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1 I want to return to the church, please help me..
I was sexuall, physically, verbally and mentally abused from the age of 4 to the age of 21. I am a 57 year old black man, and i'm 100% service connected Vietnam Vet. I suffer from PTSD - sexual trauma. I was baptised when i was either 10 or 11, and I finally excepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior in december...
2 I've been humbled
God, I ask for forgiveness for my pride, arrogance and greed. I have been arrogant at work but have now been humbled and I am in pain. I had the opportunity to have money in the bank in 2004 when I sold my house but bought another house instead which I regret with all my heart. Please forgive me and...
3 Mental Anguish
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4 my messed up life
my parents got divorced a few years ago. Me and my sister wanted it to happen. she was abusive, swore at us all the time, and has mental issues. Every since then life has been a mess with police, counseling, and new girlfriends. currently i live with my dad and his girlfriend. my sister went to live...
5 So confused
I was very confused as a child about sex and sexuallity and at the age of 7 was sexually abused. This injury to my body effected not only physical aspects of my body but my psychological mental frame of mind was really messed up. i would experience with other neighborhood kids about sex and even with...
6 Youth Pastor with two lives
My addiction to internet pornography has been consistent for some time.. and now being 25, I look back at close to the majority of my life being controlled by my addiction. I am a youth pastor whose heart is to reach young people for Christ, but somehow over the years I have learned to compartmentalize...
7 Gay married alcoholic
In addition to being married and having gay encounters, I've also been addicted to alcohol which has helped me mask the guilt. It's been my false crutch of confidence and daring for gay encounters. Alcohol has clouded my judgement and messed up my relationship with my wife and kids. I love them too much...
8 Salvation
I believe I lost my eternal salvation. My life has been torment and agony for one year. I am in bed or on the sofa. I can't function. I lost my business, my singing career, my church, my ability to pray or read the Bible. My sins were pride and lust. I am insane. I am a mad woman. My hope is...
9 I'm a real loser
I've spent my life wandering around in a daze. I have urges that sometimes take m to action and then ultimately shame. I have not controlled my desires to the extent that I should. I have cheated on my wife, myself and my God so many times that I can hardly keep up with it all. If in fact our lord does...
10 Not fully pure
I fantasize about people I've dated, people I've found attractive, and in general. I make up ideas and scenarios in my head. Sometimes I act afterwards, and sometimes I don't. I sometimes act even though I know I'll hate myself for it, and sometimes I forget and still do it anyway. Sometimes I'll binge,...
11 Greed and Selfishness
Father God, I have been so caught up in self that I've been blind to the needs of others. I deserve to face the consequences of my actions which at the very least will be losing my job, home and car. I've been praying for You to let me know who You are and what You want from me. I have mental health...
12 mother alcoholic mentally distant and mentally abusive
I have a mother who is an alcoholic severly depressed and emotionally distant with me. I have no choice but to live with my parents due to a handicap. But she has shown she hasnt really wanted me by her actions and the way she treats me. When she is drunk she is very mean to me. I have tried talking...
13 I just want to be normal!
But the more things that shoot me down because of my mental health past the more i stop eating, So one problem causes another. i just want o be normal!!!!!!!!!!!!!
14 I
As a child, as early as I can remember my sexual desire was awake and motivated. I learned to masturbate early and as a teen ager I began to regularly look at porn. When I married and had children I stayed away from it for years. Then I began to look at porn again. This time I moved into gay porn....
15 my life isnt right
wow i never thought that i would be spilling my secrets to anyone.i know that no ones life is normal but i realized that somethings in my life just aren't right.i used to think that everyone had a really hard and sucky life but i have been opened to different peoples lives and i see that my is not right...
16 Trapped by Addiction
I have never publicly admitted this before but as I struggle to find the vision I have on my life, I feel the need to make drastic changes and free myself from the secrets that I keep buried. I am totally addicted to pornography. I have known this for many years now and yet I feel like I am not strong...
17 I Tried Killing Myself, and failed.
I have been in a deep depression ever since I was 8 years old because of my father mental and physical abuse. I am 14 now. I tried to find the most painless, peaceful way of killing myself. I wanted to Start the car inside the garage. I had it all planed out. I was at my Moms house, Her and my sister...
18 is there any hope!
I've talked to others about their sin... they actually come to me for advice... the irony is that I seem to be the one to need help. I can honestly say that it's not cause I haven't tried to stop... cause I have. I actually go in and out of this freedom. I just can't stay free... I can't seem to chuck...
19 Sinned, want forgiveness.
I recently got married to my love, my sweetheart. The woman that i love and that i am going to spend the rest of my life with. I am 20 years old, young for marriage, but my heart has been taken. I made a mistake, we had a very rough patch at the end of 2008 and i sinned. My Wife lost her father this...
20 Needing hope
I just recently realize that I am addicted to porn and masturbation. Its ruining my life with my wife and kids. I havn't been able to see them for two days and its tearing me apart. I've sinned against them and God in the worst way. I never physically cheated on her but I feel like I have mentally....
21 Abusive sister
I have let myself be verbally abused, mentally blackmailed, spoken bad about to my friends, all in the name of religion and teachers. Oh God, Oh God help them relise what they made me do. WHat king of mental anguish I had to pass through. And it all for helping the victim. What kind of persons they are....
22 Stop porn = start pray
Dear God. You know me so well. All my personal problems, and all my dreams about getting your name lifted high here in Denmark. You see that every time we are most close I fall and watch pornography on the internet... Plz.. Send people to pray for me and please God heal my mental injury... I'm despreate...
23 my addiction
Hi, im 21 and an active church member and youth pastor in australia. I love life and know God has amazing plans for me but I have struggled with porn and masturbation, lust, for 8 or 9 years, and its the one thing I havn't let go of. Sometimes I feel like I dont know how to just let go, how to stay...
24 I
I have been addicted to porn since I can remember now and I'm only 30 yrs old. It has been something that I have compartimentalized in my life. I have become the ones whom Paul is speaking of in the beginning of Romans. I say one thing in my public life but in my private secrete life I am living a...
25 Pray for me...
for the past few years i have been addicted to porn. It sucks because I feel like i cannot get rid of the addiction. I really don't want to be hooked to it, but no matter how many times i try to stop i slip after a week, month, few months and go back into it. One thing that i have come to realize that...
26 Honesty
I feel the need to come clean this morning. Perhaps I didn't have the best study habits when it came to my homework, but now I am trying to follow directions. I am a Christian, yet still have lesbian crushes on a couple of women. I need to think anf be smart and stop living ina fog. I love playing...
27 My confession
I have bulimia. I truly believe I am bipolar or suffer from some sever mental disorder. I slept with my cousin's boyfriend. I steal.I cheat.I do drugs.I would much rather be dead but do not have the courage to end it all. In other words I am fairly pathetic
28 i wish i could find love.
