Will my confession remove my defects

I feel like my sexual compulsions, fantasizing, masturbating..all these self gratification actions are part of me..I have tried through counseling and journals to NOT have the thoughts but they reoccur..mostly in high stress times..times when a good hand job relieves the pressure of daily life..in return I get shame, self hatred, low work accomplishments due to some level of depression..I DONT WANT this and will gladly give these behaviors and ideas to someone else..I have had them for too long and I am tired of them but they wont leave me alone. I ask GOD for a new self..a new self identity..a new self love..a new set of mental processes to deal with living life TODAY..A new way to think about daily living ..embracing life in