing to do. However, I masturbate a lot in order to ease the urge to want to have sex. Whenever I look at a girl,...
320 I DONT KNO WHERE THIS GOES BUT...
I DONT KNO WHERE THIS GOES BUT IM JUST GONNA WRITE EVERYTHING THAT IVE DONE WRONG INTHA PAST1. SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE2. CUSSING3.SMOKE WEED4.TOOK PILLS5.SMOKED CIGGERETTES 6.LIED7.CHEATED ON MY BOYFRIEND8.CHEATED IN SCHOOL9.SMOKED WEED10.PUSHED MY MOM (BUT ONLY CUZ SHE WAS DRUNK AND WOULDNT LISTEN TO ME)11.STOLE...
321 I am a 30 year old wife and mother...
I am a 30 year old wife and mother of 3. over a year ago I suspected my husband of cheating. I was hurt and angry I then turned to one of his close friends. We began an on/off affair for nearly a year. during this time I discovered my husband was cheating he moved in with a young girl he was seeing....
322 After two failed marriages I have...
After two failed marriages I have had huge difficulties in managing my pain. The emotional pain has been so intense at times that I have utilized self inflicted pain, mostly burning of the flesh, to mask or rather distract from what is really hurting me. My three beutiful children have helped me keep...
323 Hi, I really do not know how to...
Hi, I really do not know how to say it, but some how I have to get it off my system. So there it goes: I am a porn addict. Whenever I get alone at home, either I download porn or watch it. My wife does not know that. We have a nice marriage, except for sex. We do not do that more that a couple of times...
324 I am confessing harboring hurt...
I am confessing harboring hurt feeling anger for my exhusband. NH..during our marriage he was sexually active with my then 10 year old niece for 3 years. This has been over 18 yrs and I still carry this pain around with me. I have since forgave him but I can;t seem to let it go completely out of my life....
325 I regret having ever met my husband,...
I regret having ever met my husband, ever falling in love with him, ever marrying him. He is not physically abusive or anything like that. He worse. He has no hopes, dreams, ambitions. I finally grew up. He didn't. He cannot give me what I need and I do not even know what it is he needs anymore. Every...
326 When I was in high school I dated...
When I was in high school I dated a very abusive boy. My father at home, was very verbally abusive. My dating relationship was verbal and eventually became physical. I was afraid to end the relationship,but, finally I did. After ending the relationship, the boy asked me out to dinner on the basis of...
327 I often think about having an online...
I often think about having an online affair with people I talk to on online. I am not satisfied in my marriage and love the attn that I get from men I talk to online. I dont think that I could ever actually go through with it.But the attn sometimes just overcomes me with passion and I would love to make...
328 when i was in 4th grad i fell in...
when i was in 4th grad i fell in love with porn. i never wanted to have sex before marriage so i started heavy masturbating. today im totally addicted to masturbation.i`ll do 6 to 7 seven times a day
329 When I was only fifteen years old,...
When I was only fifteen years old, I did something with a boy I now truely regret.I am not sure if sex before marriage is a sin or not and I don't think anybody can tell me for sure. But from my today's point of view I know I made a mistake. Please forgive me.
330 4 years into our marriage my wife...
4 years into our marriage my wife had an affair with a co-worker. She told me about it and for some strange reason I was sexually excited by it. I mean, I am not a jealous person by nature and was not angry ... I just felt aroused that someone other than me saw my wife as a sexual person and she felt...
331 My wife confessed to me that she...
My wife confessed to me that she had slept with some men while since we got married. She told me it was because I wasn't well endowed and couldn't satisfy her in bed. I later found out that she was sleeping with several men at work. She started to come home later and later. I would be in bed. She...
332 For years I have worked to make...
For years I have worked to make sure I have asked forgivness of those I have harmed and given forginess to those who have harmed me. After a sermon on the topic, that used some 12 step rules. . .I took inventory of my heart. I made adjustments and asked for forgivness of many and also forgave. . .but...
333 This weekend is the fifth anniversary...
This weekend is the fifth anniversary of my failed marriage. I have been clean and sober for two years. My husband and I have been living apart for two years. This summer, I finally gave up hope that he would ever change into a mature, responsible man. He's been trying to spend more time with me of late...
334 I lost my 1st marriage to pornography,...
I lost my 1st marriage to pornography, and now I am in jeopardy of losing my 2nd. I am happy to say I faced this sin months ago and as of the past several months I have stayed away from it. I use to tell myself it was ok to look, because I really own looked at what I called 'soft porn' - just naked woman....
335 I have been married to a wonderful...
I have been married to a wonderful women for nearly 17 years. In our first year of marriage, in a alcoholic haze, I committed adultry against her with another man. I am sickened by even writing this. I also view porn on the internet and have talked to other men via phone sex lines. I struggle with...
336 i am in love with two women. and...
i am in love with two women. and the woman i currently live with wants to marry me. i will never marry her and only continue to stay in this comfortable place because i am fearful-as it is i busted up her marriage to have her be with me. i am emotionally cheating every single day i breathe..... i...
337 I had a terrible child hood, growing...
I had a terrible child hood, growing up with two alcoholic parent/step parent(s). I thank god for my grandmother who gave me my morals and taught me about god and such. However, during the course of my life, I have been lied too, had relatives steal from me, cheated on, broken promises, married to get...
338 My husband is bisexual! He just...
My husband is bisexual! He just told me this after 13 yrs of marriage. I would have never guessed. (although, now I can remember moments where I should have questioned, but never did imagined this). I did catch him looking at porn late at night, a few times. I am so confused by his confession that I...
339 I love my husband very much, but...
I love my husband very much, but I am so weak. I have had relations with a few other men during our marriage, and I know it is wrong. My husband doesnt know about any of my affairs, and he thinks both of our children are his, but I am not sure about one of them. The other possible father knows, and...
340 I am a recovering alcoholic (18...
I am a recovering alcoholic (18 years sober). My wife and I have not had any intimacy (no sex, kissing, cuddling or any kind of affection) for 19 years now. Apparently her Sicilian culture forbids any intimacy with an alcoholic. To be married to one is considered a great tragedy. It is never forgiven...
341 I hate my marriage and I hate my...
I hate my marriage and I hate my husband. I think that my life would be so much happier if he would just disappear. Please pray for that to happen.
342 I do not love my husband, and...
I do not love my husband, and have not for many years. Truth be told, I don't even love him, and often fnd him to be disgusting. Very often I find myself hating him. I fear the ramifications of divorce, and so I simply wish he were dead. I spent my youth steadfast in my desire never to get married....
343 I have been in a hopeless loveless...
I have been in a hopeless loveless marriage for 27 years. My husband got the flu on our honeymoon and has been either physically or mentally ill ever since. No lie. He got sunburned on our honeymoon and used that as an excuse not to have sex. Then we came home from our honeymoon, moved in with his...
344 About five years ago my 20 year...
About five years ago my 20 year marriage ended by my husband having an affair and then wanting to end the marriage. Being a licensed preacher he didn't know how the "divorce thing" would work, so he came up with at least 2 different plans on how he would kill me. God watched out for me, and instead...
345 When I was 14, I started dating...
When I was 14, I started dating a girl, who was gorgeous and very smart (later became the school's valedictorian). In my teens with her, I felt invincable, yet I always wondered about being single again. After my first year of college, I broke up with her. At the time, I felt as if I had freedom. A year...
346 Whenever I go somewhere new, and...
Whenever I go somewhere new, and meet new guys I pick out the one that looks good and that I think I could have a relationship with I begin lusting after them. It can last months of me lusting after them. I will plan out a relationship with them, even a marriage. I want to stop, and I want to stop putting...
347 Before I was married, I had 2 affairs...
Before I was married, I had 2 affairs with married men. One affair was discovered and the other was never discovered. Now that I'm married I have carried on the guilt of those sins to my own marriage. I feel like I'm not worthy of a good man's love and that eventually since I've hurt other people I'm...
348 I did a few porn movies during...
I did a few porn movies during the first part of my marriage, My husband knows about them though
349 I completely lied to my husband...
I completely lied to my husband about my entire life for the first few months of our marriage until my mom told him the truth
350 I've always cared for my sister...
I've always cared for my sister even after she got married. I've always dreamed about having sex with my sister during her marriage. Since her husband has died my feelings have gotten stronger. Even as a little kid I wanted to sleep with her. One vacation the family went to a beach for a convention...
351 I have very bad relationships with...
I have very bad relationships with people. I really don't like being around them. I'm always questioning why people talk to me. Most people say that I very nice and pleasant to be around, but I don't see how. Every relationship I've had has fallen apart. My marriage ended in divorce after about five...
352 I have been married for over 15...
I have been married for over 15 years to a man who is much older. The age wasn't an issue in the beginning. Now, with his age and MANY health issues, our sex life has gone to zero. I have started having a sexual relationship with someone I was involved with before my marriage....and old feelings are...
353 My marriage (my second) is a giant...
My marriage (my second) is a giant mistake. A long time ago my wife admitted that she loved me but was no longer in love with me. Now I have reached the point where I no longer love her. I believe that we stay together for our son who is sometimes a pawn in our lives. Materially we have everything. As...