Honestly i think it make me happy. way happier than i am right now. oh god. if your out there send me a guy who's nice and gorgeous. and not an *!! i tend to always get the *. you sent me a good guy friend thats nice and all BUT i only like him mentally. NOT physically. And I am tired of people trying...
29 spirits
I have dreams about my dead elders warning me of stuff. And I sense things in a blue moon. I do have a mental illness but the things happening to me are spiritual. Noone believes me. And doctors try to drug me up so I've decided to keep my mouth shut. example: my son and I shared the same dream long...
30 nice fat girl
I used to be the really sweet fat girl that everyone thought was too kind for words. Than I got skinny. Now, I'm the skinny * who is harsh, judgmental, rude and mean...the exact opposite of my former self. I'm not sure who I like better. The compassionate fat girl? Or the hot *? *This post has been...
31 Depression and the end of the world
Dear Father in Heaven, please forgive me for falling into sin. I repent of my sins but I am severely depressed and afraid that the end is near. I ask you to heal my mental illness and give me strength. Please let me feel your peace flow through me. I'm so tired of being in this world. I feel like I was...
32 experimenting with homosexuality
I am * and have been experimenting with gay oral sex. I do not give but recieve it at the adult store near my college. I have repeatedly done it and asked the Lord to forgive me. Lord give me the strengh because I am not gay and I love you so much. *This post has been edited for content
33 lust
I feel trapped. When I was about *, me and my brother explored sexuality together. From then on, I always thought about sex. It has resulted in me being attracted to men, I have never had sex, but I view porn up to 5 times a day. I watch men online, and pretend to be a women so that they will...
34 Im out
I have regularly viewed pornogrophy and is something that has happened in my new life that occurred in my past life i was mently scarred. I have always thought that it would stop when i get married but that might not be the case because i have sustained a mental injury. It has carried on into my new...
35 the end of the rope
i have followed God as faithfully as I know how since the age of 12. I have served in the church for almost as long. I have tried to live the way Jesus would have me to live. Yes, I have messed up along the way but I believe in God's grace and know that I am covered by the blood. But I confess...
36 I confess... please pray.
I just want to confess to the body of my brothers and sisters around the globe that I am a * year old male, and a Christain who is studying to become a pastor and I struggle with sexual sin. I have become addicted to internet pornography and I have become addicted to masturbation. I thank God for your...
37 Dear GOD, I have sinned please forgive me and give me POWER
I have sinned dear GOD and seek your salvation and ask you to remove my mental defects and restart my mental machine back to an earlier time..a time in my life before I was molested..before I was tainted..before I was corrupted..I cant recall when this all happened it just did and I regret that..but...
38 seeking redemption will save me from falling again?
Willingness to repent and seek redemption will ensure no further infractions..Can 2 parts of the self be at odds for most of the time and still I do the right thing. Internal////ideas, fantasies, world view vs. External//personal actions..In an ideal world we all would be congruent with both aspects...
39 the dam of sins is now released to flow away from me
My sexual compulsions, fantasies & my isolation from my family has led to a secret life.. a life of secret behaviors of masturbation while watching lesbians french kiss and fantasizing about sodomizing a faceless man and being sodomized too..this secret life is not something that was on my goal sheet...
40 Will my confession remove my defects
I feel like my sexual compulsions, fantasizing, masturbating..all these self gratification actions are part of me..I have tried through counseling and journals to NOT have the thoughts but they reoccur..mostly in high stress times..times when a good hand job relieves the pressure of daily life..in return...
41 Unworthy
I feel so unworthy I reject the very person who loves me and hurt her deeply. I am deeply in love with her and prayed for her before she or I even meet. I grew up in foster care I was molested,abused mentally and physically I was always told I would grown up to be worthless and nothing, I am scared I...
42 Mental Injury
This in not my first time confessing my sexual sins. I am tired of struggling with this. I am a believer in Christ, and recently have confessed and seen 3 weeks of purity away from masturbation and porn. One day I messed up in the shower and it has been downhill from there. I have been bingeing now for...
43 Not A Secret! SOS!!!
This'a prayer request.My Plantar Fasciitis has not recovered even after 2 years.Have difficultiy walking.Agonizing. No income.My bones are Osteopenic and I can't even sit well for a meal properly.I'm 40+.My mum is 73 and cannot help me forever...sob...she also has Osteoporosis & Hernia bleeding, hypertension,...
44 Unloving, judgmental
I am supposed to be a Christian but I find myself not acting like one at all. I do not love God as I should,and I don't feel I know Him well. I do not love others as I should. I am very judgmental and critical of others, Christians and non Christians. I have a wierd mixture of feeling superior at times...
45 Drugs Make me A Lier And A Theif
I've been a christian as long as I can remember. Ihad a strong Holy Spirit experience in the late 80's I've used drugs since I was A teenager . History of child sexual abuse and emotional neglect.I"ve been to tereatment several times and12 step meetings I had a mental break down in1996. I,ve been in...
46 My guilt is overwhelming
I'd jst like 2 start off by saying I'm not a Christian. I'm a Hindu frm India but I'm writing this 2 relieve myself of a burden that's been weighing on me for years. I hope I find sme solace here because I know the world out there is very judgmental. I'm 20 yrs old and I'm a pathological liar. I dnt...
47 here goes nothing
My mother died recently, I wept at her funeral but if the truth be told she was a nasty, jealous, piece of work. My daughter (her only grand-daughter) went to her funeral to support me. I'm the eldest of three daughters, that woman physically and mentally abused me whilst I was growing up. My youngest...
48 Is god punishing me
I am a twenty six year old lesbian but I love christ, I stuffed a hellish childhood growing up in foster care enduring sexual,mental and emotional abuse. I was eventually adopted and thought I was free from hell when a year later my older brother started molesting me it crushed my world. I know I am...
49 I'm a woman so I have no benefits...
I lie to get people to like me. When I was very young I sustained a "mental Injury" that affects the relationship I have with others. I constantly view men as the powerful, and women as the powerless.
50 alone and seeking God
I am a 28 year ols single mom with no family, except a mom and brother who are addicts and very unstable. my brother molested me from age 6 to 11. My mom and step-dad were alcoholics, ver abusive to each other physicall and mentally. Also abusive to my brother and I when we were teenagers. I was...
51 Done it all
Reading though these posts I am ashamed to say that I have done most of the things that others are ashamed of also. I have gotten an abortion, abused others physically and mentally, lied, cheated, fornicated, did drugs, smoked, drank alcohol excessively, been selfish and any other things you could think...
52 I am stuck in a hole!
When I was young, I became involved in practicing homosexuality! I was 15 or so when I started, and was bring other young people into this sin with me. Then, my friends parents found out and I quit homosexuality. I never told my parents and I still have gay thoughts and lusts. I am still heavily involved...
53 Deserving Good
I was let go from my job, a job I didn't particularly like but it was by my music lab, so that was convenient, but I had issues with my manager and told her I didn't like her micromanaging and felt no matter what I did, it wasn't good enough. well she let me go and to tell you the truth, Iam a little...
54 Addicted to Mental/Secret Sins
I'm finally admitting it--I've struggled for years with pornography and its cascading effects. It has hurt more areas than I could have imagined despite being such a "personal" and "secret" thing. I need God's renewing help and power.
55 Codependent
I am codependent. This basically means that my self-worth and self-esteem is so low that I take others problems and responsibilities on myself to confirm that I have worth in this world. I have been a Christian for 12 years and have yet to truly experience God's love because I even feel inadequate...
56 Why does the church make people hate?
I love Jesus but I hate the church. The fact that fundamental christianity has turned church into a place for hate and judgement makes me sick. Jesus said "Let he among us without sin be the first to condemn". No one is perfect. Yes, I believe that things such as Abortion and Homosexuality are wrong....
57 my confession to god
hello god i sincerely confess my sins of pornography and masturbation to you so that i can get rid from them,please forgive me for my sins and please heal me. with your grace i will be mentally healthy again.
58 Unloved
Since I was born, my dad has rejected me. He would push me from in front of the tv, eat my snacks, even take my tooth fairy $. He never spent time w/ me but when my parents split he did everything to keep me from my mom. His mom even made me say my mom molested me. As time went on he always put his gfs...
59 sexual sins
Estimados amigos...el pecado que mas me pesa hoy en dia es la mentira. Engañe a todo mi circulo intimo y tambien a conocidos.Hice trampa, todo el mundo cree que me recibi y no es asi, aparte de que hice trampa, me falta una materia.! la otra gran mentira es el deseo sexual! me gusta mucho es sexo y...
60 Self Worth ... less
I was raised by a mentally ill mother figure, and a father who was a workaholic to avoid her. I eneded up forgotten in the drama. I became a wild teenager and didn't care who did what to me. And there were plenty of men around looking for just such a girl to take advantage of. Best guess would be triple...
61 Neglect and rape in youth still hurts too much
I have survived a childhood of neglect with a mentally ill mother and mostly absent father, due to his work. When I was young I got in a relationship with and lived with an abusive guy for 5 years total, even though he was abusive and raped me unbelievably somewhere between 3,000-5,000 times, I lost...
62 My Dad Hits Me
It started when i was seven up till i was 14. He was an alcoholic then and has been sober for 2 years now... He hadnt hit me since he quit drinking until a week ago...he wasnt drunk which was weird for him to hit me sober.....my face was bruised and my acrilic and my real nail was torn off....i was thrown...
63 Can
I'm 27 years old, soon to be 28, and I have two compulsions. Masturbation is the one that I feel is most detrimental to my life. The second is eating, but I seem to have better control oer it. I would like to take back control of my life. I'm doing alright on the outside, but I know that I'm a slave...
64 Addicted since elementery school
I'm am an FCA (Fellowship of Christain Athlets) member and am not the president of the club. But I have always had a pornagraphy. I found a short clip of porn on my dad computer and have been addicted ever since. Just yesterday I found myself binging on porn. I want to heal this mental injury and have...
65 the Truth
I run a Christian-based group at school, but in reality, I don't think I should, since I'm struggling with homosexuality and an addiction to pornography. I just feel like I'm betraying everyone that I lead, and that I am obviously not ready to lead if I'm struggling with this kind of sin. I have not...
66 Addicted
I am 17 years old and have been addicted to pornography since the 7th grade. When I was in kindergarten, I was molested, I guess that was my "mental injury". I am also struggling with homosexuality, which I believe is rooted in the molestation as well. I feel like I'm a terrible person who does not...
67 Want to Get on the Right Track
I confessed my lesbian tendencies in anothe rpost, but feel I need to get other stuff out. I want to go back to school, but am unsure of which school to attend, I want to move out of my mother's house, but have doubts aobut my competency to support myself again and I dont' appreciate my mother putting...
68 Cheated on ex-husband
My ex-husband was very mentally unstable. We didn't know that he had bi-polar disorder, multiple personality disorder and paranoid schitzophrenia. But he did. He was terrible to live with and miserable to be around. I felt that he didn't love me or our child. He tried to commit suicide. Every day...
69 Anger
In the years I've been married my mother-in-law has caused me so much pain, and lately I've been obsessing over my hurt and anger. I was wisely told by friend that our recent series of e-mail arguments might be making me so upset because I felt guilty for being angry. This is more true than anyone can...
70 Pornography/Bisexual Deliverance
Since I was 11 yrs old I have has fantasies of both sexes, all through my life since then I have struggled with masterbation. Even after giving my life to God and marrying my wife, there have been mess ups. Largely from internet porn. I feel ashamed and broken, especially in ministering to others....
71 Masturbated
I confess to God that I masturbated last night. I was sexually and mentally stressed. IfIdon't have a release, I might go crazy. I pray that God give a wretched man like me a good wife. I'm already 44. Always feel tensed the day after mast unless I confess and repent.
72 I used to spank my two neighbors and enjoy it.
I was in elementary school and I lived close to two girls and I used to hang around with. They had a guest house separate from their main one, so we used to go in their and play house. One day, I started spanking one of them because they were acting up. I didn't realize it then, but I was getting aroused...
73 I am mentally and emotionally abusive to the people I love.
My secret is that I am mentally and emotionally abusive to the people I love the most, especially my boyfriend. I do not mean to be, it's almost like its something I cant control especially when I do not get my way or someone is hurting me. It feels like a knife down in my soul, the rejection and the...
74 Meth Addict
I am a recovered Meth addict. I hate the stuff. I hate the way it makes me feel. I hate what it does to my life but most of all i hate what it does to the one's I love. I have dealt with all types of addictions in my life, marijuana, food, sex, speed, even my current addiction, abusive men, not so...
75 torment
I was molested when I was 7, not physical but mental and visualy by 2 brothers (1961)no one was ever told because I was ashamed. They showed me what to do to a porn magazine (masterbate). Ever since this time it has been a constant battle to stay away from porn. I find no gratafication and even board...
76 No to Vulnerability
I have recently been diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder and I will not let my close friends know for fear of rejection. These people have been my friends for many years and I know that I am hurting them by not letting them care for me the way they want to. They know that I am sick but I will not tell...
77 i'm disgusting.
i've tried to convince myself that i am in love with someone who is addicted to crack cocaine, but the truth is - i'm afraid 2 leave him for fear that he will hurt me more than he already has. i've disrespected and hit him thinking he will hit me back and then it will become clear 2 me 2 leave him. but...
78 I am a gossiper. I love to talk...
I am a gossiper. I love to talk badly about people whom I don't agree with. Usually I gossip about Christians because they are so judgemental.