354 I have been in an abusive marriage...
I have been in an abusive marriage for 8 years. My husband has beat me, called me very foul names, he forces me to do preverse things in bed, he has raped me, he has called my son names,he has promised and attempted to kill me on several times, I know one day he will kill me and there is nothing I can...
355 I am overwhelmed most of the time.I...
I am overwhelmed most of the time.I am not sure how to get out of it. I had put myself in the situation I can't figure the way out. I have no family here, I am married to the man I despise who, in turn, absolutely hates me. We don't talk anymore. Mostly he yells and I say "enough".I don't want to even...
356 My husband and I have been married...
My husband and I have been married for 15 years. Everyone thinks our marriage is the perfect marriage, but there is one problem no one knows about. I don't love him and I never have. I love him but I'm not in love with him. I never wanted the relationship to go this far. He loves me so much that I truly...
357 I grew up in a very abusive home...
I grew up in a very abusive home - verbally and physically. Both my olders sister's got pregnant very young on purpose to get out of the house. I was left alone. No-one to talk to. My Mom and Dad fought all the time, then after he would leave to meet his girlfriend she would take all of her rage on me.She...
358 I used to look at pornos/magazines...
I used to look at pornos/magazines in college, and had a very sexual perverted mind. I think my past choices have affected my marriage sex life. My husband and I both had abortions with our girl.boyfriends at the time. I feel like God has totally forgiven me with much grace, but I hope He will now heal...
359 Ive lied to my husband about how...
Ive lied to my husband about how many men I gone out with while our marriage was on the rocks. Ive lied about how many men Ive almost had sex with besides him. I lied about the secrets of my infidelity constantly. I love my husband, but I think I love another man too who is married.
360 I was so unhappy with you that...
I was so unhappy with you that I actively searched for someone else. I found him and never even told him I was married. Six months later, we continue to see one another. This affair has totally destroyed my marriage, and it is my fault. I know once he moves 700 miles away next month, I will leave...
361 I was sexually and physically abused...
I was sexually and physically abused as a child. I think the afteraffects have ruined my marriage. I regret never telling anyone my problems before it was too late.
362 I've been a Christian since age...
I've been a Christian since age 16. Raised in a Christian home.Married 24 years..5 kids.In 1997 my whole world came apart. At the time my then-husband and I were small group leaders at a Vineyard church. Our daughter ran away from home. Turns out she was on drugs majorly and been sexually abused by her...
363 I've been sleeping with a married...
I've been sleeping with a married man for over 8 years. It started before my marriage ended. His wife is a friend of mine, but I don't like her much and have no respect for her because she's a Sunday Christian who takes and sells drugs to keep up her extravagant lifestyle...I know this doesn't excuse...
364 By day and afternoon, I am an escort.....
By day and afternoon, I am an escort.. I meet guys from the web who are unsatisfied in their marriages or relationships and well, make money off of the companionship I share with them for a few hours. By nite i am a loving mom who has a dark secret which I wont give up right away as I am able to pay...
365 My husband mistakenly discharged...
My husband mistakenly discharged his weapon in our home.......some say I over reacted when I told him to leave....he left ... 18 months ago .I feel I let him and our marriage down ...It eats me up for not being more understanding...I love him and I have felt like I do not care to go on without him, however...
366 I chose abuse because I was...
I chose abuse because I was abused..'sexually, physically, verbally,and emtionally, first by Uncle, my stepfather, and my spouse". In pain I have retaliated abuse upon others in many ways and forms, and I have abused myself with first alcohol, drugs, and now food and prescription drugs.My adopted...
367 im 21, just got out of a long relationship...
im 21, just got out of a long relationship where we had sex before marriage, we lived to gether alos, i feel bad, i really do, sometimes im confused beacsse im not sure if god is really looking out for me, i mean things happen whyyyyy....its not fair, life isnt fairr, anyways, so i moved home got my...
368 For the longest time now I have...
For the longest time now I have been struggling with my marriage and my husband ever since our daughter passed away last year while she was 11 days old. I have doubted him in our relationship and his honesty to me he has seemed to disappear since we lost her and did a complete flip from who he was. Now...
369 This is a relief to me to find...
This is a relief to me to find a web site that you can let it all out..I have been hurting inside for many many years. I was very happy married to a man I loved, but he did not give me the attention that I needed or wanted. I met this guy who gave me attention and I was attracted to him. I started...
370 hello, I dont really know how to...
hello, I dont really know how to do this as I have never been very religous.I think I have come to a point in my life where I have begun to realize that maybe god is what, or who I need. I am 36yrs old, have a "wonderful" wife I have been with for 7 yrs, no kids, a small business that is probably failing,...
371 I never thought I would talk about...
I never thought I would talk about this. Today I was praying about my problems and I stumbled across this web site. So where to start........I guess at least I know that I am not the only female that struggles with lust. It seems silly that woman would struggle with lust because so much at church's is...
372 I don't know why my life is falling...
I don't know why my life is falling apart. I am angry, sad, lonely you name it. I feel like I am always here for everyone but noone is EVER here for me. Why is that I am a good person I work, take care of my children, my husband, parents, but yet noone seems to care about me. I can't tell you the last...
374 i dont know when i became addicted......
i dont know when i became addicted... i was sexually abused at a young age and have always had a skewed view of sex. always fantasized about it with many different men who have been in and out of my life. whether they were friends or authority figures or who ever. it didnt matter. i had sex before...
375 I am a married man with a wonderful...
I am a married man with a wonderful wife and beautiful daughter. I love them both and yet I still make terrible decisions that risk my marriage, my daughter's stability, and my health by having sexual contact with escorts. I feel shame, but I do not correct my behavior. I continually lust after women...
376 I had sex before marriage.
I had sex before marriage.
377 I have been in love with a married...
I have been in love with a married man for almost nine years...I have never touched this man, but have left both of my marriages each time he has popped into my life...crazy, huh? Sometimes I fear that when I am eighty years old, I will still be waiting for him. Why can't I be happy with the relationship...
378 I have failed so miserably in marriage...
I have failed so miserably in marriage that it's not even an option for me any longer. I wonder what God thinks of me now. I've lost hope for anything good for me.
379 I had a very long sexual relationship...
I had a very long sexual relationship with a man who was married and a father of three. I knew about his family but still wanted to break up his marriage. I thought he would be happier with me.
380 I'm a guy that was sexually abused...
I'm a guy that was sexually abused when i was about 8 years old till i was 12 by this older man that use to live with us. I never told my dad or any of my relatives. I was scared. I didn't really know what was going on. It happened to several of my other guy and girl cousins, as well. We never said anything....
381 I fear marriage. Guys cheat...its...
I fear marriage. Guys cheat...its in their nature. I'm 23 and I don't think even in 10 years I'll want to get married. Every woman I've ran into has been cheated on. Men can't be happy with one woman. WHY? Why do they cheat? Why does it always have to involve sex? Divorce scares me too. What else do...
382 I cheated on my ex-fiance with...
I cheated on my ex-fiance with a married man. I never told my fiance, even after I called the marriage and relationship off. I miss the fun times I had when I was with the married man.
383 I am gay and had sex with more...
I am gay and had sex with more than 20 men the last 3 years. However, I am a respected member of the American Family Association and have supported anti-gay marriage legislation.
384 I have been vowing to save my virginity...
I have been vowing to save my virginity until marriage all my life. Then 2 weeks after my 20th birthday, I had sex with one of my best friends. He said that he was in love with me and wanted to start a relationship. 4 days later, I went to a party, got drunk, and had sex with one of my friends... not...
385 I was married twice before my current...
I was married twice before my current marriage, both "quickie" marriages that lasted less than 3 months each. My current husband thinks they were just boyfriends.
386 My boyfriend proposed but now he...
My boyfriend proposed but now he is taking those feelings back. He seems to change his mind everyother day about our relationship. I know that he has has sexual relationship with other men in the past but he tells me that part of his life is over. I just can't seem to forget about those years. I know...
387 I still have sex out of marriage....
I still have sex out of marriage. My father is a preacher and I know I should know better. But it seems like as much as I want to abstain having a guy like me when I put out over takes that. I also masturbate to gay and incestual erotica. I need help.
388 I am married for almost a year...
I am married for almost a year now and love my wife with all my heart. I have cheated on her several times with about 4 woman so far though out us dating and our marriage lord please forgive me for I am saddened I know I love my wife I just did it for my own selfish reasons...
389 I went to a chruch were if you...
I went to a chruch were if you wern't from a high class you were nothing to these people. i was on the worship team and my mom was doing the daycare on wensday when i was singing and she was also working in the childrens department one day awe talked about something in the bible and my family was used...
390 I was married for almost 15 years,...
I was married for almost 15 years, had multiple affairs in my last year of marriage. I left my husband and I know that I hurt him very deeply. I carry the guilt and pain of the affairs and that I hurt someone who loved me so much. I have been divorced for 6 years now and I still feel horrible for what...
391 I'VE BEEN HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH...
I'VE BEEN HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH A YOUNGER GUY. LIFE IS GOOD AT HOME AND THERE WAS ONLY MINIMAL DISCOMFORTS IN THE MARRIAGE- NO EXCUSES TO SEEK AFFECTION SOMEWHERE ELSE. I FEEL BAD LYING TO BOTH MEN BUT I NEED ADVENTURE...MY LIFE IS BORING AND HAVING AN AFFAIR BRINGS THE MUCH NEEDED EXCITEMENT. GOD PLEASE...
392 I am completely in love with a...
I am completely in love with a man I have never met in person. We are both the same age, 18. He feels the same as I do. As far as I know, we are the only people that know about it. Atleast until we are together. We have plans for marriage, living arrangements. We even talk about children from time to...
393 I have been married two times.....in...
I have been married two times.....in the first marriage I actually hated my husband....he was very cruel to me...cheated on me all the time and even gave me crabs one time right after I had my first baby. Then I met a new person in my life who gave me all the love I needed....and that is what started...
394 I have always had an attraction...
I have always had an attraction to males (i am male) and females. In high school the feelings and the urges to experience another male became overwhelming. i succumbed to my temptation and became sexually active with other males. so far 7. I am now a college student and am committed in a serious relationship(with...
395 Where do I start? I could say some...
Where do I start? I could say some things about my addiction to porn and alcohol but I guess the main guilt I have is when I cheated on my wife. We were married almost 6 years and she was diagnosed with a life threatening disease 5 years into the marriage. She was already a depressed person but this...
396 I made a promise to God and my...
I made a promise to God and my parents that I wouldn't have sex till marriage. I then, had a boyfriend of 2 years and things went to fast and I lost my virginity. Now, all I want to do is have sex and i don't respect my body and who I am as a person. I am ashamed of myself. Even if God can forgive me,...
397 What isn't my confession about?Six...
What isn't my confession about?Six years ago my father was taken to prison for molesting two of my friends from this neighborhood I lived in. My whole life came crashing down. My family lives in poverty, we barely get by. I have hated my father ever since.I don't understand how he could do this to us.Were...
398 My husband of 22 years had a relationship...
My husband of 22 years had a relationship with a woman at work who is also married or at least was. Even though he says the realtionship was not physical he talked to her more in one month on his cell phone than he talked to me in years. When I found out about it I confronted him and her and they both...
399 I have been cheating on my husband...
I have been cheating on my husband for almost a year. At first I told mylself it was because my husband was never there for me, that he didn't really care about me. But I know it is wrong, I feel bad about it all the time. The man I am cheating with is very emotional and will do anything for me. He wants...
400 I was raped by my brother's friend...
I was raped by my brother's friend one night when he slept over. I didn't say anything to anyone about it- so of course he came back another weekend. That time- I don't really know if it was rape because I knew he would probably try again-- and he did. I didn't want to, and I told him to leave me alone,...
401 My life is in a downhill spiral....
My life is in a downhill spiral. I have been separated from my husband for almost a year after being married for 9 months. During the entire time of our marriage/separation, I have had sex more than once with 2 old boyfriends. My husband never knew and I've never told him. He was away from home a lot...
402 I just started dating my best friend...
I just started dating my best friend of three years, and I keep thinking that since I have known him for so long and how close we are, that it's ok to have sex with with him. I know I should save it for marriage, but I am so confused. Please, pray for me, to give me strength to hold it out until I am...
403 I have been married for almost...
I have been married for almost 6 years. My husband is in the Navy and was depolyed within the first year of our marriage. Thats the first time I cheated on him. I continuted to cheat. I even had long term realtionships with other men. My husband and I had a child and I stopped for a while but when my...
404 I was involved in an extramarital...
I was involved in an extramarital affair with a woman who was also married when we met. We both knew the risks of our situtation. We were going to leave our respective marriages.My confession is that after a year, I still think about her all the time. I want to contact her but I know it will not be healthy...
405 I have knowingly had sexual relationships...
I have knowingly had sexual relationships with married men and I feel very bad about what I've done. Years ago when I was married my husband cheated on me. He was my 1st love and I was so hurt that it almost killed me. His adultery broke my heart and I left him. We got divorced. After that I didn't care...
406 I have spent many years seeking...
I have spent many years seeking God and the truth. The more I search, the more elusive He becomes. I once prayed that he find me a girlfriend, as I did not trust my own judgement in women. I then met a girl from a religous family. They tried to help me find God. They were wonderful, uplifting and an...
407 my father verbally and emotionally...
my father verbally and emotionally abused me as a child. my mother did nothing, said nothing and avoided me as much as possible therfore neglecting me. my brother was constantly trying to molest me and eventhough intercourse never took place, my sexual life has always been negative. I got married and...
408 I really could have picked more...
I really could have picked more than one category to describe what I'm experiencing. I am totally upset--mostly with myself--and of course, the "other" person with whom I've been involved. My story is a long one; I've wanted to have someone with whom to share this awful secret--I feel like such a hypocrite,...
409 My ex-husband ended our 12 year...
My ex-husband ended our 12 year marriage in order to become a Catholic priest. We have been divorced for 6 years. Once our children turn 18 years old in 4 more years, my ex-husband can apply to seminary and then take holy orders. He is currently enrolled at a university studying for his master's degree...
410 Lust and masterbation are drugs.When...
Lust and masterbation are drugs.When you masterbate your brain releases endorphines and it is tentamout to drug abuse. You want it again and again.As such, we must realize this and seek help in order to stop masterbation, watching porn, and such before it gets worse and you act on your lustful inhibitions.I...
411 My marriage is going through a...
My marriage is going through a rough time. I caught my husband cheating on me again for the hundredth time with the same woman. I am devastated and my heart is in a million pieces. I want so bad to make him hurt like I hurt. I want to cheat on him and let him catch me so that he can feel the pain I feel....
412 Where do I start? Sometimes I think...
Where do I start? Sometimes I think God can't even stand the thought of me, and other times I don't even think He's real at all. In ways, I'm sort of a scientist, because I always try to find the most logical explanation behind everything that happens. The problem is, that always seems to leave God out...
413 My husband used to watch pornography...
My husband used to watch pornography all the time for the first 2 years of our marriage. I would get so upset with him for sneeking at night and watching it and watching it when I was gone with the kids. So he has stopped watching it and for the last 2 years has not wanted anything to do with pornography....
414 I have been addicted to Marijuana...
I have been addicted to Marijuana and Pornagraphy for about 28 years and Lord God I WANT OUT. I can go 6 months or so without it but only about a week till I am overcome and give in again. I think it has affected my mind, my job, and my marriage in a negative way.
415 I had an affair with a married...
I had an affair with a married man. I didn't know that he was married till three years later when his wife called me after i text messaged his phone. The worst part is that I continued to see him after I found out. The feelings were still there. I feel awful knowing that I've commited adultery. I wanted...
416 After a marriage on the rocks,...
After a marriage on the rocks, I realize that maybe I'm at the point where I want to look for the man that will complete me. A man I can love and one that will love me as a man.
417 I had sex before marriage and I...
I had sex before marriage and I feel absolutely horrible. I don't stop thinking about the sin or my future husband. It is consuming my life and I just want it to end. I wish I could take it back. I want to be pure and virtuous again.
418 For about a year now, a married...
For about a year now, a married woman has been pursuing me online, assuming that i am someone else. When i told her that i wasn't the person she thought i was, she didn't belive me, she insisted i am who she thinks i am. I don't know how to make her stop, i've tried playing along with "the game", but...
419 My husband cheated on me repeatedly....
My husband cheated on me repeatedly. I thought it was my fault, that I wasn't good enough. After he hired a bodyguard for me because of threats, my bodyguard and I became very close. He is much younger than I. Finally, we became lovers. I wonder what God thinks about my attitude that my vows were broken...
420 I have memories of my sister humping...
I have memories of my sister humping me, as a young child, on multiple occasions. I do not know if she even remembers this, though she was older than I. I started masturbating at a very young age, completely unaware of the sexual connections. I suspect that my sister was molested by my father. I tried...
421 my mother married a minister when...
my mother married a minister when i was 14 years old. he systematically abused me in every way imaginable. my mother knew and did nothing to stop it. the people in his church and in the masonic lodge thought he ws great, but in reality he was an evil person. i left the house before the end of my senior...
422 I know I should forgive my husband...
I know I should forgive my husband for his lifelong sins against me during our marriage. But I entertain thoughts of divorcing him constantly...
423 I have been lying to my husband...
I have been lying to my husband since before we were married. I married him, knowing full well, he had kids. I told him no problem. But, in fact, there is a problem. I do not want anything to do with HIS kids, ages 14, 15 and 26 (all girls). The fifteen year old has lived with us, on and off for 2 years....
424 I am divorced. Have been for almost...
I am divorced. Have been for almost 17 years. For 16 of those years I have loved a man who is married with 4 children. I know him through business and worked for him at that time for a period of 2-3 years. I ended up leaving that position because it became awkward. I thought if I were out of sight, out...
425 Everyday I masturbate but when...
Everyday I masturbate but when I stop things just feel better. I hate having lust and wanting to engage in sexual fantasies with others. It's just so tempting to do it. But now I've decided that I'm not going to have sex or masturbate untill marriage or a long term relationship. I feel better for this...
426 My secret shame is that I hate...
My secret shame is that I hate my husband's daughter. She is only a child but I hate her because I feel she is why our marriage is failing. He chooses to put her before me because she is his flesh and blood. I find myself wanting terrible things to happen to her or hoping that he will just decide that...