79 Lord, today I was left home alone....
Lord, today I was left home alone. I had horrible thoughts in my head. It dragged me to look at porn. Lord, I want to stop.. I wish I could find a way where I could be with someone 24/7. I'm an only child, so im left alone at home a lot. Please Lord Forgive me for my Sin. Thank you for all you've done....
80 lying an ongoing tradition in my...
lying an ongoing tradition in my life, from moment to moment. i hate it with a passion because when i want to get better at and actually start working on things, i get frustrated with family, work, relationship, kids and more so just with me and where my life is, looking to make myself be better than...
81 My husband and I have not had sex...
My husband and I have not had sex on a regular basis for ten years. I have tried everything to get him interested in me again. I finally have given up. I have filed for divorce and have started having an affair with an old acquaintence. I feel guilty about it. But I have no interest in staying married. My...
82 I've eliminated most of the physical...
I've eliminated most of the physical habits of my youth, including drugs and alcohol. There are no really bad mental habits I'm concerned about, not yet. However, I can't seem to quit smoking, and I desperately, desperately want to. It brings quick pleasure when I need a fix, but I physically, mentally...
83 I have sustained a mental, physical...
I have sustained a mental, physical and emotional injury which has been infected and injured over and over. I now want to protect this injury and be free. I confess I have had premartial sex repeatedly and with multiple partners. I carry so much shame and guilt. I feel terrible and dirty. I have gone...
84 My brother molested me when I was...
My brother molested me when I was very young. I forgive him, but I think it damaged me mentally because whenever I see a young girl (as young as 5 years old) I have thoughts of molesting that kid, but I don't ever want to act on it because I remember how bad it made me feel. I want to stop having those...
85 When I was about 21 and pregnant...
When I was about 21 and pregnant with my third child, I was in a very abusive relationship. It was mentally and physical. The relationship was just getting worser every passing day. I had a choice to either leave or stay. I stayed and allowed myself to be hurt till my significant other got another person...
86 I realized my first mental injury...
I realized my first mental injury was as a kid when my friend showed me a porn magazine he found. I can still remember at least one of the pictures. As a teenager, I masturbated frequently to escape from a rough upbring. The Lord delievered me from that until about a year after I was married. I found...
87 I have done it all. Currently I...
I have done it all. Currently I smoke a lot of weed to the point where it doesn't do much for me anymore. I had a brief addiction to crack cocaine and I also have done meth. I was an alcoholoc for a long time, but I have kind of controlled that as I got into weed more. I have struggled with homosexual...
88 I pleasure myself. It causes me...
I pleasure myself. It causes me shame, guilt, condemnation and distance from God. I don't know if I can tell anyone to hold me accountable because people are judgemental and would stop seeing me as one who's passionate to do the will of God and love Him as He loves me. The problem is becuase of my habit...
89 i hate myself. i always have for...
i hate myself. i always have for one reason or another. when i was a child, i often thought of ways to kill myself, just for the hell of it, just to see if anyone would notice that i wasn't around. life never felt right to me, like i never should have been here.i have been cutting myself since i was...
90 Dear Lord forgive me for the abandonment...
Dear Lord forgive me for the abandonment of my wife and three children. For the past 20 years I deeply regret this, feel ashamed and depressed. Forgive me for holding on to anger and resentment I hold towards my ex-wife. Lord I pray that I forgive her, that I need to forgive myself. Lord I wasn't strong...
91 I am a meth addict. I've lost my...
I am a meth addict. I've lost my ability to cope... Instead I get high....it numbs any pain I might feel(emotions). I want to be clean...but I am scared...alone. I live with my boyfriend...he thinks I am a mental basket case. He doesn't know and that makes me very sad.
92 I NEED HELP, I AM DESPERATE!!!...
I NEED HELP, I AM DESPERATE!!! I DO NOT KNOW WHO TO TURN TOO. I NEED TO HAVE GOD IN MY LIFE. I AM A COKE ADDICT. EVERYONE LOOKS UP TO ME, I HAVE A MASTERS DEGREE, A GOOD JOB, AND I AM ALWAYS THE STRONG ONE THAT IS THERE FOR EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY. NO ONE KNOWS THAT I DO NOT SLEEP AT NIGHT GETTING HIGH....
93 All through high school, I was...
All through high school, I was a model christian for my parents. I joined the navy when I graduated and was medically discharged due to multiple mental illness. I felt worthless and like a failure. When I got back, I started smoking pot again, which led to coke, X, acid, shrooms and alchohol. Im so confused...
94 I hate being a mom i have two boys...
I hate being a mom i have two boys three and one and I regret them being born they didnt ask to be born and neither did I but they're here I wish I could be my own person once again. I am active in my church but they dont know about this side of me. I WANT TO BE FREE I WANT TO HAVE MY OLD LIFE BACK...
95 I feel so helpless. My teenage...
I feel so helpless. My teenage son is mentally abusing me daily. I stay in my room almost 24/7 don't talk to anyone hardly or go anywhere. I try to enforce the rules he gets mad and throws things at me or punches whole in the wall. He openly admits I hits walls or throws things so I don't hit my...
96 I just wanted to commend you on...
I just wanted to commend you on giving christians a way to practice confession. I used to suffer from all kinds of anxiety conditions and would ocasionally have to be medicated to control them. After I was Baptised a Roman Catholic 3 years ago and have been practicing a sacramental life. I've had...
97 My husband won't let me leave our...
My husband won't let me leave our marriage. I've been together with my husband for 12 years married in 2001 and we have a 10 year old son. My husband is abusive both physically and mentally. I belive he has mental issues, it runs in his family. He is also an alcholic. He's just destoryed our lives financially...
98 I have a 12 yr old boy (diagnosed...
I have a 12 yr old boy (diagnosed with bipolar at age of 3) and have had 4 abortions after his birth. I also am bipolar amoung other mental illnesses. It runs in my family and as much as I want a baby (4 attempts) my bipolar kicks in and I abort. I'm 33 and my hubby of 11 yrs. and I want a baby of our...
99 We are having our 2nd baby in a...
We are having our 2nd baby in a few weeks. We both work and have for the most part equally supported our family but when our first was born my husband quit his job of 5+ years and was unemployed for 6mths while I was home with our newborn he even had to file bankruptcy. Luckily we had good savings from...
100 I am Catholic and my Catholic website...
I am Catholic and my Catholic website mentioned your website on its news section. I want to go to a sacramental confession but I can't for the maintime so I decided to do it in your website. I am from the Philippines , male and in my 40's. I just got married five months ago. My wife doesnt know my secret.I was...
101 I love my girlfriend and I hope...
I love my girlfriend and I hope that we will one day be married. It is the intention that we both have. We love God and we love each other. However, I used to have a pornography addiction. While I do not use pornography anymore, I still struggle with lust. Early in our relationship, it was commonplace...