427 Sometimes, I feel like getting...
Sometimes, I feel like getting a divorce would be so much easier than dealing with the problems a marriage can have. I secretly look up the divorce laws in my state. Sometimes, I wonder if I am better off alone
428 I was married to a wonderful woman...
I was married to a wonderful woman twice, both times for 5 years. I've been in the Navy for 19 years. We divorced the first time because I was unfaithful. Got back together, had a son and a daughter. Second marriage was better...except I chose to do 2 back to back isolated duties, which killed it. I...
429 All my life I've heard the following...
All my life I've heard the following thing, "You were chosen by God. Before you were here, I was told you were coming."On a bus in the spring of 1980 in a little town in Texas, my grandmother (a minister for over 70 years) had been told by God that her daughter was going to have a child; it would be...
430 I am so ashamed of myself. I had...
I am so ashamed of myself. I had sex with a man i barley knew. And I feel so horrible even though its been a year but i lost my virginity to someone i dont even know. i had planned to wait until marriage but i was so gullable and trusting of him and he caught me at a weak moment and he went in for the...
431 I grew up believing that I wasn't...
I grew up believing that I wasn't worth anything. My mother, God Rest her soul, emotionally neglicated me. I tried everything in my power to get her to love me. I never felt worthy of love or that I could be loved. I grew up and went to college never receiving the attention I craved, needed, wanted....
432 I cannot believe that I am going...
I cannot believe that I am going to do this...here i go. This time last year I worked at a golfcourse. I had been there a year when we got a new boss. At first i did not like him cause i thought that he was a little rude, and i rarely talked to him. Then, one night I had a dream that he and I had kissed....
433 I regret not leaving my husband....
I regret not leaving my husband. When our daughter was twelve to fourteen my husband and I were having difficulties in our marriage.I found him in bed with his clothes on in the bed with our daughter. I did not leave him. From that day until on I never left my daughter alone with him. Plus, I talked...
434 I was sexually molested by my father...
I was sexually molested by my father as a child. He still tries to touch me now and I'm 22 years old. My uncle also tries the same thing. He has been touching me for years and I haven't told anyone. I also had sex with 2 cousins and I don't know why. I am scared of men because of my marriage. I am married...
435 I am married (seperated) to a man...
I am married (seperated) to a man who has 7 children. He had 3 before I met him we had our son then he had a daughter with another woman we got married I had our daughter then he got another woman pregnant with a son. We are now seperated and I had sex with a man who knows I am seperated and he has a...
436 not only did i lose my virginity...
not only did i lose my virginity before marriage but did it with someone i didnt know. met him at the bus stop..he asked if i wanted to smoke..get high.(guess this could fit into additctions 2) n i went with him to this house that they were fixing up. smoked then he was tryin to get his way with me and...
437 My father physically abused my...
My father physically abused my Mother, my sister, and me all his life. I am still dealing with finding a way to forgive him totally.Because of the past experience with him, I did not have any self esteem and therefore when I was 16 and the pastor of our church began sexually abusing me, I never told...
438 I've been living with my boyfriend...
I've been living with my boyfriend for 14 years. Can't get married because we both get social security and we would lose one of our incomes. It would be too hard to survive on just one. I don't know what to do but constantly say, I'm Sorry... ANYWAY, I don't even really completely trust the relationship...
439 I have been married for 20 some...
I have been married for 20 some years to the same man, but just a month ago, I found out that he had had an affair 20 years ago and fathered a child with this woman. The woman and child live close by and all these years he's "paid her off" and given money and birthday cards to the child. I always felt...
440 I seem to have many secrets - only...
I seem to have many secrets - only ones the good Lord knows. When my brother (who is 2 years older than me) and I were very young, we played doctor. No big deal, right? Our parents were having marital problems and eventually my mother left, but my brother would come into my room while I was asleep...
441 When I was younger I was sexually...
When I was younger I was sexually abused/molested by my older brother, in exchange for things like playing his game or candy; and even today I feel like I could have somehow prevented it and wonder if I'll ever be able to give my future husband one of the things that should consecrate a marriage.....we...
442 I admit, I'm not a very religious...
I admit, I'm not a very religious man but what I've done has destroyed me emotionally. I've never been a person to betray anyone until about 2 years ago. I went to visit my best friend in another state after not seeing him for several years. He had since found a girl, moved in with her and were planning...
443 i cheated on my husband the last...
i cheated on my husband the last month of my marriage and i knew that if i could cheat on him them i must not really love him and so i got a divorce......then i started thinking i have cheated on everyone i have ever dated...even my current boyfriend who lives in another state and thats how i justify...
444 shame...shame seems to be the constant...
shame...shame seems to be the constant in my life, shame controls what i do the lies i tell and how i think and feel about myself on the inside. i'm ashamed that i made bad decesions in college and that now i'm in debt. DEBT....debt rules my life, you can't get an apartment, a car, respect when your...
445 I just found this post and have...
I just found this post and have read through quite a few of the secret files. I must confess, I am ashamed of myself. I was raised a Catholic, attended Catholic school all my life, but once I went to college everything changed. My father died when I was still in high school, and really, since then, I...
446 When I was a young girl about 8...
When I was a young girl about 8 or 9, the husband of the lady who babysat me and my brother inappropriately touched me. He would not actually have intercourse with me but he used his fingers a lot. I did not understand what was happening to me because at that time, the late 60's and early 70"s because...
447 I am 35 going on 36 years old my...
I am 35 going on 36 years old my husband and I just celebrated our third wedding anniversary. I am so unhappy I do not believe he loves me, and I believe he cheated on me with a woman at his job. He denies it but I know he did. He is verbally abusive and hateful. I have tried everything to try to make...
448 I regret I didn't love myself enough...
I regret I didn't love myself enough to save myself for marriage. I had such self doubt and loathing I have slept with over 150 people, in about 15 years. I feel dirty all the time and ashmed. I was so careless in my life and I am still so blessed not to have contracted something. I still can't look...
449 I had sex before marriage more...
I had sex before marriage more than 10 times ( with the same person though ) God forgive me.
450 I was molested by my older brother...
I was molested by my older brother when I was young. When I was a teenager, he died tragically. I feel like I can never tell anyone because I don't want that to be what he is remembered for. I am scared to keep this secret inside, because like so many others who have confessed on this site, I am afraid...
451 I am not married, but I really...
I am not married, but I really really enjoy sex. I'm very selective about who I am with, and I would like to wait until marriage. But I am such a sexual person and I feel like I can't help it. Plus, I'm really worried that if I wait until marriage, I will be disappointed, and to me, it seems like...
452 So somehow I find myself here....
So somehow I find myself here. Keeping this secret for 2 years has just become too much. When I say not one person that I'm close to knows about this....I mean it. I'm a mom of two little ones under 4...a student...a wife...and I'm having an emotional affair. I met this guy online in Dec. 04. We were...
453 I have lied to my husband numerous...
I have lied to my husband numerous times and told him that I was pregnant when i really was not.I never wanted to hurt him , that was my way of getting his attention in an almost loveless marriage.
454 I have gotten myself into a relationship,...
I have gotten myself into a relationship, which little by little has caused me to lose everyone and everything I care about. My exhusband even took my two children. Now for 6 and a half years I have been living with this man, being a mother to his two children from a previous marriage. And I find myself...
455 I am engaged to be married to a...
I am engaged to be married to a wonderful person who brought me to know God and whom God used to save me. We want to have a Godly marriage and we are preparing to do so both spiritually and physically, but I still find myself so easily distracted and used by the devil to look for pornography online for...
456 I am 28 years old and i am continuously...
I am 28 years old and i am continuously filled with regret. I don't know why for the life of me that i continue to make mistakes over and over again. Or should i say bad choices that impact my future for the worse. I don't know where to begin other than to confess that i truly do not know who i am in...
457 My late husband and I were "Swingers"...
My late husband and I were "Swingers" for several years when our son was young. I didn't want to get into this swinging but my husband kept saying that it would improve our marriage. After every meeting with another couple I felt cheap, dirty, and humiliated. Some of these men talked while we were having...
458 im only in highschool and i look...
im only in highschool and i look at porn...i absolutly HATE IT!! i want to stop so bad, but my mind and body wont stop me. I pray to God to help me but i still cant seem to overcome it...i really want help...someone please help me. If i want a healthy marriage when im older i want it to be withought...
459 I want to confess about cheating...
I want to confess about cheating on my husband a couple of years ago. We were having severe problems in our marriage and I did not think we were going to stay together. We were seperated at the time and my Ex came back into the picture and said all the right things. That was all it took. I was so......
460 I am sure that this falls into...
I am sure that this falls into many catagories. Sexual addictoin, porno, adultery, lies, etc...I am addicted to sexual activity outside of my marriage. It happens that I am too "careful" to have a relationship with another woman, but I have it with many. They are prostitutes. I am spending our families...
461 I was abusing crack for over 3yrs...
I was abusing crack for over 3yrs but I am no crack head. I grew up middle class I have a good paying job, two parents that love me and was in the military for 13yrs, drugs had nothing to do with me getting out, I got an honorable discharge. There where problems with my marriage so I got out and I was...
462 I have never had sexual intercourse...
I have never had sexual intercourse since I have been married to anyone other than my husband. There was a time in our marriage when we were on the verge of divorce and had even discussed it. I found myself attracted to two different men. One was at work and one was outside of it. Both of the men were...
463 Pornography has taken over my life...
Pornography has taken over my life since my wife has forsaken her love for me.After 30 years of marriage,the last seven with no physical contact whatsoever, I still am adhering to my marriage vows.
464 I have had 2 relationships in the...
I have had 2 relationships in the past and I regret them both. I was used for their own sexual needs. Like if they wanted a certian sexual desire done, then I would give in and do it. I didn't go all the way though and I am proud of that. I want to save that until marriage. I felt sick and dirty for...
465 I have committed adultery with...
I have committed adultery with several women and a man. I hate myself everyday for what I have done. I know that God can forgive me but I can't forgive myself for endagering my marriage. I need healng..help me Jesus!!
466 In 10 years of marriage, I never...
In 10 years of marriage, I never had an orgasm when my ex and I had sex. To him it was just sex, not making love.
467 I was a good wife and enjoyed making...
I was a good wife and enjoyed making love with my husband. I loved him and loved sex with him but after our first child was born he stopped pursuing me. I had to always initiate sex. I would go into the bathroom and find him masturbating there and would ask him why he didn't turn to me for his needs....
468 I have just found out my husband...
I have just found out my husband of 15 years of marriage and 20 in a relationship has a 1 year old daughter by a member of the church. They (She and my husband) choose to make us (My husband and I) god-parents to this child. I am totally in love with this baby, but feel betrayed by everyone. My husband...
469 When I was about 11, I picked up...
When I was about 11, I picked up a romance novel at my dad's house that belonged to my stepmother. I'd read lots of romance novels before, but mostly for teens. This was an adult novel and quite graphic. I was completely drawn in by the words, the language. I envisioned the scenes in my mind. When I...
470 My first marriage lasted a few...
My first marriage lasted a few months. I am looking forward to the anulment that is to come this year. My second marriage lasted for 53 years, with 2 children and now 2 grandchildren. I have been puting up with things that were difficult, simply because I did not want this marriage to fail, and the effect...
471 The subject of sex has plagued...
The subject of sex has plagued my life since I was a child. My mother used to accuse me and my sisters of being dirty girls when adult men would hold our hand or have us sit on their lap when they would come to the house. These men were trusted men, from church and school. When growing up, my uncle...
472 I am not sure why I feel the need...
I am not sure why I feel the need to confess anything. But maybe if I put it here I'll feel some guilt. I've been haveing an affair with a married man. I too am married. So far though I don't feel guilty about it at all. I see him every chance I get and can still come home and act as if nothing has...
473 We don’t even know where to start....
We don’t even know where to start. We have been married for several years, but at the very beginning of our marriage I had a one night affair and had carried on phone conversations for several months, and even met up with this person on other occasions. After realizing the possible effects of what...
474 Never thought I'd write. Been to...
Never thought I'd write. Been to all the weekends. Tell others how cool this is. Thought I was free. I'm not!!! I'll try to be brief. Not sure this is the right category. My story seems to overlap others. Mother allowed me to look at her True Confessions and Confidential magazines, the ones where men...
475 During my first marriage, my husband...
During my first marriage, my husband and I agreed to an "open" marriage so we can experience everything sexually that we wanted to. I have done some things that I am not proud of and I don't feel as ashamed about it like I used to. I do feel like I have been forgiven. BUT, I feel as if my current husband...
476 I began dating the man who is now...
I began dating the man who is now my husband when he was still married to another woman. I justified it by telling myself that they were seperated and divorce was an inevidability, also that she had hurt him so bad that he had every right to leave but now we're married and we've moved several hundred...
477 After being unhappy in my marriage...
After being unhappy in my marriage for many years I started having an emotional affair. I have since talked to my husband about my unhappiness and he is doing everything in his power to make sure that I am happy. I love my husband very much. And I want my marriage to continue and be a happy, healthy...
478 I've been married almost 5 years....
I've been married almost 5 years. My husband and I got married after I got pregnant. I'm not in love with him anymore. He's a great dad but a horrible husband. Our relationship took a nose dive after we had our son. I want to leave him but am scared that he'll try to take my son from me. My son is the...
479 Wow, it's hard to label my confession...
Wow, it's hard to label my confession in a specific category. It fits into several, but shame is the best fit.I have been divorced over 3 years, and I have been using sex to feel loved again. My ex-husband cheated, and pursued that relationship instead of our marriage. I have become promiscuous to fill...
480 I am a cheater. i have cheated...
I am a cheater. i have cheated on my husband numerous times, with women and men. its not like he didn't satisfy me. i just wanted something different. we are in the process of a divorce and according to Jerimiah 17, i do not need to ask why my marriage of 11 years is ending. i just ask for prayer to...
481 I had an affair many years ago....
I had an affair many years ago. My spouse and I seperated for a short time and that's when the affair started. It only happened a few times, but each time I knew it was wrong, and yet I let if happen. Since then, my spouse and I got counseling and worked out our problems and are raising two wonderful...
482 It's a past addition; two actually,...
It's a past addition; two actually, one follows the other that I had a hard time breaking. One was an addition to crank after my divorce. I did it because I was numbing the pain from a controlling, manipulative, abusive marriage. It then turned into sexual addition, which was brought on by the crank...
483 I had an affair with a married...
I had an affair with a married man who also happened to be my boss. He had been seperated from his wife for a couple of years but had not gone through with the divorce because of his kids. I tried to stop the affair numerous times but I had fallen in love with him and it was extremely hard. I knew that...
484 I was brought up in a Christian...
I was brought up in a Christian household. Being a strong follower, growing up I had firmly decided to wait to have sex until marriage. After losing my dad my senior year in high school, not much mattered to me anymore. I began to party alot and drink, also becoming sexually involved with my best friend...
485 I regret not trying harder to save...
I regret not trying harder to save my marriage to my wife. She is gone now because I did not appreciate what she brought into my life. Before we met, I prayed regularly that the Lord would bring my partner into my life. Once she was there, after time, I failed to value her. Now I look for traits that...
486 The Devil has a hold on me. I've...
The Devil has a hold on me. I've been praying for God to release me from the bondage that has overcome me. I have been cheating on my husband for over 2 months now and I can't seem to stop. I feel like there is no hope. I can't tell him, I can't tell anyone. I'm so lost I almost lose my breath thinking...
487 I have lost my marriage. I became...
I have lost my marriage. I became distant from my wife and she finally couldn't handle it anymore and decided that it's best for us to divorce.I could never tell her the reasons why I became that way for fear of hurting her and for fear of what she would think of me. But I have come to understand that...
488 I'm married to someone who loses...
I'm married to someone who loses control over his anger, when we were still dating, he used to abuse me verbally and physically, after marriage it got worst, I'm hiding it from my family not to break thier heart as they think I am happy, but this has to stop, I think I allowed it and that gave him power...
489 When I was in college my boyfriend...
When I was in college my boyfriend (who is now my husband) lived together and during that time I became pregnant. He wanted me to have an abortion and I did (mainly because I was too embarrased to admit what had happened) this happened in september the following febuary I became pregnant again while...
490 Before I was married, and while...
Before I was married, and while I was dating my husband, I had an affair with a married man. I was very young and liked the affection and the "love" that he gave me. I knew he would never leave his wife, but it continued for over a year. I did love him and I also loved my boyfriend. It ended and I haven't...
491 I am married and I am having an...
I am married and I am having an affair with a married man. He is in the process of a divorce, but I am not. I've been unhappy sexually for a long time, my sex life in my marriage is practically nonexistent. This makes me sad and depressed. I don't feel like there is any way to save my marriage because...
492 I accepted Christ at an early age...
I accepted Christ at an early age and always went to chuch. My father was the asst. pastor of our church. At 16 when most of my friends had already had sex, I made a commitment to wait for marriage. Unfortunately at 21 I had sex with my girlfriend who promised she would never leave me and she thought...
493 I was married 8yrs to a very controlling...
I was married 8yrs to a very controlling and possessive man. I found that I could not be myself but was in fact what he wanted me to be. I had to dress how he wanted me to and I was not allowed to talk to other men. The worst part was our sexual relationship-he would not take "no" for an answer. I didn't...
494 My secret is out, I hope this offers...
My secret is out, I hope this offers hope to you struggling with pornography.After this week's teaching. I let the cat out of the bag. The biggest and longest secret I have ever kept. I have been looking at porn for as long as I can remember, and as many times as I have wanted to tell my wife I could...
495 Before college I had never experienced...
Before college I had never experienced alcohol, drugs, or sex. I first began drinking when my roomate introduced me to it. From there the drinking escalated all throughout college and led to drug use. I became a completely different person and even lost my virginity. I experimented with homosexuality...
496 In my first relationship, I made...
In my first relationship, I made the choice to have sex with my boyfriend of only four months. This was before I knew Christ, but the relationship only lasted nine months, and looking back, it was shallow. I realize now the sanctity of marriage and why Christ made sex a gift to only married (fully committed)...
497 I was married for over 17 years,...
I was married for over 17 years, My then husband had an affair. I tried to pray my way thru the pain and make the marriage work. I begged him and listen to him pretending to make same effort to work it out. He had moved on. He emailed me he was leaving me...nice huh? We divorced. He is getting married...