102 I am a female and I am having an...
I am a female and I am having an affair with a married woman. I never intended on this and it was actually her who started the relationship. I don't want to break up their marriage, but I have fallen in love with her. I don't want to hurt either one of them, but I just don't know what to do. Morally,...
103 Since i was about 10 i struggled...
Since i was about 10 i struggled with soft-core porn/ masturbation which progressed into all out internet pornography. i am now 18 and i have never confessed or let it go, but honestly never really wanted to I liked what i saw and it was pleasing to me. But like all things that are sinful it only lasts...
104 I have been raped twice on seperate...
I have been raped twice on seperate occasions and blame myself for it because I was not strong enough to stop it, emotionally, mentally or physically... I never had the courage to tell anyone and didn't pursue charges, now it is too late. I want to tell my mother, but I'm afraid she will be mad at...
105 When my husband and I first started...
When my husband and I first started dating, I found out that he had cheated on me while he was drunk at a party... In a heartbroken attemp to be close to someone, I slept with his best friend and it broke my heart. Even though he had hurt me, I still felt so awful. Two wrongs don't make a right. ...
106 I have this give me money attitude...
I have this give me money attitude when in relaity, I could be making an effort to earn it myself. I really have to get over my entitlement mentality.
107 Sometimes I hit my husband, and...
Sometimes I hit my husband, and he hits me back. I was abused as a child by my grandfather, and then again by my uncle. I don't think I have ever dealt with the pain, and it comes out. Sometimes I drink, and when I drink I become a different person. It is at this time that I am physically and mentally...
108 I am no longer in love with my...
I am no longer in love with my husband and I am afraid to tell him. We have a 2 yr old.... If I could just get past that...I'm afraid he will hurt me if I tell him. He is verbally, mentally and physcially abusive. I hope I get the courage soon.....I hope God helps me out with this one and helps me...
109 I don't believe in God. I want...
I don't believe in God. I want to believe in God though. I tell myself that it is all a big fairytale that people tell themselves to deal with the tragedy of life and the fact that they are going to be dead someday. I constantly do things wrong on purpose because I hate myself. I have to pop codeine...
110 I am what I thought "On Fire for...
I am what I thought "On Fire for the Lord". My husband is not the church type and he feels if he lives a life that is pleasing to God- he is acting like an old man and he still wants to have fun. Anyway, we have a lot of issues with our marriage literally fist fighting in front of our kids, cursing,...
111 I have been struggling my entire...
I have been struggling my entire life with addictions. I have "mental issues", and the doctor's cannot find the right "prescription cocktail" to help with my symptoms. I've been diagnosed as bipolar, told I may have multiple personalities, etc. I have suffered an addiction to alcohol, tobacco, food,...
112 I was sexually abused by my older...
I was sexually abused by my older brother who is 6 years older than me. First time when I was around 7. I wanted to play with one of his toy trucks and he said that he would let me if he could lay on top of me and kiss me. I let him but when he tried to stick his tongue in my mouth i pushed him off....
113 i got the tri-abuse policy when...
i got the tri-abuse policy when i was younger. sexual mental and phusical abuse and it affects my life still today mentally and emotionally. i dealt with it, but it still has a small grasp on my life and i hate my family for it. i was the youngest of the 3, where were they when i needed them.
114 Since I grew up with an alcoholic...
Since I grew up with an alcoholic father I never truly realized how much alcohol can master you. I always felt it was okay to drink and often times boozed it up with my dad. Its When I began experiencing difficult times in my life, divorce, financial hardship, raising a child, trying to get to konw God...
115 I sm 27 years of age and have been...
I sm 27 years of age and have been married for 10 years now.For so long, I have been carrying a big load over my shoulders. At times like now, I look back at my life and wish my past were different. To start, at the age of 17 I was having an affair with a man who was my co-worker. I soon turned 18, and...
116 I used to: drink heavliy ( I still...
I used to: drink heavliy ( I still have a beer now & then very rarely), use drugs, was sexually active, comitted adultury with a married man & when I was married, watched porn, masturbated, curse (still do) and addicted to cigs, still smoke pot, steal, lie, regret me first marriage to a drunk,...
117 I was inappropriately touched by...
I was inappropriately touched by two neighbor kids when I was young. Nobody knows about it and I can not find the words to say it out loud. One of the "kids" is married with two children and a successful business. The other has "fallen through the cracks of society." As for myself, I think this has caused...
118 i have so many secrets that fall...
i have so many secrets that fall into so many categories. i'm starting with abuse.when i was three or four years old, i was sexually abused by a stranger. no penetration. just touching.when i was seven i was abused by a friend who was nine. others do not consider this abuse because of the age involved,...
119 I always come home and I regret...
I always come home and I regret how I act at school. I pray that someday I will have exactly the same personality at school as at home, which is very polite and nice to everyone, but at school I am sometimes judgemental of people. I know that Jesus loves me and I want to show that I love him too, by...
120 I was born with a disability that...
I was born with a disability that has left me unable to walk, when I was a little girl age 6,I asked a priest in my church why God would not want me to be able to walk he said “God did not do this to you Satan did� Needless to say I was mortified, I told my mom about this she did and said nothing....
121 Around the time when I was only...
Around the time when I was only a year old, my parents divorced. My dad kept me in with loving arms and cared for me every single day. My mom on the other hand, left us stranded and hurt.Now fast forward to about 6 years later. My dad had been recently married to a wonderful woman that would soon adopt...
122 i don't know what category this...
i don't know what category this would go under... probably almost every category. anyway i'm probably one of the most messed up kids i know. i've done my share of drinking, i've done my share of smoking pot, i've smoked cocain, i've shoplifted a few times, i like to destroy public property, i like to...
123 I carry past humiliation of my...
I carry past humiliation of my husband's(at the time) domestic violence. My ribs broken, major abdominal muscles badly torn, and now found out a cracked hip from the past abuse.The problem is I condoned the abuse-that is, I wouldn't leave my husband, and often would beg him to come home when he left(which...
124 I have been in a hopeless loveless...
I have been in a hopeless loveless marriage for 27 years. My husband got the flu on our honeymoon and has been either physically or mentally ill ever since. No lie. He got sunburned on our honeymoon and used that as an excuse not to have sex. Then we came home from our honeymoon, moved in with his...
125 Porn has taken over my life. I...
Porn has taken over my life. I can't go two hours without looking at porn, I don't know what to do. Porn numbs the mental pain from things that have screwed up in my life...especially the loss of a dear friend who fought in Iraq...R.I.P buddy.
126 I am overwhelmed most of the time.I...
I am overwhelmed most of the time.I am not sure how to get out of it. I had put myself in the situation I can't figure the way out. I have no family here, I am married to the man I despise who, in turn, absolutely hates me. We don't talk anymore. Mostly he yells and I say "enough".I don't want to even...