498 I have been happily married for...
I have been happily married for almost 4 years, have two beautiful children and love my husband very much. However, I often think about a man I dated before I met my husband. What my life would be like and at times how much I miss him and would love to see him. I honestly think that I might have an affair...
499 Dear God,I confess and ask your...
Dear God,I confess and ask your forgiveness. I have sinned most of my life. I have been addicted to pornography and drugs most of my 40+ years. I was abused by a relative at age 5. Smoke pot at age 15 on. I am married and have had 5 affairs in 20+ years of marriage, none within the last 6 years. I've...
500 I have been cheating on my wife...
I have been cheating on my wife (I am so sorry) with a co-worker for a few months. Last Sunday after the messege I confessed to her and saw how much I was hurting her. We are making it through this with God's help and I want to praise God for keeping my marriage together after I have done the most shamefull...
501 I love my husband, but am not in...
I love my husband, but am not in such a great marriage. I have recently been consumed with thoughts of being with another man and how much better it could be than what I have now. Please pray for me.
502 I cheated on my husband about 3...
I cheated on my husband about 3 years ago. Even though I could never imagine myself cheating... it somehow "just happened". The relationship lasted months and eventually I confessed to my husband. God healed our marriage over time but no one else in our families ever found out. I feel I have let down...
503 I used to be permiscuous when I...
I used to be permiscuous when I was 15 years old and now I am 18 years old. I have not been doing things like that anymore. I want to be pure and clean. I have not had sex at all before marriage. I just used to do oral sex to men and french-kiss men but now I am changing. It's just people recognize me...
504 I have been lying alot to my parents...
I have been lying alot to my parents and I used to lie to my boyfriend when we were together. I loved him so much but it was just he could not accept the truth that he only wanted me for sex and that he didn't want to really be with me and that he didn't really love me.I believe in marriage and then...
505 I'm still in a seperation from...
I'm still in a seperation from my wife two years the divorce hasn't started because of money I pay child support for three kids,I live in another state and have fallen in love with another women and live together,and I feel guilty, I'm thirty years old. I know I gave my marriage the best I had,It was...
506 well.. how I feel to me just seems...
well.. how I feel to me just seems normal. I constantly feel not pretty enough, or my house is not good enough and when we go out I make my kids look sooo nice just so people wont judge me as a bad mom if they have a lil smudge of dirt on their face-Helloo! They are little boys! They dont need to look...
507 well, my secret is that I have...
well, my secret is that I have been so hurt and abandoned by my ex spouse I think about her all the time,I wiish I could get over her leaving,she has moved on to another marriage but I feel so betrayed. I cant seem to move forward into another healthy relationship. I sometimes feel God abandoned and...
508 I am so filled with anger over...
I am so filled with anger over my husband's first marriage it makes me a person I can't stand! I love all of our children... his and mine. Yet, somehow I end up holding grudges especially with his children. I think because I resent that he and I don't have children together. She was awful to him and...
509 Fear of rejection, needing to feel...
Fear of rejection, needing to feel loved, fear of lonliness and just plain selfishness led me to do the following in my past:sexually active at 17live with a guy at 18abortion at 19affair-after marriageRegret - for the rest of my life
510 Before I became pregnant with my...
Before I became pregnant with my second child, I was terribly addicted to drugs, alcohol and sex. Now my baby is 8 months old. I would combine all three and wake up feeling disgusted with myself. But now that I am a mother again, I feel like a totally different person. I feel like God has given me a...
511 I have been living with a horrible...
I have been living with a horrible secret, I had an affair last summer, I slept with this man twice. I have been married for over 20 years. I feel so bad and cannot forgive myself for what I did. I felt justifed at the time I had the affair because my husband has hurt me many times with his words, drinking,...
512 I have been living with a horrible...
I have been living with a horrible secret, I had an affair last summer, I slept with this man twice. I have been married for over 20 years. I feel so bad and cannot forgive myself for what I did. I felt justifed at the time I had the affair because my husband has hurt me many times with his words, drinking,...
513 As an early teenager, I had premarital...
As an early teenager, I had premarital sex. In fact, I had sex with 3 guys before I met my husband. We had sex before we were married also. I justified it at the time because I had long term relationships with each of the guys. I "loved" them. Well, I have been married 5 years now, and I asked God to...
514 I've been married for nearly two...
I've been married for nearly two years and we haven't been able to have sex yet. I fear the lack of a sexual relationship will hurt our marriage.
515 My husband and I live in the same...
My husband and I live in the same house and raise the same child and eat the same dinner, but we dont have that thing between us and I miss it so much that sometimes I can barely breath. I love him and want our marriage back. I want to want him and be attracted to him.
516 I have had numerous affairs on...
I have had numerous affairs on my spouse throughout our marriage. I just can't help it. I don't know why. It always seems so easy to seduce someone or for me to be seduced by someone. My affairs have ended up ruining my marriage. I am now remarried and hope that can control my urges for both myself,...
517 Almost 2 years ago my ex husband...
Almost 2 years ago my ex husband and our best friends(another couple) Were youth leaders in our church.We were pilars in our church. My ex started to secretly use crank. Soon after that I walked in and caught him having sex with my best friend(the other youth leader). The church didn't back me very much....
518 I have been married close to 10...
I have been married close to 10 years and been at life church about that same amount of time. We have a good marriage, great sex life and 3 wonderful kids. For the first time in my marriage I have found myself very attracted to another man. I like the way he makes me feel when I talk to him. I am not...
519 I had an affair towards the end...
I had an affair towards the end of my first marriage.To me it was because I was receiving no affection at home and so I looked for it elsewhere.somebody to validate me as a man and to show me that I was still attractive and worth having. I have since divorced,ended the affair and remarried.I am very...
520 I have a very difficult time forgiving...
I have a very difficult time forgiving my ex-husband for his "poor choices" before our divorce. I dont even think that i want to forgive him sometimes. I just find it easier to hate him and other Christian hypocrites. I had a very rough marriage and thought my husband didn't want me. I felt like such...
521 I have a boyfriend and about a...
I have a boyfriend and about a year ago I slept with another man because he seemed more interested in me. My boyfriend had gotten mixed up in drugs and I started feeling like I was second to them. So I just cheated on my boyfriend when I would start feeling lonely. I started seeing the same guy I had...
522 I am stuggling in my marriage....
I am stuggling in my marriage. We are both christians and we didn't live together or have sex before marriage. We have had all the "Love language" and spouse understanding stuff that I can stand. And we are in a great lifegroup. I have no doubt that I am married to the person that God has for me. Why...
523 I had an affair a couple of years...
I had an affair a couple of years ago and it caused my marriage to break up. I can not get over the guilt it has caused me and the woman that initiated it is still bothering me and won't leave me alone even though many times I have told her she ruined my life and stop bothering me. I pray about it everyday...
524 I struggle with pronography and...
I struggle with pronography and it is a constant addiction of mine. I pray for my future husband and I realize that my addiction to pronography and masturbation will hurt my marriage, but I feel like I can't stop. It often takes me a long time to forgive myself as well as accept forgiveness from my Lord...
525 My life is a mess. Not on the outside,...
My life is a mess. Not on the outside, although there are signs, but on the inside. Beginning with a controlling and violent upbringing led to promiscuity, drugs and deceit in high-school, then an early marriage to the "wrong guy". My husband cheated on me while all of my friends knew and then he left...
526 I wasn't sure what category to...
I wasn't sure what category to put this under because it feels like it could fit in so many. My secret has eaten at me for years and I've never been able to imagine being able to tell anyone so I'm very thankful for this site and I pray it will help me to release my guilt. I was in a very unhealthy marriage...
527 My girlfriend and I have been dating...
My girlfriend and I have been dating for 1.5 years and we've done everything but intercourse. We both know this is wrong, but fall into satan's trap every other week. And the worst part is I haven't decided if I'm going to get married to this woman or not! I hate lust and the damage it causes to relationships....
528 I HATE my husband! Most days I...
I HATE my husband! Most days I wish he would drop dead. He treats me and my children like we should worship the ground he walks on. He's nasty and disrepectful to us. The weird thing is he can be a really great guy and a lot of fun to be around. But the older he gets the days are far and few between...
529 I have asked God to forgive me,...
I have asked God to forgive me, but it continually comes back up. I don't know if it's the guilt of the sin, the guilt of not telling my husband, or just the constant reminder from Satan. I feel everytime that I am truly forgiven. It happened only once with a complete stranger in our 1st year of marriage....
530 For thirty years I was married...
For thirty years I was married to a woman who thought sex was a quickie once every month or two. Since my divorce I have discovered I have a craving for performing cunnilingus for hours at a time. In the last three years I have, satisfied over 30 women this way. Many call me on a regular basis to come...
531 I am still a virgin and not married...
I am still a virgin and not married at 24, I'm a good looking guy & have had the oppurtunity to date lots of girls and I know that I am saving myself for marriage, but in the back of my mind I feel like Satan is telling me I've never been with a woman sexually, or even had a serious relationship,...
532 Im currently in a marriage that...
Im currently in a marriage that has slowly gone further and further down hill... 2 years ago my husband slept with another woman with me asleep in the same bed and continued to have an affair with her for at least a full week before he finally confessed to me what he had done, with the promise I would...