127 I grew up in a very abusive home...
I grew up in a very abusive home - verbally and physically. Both my olders sister's got pregnant very young on purpose to get out of the house. I was left alone. No-one to talk to. My Mom and Dad fought all the time, then after he would leave to meet his girlfriend she would take all of her rage on me.She...
128 I'm in love with my girlfriend,...
I'm in love with my girlfriend, whom I've been together with for five months. I get this feeling because I only think about her: her smile, her happiness, her everything. Yet, my past relationships have rendered me a broken shell. My last girlfriend started acting towards me differently after she and...
129 I've suffered from depression for...
I've suffered from depression for a long time, although it was never medically diagnosed. Even when I was in elementary school I would wish my life were over and I didn't have to face the cruel tauntings and painful physical and mental afflictions of my peers. A few years ago I went on a special trip...
130 I dont know why it happend or how...
I dont know why it happend or how it happend i dont remember most of that day, but it was a day that would effect me for the rest of my life. It took my soon to be USMC career and tore it apart, it took my soon to be state trooper career and smashed it into piece. It took me away from my family for a...
131 Growing up, everyone thought that...
Growing up, everyone thought that we had the "PERFECT FAMILY". My parents seemed to be loving and generous. We went to parks, zoos, amusement parks, the circus, the movies, etc. But, behind closed doors, my parents abused me physically, mentally, emotionally and even sexually (only once but, that was...
132 I'm writing to this new site to...
I'm writing to this new site to confess a moment of weakness that I have never experienced before. I've had a close relationship with GOD for the past 10 years. He has helped and guided me through times that I would have never made it through without his direction. I found GOD when I was 18, pregnant,...
133 They say you can't force anyone...
They say you can't force anyone to do something wrong. Well I'm here to tell you that it can and has been done.When someone loves you and you threaten them, not physically, but mentally it's still a threat. I've lived a secret life for most of my life. I just want to get it off my chest and feel whole...
134 thank you for opening up this site...
thank you for opening up this site so i can pour my heart out to someone who don't know me.i was molested at 5 yrs. old by a neighbor. i never told my parents about it, i was terrified to say anything.this continued til i was 10, and ran away. i thought i found the solution when i found myself in california....
135 this is true, most of what i don't...
this is true, most of what i don't say is i don't trust anyone but i don't even trust you guys i just have lost the will to stop myself i needed to tell someone that i am a lier and that i want to lie, im not adept to the religion of christainity and exscuse me if i misused the word adept but i lie so...
136 I am a woman in my late 50's. I'm...
I am a woman in my late 50's. I'm sure many stories that you get are similar to mine. I am ADDICTED to SEX.My husband and I just celebrated our 40th Wedding Anniversary. Everyone we know think we are the perfect married couple. And as far as I know my husband has never cheated on me. I wish I could say...
137 I have a secret that has taken...
I have a secret that has taken over my life but that I've never told anyone. My secret is that I think I have some sort of mental illness. I suffer from unbearable mood swings, strange obsessions, and anxiety. I've always spent a great deal of time alone, constructing an elaborate fantasy world in my...
138 About 8 months ago i was messing...
About 8 months ago i was messing around on the computer and put a picture up of another girl and pretended it was me. I met this great guy.Hes my dream guy both physically nd mentally. He does not live near me and we spoke everyday. It seems weird but pretty soon we started developing strong feelings....
139 I am a 44 yrs old woman who has...
I am a 44 yrs old woman who has been married for ONLY 3 yrs. My husband is a man who never wants to provide for me and I am handicapp and need meds , food, clothing. He fights with me about giving me money for those things.I hate being married to him and want to leave him in the worst way but his money...
140 I am a married woman and I have...
I am a married woman and I have been cheating on my husband for almost a year now, with a married man. My husband is mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive and even though he doesn't treat me right, I feel very ashamed of what I am doing. I am even more bothered because I was so in love with my...
141 I'm a 26 year old divorcee. I've...
I'm a 26 year old divorcee. I've been divorced now for two and a half years. I'm currently dating someone I think I could marry, but he is very judgemental. We've been dating for almost a year and a half, and I've continually lied to him about my sexual history. I told him I've only been with 8 people,...
142 back when i was 8 years old and...
back when i was 8 years old and in first grade, i was so depressed. i was on prozac at the time and there was this one time where i tried to commit suicide by choking myself with a coat hanger. there was this one other time where i tried to commit suicide by wrapping a shirt around my neck and choke...
143 I tried to commit suicide before....
I tried to commit suicide before. My attempt failed. My boyfriend at the time was in the same mental state as myself. We decided we would just end everything. Well, he ended up dying..and here I am still here today.. If I would have just freakin not been such a sally I could have maybe talked him out...
144 Ok I have been looking at different...
Ok I have been looking at different porn sites on occasion, I am no fenatic, but now and again i like to get excited....over the years I have been looking at gay porn, even though I am a woman. I feel shame over it, the weay society expects everyone to accept men watching 2 women have sex, but not women...
145 i am 49 yrs old and only recently...
i am 49 yrs old and only recently after blocking this i started to remember my stepdad starting when i was around 8 yrs old touching my private area. one day my mother was at the store i had a bad pain in my rt.side. my stepdad said let me see. he asked me where it hurt i told him 2 times. he said take...
146 When I was young, my childhood...
When I was young, my childhood was not a very stable one. I grew up in a family that did not respect nor like each other. I was molested by people who were supposed to be close to me. People who were supposed to protect me. The first time I was molested was by my god-sister, she was 16, I was about 51/2....
147 Ok I have been looking at different...
Ok I have been looking at different porn sites on occasion, I am no fenatic, but now and again i like to get excited....over the years I have been looking at gay porn, even though I am a woman. I feel shame over it, the weay society expects everyone to accept men watching 2 women have sex, but not women...
148 My older brother molested me for...
My older brother molested me for years. When I finally told my family my parents failed to get the family together and discuss it. My Father was the only one who spoke openly to me about it, asking questions and questioning my brother about it. I felt he understood but could not relate and therefore...
149 25 years ago I finally got the...
25 years ago I finally got the courage to tell my parents why I tried committing suicide: because my uncle sexually abused me and so did my Grandfather on the otherside of the family. Within two days after I filled out a police report on my uncle, he shot himself. I had to go through the police coming...
150 My father was an alcoholic he used...
My father was an alcoholic he used to abuse the family every night for years, not a night went by that he didn't come home drunk and start the terror on the family. I hate him, I hate his guts, my father is gone now but not the scars, I have been sexually abused by relatives during my time as a child...
151 i cheated on my husband several...
i cheated on my husband several times mostly mental cheating, but once i met a guy from the internet and as we sat in my car in the parking lot i felt ashamed but drawn into the attention i was getting and had a sexual encounter and have hated myself ever since.. I pray that God forgives me everyday,...