533 I have had a problem with watching...
I have had a problem with watching pornography online for about 8 years. The sad truth is I have a good marriage. Watching pornography often leaves me feeling ashamed. I have been a christian since I was 8 years old and for the most part has lived a good christian life. I have allowed satan an opening...
534 I choose a double life as the subject...
I choose a double life as the subject because I fit so many more of the catagories. I do not know where to start so here we go.I have and still do drugs.I drink to get drunk.I am sucessful yet I have never thought of myself good at anything. I lack real confidence yet I can project it in the world to...
535 I find relief from my train-wrecked...
I find relief from my train-wrecked life when I watch tv and especially movies with sex scenes... So God recently blessed me with an accountability partner and I gave him my tv. But what did I do a few days later when I had a bad day and I was tempted? Bought another one! I avoided talking to him for...
536 I go to church every Sunday, Wedensday...
I go to church every Sunday, Wedensday and anytime in between that I can. I am so in love with my boyfriend. We want to get married but because of certain circumstances we cannot right now. Our relationship started out sexual. It was just a physical thing, no strings attached. Well 2 years later we are...
537 I knew about my husband's pornography...
I knew about my husband's pornography addiction while we were dating and it has continued into our marriage. It has caused alot of fights and untrust with sex. And the big secret, he's addicted to gay porn. It has caused so many fights, he hates what he does. But the nature of problem has kept us from...
538 I am a Roman Catholic who does...
I am a Roman Catholic who does not go to confession regularly. I have not cheated on my wife but I have pushed her further away from me to the point where she says she does not want to be married to me anymore. I have engaged in Masturbation, sometimes up to 10 times a month. Looked at pronography, fantisized...
539 I have had sex before marriage....
I have had sex before marriage. It was someone who I didn't know well at the time, but we have been dating for 2 years now. I think I did it because of my low self esteem. At the time I was proud of myself and it temporarily filled holes in me that were there ever since elementary school. We were having...
540 My wife of seven years is mentally...
My wife of seven years is mentally ill but undiagnosed. I'm 99% sure she has BPD but I can not get her to go to a psychiatrist to get the appropriate medication. While I know she had some emotional baggage I did not know she would be completely irrational.I go to bed every night and wake up everyday...
541 I am married and I don't even love...
I am married and I don't even love my husband. Partly because he cheated on me with my brother's wife three months into our marriage. I can't seem to forget that even though I have forgiven him. I have not forgiven her. I dislike her so much, even if she claims it was not her fault that he made a pass...
542 I am a Christian since I was kid....
I am a Christian since I was kid. I was raised in a good and Christian family. I am having long distance relationship with my girlfriend. I have failed 3 times in my previous dating relationship. I've been faithfully ministering in church for about 18 years. From outside, I am a "nice" guy, no drug,...
543 When I married my wife she believed...
When I married my wife she believed that I was a virgin, although I had sex for the first time with two other women only weeks before our relationship started. It was because I felt I had waited for marriage for no reason. Then after we were married, I had two affairs with women I worked around, because...
544 I'm not sure that this confession...
I'm not sure that this confession fits into the "lust" category because it is not really sexual. I am married but I always compare my husband to other men and wish that he were more like them. MY husband is very caught up in himself and his needs and interests and pays very little attention to me and...
545 I have an online friend , he is...
I have an online friend , he is married, and I am obsessed with thoughts of what it would be like to be with him. We spend alot of time talking online, he tells me his worries and sometimes things going on with his marriage. I pray for God to heal their broken relationship, but most times it is a sacrafice...
546 I am a married woman. My husband...
I am a married woman. My husband and I didn't get along for years and years. He preferred looking at pornography on the internet over being romantic with me. I longed for romance and begged him for it. I felt like an object to him. I finally got fed up, and asked a friend from a long time ago to make...
547 Many years ago in the early years...
Many years ago in the early years of my marriage I had an affair with 2 diffferent men. I have never told my husband, I am afraid of losing him, we have been married for 25 years and our love for one another has grown tremendously, I fear telling him would crush him and I would lose him forever. I was...
548 I'm not sure what category these...
I'm not sure what category these secrets should go in because there is a range of things I want to confess. First of all, I want to say that I was raised in a Christian home with wonderful Christian parents and was in church every Sunday and at all the activities that were provided to the youth at church....
549 I made the second biggest mistake...
I made the second biggest mistake of my life. I seemingly have lost the love of my life, my strawberry soda, my second. I want nothing more than to bring ultimate glory to God together and serve her like the queen she is... My secret is this: I now realize how much I need God to be "The One," so I can...
550 I grew up in church and God has...
I grew up in church and God has always been an important part of my life. Several years ago I became curious about being with a girl and I am a female myself. I acted on those curiosities and it has developed into an uncontrollable desire and temptation to be with a girl and is now a lifestyle that I...
551 My secret is that I really don't...
My secret is that I really don't like my husband much. Six months after we married, he began verbally and physically abusing me. He stopped the physical abuse and yet the emotional abuse continues. Last year I walked in on him while he was viewing pornography-- (which is really embarrassing to me personally--I...
552 I am addicted to masturbating....
I am addicted to masturbating. It first started when I was very little but then it started back up again around the time I was in Jr. High. Ever since then I have been in this on going battle. I have prayed many times for forgiveness and to stop doing this, but I just can't seem to break it in the long...
553 I hurt. My wife left me five years...
I hurt. My wife left me five years ago, for another man. I regret that I wasn't a stronger spiritual leader in my marriage. If I had been, I believe our marriage would have survived and maybe thrived; or, my wife would have left sooner - she was very resistant (which is part of why I was a poor leader)....
554 I'm a college student and am going...
I'm a college student and am going through a rough period. I had been in a serious relationship with a girl I loved very much for nearly two years. Throughout high school and college, before I met her, I had been very picky about the women I spent time with and dated. I always joked with my friends that...
555 My parents divorced because my...
My parents divorced because my father used to beat my mom and my older siblings that she had from a previous marriage. He only became abusive after he found out my mother was pregnant with me. At one point my mom was admitted to the hospital from a beating. After they divorced, he remarried to a woman...
556 I have kept a secret from my wife...
I have kept a secret from my wife concerning a finacial matter. I took out a loan for my brother in law,her brother,to help him out of a financial straight he was in. It was with the intentions of him paying it off withon 120days. It has now been 45 days and the guilt of what Ive done is eating me alive....
557 I do not love my husband. There...
I do not love my husband. There is nothing wrong with him, he is in fact, a wonderful, kind, gentle, and loyal man. He treats my child as if she was his own and she absolutely worships him. I prayed for this man and I got everything I prayed for, but you know how they say to be very specific in your...
558 I have gone farther than I wanted...
I have gone farther than I wanted to before marriage. Even though it was six years ago, I still think about it. I dread having to tell my husband someday about it, even though I am forgiven.
559 I married just over a year ago...
I married just over a year ago and we had a baby just 10 months after our union. Everybody thinks we are very happy. But the truth is we are living a lie. Entering marriage neither of us felt as if divorce would ever be an option, but we're just 14 months into it and we don't know if we can make it....
560 I am addicted to pornagraphy and...
I am addicted to pornagraphy and iit infects my life. Thank God it hasn't disrupted my marriage yet. Please pray that I can overcome this before it ruins my marriage.
561 My first wrong is having sex before...
My first wrong is having sex before marriage. My boyfriend and i have been together for almost two months now. Worse is he's not my first. Well, anyways, we've been together for almost two months, we have sex ALOT but we also fight every day over stupid stuff! He constantly tells me it's all my fault....
562 I've had 3 abortions - years ago....
I've had 3 abortions - years ago. I can't imagine confessing this to anyone I know now, because it was so long ago, and I know that everyone would look at me differently. No one would ever think I was "that girl." I especially don't want it affecting my marriage relationship (he thinks I just had one)...
563 I was not a Christ follower growing...
I was not a Christ follower growing up... however, I grew up in a great family, good community, great friends.. went to college.. did everything the way everyone else did. In college, I never partied a lot- I worked a LOT, and I had a steady boyfriend.. we dated for over two years when I became pregnant...
564 It seems like as long as I can...
It seems like as long as I can remember I have had some sort of a struggle with porn. I love Jesus with all my heart and try to live like him to the best of my abilities and maintain my sexual purity until marriage but I feel unpure and unclean whenever I go through my once a week bouts of being alone...
565 I grew up in a strict Christian...
I grew up in a strict Christian home. I was always considered the daughter that did everything right. I even waited until marriage to have sex. After a few years, my husband started to be unfaithful to me. As the years went on, the unhappier I became. I had an opportunity to "make out" with one guy....
566 I started having sex when I was...
I started having sex when I was 13 and continued to sleep with many men until this day. I was married at 17 and had my first child at 18. The problem is that it wasn't my husbands child. Most of the family knows the truth including my ex-husband, but not my child. One day this will catch up with me and...
567 Before I was saved last fall, I...
Before I was saved last fall, I had an addiction: an addiction to sex. I used to go on only three or four hours of sleep a night because I would stay up all night getting "my fix". The men I slept with I was not in relationships with, not in the traditional sense anyway. I have been hurt many times and...
568 When I was married, I cheated on...
When I was married, I cheated on my husband with three different men in the course of a couple years. We were having problems in our marriage, and I knew it was wrong, but did it anyway. My husband knew of one incident, but I lied about why/how it happened. I told my husband that I did kiss the guy,...