152 As a child was I abused by my father...
As a child was I abused by my father and one of my older siblings. This abuse became so severe that at the age of three I had my first split. I became a multiple. By the time I was thirteen there I had split six more times. I never knew about this until I was twenty-nine and finally had a breakdown....
153 I am a youth minister and adult...
I am a youth minister and adult advisor for high school youth. I teach about modesty in clothing and conduct, about purity of heart, mind and body, of all things Christ-like. When I'm not at a church function however, I act NOTHING like how I do when I'm there. I wear revealing clothing, I have had premarital...
154 my father verbally and emotionally...
my father verbally and emotionally abused me as a child. my mother did nothing, said nothing and avoided me as much as possible therfore neglecting me. my brother was constantly trying to molest me and eventhough intercourse never took place, my sexual life has always been negative. I got married and...
155 I've been abused mentally and sometime...
I've been abused mentally and sometime physically by almost everyone I have dated in the past. I've been called names, hit, choked, screamed, and such. Never to the point where I've been beaten up the point where it's extreme like some cases. My current boyfriend is bipolar and lashes out sometimes....
156 My father used to cheat on my mom,...
My father used to cheat on my mom, beat her, and for a few years he physically, mentally and verabally abused me. He's a lot nice/calmer now, but I still can't forgive him. He hasn't hit me or called me degrating names in years, but the memories still hurt and whenever I think about forgiving him it...
157 Although I love my husband for...
Although I love my husband for many of the qualities he possesses, after almost 9 years together, 2 children and living with qualities he possesses that are detrimental to my happines and piece of mind, I am no longer in love with him. I'm deeply in love with another man and have been for almost 2 years....
158 I am having an affair. This has...
I am having an affair. This has been going on for about a year. He was married in the beginning but his wife left due to other reasons. He thinks that I am leaving my husband, but the truth is I can't. I love my husband but I love the other man as well even though I know that I could never have a life...
159 I have memories of my sister humping...
I have memories of my sister humping me, as a young child, on multiple occasions. I do not know if she even remembers this, though she was older than I. I started masturbating at a very young age, completely unaware of the sexual connections. I suspect that my sister was molested by my father. I tried...
160 When I was younger my brother would...
When I was younger my brother would sexually abuse me. I never told anyone, even when my parents asked if he did anything to me because he also did the same thing to other relatives. I didn't tell them because I didn't want to break my family up, instead it eats me every day. I had two abusive relationships...
161 Hi;I'm 52 years old and have kept...
Hi;I'm 52 years old and have kept this to myself many years. I have allways wanted to tell my parents what they did to me while growing up was wrong and how it affected me and my life and my relationships! My father was a very abusive man small in stature and every day after he came home from work he...
162 I was sexually abused as a child...
I was sexually abused as a child by a family friend and then again by a neighbor after we moved to another state. I never told anyone about it and grew up thinking my whole life that I was not important. Practically my whole life as a result of this abuse I have had one destructive relationship after...
163 When I was 13 years old, I was...
When I was 13 years old, I was sexually experimenting with a boy while I was menstrating. This person then proceeded to tell everyone in our small hometown, and made my life a living hell until I went away to college. I am now in my thirties and wish I could find it in my heart to forgive this person...
164 When I was 16 I was arrested on...
When I was 16 I was arrested on a very serious charge. A large file of underage pornography (41 photos) was found on my computer by police. I tried to tell everyone how I did not know where it came from, that I must have accidentally downloaded it from perhaps a SPAM email or an email sent to me by someone...
165 After my wife divorced me, I made...
After my wife divorced me, I made a half hearted attempt to kill myself by taking prescription medications. I believe now that it was just an attempt to stop my wife from divorcing me, but it didn't work. I ended up in a mental hospital for a while due to severe depression.I had five children at the...
166 I have tried to overdose 3 times....
I have tried to overdose 3 times. I tried to slit my wrists several times, many of the times were not documented because I didn't go to the hospital. I feel more at home in mental hospitals then anywhere else. I have urges to cut every day. At least every other day, I want to die. I fantasize about my...
167 At 42 I've never had a relationship...
At 42 I've never had a relationship with a man. I think there is something wrong with me and I hide behind a body of fat. Mentally I've had pornographic fantasies about men but never acted on them. I've always been closer to women and have felt myself sexually attracted to women more than men. I worked...
168 When I was a young girl about 8...
When I was a young girl about 8 or 9, the husband of the lady who babysat me and my brother inappropriately touched me. He would not actually have intercourse with me but he used his fingers a lot. I did not understand what was happening to me because at that time, the late 60's and early 70"s because...
169 I am addicted to crack cocaine....
I am addicted to crack cocaine. I am what some call a binger. I lead a normal life then I disappear for days at a time to escape pycho-social problems that are extremely mentally painful. I transcend to a state of euphoria where I transform into a woman and sex is all I think about. I am not gay...
170 I OFTEN FEEL AS IF MY HUSBAND HAS...
I OFTEN FEEL AS IF MY HUSBAND HAS CHEATING ON ME BEFORE. I HAVE ASKED HIM BUT HE SAYS NO. I DO NOT BELIEVE HIM. I AM THE TYPE OF WOMEN WHO WILL NOT PUT UP WITH ANY OF THAT CRAP. I DO NOT HAVE TO. I AM VERY INDEPENDANT AND A STRONG MINDED PERSON. I THINK HE REALLY DOES NOT WANT TO TELL ME THE TRUTH...
171 I've lost faith in all monotheistic...
I've lost faith in all monotheistic religions since I was a little girl. I was a straight A student, teacher's pet, I had everything... right up until 5th grade. When I was 9, I was molested by my male math teacher (the first male teacher I had ever had). I never told anyone until I was committed to...
172 I fell in love with some one at...
I fell in love with some one at work.She told me that she had broken up with her boyfriend so we could hook up.But she lied to me. She was messing with us simultaneously. I was really hurt. especially when she told me that she was pregnant for him. I cried and later i found myself forgiving her. i visited...
173 i'm not sure about this whole god...
i'm not sure about this whole god thing. but if there is a loving caring god (as ive been told) i would ask him/her to take away the pain, and hurt of my inner mind. i can't escape the need and desire for the male body. i don't understand why i crave something that god says i can't have. i suffered a...
174 i don't like my mother. it's not...
i don't like my mother. it's not a hate but somewhere between. i had a terrible childhood--mental, physical, verbal, emotional, spiritual abuse. i went to counselling as an adult. i decided to stop communications with her as a result. this lasted for two years. my husband asked me to reach out to her...
175 My past is something i have struggled...
My past is something i have struggled with my whole life. At a young age I was thrust into the roll of a mother to my younger siblings, as my mother and stepfather were drug addicts and although they made attempts to be a parent with the addiction,they still left a ton of responsibility on me. At six,...