569 my downward spiral started my sophmore...
my downward spiral started my sophmore year, when i drank for the first time and someone took my virginity. i didnt know what to do or who to tell i was so ashamed but yet i went on with my life. from then on i drank and had sex whenever the oppurtunity was there. by my junior year in high school i started...
570 My marriage is failing. My husband...
My marriage is failing. My husband started a new job 4 month ago working an average of 85 to 90 hours a week. When he is not working, he brings his work home. He seems to volunteer to work longer, or he chooses not to come home because he has so much work to do. He is no longer my husband or our kids...
571 I have never told anyone about...
I have never told anyone about this. The only person who knows is the other party involved. I was a young girl right out of high school when I married my husband. I know now we were friends in love with the thought of marriage. Anyway, two years into the marriage things were falling down hill quickly...
572 I was also given a sexually transmitted...
I was also given a sexually transmitted disease by my husband. He had MANY partners and told me he had an S.T.D.before we were sexually active, giving me the choice. We were very careful and it took several years before it was transmitted to me. Now that I have it, I can't help but to hate him for being...
573 My Ex-husband raped me 3 days before...
My Ex-husband raped me 3 days before our wedding day. While we were dating I told him I wanted to do it right this time. Waiting until our wedding night would make it that much more special. He agreed, even told our Sunday School Class about our commitment to abstain until marriage. I was so happy I...
574 I was never taught how to be in...
I was never taught how to be in a healthy relationship, marriage or otherwise. My parents were married for 19 years when they divorced, and shortly thereafter my father moved away (overseas). I was 14 years old. So I went from living in a two parent household to a single-mom household overnight. My father...
575 This isn't easy to do. I've confessed...
This isn't easy to do. I've confessed my sin to God and asked for his forgiveness, but never have I told anyone. No one here knows me or can identify me, but putting this in the public eye brings my guilt rushing to the surface. Though I so much desire forgiveness, I don't feel worthy of the cleansing....
576 I first became exsposed to porn...
I first became exsposed to porn in the 3rd grade. The neighborhood pervert had some magazines he showed us young boys. I still remember the black and white images of a couple naked and simulating sex. That was 29 years ago. My dad even had porn at his apartment when I would go over and vist (mom and...
577 i am currently involved in a sexual...
i am currently involved in a sexual relationship outside of marriage with my boyfriend...i'm scared to death to end it i know it's wrong i hate lying to my friends and family but i feel like it's been so long i dont' know how to stop...i'm afraid to lose him...i can feel the distance it has put between...
578 I had an affair with a married...
I had an affair with a married man while I was married. How can God ever forgive ME? I could tell you how awful my marriage was. How I begged my husband to attend church. To talk to someone -- to slow down evaluate our lives - we were heading in the wrong direction......but it is what it is.....no excuses...
579 I have struggled with pornography,...
I have struggled with pornography, and it is a daily battle to keep away and "bounce my eyes" from things that may come on TV or things that get e-mailed to me. I have confessed to my spouse and we have been much better for it; i think there has been real healing since my spouse was told. i appreciate...
580 Years ago I lost my soul mate in...
Years ago I lost my soul mate in an accident. After a few years I remarried so that my children would know a father's love. I had no faith left in God to trust in my own abilities nor His divine support to raise healthy, happy children alone. My not so new anymore marriage has had little joys. I left...
581 I had always told myself that i...
I had always told myself that i would wait til marriage to have sex and so when i allowed it to happen before marriage even though it was with the man i plan to marry, i was so ashamed and felt so guilty. It really tore me up inside because i knew better. It still haunts me today and i feel like a failure...
582 I am hurt by something my husband...
I am hurt by something my husband did to me a few months ago. I have lost my trust in him. I don't want it to be this way, but I just can't seem to get over what he did to me. I really want things to be like they were before all of this. I want to be able to trust him. I feel like if I don't get over...
583 Sometimes I feel like there is...
Sometimes I feel like there is something sexually missing in my marriage. We have a great relationship and understanding of each other so whats the problem? I dont know..I never want sex and not really into it to be honest.But when I think of other people especially of people in past relationships, I...
584 I guess this is probably the best...
I guess this is probably the best category to put this in, but it can fall under a few. I've had a problem for a few years now, even after I turned my life over to God. I don't know why, and I don't want it. I can't get rid of it. I've had an addiction to sex. Masturbation, porn, sexual partners, etc....
585 I am in a very committed relationship...
I am in a very committed relationship with a man I know I will spend my life with. We are both divorced with kids, his divorce was bitter so he is hesitant on marriage. Two years after we started dating we have not taken the steps to make the commitment to one another yet we still continue to have a...
586 My husband and I have been together...
My husband and I have been together for 19 years. We have children and a nice home. Our marriage started off with us cheating on each other and him getting someone else pregant while we were still dating. Although, I don't have proof that he has physically cheated while we were married, he continued...
587 I have always struggled with sexual...
I have always struggled with sexual behaviors. I started having sexual thoughts in junior high school, and of course they continue today even thought I am in my twenties. Don't get me wrong, I love women. I am married and love my wife dearly. However, many of these thoughts I have are homosexual in nature....
588 I had sex for the first time with...
I had sex for the first time with my first love boyfriend in his car in my parent's driveway. He had come to visit me that summer after my freshman year at college where we met. He had graduated and was planning a trip to Europe with our art professor over the summer. Afterwards, before he left our house,...
589 I feel hopeless in my marriage....
I feel hopeless in my marriage. And I feel so guilty. But I also feel an intense amount of hurt that I don't know will ever be resolved. I don't feel accepted like I am and I don't know how long I can keep on.
590 I do not believe in sex before...
I do not believe in sex before marriage. I believe that God has a plan. I have had sex before marriage, but made a vow that I would not do it anymore about a year ago. Since then, I have taken up masturbation, which I never did before. I also started dating someone and then slept with him, even though...
591 My secret is alcohol abuse. I chose...
My secret is alcohol abuse. I chose the substance abuse category and not the addiction category because that would mean that I was 'ADDICTED' to my drug of choice, alcohol, right? I started drinking to numb painful events growning up, and it has followed me into adulthood. I am a medical professional...
592 I guess this is a secret that plagues...
I guess this is a secret that plagues me and my wife. We have a young daughter, and my wife does not love her. I fear she has Post-Pardum Depression, and I do not know what to do. She will not do anything to help with her except maybe give her an ocassional bottle. I am on duty (so-to-speak) all the...
593 Just over 2 years ago I had an...
Just over 2 years ago I had an affair on my wife. I tried to hide it but God had other plans. God allowed it out in the open! I have been in the ministry for a long time an thought this would never happen to me but just when I thought I was bigger than life God brought me down. Thank God for his Grace...
594 I also fell into the pit of pornography...
I also fell into the pit of pornography during high school and college. I asked my sweetheart to marry me, and God gave me victory over my past. For the first two years of marriage, it was not even a temptation. Now, I am being attacked with random thoughts from Satan. I am ashamed to say that I have...
595 When I was single, I slept with...
When I was single, I slept with a married woman. I regret it so much now, and I hate the feeling that it could someday break up their marriage or come back on me at some point.
596 I almost wish that you had an all...
I almost wish that you had an all of the above category.I find myself without a great many friends that I can talk to because I have never been able to fully talk to anyone openly.Secrets have been the mainstay of my life for as long as I can remember. I grew up in an environment where I was continually...
597 I was sexually abused as a child....
I was sexually abused as a child. This started my destructive path of doing what I wanted. I made horrible decisions for many years. I was easily embarrassed for who I was and what I did, but no one would have ever known. To everyone else, I appear that I have everything. I wanted to have a "normal life"....
598 I was molested as a kid and raped...
I was molested as a kid and raped in my early 20's I have a twisted view of sex and it hurts my marriage everyday. My husband and I have not had sex in over a year and I feel horrible because I know it is a sin. I know the devil has control over me and I cant let him win anymore. I want to push through...
599 My marriage is sad. I do not love...
My marriage is sad. I do not love my husband. He is verbally abusive to me and our children. He has hit me and given me a black eye. Now my teenage sons are verbally abusive. I don't know what to do.
600 Growing up I was the oldest of...
Growing up I was the oldest of 3 children. All 3 of us were sexually molested by our babysitter for 2 years. It took a couple of years for everything to come out about what had happened. Our family never spoke of what had happened. It has affected my marriage and how I raise my children. I am very over...
601 I have had sex before marriage....
I have had sex before marriage. Even though it is someone I know I want to spend the rest of my life with, I know that God wanted me to wait.
602 Sometimes I just want to throw...
Sometimes I just want to throw my hands up and call it quits on my marriage!
603 I am fearful that I will lose the...
I am fearful that I will lose the respect of those I lead if they learn of my past mistake and my poor judgment. Most people are aware that I was married before, but most do not know that I rebounded from divorce and hastily married again. I made marriage vows to someone without recognizing their true...
604 I was sexually abused as a child....
I was sexually abused as a child. I told my parents and they didn't offer me any emotional support. As a matter of fact, they made me feel stupid for saying anything. It has caused me to think that sex is dirty and wrong. I want a transformed mind so it won't affect my marriage bed!