176 Wow, it's hard to label my confession...
Wow, it's hard to label my confession in a specific category. It fits into several, but shame is the best fit.I have been divorced over 3 years, and I have been using sex to feel loved again. My ex-husband cheated, and pursued that relationship instead of our marriage. I have become promiscuous to fill...
177 I sleep around a lot, everytime...
I sleep around a lot, everytime I try and stop I get the "its just for fun" mentality and never actually make my self to stop. I know GOD is greater then any sin but my flesh always seems to win! And I end up hating my self for it.
178 Lust consumes me. Every time I...
Lust consumes me. Every time I see a pretty woman all I can think about is her naked, or having sex with her, or anything in between. It's awful. I try to "bounce my eyes" but even if they bounce I still have the mental picture in my head and I might as well be looking at her. When I get a mental picture...
179 there was a time in my life when...
there was a time in my life when i turned from the path of God, i tried marijuana and got suspened from school so i quit that and fast but i drank on and off with friends one evening when i was close to drunk i called up my fiance and acted like a complete idiot, thats when he started not to trust me....months...
180 I have a problem with sexual addictions...fantasies...
I have a problem with sexual addictions...fantasies and thoughts. It began when I started to read romance stories and it went from there. I have ended these addictions but still have thoughts about it and it is hard to get rid of them. I never told anyone because I felt like none of my...
181 I used to try and kill myself many...
I used to try and kill myself many times because I was being abused by my mom sexually, physically and mentally. I am 18 years old right now and I am trying not to think lowly of myself. My ex-boyfriend verbally abused me and I was so naive and vulnerable that I believed he was going to change and be...
182 My secret is that I am ashamed...
My secret is that I am ashamed of the man I have become. I am in my early twenties, I have two children, I am divorced, and I REGRET most of my life. I am uneasy about myself and most usually hate myself. People don't know how I truly feel because I have a very powerfull mind, and can hide my aggressions...
183 I was in an abusive relationship,...
I was in an abusive relationship, I was abused mentally and physically
184 At the age of 13 i started cutting...
At the age of 13 i started cutting myself! It got so bad that i was sent to three mental institutions. I grew up in the church and my behavior was completely unacceptable by family members. I knew that God loved me but I didn't understand how, and sometimes i still don't.My cutting got so bad and so...
185 I can't cook and I'm horrible at...
I can't cook and I'm horrible at the housework. I'm completely undomestic and I hate it. I know my husband gets frustrated as he does the yard work, cooking, most of the cleaning, most of the laundry, etc. We both work full-time. I do all of the finances and help with the cleaning and laundry here and...
186 For the first 14 years of my life...
For the first 14 years of my life I was physically, mentally, spiritually, and sexually abused or abandoned by everyone I knew. The worst part is through the abuse it changed my outlook on my relationships with people. I began abusing everyone around me to make me feel normal. Or get back at someone...
187 My wife of seven years is mentally...
My wife of seven years is mentally ill but undiagnosed. I'm 99% sure she has BPD but I can not get her to go to a psychiatrist to get the appropriate medication. While I know she had some emotional baggage I did not know she would be completely irrational.I go to bed every night and wake up everyday...
188 I'm in my 50's and use to lie all...
I'm in my 50's and use to lie all the time. From as far back as I can remember, I'd lied about something. Most were what you'd call little "white lies" but I know that a lie doesn't have a size. In 1990, the Lord convicted me of my sin and I confessed every lie I could remember and then added a "blanket...
189 i am completely unable to forgive...
i am completely unable to forgive my father. he has hurt me and my family more times than i can name because he struggles with alcholism. He verbally and mentally abuses us and sometimes i hate him. i want nothing more than to forgive him and love him unconditionally, but my heart has shut down and blocked...
190 Recently I have had a on going...
Recently I have had a on going relationship with a married man, via email...the relationship never became physical. I know that I have committed adultery...not physically but mentally and I pray that one day everyone involved can forgive me.
191 My secret is that I really don't...
My secret is that I really don't like my husband much. Six months after we married, he began verbally and physically abusing me. He stopped the physical abuse and yet the emotional abuse continues. Last year I walked in on him while he was viewing pornography-- (which is really embarrassing to me personally--I...
192 I have 5 mental dissorders, depression,...
I have 5 mental dissorders, depression, over anxiety dissorder, obsessive compulsive dissorder, im am insomniac and im deslexic. im ashamed to tell people because they willnthink of me different and they will start noticing things about me is this a way of God punishing me?
193 My ex-husband was abusive both...
My ex-husband was abusive both physically and mentally. We divorced because of it. But now I worry about how I am disciplining my son. I use a rod and try to never discipline in anger. But just to spank him hurts me. I can't get over the fear that I am abusing him. I know the verse "Spare the rod, spoil...
194 when i was 7 i was sexually abused...
when i was 7 i was sexually abused by a guy.. than when i was 13 my mum did the same thing to me ,she would tuch me and stuff, when i told her to stop she got mad,and she started getting mean.now i am 16 and scared that she's cursing me ,i couldn't concentrate ,i am scared to death , so my doctor put...
195 Before I was saved last fall, I...
Before I was saved last fall, I had an addiction: an addiction to sex. I used to go on only three or four hours of sleep a night because I would stay up all night getting "my fix". The men I slept with I was not in relationships with, not in the traditional sense anyway. I have been hurt many times and...
196 My Mom married my Step-Dad when...
My Mom married my Step-Dad when I was 3 years old. The sexual abuse started soon afterward, touching and cuddling. Then at the age of 11 he raped me. The sexual abuse continued until I was 18. I told my Mom and she did not believe me and when she told my Dad, he would make me look up words in the dictionary...
197 I have a hard time dealing with...
I have a hard time dealing with anger and I have a lot of control issues. I get impatient with my 2 young children a lot. This isn't really a secret because people see the way I get with them. I feel that I am hurting my children mentally. I would never hurt them physically but sometimes I yell at them...
198 It starts off with my husband falling...
It starts off with my husband falling asleep at the wheel and getting into an accident. No other vehicles involved but he hurt himself enough to get transported for medical attention and processed for a D.U.I. Now we both enjoy drinking but it's usually casually with friends or at home by the pool. I...
199 I have been born again as a Christian...
I have been born again as a Christian for over twenty five years just out of high school. I had a serious gas poisoning accident 21 years ago today (7/31) that affected me physically, mentally and emotionally as well as spirtually. I regained my sprituality and have once again become grounded in the...
200 I was sexually impure and it eats...
I was sexually impure and it eats at me every day. I know I have been forgiven but the pain and shame still eats at me everyday. I think i mentally know i have been forgiven but I just need a spirtual knowledge that I have been forgiven so I no longer have to live in shame.
201 i think about suicide several times...
i think about suicide several times every day. The only thing stopping it is the effect it would have on my family [wife and kids] and my testimony [i am a pastor]. I find most of life an exhausting swim upstream. Trying to...be moral, do good things, help others...I know God loves me unconditionally...but...
